this week is presentation week for me:
monday - lit and other arts
wednesday - interactive media
thursday - visual communications

so how was today's presentation?
well..considering me and michele took about 2hrs to finalize stuff at amk macs on sunday..i think we did a pretty darn good job..haha..seriously..and its no mean feat ok..cause the topic we're doing on (Ashbery and de Chirico for those interested) was like the hardest and most complicated of all the topics we could have possibly chosen in our module..hahaaa..so dumb i tell you..cause we had to pick which weeks and topics we wanted to do our presentation on..and we didnt want to do it too late so as to clash with the annual rushing of essays we had to do mr. ashbery cause the previous weeks were all taken up..so yeah..haha..we spent 3 solid hours in the central library just trying to find a poem and painting to match..this ashbery fella is one crazy fella..he wrote a 50 page long POEM (mind you..its one whole poem..not prose), wrote a poem on daffy duck (yes you heard me right) and wrote a book titled "a nest of ninnys"..me and michele were like.. -_-'"..haha..but im kinda glad we did it..i got to learn a lot and practice interpreting painting..because it was so challenging im sure we learnt a lot more than we would have if we did a straightforward and typical poem or painting..job well done mishie moo!

right now my eyes can barely open..haha..stayed back in school to finish up our new media project..its going ok i guess..my group is going to have to bang on the presentation to get us a good grade i suppose..because we didnt really meet up properly our slides and info were all a little messed up..had to fix it with mish today..yeah..but the project came after we had lunch at the business canteen..had my bratwraust and potato wedges..it wasnt as nice as i remembered it to be though..haha..but nvm..had fun meeting up with shawn and me, mary, michele and shawn went totally bonkers and evil talking about..er..erm..ok..stuff..hahaha..not safe to disclose..you never know who might be reading your blog..haha..

got quite a lot of stuff to do this week..wanna try and at least start on my poster for visual comm class on thursday tonight..and finish reading Love's Labour's Lost in preparation for my shakespeare presentation next thurs..need to return library books..change my watch strap..research on my lit and other art's essay..iron my clothes..buy contact lenses..

but as much as im this busy..i still have time to think of him..yeah..its only day two since he left for perth and im already pinning for him to come back home..heh..well..i guess its back to laggy webcam images and at least good quality "phone-calls"over google talk..thank God for the internet and fast broadband connection..haha..but..nothing..absolutely nothing beats the real thing..sigh..its a matter of getting used to it i suppose..but..then again..i really dont wanna get used to you being away from me...

alright..time to go for dinner..not very hungry though..i still can feel the sausage and soya bean milk swimming around in my stomach........

i still remember how each and every goodbye was.
every one a little different from the other.

the first was the easiest, yet not that easy.
we were new friends, a little more than mere acquaintances.
but there was a little saddness on my part for just when i was getting to know him better and having fun during our movie sessions and talks by the pool, he was leaving.
it was that kind of pinning for something more because u've had your first sweet taste of it.

the second was definitely nothing like the first one because we were a lot more than just friends.
we were together.
and that made things tough.
it was a little like the first goodbye in the sense it left me pinning and wanting more.
more time with him.
it was the first time we were spending time together as a couple.
and after 5 weeks he was due to fly back.
that goodbye was no mean feat.
though it was comforted by the fact that he'd be back.

the third goodbye was and has been the worst thus far.
and this time it wasnt at changi airport but in Perth.
i had just spent close to 9 full days with him.
seeing him just about 24/7.
and it was really during this period where we got to know each other so much better.
and it was this short period of time that we both grew to love each other for what we really are as individuals.
i had to be really strong and walk through the departure gate without crying.
inside i was crying and struggling to even talk without having tears roll down my cheeks.
i cried uncontrollably in the plane.

tonight, the goodbye is going to be tough as well.
to say goodbye after spending 3 lovely and eventful months is just not easy.
i feel like im just getting used to having him around but now its time to readjust back to seeing him only when he's online.
its back to staring at the lifeless screen and getting lagging webcam pictures of him.
sigh....
i already found it so hard to let him take the lift up to his house every night.
what more saying goodbye for the next four months.

no matter how many goodbyes, no matter how many visits to the airport,
i'll never ever be able to say it with ease.

tonight is going to be no exception.........
how is it that i already miss you?

cent deux jours...

thanks for today.
for just holding on tight to my hand.

you constantly remind me that God never ever ever gives up on His children.
even if they keep failing and falling down flat.

on a lighter note,
who's gonna peel chicken wings for me when ure back in perth?
*sulk

indeed it was a really special dinner..
the whole night was just perfect...

took the 6.00pm shuttle to hougang mrt station and i just knew i would be late for the dinner date..
at 630 i was still amazingly at potong pasir when i smsed him..
the NEL is usually so fast im always early..guess when ure late..ure late..haha..
as a result of reaching city hall at 650 i literally ran (in heels) all the way to suntec tower 2..which in case you dont know where that is..its right at the end of suntec where the huge adidas shop is..haha..
but all that running was really worth it..
from the escalator upstairs my prince charming was spying on me and surprised me with a huge bouquet of lilies! (:
dinner was a delicious affair..
he brought me to have indonesian food at the sudanese house..
was really lovely because he pre-ordered and paid for the dinner before we arrived so everything came like clock-work from the drinks to the dishes (it was also probably a ploy to prevent me from finding out how much he spent on dinner)..
curry chicken, sambal prawns, kang kong and one of the best tasting sea bass ive ever had..
dessert was an interesting indonesian concoction of super-sweet mangoes and pomelo segments..
by the end of the dinner i really felt like i was going to burst...

took a walk down to the esplanade..
went up to the sky garden and it was really nice with all the soft lighting and the band playing downstairs..
needless to say there were quite a lot of other couples there too..
i was just telling him that theres really no where else to go in singapore..hurhur..
we sat down and as if the dinner and flowers weren't enough..he had yet another surprise for me..
out came the butterfly pendant that i had given up looking for some time ago..before christmas i think..
it really made such a wonderful surprise..

with all honesty..
its not the flowers, or the dinner or the presents or the hefty amount of money spent that made my valentine's day such a lovely one..
its the person i was able to spend it with and knowing how much effort and planning he put into making the night a memorable one..
thanks dear..
things just wouldnt be the same without you around..
and just like you prayed before dinner..
may our love for each other, as well as our love for God grow with each passing day..
and may He continue to bless our relationship as He has been for the past nine months..
(:

INVITATION.....
for Ms Kathleen Wong
to a special dinner

Date: 14/02/2006 (Today)
Time: 6:45 p.m.
Meeting Point: Suntec City Tower 2 Bench

RSVP

its already been a week since i last blogged..
and since im waiting for my hair to dry..
here's another entry for all my blog readers out there..

lets start of with a little update about school shall we?
well..the modules that ive been worried and gone sleepless over are so far so good..
but that isnt to say that theyre easy..its rather to say that with the right attitude and mindset it can made into something managable and enjoyable..
yup..
intro to visual comm didnt turn out to be that bad..it was just that the first day of class i was suddenly thrown into a most frustrating situation whereby i had to use adobe photoshop to design a poster thingy when ive NEVER used that program before..
but the following week we spent about 2 and a half hours just doodling and drawing..churning out endless useless, funny and weird sketches..
today we did presentations of our decided sketches to be used in the final prototype design and it was rather fun..
i actually was more confident and interative with my "audience" than i thought i would have been..
thank God for michele too because shes always (literally) beside me helping me..
and for pushing me to take modules that i never would have taken (a.k.a this module and science fiction last semester)

as for shakespeare..its been quite good actually..
sure the workload is heavy with all the readings, extra readings and self-study of the various plays but its interesting..
im learning beyond just the play..
im learning about editors, authorship, questioning the concept of minor characterization, sources, authenticity..
not just the usual going through the text line by line as is the common practice of secondary school and jc..
and thank God for a project group in which everyone is serious about getting the work done and sharing the workload..

what else...
besides school..nothing much has been happenning..except chinese new year which just passed..
chinese new year was a really good time for me because it gave me the chance to visit his relatives and just spend more time with his family..
went to his grandma's (father's side) house for dinner on the first day..
hugeeeeeeeeeeee family..all the family members inside one flat..haha..with loads of food to feed the dense population..
after that we proceeded to his other grandma's (mother's side) for dessert..hahaa..homemade cheesecake made by his uncle..and there was even mango cake leftover from celebrating his grandma's birthday..
oh yeah..he was telling me that his uncle usually sleeps really early but was at grandma's house because he knew i was coming..
haha..his brother was like saying it must be because of a "V.I.P"..hurhur..
and as if there wasnt enough visitation therewas still more activity that night as his family came over to my house to visit..
haha..his family..my family..wayne and lily (my neighbours)..and of course tea and heaps of new year goodies covered the table outside under the stars..
it was a good time of chatting..laughter..lots of jokes and teasings too..needless to say quite a lot of it was directed at me and at my expense..
haha..

speaking of his relatives..we had a late night outing with his cousins..all thanks to Kelly for so enthusiastically organizing it during the dinner night at his grandma's place..haha..
the initial plan that got everyone excited was to go to MOS..
but alas..when we got there..there was NO QUEUE..because it was closed.
tsk.killjoy.spoiler.party pooper.wet blanket.bah.phooey.bleah.
haha..yeah..was such a disappointment..but it was quite a sight to see MOS without a queue..hurhur..
stranded we proceeded to brewerks!
me, jy and his other cousin took Kit's Lexus..and wow..it looks really good..the silver makes it even more sleek..i like..haha..very spacious..and it has a touch screen panel..amazing..
(jy are u reading this..better work hard and start saving money! *hinthint)
had a good time at brewerks..we ordered two towers..the first beer was indian pale ale..was not bad..very smooth..the second one we ordered was black razzy..which was..a bad choice..haha..tasted too much like a fruit drink doused with alcohol..
their snacks are good though..absolutely loved the fries..the nachos wasnt too bad either..
and as if it wasnt enough indulgence..the next stop was mdm wongs..
more alcohol..vodka lime and bourbon coke..haha..as if to make up for the lack of MOS that night..
dancing was fun..not many people around but just enough on the dance floor..
but be warned..dancing immediately after downing so much alcohol is very very bad......................you have been warned.enough said.

gosh.
its already 3rd feb year 2006..
honestly..where did time go?
time seemed to have whizzed by from the time he landed in singapore on the 24th of nov 2005 to now..
week after week just passes by with a blink of the eye..
sigh..its really true..time seems to pass by a lot faster when ure having fun..
and more than having fun, im having the time of my life..
no its not all smooth-sailing and fairy tale days but with its fair share of silly arguments and quarrels..
through it all..i just thank God that He has given me someone whom i can learn so much from..
jy has really taught me so much and im still learning as he is learning from me too..
a relationship is more than just giving and taking but its also about correcting each other in love even though we know its gonna be hard to be harsh on the other party..
thank God that jy knows when to put his foot down and tell me when im wrong..
he's following my mum's advice of "cannot spoil her"..hurhur..
no wonder my parents love u so much..
tsk..
haha..
*Grin

alright..
i should really speed up the drying process with the help of my hair dryer than head straight to bed..
gotta wake up early tmr!
he's coming down to have breakkie with my family..
the ping guo pie that we bought from carrefour today..
Yummy!
(:

night y'all.

theres really nothing better than starting the day with a hug.

especially when you know its gonna be a huge smile on your face.
especially when its gonna be a long long long day ahead.
especially when its from the one you love.
especially when its from the one who loves you.

(:

im scared.
im worried.
im sleepless in hougang.
all because of two modules.
shakespeare & principles of visual communication.
and they have to both be on the same day!
and 3hour blocks each.
bah.
pray for me please?

God help me to trust in you..

that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..

help me to have the confidence that can only come from you..

as well as that sense of peace that you give..

allow me to find comfort in you..

i really should be studying right now.
should be trying to get through Shakespeare's King Lear and reading up on notes about it.
its absolutely insane.
this Shakespeare module of mine?
the lecturers arent going through the books but rather we're gonna compare editions, versions of the plays, videos and what not.
i mean. how does one compare when in the first place we dont even know what the play is about?
tsk. it just means a lot of hard work and camping out in the library as well as lugging heaps of books home just to grasp the basics of each book.
*bleah.
which reminds me..michele! you need to pay the fines for your library book on my lib card. heh.

another module im really worried about is Principles of Visual Communication.
bah.
no one told me i needed to draw!
i havent drawn since....primary school....and to begin with.....i cant draw for nuts.
phooey.
and i went down to ArtFriend the other day to buy art supplies which i probably will never ever use again in my lifetime after im done with this module.
hurhur.

i suppose its gonna be one tough challenge for me.
and this is what uni is for isnt it?
challenge yourself and expose yourself to different ideas and concepts.
things that you probably wouldnt ever get the chance to learn and absorb in a school environment once you get out into the working world.
guess this is whats stopping me from dropping the module.
same with "Literature and the other arts".
i really wanna use this chance while im still in school to really be exposed to as much as i possibly can before i face reality in the cruel outside world.
besides, you never know when these skills might come in handy.

alright.
guess im just gonna send him an email, grab a bite then get back to my King Lear.
what a way to spend my free day. phooey.
im so not looking forward to school tomorrow.
i end at 9pm!
and what to wear..........*headache. hurhur. ;)

alright..i wanted to blog yesterday after i came home but i was too sleepy..heh..pig..but here it is..better late than never (like i always say..hurhur)...

went down to city hall to meet jy and his poly buddy tianjie (or TJ for short) to have dinner..
interesting fact: TJ and JY were not just stuck together in poly for 3 years but later posted to the same platoon for BMT and as well as the same bunk..haha..then later posted to the same unit in NDU..hahaa..funny huh..but i suppose its a little like me and michele..same primary school, same secondary school, same cca in secondary school, same class in JC and now doing pretty much all the same modules in NUS..woah..wonder if we'll get the chance to work together..hurhur..
anyway..back to last night..went to marche to have dinner..which meant jy had to walk all the way back to suntec..hahaa..and he told me to meet him at city hall so i wouldnt have to walk all the way to suntec then to city hall..hahaa..yeah..he suggested suntec just cause he saw on my wishlist i wanted to have dinner at marche..heehee..thanks dear..

needless to say..food was aplenty..haha..but with two bottomless pits around (not me of course) it wasnt that much of a problem finishing up the food..food was ok i guess..not that fantastic but i did enjoy my seafood combo platter..yummy..always loved the tempura prawns and soft-shell crabs..heh..and who could forget dessert? in fact..i think i go to marche mainly for the dessert..hahaa..i would have gladly just had dessert for dinner but i dont think jy would approve..hurhur..we 3 had to share a plate of caramel banana crepe with ice cream though..all 3 of us were just too stuffed...

walked down to the esplanade after that..was really empty..guess because it was raining the whole day..but yeah..was nice and cool..the city skyline always looks so nice at night..went to max brenner later..hahaa..eat again...TJ had some alcoholic+choc drink, i had a strawberry with white chocolate shake and jy had this suckao thingy..its like they give you this little gadget that has a candle underneath and a metal bowl thingy on top..and with choc bits and milk..and so you melt the two together and drink it up..haha..sorry for the really lousy description..i didnt have my camera with me last night..yeah..and seriously..one could get a high from all that chocolate..haha..and thanks TJ for the sweet treat! literally. ha.

definitely enjoyed myself.
guess i really have to learn to give people and myself a chance as what jy told me while waiting for the train home.
thanks TJ for being so friendly and full of nonsense.
thanks JY for being so encouraging.

(:

this morning he called me and i was feeling so under the weather that i sounded like a grouch.
then i rejected his offer flatly to go upstairs to watch the hongkong serial with his mum.
and then a while later i sent him an sms which wasnt exctly very pleasant.
but it did say why i was feeling like an absolute nasty little thing.
well.
instead of being pissed and fed up with me...
he came down to give me a hug.
a very much-needed reassuring hug.

thanks dear.
it meant the world to me.

(:

tomorrow will be the first day of school after about a month of pure bumming around.
yeaps.
tomorrow is the first day of year2 semester 2 2006.
hmm.
maybe i should make some "school resolutions".
hurhur.
okok.
lets see...
umm...
No Cs, all Bs and above, and at least one A! (A- and A+ all counted.hurhur.)
i will not skip more than...er...a few tutorials and lectures.
hahahahahahaa.
sorry. but that resolution, i know, i will not adhere to so lets be realistic shall we.
haha.
okok.
one more.
i will speak up more during tutorial and hopefully try to get some marks out of tutorial discussions and participation.
there we go.
now on to the more important stuff......

im gonna be doing a lot of "meetings" tomorrow!
how exciting.
first day of school. well. at least its gonna start with a bang. i hope. sorta.
haha.
okok.
starting of with meeting jun yuan for breakkie tmr morning at 715. hahahaa. early.
then meeting kaisheng at the interchange at 820.
then meeting mish for lecture at 10.
then meeting wee wee for lunch at the arts canteen at 12.
then meeting amanda and benny at the co-op at 145.
then meeting mish at 3 to go down to bugis (n find out wat in e world is a clutch pencil!)
then meeting jun yuan for dinner at 6.

wow.
that sounds like fun doesnt it.
ha.
i cant wait!
hmm.
u notice i havent exactly mentioned anything about school itself.
hahahahahaha.
i dont want school to start.
if not for all these meetings, i might just sleep in.
hurhur.
thanks God for His immaculate timing.
all these "meeting" invites came flooding in.
but the meetings with jun yuan are my idea. hee.

alright.
im off.
to bed.
tomorrow will be the first time since end november that i will be waking up so darn early.
*bleah.
night ya'll.
cheers to a brand new year and a brand new semester!
(:

the very first week of a brand new year and already old bad habits are manifesting as they always have been..
sigh..
bad bad baddddddd start to the year 2006..

but i suppose on the more optimistic end..there are things to thank God for..
not in retrospect looking back on last year but rather within the few days of the new beginning..

ok so results came out last year but it was the year end so it counts ok..haha..and besides..i havent exactly blogged about it have i? well..results were..disappointing..i didnt get the B+ i was hoping for for intro to computing and the other results were just mediocre..tsk..but i got a rather shocking surprise (note the juxtaposition here..i really dont know if i shld b happy or not) when i got a B+ for Asian American Lit..like hello..me and michele only went for like 4 lectures? and attended give and take about 6 tutorials? hahaaaa..oh well..think either my bull-shitting skills really showed itself during the exam paper or everyone else did very badly..hahaaa..so yeah..results..phooey..there goes first class honours..hurhur..

on the brighter side of life..thank God that this year CORS decided to be nice to me and mishie moo..only 2 rounds of utter nonsense and senseless bidding of exorbitant amounts of points and we manage to get all the modules we want..of course theres a price to pay (literally) as now im broke in terms of points..hahaa..might have to settle for rubbish modules next semester..hurhur..but yeah..just wanna enjoy this semester and do well..think i should be camping out more in the library this semester..hurhur..find me and michele in the central library every tuesday 12 to 5! after which i shall run off to suntec to meet jy..hurhur..whatttttt..must have something to look forward to right..motivation to stay in school to study..heehee..*grin
oh yeah..also thank God that me and michele only have to bid for 2 tutorial time slots so that should ease the headache on tutorial bidding..yeah..cause 3 out of 5 modules are like either e-seminar or sectional teaching..which means..3hrs lectures..hahaaa..yeahhh..oh well..u cant always have your cake and eat it..
oohhhhhhh..how can i forget..if all goes well with tutorial bidding..im gonna have another semester of 3day weeks!!!
*WOOHOO!

so..
looking forward to this year..
kinda..
sorta..
looking forward to chinese new year..and church camp..and hopefully a shopping trip to bangkok in june..
yeah..
but on the flip side..
its gonna be a really really long year without someone...
sigh..

its a battle of wanting time to stand still but yet fly by..

New year resolutions...
have you done yours?
or are they merely a repeat from last year?

ok so im about 3 days late but better late than never right?
new year resolutions..lets see..
i honestly have no idea..
i mean..the things i resolve to do every year kinda seems the same..
not exactly the same same but you know..like..theyre all about the same thing..
oh well..
guess its cause it takes a lot for people to actually get down to changing?
haha..
im definitely included..
everyones resistant to change arent they..
but sadly..
change is the only constant..

well..here goes:
-speak up more during tutorials
-be more concerned abt e ppl ard me (a.k.a b less spoilt)
-eat more..or rather more healthily
-have more self-confidence

so there you have it..
kat's four main resolutions for the year 2006..
i wonder what God has installed for me..
whatever it is..i know He'll be there for me..
(:

Happy Birthday Aunty!

haha..okok..let me explain that..today..or rather yesterday since its already past midnight..is/was jun yuan's mum's birthday! yay! haha..so yes..i was invited out for a family dinner at taka's crystal jade..but since it was gonna be in town i thought i might as well go down early and try to get his mum a present..it wasnt an easy task since i dont really know her that well and jy had no clue about what his mum would like either..hurhur..oh well..but i decided to get her a cardi..for some strange reason..hahaaa..i really have no idea where that decision popped out from but yeah..hahaa..and just nice U2 was having sale! hurhur..so i got his mum a white cardi with a nice boat neck collar so she can wear it with her shirts and got my mum a top as well..this is what i call money well-spent..heh..especially when the gifts make others really happy..more on that later..

went to check out the zara sale..and well..nothing fantastic lah..haha..so crowded..and its like the fall/winter collection so nothing really suitable for singapore weather..all the woolies and thick coats..i dont really fancy their clothes anyway..for the simple reason that i cant really fit them..hurhur..even their smallest size for the skirt 34 is like levis too-superlow cutting for me..tsk..im too small lah..anywayyyyy..moving onnnnnn..went to kino since jy called to say he just left the office..was browsing through the fantasy/sci-fi section..ok..dont stare at me..yes yes yes..ever since that module i took last sem ive been quite drawn to the genre..hahaa...but sad to say..lousy kino does not have the books that i want..it does not have the Ursula Le Guin, Orson Card or the Philip Pullman book that i want..i mean..how can kino..a hugeeeeeeee bookstore..NOT HAVE THESE BOOKS!!!! tsk..someone please tell their manager yar..or rather someone send dr susan ang to give them a good telling-off please..hurhur..but yeah i bumped into this friendly caucasian guy and he recommended me this book titled "Lucifer's Hammer" by Larry Niven and Jerry Pournelle..sounds good..science fiction book..my FIRST sci-fi book bought on my own accord..everyone applaud..hahaa..yeah..and finally got Orwell's 1984..yeap..now all i need to do is start reading them before school starts!

dinner was..very filling..hahaa..there was so much food! on top of my shui jiao mien there was roast chicken, black pepper beef, portuguese style tofu in claypot, stir-fried veg and deep-fried prawns in salad cream..gosh..i dont think ive eaten quite so much in a while..not since..Perth i guess..hurhur..and jy had to finish about a little more than half of my noodles..hurhur..yeah..but..gosh..silly me.........tsk..i thought there was no more chicken and i just happily piled an empty plate on top of it..gosh...seriously.................tsk. oh well..live and learn..but it was rather embarrassing..tsk..*bleah..yeah..the guilingao was nice but i was really just so full to the brim to eat anything else..still had to save space for cake!

came back to his place to cut cake! yummilicious chocolate mousse cake from Baker'z Inn..i wanna go for desserts!!! any takers? haha..probably when i do try and save some money..spent too much on presents during christmas..tsk..anyway..the cake was really darn good..my favourite kind of cake..really really really rich and sinful..haha..and yay! i got to take a quarter of the cake home! haha..yeah..and and and...while i was waiting for the lift to go down to my place his mum was like calling "kat kat kat" so i went back to his gate and guess what? she said she was actually looking for a white cardi..hahahaaa..well done man..hurhur..two happy people..his mum happy with the white cardi and me happy that i bought the right present (:

came down..changed..went for a walk with jy to pass someone smthg..came back..walked the dog..yeah..its nice..really its nice..to be ok with his parents..and for my parents to be totally alright with him..it just makes this LDR a lot more bearable..and i really thank God for it..honestly i dont think all this would have happened so smoothly without it being His work..right from the beginning..from me somehow getting to know Edwin..then Edwin introducing me to jy..even for jy to move into my condo and the same block..and both side's parents being so open and fun people..amazing..truly..His planning is incredible (:

alright..im off to bed..really sleepy..but oh-so-full! dunno how im gonna sleep with such a full belly..hurhur..and tomorrow its food again..going for a cantonese a la carte buffet dinner at New Park Hotel with the neighbours..and of course jy is coming along..haha..eat eat eat..thats all ive been doing this holz really..hahaaaa..

YF Camp 2005

Knowing God and Making Him Known

P.L.M.G.P.S

18th - 22nd Dec

P.L.M.G.P.S - my primary school

me, liyue, amanda - taking a break frm moping e classrms

amanda, li yuan, rachel - amanda's DG

me and corlissa (:

my group (MALAYSIA!) trying to solve a puzzle

walking all e way to serangoon mrt station

eating indian rojak at one of the game stations

Nelia, me, Xuan Wen, Li shan - waiting for the 113 back to PL

we came in 3rd!

me + xuan wen

my group's encouragement corner - twin towers, city scene of KL

me and corli-flower ;)

Malaysia!

Malaysia...again

amanda, me, benny - act cute pose

bao shun + me = m'sia's grp leaders

sisters of bsyf

i can barely keep my eyes open, its 1254am, and i have to wake up in about 6hrs time for breakkie with jun yuan but here i am blogging.
haha.
its my birthday!!!
i turned 20 about 56minutes ago.
hurhur.
but already i think ive had the best birthday so far. haha.

even before my birthday, i got a present from wayne and lily, my favourite neighbours.
really pretty and dainty diamond earrings from Lee Hwa Jewellery.
then i got to spend the first few minutes with my dearest in the car with him driving, something i really like. (disclaimer :: i like being in the car with him, but i do not like his driving. hurhur)
i come home to a present on my bed from my brother.
a gorgeous little box to keep all my linglinglonglongs (ie. earrings.heaps of them).
and then, a few minutes later, a surprise present from my dearest.
a really slick braun buffel wallet, which for that, he has now got to survive on bread and water for the next month. (well, u can always cm downstairs for breakkie n dinners. haha)
and of course how could i forget all the lovely birthday wishes.

its really not the presents that matter.
nor the cost of the presents.
its being surrounded by the people you love that makes it just so wonderful and special.
thats why i always tell people to just come for my birthday celebration empty handed, because really, its the company that counts.
theres also some things that money cant buy.
like love. from parents, brother, relatives, friends, and of course that special someone.

but its really hard to be fully happy.
how do you celebrate, laugh and enjoy yourself when something happened to a really good friend?

Invitation

event :: bbq

date :: 16th dec 2005 (friday)

time :: after 5 (let me know if u wanna come earlier to swim or smthg)

place :: Kathleen's house/bbq pit 5

**overnight movie marathon to follow after the bbq

pls let me know if ure coming by thurs

thanks

(:

All i want for Christmas...

Motorola RAZR V3 in PINK

iBook

LVcompact zippe Monogram Cerises

Cyber-shot® DSC-T5/Red Digital CameraDSC-T5/R

Tiffany & Co. Elsa Peretti OPEN HEART pendant

Dior Japanese Patchwork Saddle Bag

Tag Heuer Alter Ego Ladies Quartz Watch

Now i just need Santa to come visit me...

someone bring me back to Goodwood Park Hotel for high-tea!

haha. ive always been someone who adored high-tea sessions. i mean, i love sweet stuff. and where better to find a fine assortment of cakes and what not than at high-tea buffets?

the goodwood park one was lovely. rather traditional and more elegant if you ask me. compared to the other high-teas ive been to at other hotels, this one has a much smaller selection of savories and sweets and the place is definitely very much smaller.
but this does have its plus points.
the selection, though small, was delicious and the ingredients were of quality and very fresh.
the presentation was also just so pretty and delicate. each little morsel perfectly prepared and displayed.
a small sitting area also means less crowd, more privacy and i suppose a more relaxed and cosy feeling.
unlike the other hotels where theres hoards of people, screaming kids and long queues just to get what you want to eat.
it felt so much more exclusive.
the cutlery and tableware was so so so pretty too. roses bordering the cups, saucers, plates and teapots.
me, michele and regina wanted to steal some home. haha. (but we didnt lahhhhhh.)
the tea was very good too. very fragrant. my vanilla ceylon was wonderful. michele and shawn's earl grey and regina's chamomile was equally good.

most of all, thanks Dr Ang, my literature tutor and lecturer in NUS for this delightful treat.
she is really one of those really dynamic and impactful lit tutors that deepens your love for literature no matter how tough the subject gets.
her passion for literature is truely amazing and im sure all those who have gone through her appreciate this very evident fact.
so glad she liked the little booklet my tutorial group did for her.
9 pages of heartfelt gratitude.
Thanks Dr. Ang!
(:

walking around for 8hours on heels is a health hazard to feet.
you get blisters, peeling skin and sore soles.
trust me on it.
i did it today.
what an achievment man.
haha.

anyway, today, i spent a bomb.
i seriously did. i suppose all that repression during the pre-exam and exam period from shopping led to todays outburst.
but the thing is, i didnt buy a lot of stuff, just a few rather expensive stuff, and no not everything was for me.
i bought for him a crumpler bag and a zara tshirt.
i bought for myself a fox sweater, a guess tshirt and my gold esprit bag.
total bill: $345
bank account balance: (if im lucky, im too afraid to check) $155
insane in the membrane i tell you.

but honestly, i felt more satisfaction buying the stuff for him than for myself.
spoofing the mastercard advert would probably be the best way to describe it:
superman zara tshirt :: $50
crumpler bag :: $169
the smile on his face :: PRICELESS
giving is really such a joy.

but it got me thinking.
some people just keep taking and dont give.
well at least i dont remember receiving.
my point here is not that when i give i expect something of equal value in return.
thats not it. that just takes away the whole point of giving.
but what strikes me is how people can actually keep taking and taking and taking.
dont they learn anything?
dont they want to also put that same smile on someone else's face?
their parents? their siblings? their friends? even accquaintances? strangers?
truely it amazes me.
christmas is coming. hopefully these people will wise up and get into the mood of giving.

alright. im off. parents just came back from hongkong with heaps of food.
haha. just because they know i like sweet sweet stuff.
see? give.
and dont give just because you have extra to spare.
give when you know its gonna set u back a bit. or when u know it means you sacrificing that extra pair of shoes or tshirt or bag or what not.
give because you've been saving hard. not because you have extra cash. worst of all if the money is borrowed and not even yours.
give because you know its gonna make someone feel loved and happy.

22 more days to christmas!
(:

isnt it obvious my parents love you?
theyre even asking you to come along to hongkong with us next year.
how amazing is that?
*bigbigtoothygrin

a tribute to world aids day...

i am bored shit out of my head.
tsk.
its always like this huh.
during the exams you cant wait for it to be over.
now that the studying, the late nights, the cramming, the mugging, the stress is all over you're left with nothing to do.
ok not exactly nothing to do.
i bet i could go shopping everyday and not run out of things to buy.
but since i cant afford such extravagant living, im stuck at home with nothing to do.
my parents are away and the car is sitting in the car park wasting away.
damn. should have learn how to drive earlier.
so im awake at 0213 hrs blogging because i dont know what else to do with myself.
im stuck at home. alone.
something i absolutely hate.
had such a hard time falling asleep last night. shitty man. considering that i have an auto body-clock that wakes me up in the morning regardless how little ive slept.
*bleah.
i should be in hongkong.shopping.eating dimsum.shopping.shopping.shopping.shopping.
oh well.its not like i didnt have a choice.
AHHHHHH.tsk.i really wish i knew how to drive.
im bored.bored out of my wits.
COOL!!!!! JAY CHOU IS SHOWING ON MTV!!!!!!!!
hurhur.since when did kat become a fan of chinese music?
in fact, i think kpop is pretty cool too.anyone heard of Rain? hurhur.
and who is lara liang man.and i dont get the mtv.hahaaaa.chinese.smthg i'll never get.
theyre eating sashimi!!!!i want.wo yao.wo ye yao chi!!!
ohhhhhh.i understand liao.hahahaa.see lah.stupid bf.better pay more attention to your gfs.if not theyre run off with another guy unintentionally.i mean.girls need attention!and flowers.hahaa.
ok so whats next.
-kat is sitting in the living room with the tv on.channel 20 a.k.a mtv asia
jesse mcCartney!hurhur.pretty boy.he looks like aaron carter doesnt he?
not bad.new single.because you live.hmm.
because He lives, i can face tomorrow.
that should be what we're singing about.not some girl.humans fail.mortals eventually die.tsk.
he's got nice chuck talyors.i want another pair of converse.ha.but the phunk or proper?do i even have a particular style?
hmm.i should go on a shopping rampage.hurhur.i bet i cld.one of these days.time to stock up on school clothes.HA.bad excuse.
advertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadverts.
but at least mtv has cool adverts.i applaud their creative team.*applause
ramblings.
corlissa.im learning from you.and it is rather therapeutic.
-non sequitor: bought a pair of gold pointy flats today!but no size.so theyre ordering for me.must wait.hate waiting.
gold esprit handbag?or cheaper alternative from far east?
decisions decisions decisions.
where is my princess cut?
the click five - Just The Girl.phunk kids in suits and retro hairstyles.i like.hahahaha.
---the more she ignores me the more i adore her.
love hurts doesnt it?
christmas christmas christmas!hurry up.haha.now that my exams are over, christmas is allowed to come.
"its not christmas till my exams are over!"hurhur.
my goodness.this is pure rambling.on and on and on.
VIDEOSOMNIA- thank you mtv.
my goodness.some mtvs are just too, er, abstract. haha. like.."wuuurrrdddd?"senseless.
and some guys use more eyeliner than girls.
bored.
still so bored.
mum, dad, come home quick!!!

-message terminated at 0237hrs

God was merciful to me, michele and shawn.
thank you GOD!
(:

the paper went a lot better than we expected.
though i didnt have time to conclude my essay and not enough time for my poem.
but its ok.
yeah.
relieved.
very.
thank God!

and thanks michele and her brother.
thanks mark for sending me home and the both of them for the funny conversations in the car and the meal we had.
i had a blast though it was such a short time spent together.
thanks.
thanks thanks thanks.
many thanks!
heh.
was a great way to end the "stressful paper day".
(:

its 630pm.
i have a killer paper tomorrow.
so what am i doing online?
im blog-surfing.
im blogging.
(duh~)
im doing everything else but studying for tomorrow's paper.
and i havent done a single thing since i came home.
tsk.
maybe im just so sick of it.
sigh.
i miss u.

I dont think ive ever felt so stressed up and panicky for any exam before.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh

maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.

ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.

maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.

*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.

-but i am already overwhelmed aren't i?

its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.

but with GOD, its never too late.

Father,

i am humbled by your love, the fact you had to die on the cross to save a wretched child like me. you never fail to manifest your love and care in every aspect of my life, but yet, when i feel overwhelmed, i cant seem to remember all those clear instances.

Lord, just go before me and prepare the way. Bring me back to you, and find your lost sheep who has gone astray. Comfort me and grant me the peace that can only come from you.

I worship you my God.

I love you.

Forever i will sing, forever i will be with you, as you are with me.

Rekindle the dying flame and ignite that spark that leads to a fire which will burn with passion and fervour for you and only you alone.

Remind me, for i so often forget, your presence especially in times of need and anxiety.

Jesus, you are my best friend, and you will always be cause nothing will ever change that.

Keep close to your little helpless child.

In Jesus' precious and holy name,

Amen.

I can do everything through CHRIST who strengthens me.
-Philippians 4:13

ok, just some random postings, since obviously, im supposed to be studying but id rather be doing everything else.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin

i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!

nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.

and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)

if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".

if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!

speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.

alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.

today, i woke up,
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.

to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)

on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!

ok.snap back to reality.sigh.

ok, so my exams arent even over (i have even started actually) and december (my birthday! Christmas!) is barely nearing but im already thinking of presents.
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:

Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost

erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:

cleaning out my wardrobe seems to be quite the therapeutic activity for me.

you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.

and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.

how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin

(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)

today is the beginning of a brand new start.
things are just gonna get better.
*wink

Thank You GOD!

(:

from the last time i blogged till now, sad to say, nothing vaguely interesting has happened.
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.

okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..

last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..

submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:

other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.

oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin

alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.

quinze jours...

hip hip hooray!
Hurhur.
my laptop is actually working in school.
and so is the internet.
*patpat
good little lappy.
hhahahahahahahaha.
shawn, it must have been you. it didnt work cause you were around.
HA.
i prove my point.

vingt cinq jours.....

its really amazing what you can learn from books..
and i dont mean those specific self-help books (which i dont believe i ever read one before..'cept sean covey's 7 habits of the highly effective teens but i only bought that book because my dad was paying for it and it was to commemorate my first time at Borders..HA) but rather novels and books books..
was revising for my Asian American lit module and re-reading Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club and a few things did hit me..and made me think..
many of the daughters in the book are passive..unwilling to make decisions being afriad of the consequences..and others are so dependent on their mothers/parents/friends/boyfriends/husbands/basically anyone and everyone but themselves to make decisions for them..and then theres the daughter who prides herself with outside appearances while inside she's crumbling..

somewhat sad to say, i found myself identifying with all of those character flaws, though i shant comment any further or give any more specific details..
if you're my close friend, you should know, you should know the Kathleen more than what she shows on the outside..
ok im not trying to say im fake and a phony to the people around me but ive always had this issue of feeling somewhat fake..
it feels like with different people and situations, i have to change who i am, i have to be who i think other people want me to be, i have to be who they want to see, i have to be the type of person who fits in, i have to be someone whom they would want to be seen with..

its not so much of a dichotomy (oh how i love this word, i hear it almost all the time during my lit lectures and tutorials) of kathleen, a single person branching out into two or maybe a zillion more persons, a split personality..
but its more of..adaptation?
ok thats such a mild way of putting it.
its more of becoming what others would like to me to be and see.
of which ive already babbled on above.

ok. this is not a call for pity or sympathy or empathy (yikes. more words from my lit modules. michele you should get it. hurhur) or anything of that sort.
what im trying to say is in fact a whole lot more optimisitc and happy.

its really time, to be myself.
to just be who i am. comfortable in my skin.
to learn how to assert myself. to stop being so quiet and keep to myself.
perhaps to make my presence known.
but not so much that i'd become the centre of attraction. haha. kat will still remain kat.

slowly i think things have been happenning around me to bring this change.
this semester especially.
computing tutorial. sure i bitched and blah-ed about it endlessly but i learnt much about the joys of being independent. hurhur. ok stop sighing and going "katttttttttt..like finallyyyyy". tsk. better late than never right? hahaaa.
i look back and think of how i used to be in year one. tsk. *shakes head. no wonder i didnt really enjoy my semesters. i was too busy worrying. worrying about what other people thought of me.

i suppose confidence is something you gain slowly, slowly but surely it builds up.
YOU definitely helped heaps in this area.
your constant assurances, little and big compliments, teasings.
all really really did me a lot of good.
boosted my ego a bit. hahahahahahaaahahaa.
and im so glad i feel absolutely comfortable in my skin (snigger.) when im with you.
thanks for not giving up on me.
thanks for being so patient.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks!
*insert jumping turtle here

and ho ho ho. i signed up to be part of the sub-com of soci soc. public liason.
yes you heard (or rather, read) correctly.
never in a milion years did i think i would sign up for some club or nonsense. you can ask michele. hahahaa. when she and gina joined, i didnt. tsk.
but yeah. baby steps (anyone remembers mockingbird?). little steps.
a step forward, no matter how small, is still better than a step back.

so whats next?
hopefully. to put an end to something ive been battling for the longest time.
a COMPLETE and FULL end to it.
(thanks michele for being there every step of the way so far.)
if i can conquer this, nothing stands in my way.


if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?
im more than a conqueror with HIM on my side!
i'll move mountains and calm the sea..
all because HE equips me with for this fight!

ok. im off to watch jamie oliver. hurhur.
(kkkkkkkaaaaaaaattttt!!! why so anticlimax one!!!!!!)
hur.

oh yar. and please pray i find my library book.
i dont wanna pay for it. tsk.
pray someone will find it and return it to the central library for me!

andddddd..(ok last thing, i promise!)
TWENTY-NINE more (LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG!!! tooooooooo LLLOOONNNNGGGG!!!!) days before you're coming back!
in the midst of my exams summore..your timing ah..many horriblez..

i think jay chou looks pretty good in his latest mtv vid.
ahahahahaa.
groupie.
tsk.
no lah. i just happened to catch it on mtv.
so yeah.
hurhur.
i like his floppy hair.
and his videos are all pretty cool. kinda artistic.
though his songs are all beginning to sound the same.
and why do all his girls look..er..a lil too underaged for him?
hahahaa.
anyone remember the girl in initial D?
hurhur.

ok.
back to reality.
essays and more essays.
readings and more readings.
i'll be glad when this semester is over...

A Very Special Package

last night somewhere in singapore there was a grouchy kat talking to a-trying-very-hard-to-make-kat-smile jun yuan somewhere a million miles away in perth via google talk.
she suddenly thought of the package that he told her about.
but he never told her what was in it.
or the cost of the postage.
fearing the package was taking a bit too long to arrive, she asked him to go check the date he sent the package.
the doorbell of her house rang but she didnt think to answer the door as her parents would do that.
her parents knocked on the door and told her she had a package.
that put a huge and very excited grin on her face.
when she came back to her lappy she saw via the webcam he was back from searching for the postage receipt.
she grinned and told him the date of the package.
she then noticed how much he paid for the postage.
a whooping $15.50AUD.
(which she obviously "scolded" him about, knowing he'd always say the same thing that always made her smile)
then she excitedly proceeded to open the package (for he kept her in suspense as to its contents)

and guess what?
10 packets of the caramel tiny teddies and a packet of starburst gummies.
the very two items which she brought back to singapore but were finished in a matter of days with the help of very helpful friends and her own mum.

As an added bonus to make her laugh, check out the address he wrote.
kat stays on the ground floor.
meaning the house number should read "#01-17".

he didnt even send it to his own address.

he stays at #12-19.

neither does he know the neighbour who stays at #12-17.

He really knows how to make kat happy doesnt he?
(:

at the request of cherie toh...

just came back from my mid-term break holiday to perth.
and i conclude, i love perth.

i love the weather.
i love the laid-back relaxed atmosphere.
i love the supermarkets.
i love the lack of high-rise buildings everywhere.
i love the fish and chips.
i love biscuits and chocolates and wines and cheeses.
i love the people.
i love the parks.
i love the picnics and bbqs.
i love the scenery.

but most of all, i love perth because thats where YOU are.

You who cooked all those yummilicious meals for me and made sure i ate properly.
You who fulfilled my selfish desire for breakfast in bed prepared by the one i love.
You who stayed up till 2am in the morning just to help me with my essay.
You who despite wanting me to cut down on my sugar intake bought me a tub of icecream and allowed me to finish half a tub with you in one night (on top of the heaps of sweet stuff you bought for me too).
You who always came up with solutions to whatever sticky and last minute situations we ended up in because of my absent-mindedness and insistance.
You who let me have your ipod mini to make my long bus journeys to school more bearable because you cant possible be here with me.
You who emailed my parents telling them to make me eat more fibre (knowing that i always say ok i'll do it but i dont and forget) when you realised i wasnt clearing my bowels as often as i should and buying prune juice for me.
You who drove me around everywhere despite knowing you'd be in for all my nagging and comments about your reckless driving.
You who makes me feel so comfortable with you that i am at total ease with myself.
You who bought me so many things even though you're a bit tight just because you know it would make me smile.
You who gave me your favourite nike tshirt just cause i wanted it (for no logical reason) and your jacket to bring home even though that night was freezing.
You who made me take silly and funny photos that i wouldnt normally take at all.
You who knows me so well that even when i say i dont want something you know i do and when i say im ok you know i actually am not.
You who makes me love you even more despite having just quarrelled.
You who wiped away my tears with your hands and even wiped my nose and you didnt think it was gross at all.

You who makes the darkness into light.
You who makes everything alright.
even though you're so far away.

You who makes all this waiting and painful distance so worthwhile.

55 more days.
And the one i love will be coming back to me again.

and so it all comes to an end.....................................................

oopsy. this blog has outrightly been neglected. hurhur.

haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!

i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:

one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin

since im waiting for someone to reply me (and its taking very very long)..here's a really quick post before i get back to The Woman Warrior..

first of all.
corlissa. i cannot cannot belive that you only JUST told me that your promos are in FOUR WEEKS time.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
my goodness gracious me.
i dont care.
holiday or not you are going to meet me next thurs and friday.
wednesday too if you want.
just spend at least 2 hours doing your work ok?
thats the best i can help you with even if i cant teach you econs or GP very well.
but i'll definitely try my best to answer all your questions and clear your doubts ok?
(:

ok.well.im sad.because i didnt get my wed computing tutorial time slot.which is so bloody annoying.tsk.sheesk.haiz.sigh.why why why.
hhahaa.
oh well. what to do. bo pian lorh.
im just hoping that my class will have friendly people.
and that my project group mates will not be completely clueless about computers.
and we're supposed to design a website for our project i think.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cant i be in the same group as michele???
we'd definitely ace the project. damn. *sulk.
hurhur.

alright.
thats all folks.
haha.
he finally responded.
hurhur.
night y'all.
(:

its already the 3rd week of school but im still not in school-mode..much less study-mode.
cant exactly blame me can you..
its really tough when you havent really been using your brain for the past three months..
haha..and its been a whole lot of fun and lazing around and doing absolutely nothing on some (ok..perhaps..actually..most..hurhur) days..
and now its back to horrible and loooooooooooooooooong bus rides..(taking 151 frm hougang interchange to kent ridge interchange..wheres my ipod mini?!!)
back to waking up early early early..(8am lectures every wednesday)
back to trying to stay awake during lectures..
back to preparing for tutorials only the night before..
back to rushing to meet essay deadlines..
back to doing projects and presentations..
my only consolation is that i have a 3 day week..
yeap. u heard me right. haha.
although..im having a problem with my computing tutorial now..oh well..pray that i get the slot i want!

really excited about my lit modules this semester.
however, somehow things have taken a different turn.
science fiction and fantasy doesnt seem as horrid as i thought it would be. hahahaaaa.
yes yes yes. kat doing science fiction??!!?
aiyar...even i cant believe it lah..but its not too bad..susan ang is actually rather good..she brings up a lot of very interesting points and i like the way she picks out little details..
tutorial was also goooooooooooooooooooooood..
we have it in her room and its like..WOAH. the whole place is surrounded by dark wooden bookcases filled to the brim with books. i want a room like this too. just so..amazing..would be a dream come true..
anyway..back to tutorial..haha..i actually spoke. not because i was called upon to. i even spoke first when she asked us to give our personal opinions of the book. (ok close that gaping mouth of yours and stop staring at me in such disbelief before your eyeballs fall out their sockets) hahahahaa. im so impressed with myself. hurhur. i guess its cause the setting and everything was just so casual and comfortable..
thank God..He really knows what to do.. (:

asian american lit though..is rather disappointing.
this is the one module i thought would be the highlight of my semester but unfortunately..its not really living up to its standard.
maybe its, as michele said, cause i had quite high expectations for it.
but..even she agrees that the lecturer is just going round and round in circles..
perhaps the pressing issues these asian-american writers face are all about the same but still..
tsk tsk tsk.
doesnt help that the lecturer is my tutor as well. hurhur.

oh well. but with a 3 day week. i shouldnt complain so much right.
cheers to only 28 more days of school..
*bigfatgrin

ohhhhhhhhhhh.
before i forget.
my dear Corlissa..i keep asking u when ure free for econs right?
huh huh huh?
hahaaa. you gotta tell me when ure freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

i think ive successfully developed another bad habit.
haha. everyday, the first thing i do when i wake up is turn on my lappy. hahaaaaa.
regardless whether i have time to actually do anything with the computer on.
this morning was no exception. i woke up. pressed the power button. went to wash up. came back into the room. decided what to wear. and before i knew it i had to shut down my lappy.
hurhur.
ridiculous aint it?

today's message by uncle stanley was about giving.
his message was based on the very short story of the widow who gave only two very small copper coins but yet Jesus considered her act as giving more to the treasury than all the others.
was a very good reminder that we should learn to trust in the Lord for everything, and in adopting this attitude we should then learn to give our all up to God.
though he strayed a little, uncle stanley used a phrase that kinda got stuck in my mind, "Generosity is always a virtue; never a weakness".

ok. here's the highlight of my day.
finally. FINALLY. FINALLY!!?!
we finally recorded the song.
finally because i wrote the song on the 17th of feb 2005.
the song in which i penned the God-inspired lyrics and to which Jim put in place the melody.
Amanda on the piano, Jim on the guitar, and since i cant play any musical instrument, it was me providing the vocals.
the recording was made possible thanks to Jim's $59 investment in an ipod recording device.
hahaaa.
had so much fun with it. cant wait to work on more songs with those two. we make a really good team yeah? haha. what can i say. you two are undoubtedly talented. love u two loads. (:

other than that..well..haha..i had another *ahem revelation.
my 2nd one in the past four years.
ok the first was that i finally found out and realised how small i was. haahahaa.
it happened in the acjc canteen while i think it was cherie toh who was buying a drink from the fruit stall. and i was telling, er..either joy boo or michele, that cherie toh is so small.
hahahahaaaaaaa. and either joy or michele looked at me and said "kat. ure just as small if not smaller."

and today's revelation?
gosh. i never knew i sounded so whinny. honestly. i never knew. hahahaaa.
to myself, or at least how i hear my own voice, i fancy i dont sound that high nor low.
never did i imagine i sound so much like a little kid.
until i heard the playback of the recording.
hahahaaaahaa.
tsk tsk tsk.
this is simply hilarious.

oh well. at least now i know right? better late than never.
*grin

dont feel like going for lecture tomorrowwwwwwww.................................

inevitably, at the start of every semester i always get the creeps.
butterflies always seem to find their way into my stomach and worry always seeps into the back of my mind, slowly building up and soon engulfing all my thoughts.

this semester is no different.

already my science fiction module is driving me nuts.
i figured since im gonna have a hard time reading books that dont interest me even the slightest bit i might as well get them first and get done reading all of them.
i didnt know how hard a time i would have ploughing through the meaningless (at least to me) words that are as good as neverending.
to begin with, all the books cost me a whooping $160. when i paid for the books i felt as though a really sharp dagger pierced right through me.
i mean..already i cant bear to buy books..what more spending so much on books that i will probably never ever read again in my entire life.
doesnt help that all the money is coming out of my own pocket.
tsk.
the first book in the list is titled a most peculiar and mind-boggling "a canticle for leibowitz".
if that sounds even vaguely interesting to you, tell me, i'll sell you the book for a dollar once im done with the module. or maybe i'll just give it to you for free. just get it out of my life!
lets see if i get the story so far..its about a monk..who out in the desert meets a stranger..and through the stranger finds a secret underground shelter that belonged to the time before the deluge..and the monks of that time spent hours examining past relics..but no one believed him at first..and the head abbot even asked him to shut up about what he found..but many years later people from the New Rome come knocking on the abbey's door asking to further investigate what the young monk found..blah blah etc..
does that sound appealing to you? gosh.

ok. im not exactly that sore about it. i chose to do the module so if i really suck at it and have to drag myself to the lecture and tutorials every week i have no one to blame but myself.
but then again, i just dont wanna keep doing stuff that i like or am familiar with.
education is about the training of the mind, and if i dont expose myself to something outside i'll never actually learn anything new will i?

the other two lit modules im really looking forward to.
especially asian american literature. ive always been a fan of asian literature. though they keep repeating the same ideas of ill-treated stepchildren, forced marriages, sexist attitudes and war.
oh well. we'll see. things are usually only as interesting and fun as you make them to be.
by the way, anyone has The Joy Luck Club or Great Expectations that i can borrow?

ok. im back to my feeble attempt of reading my lit text.
only about 19 more chapters to go.
help.

after 3 months of bumming around..
finally and most dreadfully its time to go back to school....

somehow i managed to drag myself out of bed at about 0515..it took some sort of miracle because i slept at about 0230 that very morning..hahaaa..amazing i tell you..
met kaisheng at the interchange at 615 to take the rickety-rackety 151 all the way to NUS..
haha..was really fun catching up with him again..asking each other hows life..what we did during the long vacation..complaining about how the 151 always seems to be non-airconditioned..him talking about siqiu's plan ever since graduation (hope her interview at ttsh went well!)..him asking me about my "progress"..hahahaaa..which at least i had really good news to tell him..haha..
hurry and get your license and a car! then we dont have to ever wake up so early anymore..
and i just knew he's ask "is that another new bag?"
hurhur. no its NOT. u just never seen me carry it before. haha.

NM1101e lecture was worth waking up at 5am for. haha.
i like the lecturer. Ms Millie. She's really engaging and charismatic. just what you need at 8am.
the whole lecture was really interactive as well. guess you have to make it such if ure gonna keep the students awake.
but then again..i bet 3/4 of the lecture hall was filled with excited year ones.gosh.their chirpyness and enthusiasm for lectures and school is just..well.annoying. hurhur.

next stop: arts canteen for yong tau fu!
gosh.i miss the food. the gd and cheap food. its back to days of curry dory set, orange juice, dan dan mien, claypot eggplant with rice and if ever the queue is short or i feel like queueing...YONG TAU FU! hurhur.
well. lunch..felt..different i guess.
it was definitely great to see my two lovelies again..but i guess..inevitably..things have..changed?
after not seeing each other for almost 3 whole months and with them spending a huge chunk of time with their OG people and committee..i guess i did expect things to just be different.
honestly..im thankful amanda came to find me in the canteen..somehow i just wanted to hurry wolf down my yong tau fu (as if that was ever possible..eveyone knows kat eats like a bird..and no michele..i dont wanna hear your idiom about how asking kat to eat is like....oh nvm.ha) and run off to the co-op.
ok i dont mean anything here and its not that bad i suppose..
but..it just feels different. heh.
i still love you two. a lot. a whole lot.
and no matter what i'll still be here for you two. (:

as expected, the queue in the co-op was insane.
and happily, kaisheng happened to see me there so he got me to get his books too. hahaaaa.
but ok he repaid me by carrying all 12 books while we waited forever in the queue to pay.
my seven lit books cost me $160. and thats only for ONE module. and guess what? dad decided since i worked during the holz i should have money to pay for my books. right. im sure i have money in my account lah. haha. die. but thank God for mummy!!! haha..mummy to the rescue..she passed me a hundred..thanks mum..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks..

waited for benny and wee wee to come before we were supposed to meet derrick to go for our SPG lunch outing.
and well done, just as amanda walked away with alex i saw mr joel ong walking by.
ok i wanted to like turn away and pretend i saw nthg but alas, it was too late.
hahahaaa. i did feel like slapping him. hurhur. but of course i didnt. im not so evil. anyway..it doesnt matter anymore. i dont care.
tsk. hope the really sweet looking girl you were walking with isnt your next unsuspecting victim.
*kat shakes her head.
tsk.
hurhur.

lunch was pizza hut at clementi. was a lot of fun. haha.
benny, wee wee, derrick, adrian, randy, amanda and myself.
was quite a good time of sharing as well apart from the usual incessant crapping and spouting of really lame jokes. hurhur.
and no adrian..it'll never be possible to be best friends with you. not even vaguely possible.
hahaaaaa. why oh whyyyy did u have to come back from canada? haaaaa.
and next time..im gonna eat my stuffed crust first..least you keep eyeing it..hahaaa.

took 165 home. wasn't too long a journey actually. but when ure late and desperate for time? every second seems like an hour. heh. got home, took a much needed quick nap, showered in record time and ran out of the house again.

the corrinne may concert at the esplanade was really good.
i just love the crystal clear quality of her voice. she sounds as good live as she does on her cd.
shes also got one of the most meaningful lyrics around.
loved every bit of it. hope she comes back for another concert. then poor jim can get her autograph and take a photo with her. sorrrrrryyyy fella!
oh yeah..saw shane there. hahaa. at first i was like..shane? since when was shane a fan. and since when did he pay to watch concerts. hahahaaa.
sorry. i suppose i was wrong. hurhur.

had LJS with jim and amanda..rongcai left first cuz he had work e next day and andrew had school work to do.
i always have a good time with those two. talked about some pretty serious and pressing issues. well..it concerns us. and if we dont do smthg, who will? like they say..if u want something done and done well..do it youself. or in this case..we gotta help each other..its about high time we did something too...
thanks jim for taking the NEL with me even though it obviously is faster for you if you took the train to yio chu kang. much apprectiated (:

so there. my first day of school. hahahaaa. which i spent most of it outside of campus grounds.
may this school term be a whole lot better (and less slack) than the last two.
(:

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i hate CORS.
i cant do the module i want.
i'm stuck doing some dumb GEM.

but i hopefully will get a 3 day week.

bah.
tutorial bidding will be soon.

another round of endless headaches.

its time to start year 2.
woohoo.

saiyang saiyang..
hahahaaa.
sorry blog. you've been outrightly neglected and at most have been only fed with minimal attention in the form of pathetically short and silly entries.
hurhur.

anyway..ahhhhhhh. school is starting in one week.
so its time to make the trip to popular.
hahaa. bought myself my all-time favourite g-tec pens..
i spent (ok..not me lah..my dad..hahaa) close to $15 on pens alone and guess what..i didnt buy a single black or blue ink pen.
haha.
typical PL girl huh.
just ask mish or gina. look at our notes. hahahaaa.
and most of the time i think my pencil case is worth more than whatever chai can i have in my wallet.
tsk tsk tsk.
*grin

so what has kat been up to since she last blogged?
NOTHING. absolutely nothing.
which is not too bad actually...considering that his timetable is pretty slack so i get to catch him online quite often in the day..
but once school starts..only good thing thats gonna come out of it is that the weeks will be passing by faster..
unfortunately our timetables dont exactly compliment each other..haha..

speaking of timetables...
ARGH. i could tear my hair out.
hurhur. ok its not that bad.
but its horribly annoying.
i have just this one...JUST ONE MORE module that is so blardy (brit-ish accent here please) popular that i cant even bid for it.
yeap.
Why. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. wei she meh?????????
haha.
well..hopefully everything will turn out ok because i really really wanna do that module.
its the closest thing i'll get to journalism as possible.
for those who know i never wanted to come to NUS..i was all geared up for Mass Com in NTU..
so. well. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please?

haiz..really hoping that jim would give me the good news asap..
then i can really start to get excited.
at the moment i dont even dare think that i will definitely be going down under.
sigh....
oh well oh well oh well...
doesnt help that it seems like my financial problem isnt too big of a problem after all..
jim's dad managed to get cheaper tickets for us too..
$470 inclusive of taxes and insurance..
sigh....
the worst thing is if i dont have a single..or ok maybe just one or two..mid-sems and i dont get to go..
that and if raja decides to come back to singapore..
haiz...
but but but...
optimism kathleen!
tsk.
easier said than done.

gonna get my Visa TX card done tomorrow..
i would get a mini but...lazy to open another new account lah..haha...
jim's gonna get the visa too after he's done renewing his passport..
see see see?
all ready to head down to perth.
haha.
oh well. what to do. if i really dont get to go.....
then do i get to buy a bag? hahaha. cheer myself up.
actually..i'd be buying two bags..
hurhur.
its time to head to wheelock and tangs and then to the post office soon if september really doesnt work out..
oopsy. did i just spoil your surprise?
*grin
as if u didnt know.....
(: