God was merciful to me, michele and shawn.
thank you GOD!
(:
the paper went a lot better than we expected.
though i didnt have time to conclude my essay and not enough time for my poem.
but its ok.
yeah.
relieved.
very.
thank God!
and thanks michele and her brother.
thanks mark for sending me home and the both of them for the funny conversations in the car and the meal we had.
i had a blast though it was such a short time spent together.
thanks.
thanks thanks thanks.
many thanks!
heh.
was a great way to end the "stressful paper day".
(:
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Sunday, November 20, 2005
I dont think ive ever felt so stressed up and panicky for any exam before.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh
maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.
ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.
maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.
*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh
maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.
ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.
maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.
*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.
-but i am already overwhelmed aren't i?
its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.
but with GOD, its never too late.
its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.
but with GOD, its never too late.
Father,
i am humbled by your love, the fact you had to die on the cross to save a wretched child like me. you never fail to manifest your love and care in every aspect of my life, but yet, when i feel overwhelmed, i cant seem to remember all those clear instances.
Lord, just go before me and prepare the way. Bring me back to you, and find your lost sheep who has gone astray. Comfort me and grant me the peace that can only come from you.
I worship you my God.
I love you.
Forever i will sing, forever i will be with you, as you are with me.
Rekindle the dying flame and ignite that spark that leads to a fire which will burn with passion and fervour for you and only you alone.
Remind me, for i so often forget, your presence especially in times of need and anxiety.
Jesus, you are my best friend, and you will always be cause nothing will ever change that.
Keep close to your little helpless child.
In Jesus' precious and holy name,
Amen.
I can do everything through CHRIST who strengthens me.
-Philippians 4:13
Saturday, November 19, 2005
ok, just some random postings, since obviously, im supposed to be studying but id rather be doing everything else.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin
i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!
nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.
and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)
if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".
if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!
speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.
alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin
i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!
nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.
and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)
if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".
if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!
speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.
alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
today, i woke up,
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.
to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)
on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!
ok.snap back to reality.sigh.
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.
to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)
on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!
ok.snap back to reality.sigh.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
ok, so my exams arent even over (i have even started actually) and december (my birthday! Christmas!) is barely nearing but im already thinking of presents.
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:
Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost
erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:
Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost
erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:
Saturday, November 12, 2005
cleaning out my wardrobe seems to be quite the therapeutic activity for me.
you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.
and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.
how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin
(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)
you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.
and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.
how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin
(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)
Friday, November 11, 2005
from the last time i blogged till now, sad to say, nothing vaguely interesting has happened.
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.
okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..
last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..
submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:
other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.
oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin
alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.
quinze jours...
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.
okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..
last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..
submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:
other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.
oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin
alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.
quinze jours...
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