Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy Birthday Aunty!

haha..okok..let me explain that..today..or rather yesterday since its already past midnight..is/was jun yuan's mum's birthday! yay! haha..so yes..i was invited out for a family dinner at taka's crystal jade..but since it was gonna be in town i thought i might as well go down early and try to get his mum a present..it wasnt an easy task since i dont really know her that well and jy had no clue about what his mum would like either..hurhur..oh well..but i decided to get her a cardi..for some strange reason..hahaaa..i really have no idea where that decision popped out from but yeah..hahaa..and just nice U2 was having sale! hurhur..so i got his mum a white cardi with a nice boat neck collar so she can wear it with her shirts and got my mum a top as well..this is what i call money well-spent..heh..especially when the gifts make others really happy..more on that later..

went to check out the zara sale..and well..nothing fantastic lah..haha..so crowded..and its like the fall/winter collection so nothing really suitable for singapore weather..all the woolies and thick coats..i dont really fancy their clothes anyway..for the simple reason that i cant really fit them..hurhur..even their smallest size for the skirt 34 is like levis too-superlow cutting for me..tsk..im too small lah..anywayyyyy..moving onnnnnn..went to kino since jy called to say he just left the office..was browsing through the fantasy/sci-fi section..ok..dont stare at me..yes yes yes..ever since that module i took last sem ive been quite drawn to the genre..hahaa...but sad to say..lousy kino does not have the books that i want..it does not have the Ursula Le Guin, Orson Card or the Philip Pullman book that i want..i mean..how can kino..a hugeeeeeeee bookstore..NOT HAVE THESE BOOKS!!!! tsk..someone please tell their manager yar..or rather someone send dr susan ang to give them a good telling-off please..hurhur..but yeah i bumped into this friendly caucasian guy and he recommended me this book titled "Lucifer's Hammer" by Larry Niven and Jerry Pournelle..sounds good..science fiction book..my FIRST sci-fi book bought on my own accord..everyone applaud..hahaa..yeah..and finally got Orwell's 1984..yeap..now all i need to do is start reading them before school starts!

dinner was..very filling..hahaa..there was so much food! on top of my shui jiao mien there was roast chicken, black pepper beef, portuguese style tofu in claypot, stir-fried veg and deep-fried prawns in salad cream..gosh..i dont think ive eaten quite so much in a while..not since..Perth i guess..hurhur..and jy had to finish about a little more than half of my noodles..hurhur..yeah..but..gosh..silly me.........tsk..i thought there was no more chicken and i just happily piled an empty plate on top of it..gosh...seriously.................tsk. oh well..live and learn..but it was rather embarrassing..tsk..*bleah..yeah..the guilingao was nice but i was really just so full to the brim to eat anything else..still had to save space for cake!

came back to his place to cut cake! yummilicious chocolate mousse cake from Baker'z Inn..i wanna go for desserts!!! any takers? haha..probably when i do try and save some money..spent too much on presents during christmas..tsk..anyway..the cake was really darn good..my favourite kind of cake..really really really rich and sinful..haha..and yay! i got to take a quarter of the cake home! haha..yeah..and and and...while i was waiting for the lift to go down to my place his mum was like calling "kat kat kat" so i went back to his gate and guess what? she said she was actually looking for a white cardi..hahahaaa..well done man..hurhur..two happy people..his mum happy with the white cardi and me happy that i bought the right present (:

came down..changed..went for a walk with jy to pass someone smthg..came back..walked the dog..yeah..its nice..really its nice..to be ok with his parents..and for my parents to be totally alright with him..it just makes this LDR a lot more bearable..and i really thank God for it..honestly i dont think all this would have happened so smoothly without it being His work..right from the beginning..from me somehow getting to know Edwin..then Edwin introducing me to jy..even for jy to move into my condo and the same block..and both side's parents being so open and fun people..amazing..truly..His planning is incredible (:

alright..im off to bed..really sleepy..but oh-so-full! dunno how im gonna sleep with such a full belly..hurhur..and tomorrow its food again..going for a cantonese a la carte buffet dinner at New Park Hotel with the neighbours..and of course jy is coming along..haha..eat eat eat..thats all ive been doing this holz really..hahaaaa..

Wednesday, December 28, 2005


YF Camp 2005
Knowing God and Making Him Known
P.L.M.G.P.S
18th - 22nd Dec
P.L.M.G.P.S - my primary school
me, liyue, amanda - taking a break frm moping e classrms
amanda, li yuan, rachel - amanda's DG
me and corlissa (:
my group (MALAYSIA!) trying to solve a puzzle
walking all e way to serangoon mrt station
eating indian rojak at one of the game stations
Nelia, me, Xuan Wen, Li shan - waiting for the 113 back to PL
we came in 3rd!
me + xuan wen
my group's encouragement corner - twin towers, city scene of KL
me and corli-flower ;)
Malaysia!
Malaysia...again
amanda, me, benny - act cute pose
bao shun + me = m'sia's grp leaders
sisters of bsyf

Thursday, December 15, 2005

i can barely keep my eyes open, its 1254am, and i have to wake up in about 6hrs time for breakkie with jun yuan but here i am blogging.
haha.
its my birthday!!!
i turned 20 about 56minutes ago.
hurhur.
but already i think ive had the best birthday so far. haha.

even before my birthday, i got a present from wayne and lily, my favourite neighbours.
really pretty and dainty diamond earrings from Lee Hwa Jewellery.
then i got to spend the first few minutes with my dearest in the car with him driving, something i really like. (disclaimer :: i like being in the car with him, but i do not like his driving. hurhur)
i come home to a present on my bed from my brother.
a gorgeous little box to keep all my linglinglonglongs (ie. earrings.heaps of them).
and then, a few minutes later, a surprise present from my dearest.
a really slick braun buffel wallet, which for that, he has now got to survive on bread and water for the next month. (well, u can always cm downstairs for breakkie n dinners. haha)
and of course how could i forget all the lovely birthday wishes.

its really not the presents that matter.
nor the cost of the presents.
its being surrounded by the people you love that makes it just so wonderful and special.
thats why i always tell people to just come for my birthday celebration empty handed, because really, its the company that counts.
theres also some things that money cant buy.
like love. from parents, brother, relatives, friends, and of course that special someone.

but its really hard to be fully happy.
how do you celebrate, laugh and enjoy yourself when something happened to a really good friend?

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Invitation
event :: bbq
date :: 16th dec 2005 (friday)
time :: after 5 (let me know if u wanna come earlier to swim or smthg)
place :: Kathleen's house/bbq pit 5
**overnight movie marathon to follow after the bbq
pls let me know if ure coming by thurs
thanks
(:

Friday, December 09, 2005


All i want for Christmas...


Motorola RAZR V3 in PINK

iBook

LVcompact zippe Monogram Cerises

Cyber-shot® DSC-T5/Red Digital CameraDSC-T5/R

Tiffany & Co. Elsa Peretti OPEN HEART pendant


Dior Japanese Patchwork Saddle Bag

Tag Heuer Alter Ego Ladies Quartz Watch

Now i just need Santa to come visit me...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

someone bring me back to Goodwood Park Hotel for high-tea!

haha. ive always been someone who adored high-tea sessions. i mean, i love sweet stuff. and where better to find a fine assortment of cakes and what not than at high-tea buffets?

the goodwood park one was lovely. rather traditional and more elegant if you ask me. compared to the other high-teas ive been to at other hotels, this one has a much smaller selection of savories and sweets and the place is definitely very much smaller.
but this does have its plus points.
the selection, though small, was delicious and the ingredients were of quality and very fresh.
the presentation was also just so pretty and delicate. each little morsel perfectly prepared and displayed.
a small sitting area also means less crowd, more privacy and i suppose a more relaxed and cosy feeling.
unlike the other hotels where theres hoards of people, screaming kids and long queues just to get what you want to eat.
it felt so much more exclusive.
the cutlery and tableware was so so so pretty too. roses bordering the cups, saucers, plates and teapots.
me, michele and regina wanted to steal some home. haha. (but we didnt lahhhhhh.)
the tea was very good too. very fragrant. my vanilla ceylon was wonderful. michele and shawn's earl grey and regina's chamomile was equally good.

most of all, thanks Dr Ang, my literature tutor and lecturer in NUS for this delightful treat.
she is really one of those really dynamic and impactful lit tutors that deepens your love for literature no matter how tough the subject gets.
her passion for literature is truely amazing and im sure all those who have gone through her appreciate this very evident fact.
so glad she liked the little booklet my tutorial group did for her.
9 pages of heartfelt gratitude.
Thanks Dr. Ang!
(:




Sunday, December 04, 2005

walking around for 8hours on heels is a health hazard to feet.
you get blisters, peeling skin and sore soles.
trust me on it.
i did it today.
what an achievment man.
haha.

anyway, today, i spent a bomb.
i seriously did. i suppose all that repression during the pre-exam and exam period from shopping led to todays outburst.
but the thing is, i didnt buy a lot of stuff, just a few rather expensive stuff, and no not everything was for me.
i bought for him a crumpler bag and a zara tshirt.
i bought for myself a fox sweater, a guess tshirt and my gold esprit bag.
total bill: $345
bank account balance: (if im lucky, im too afraid to check) $155
insane in the membrane i tell you.

but honestly, i felt more satisfaction buying the stuff for him than for myself.
spoofing the mastercard advert would probably be the best way to describe it:
superman zara tshirt :: $50
crumpler bag :: $169
the smile on his face :: PRICELESS
giving is really such a joy.

but it got me thinking.
some people just keep taking and dont give.
well at least i dont remember receiving.
my point here is not that when i give i expect something of equal value in return.
thats not it. that just takes away the whole point of giving.
but what strikes me is how people can actually keep taking and taking and taking.
dont they learn anything?
dont they want to also put that same smile on someone else's face?
their parents? their siblings? their friends? even accquaintances? strangers?
truely it amazes me.
christmas is coming. hopefully these people will wise up and get into the mood of giving.

alright. im off. parents just came back from hongkong with heaps of food.
haha. just because they know i like sweet sweet stuff.
see? give.
and dont give just because you have extra to spare.
give when you know its gonna set u back a bit. or when u know it means you sacrificing that extra pair of shoes or tshirt or bag or what not.
give because you've been saving hard. not because you have extra cash. worst of all if the money is borrowed and not even yours.
give because you know its gonna make someone feel loved and happy.

22 more days to christmas!
(:

isnt it obvious my parents love you?
theyre even asking you to come along to hongkong with us next year.
how amazing is that?
*bigbigtoothygrin

Friday, December 02, 2005


a tribute to world aids day...

Thursday, December 01, 2005

i am bored shit out of my head.
tsk.
its always like this huh.
during the exams you cant wait for it to be over.
now that the studying, the late nights, the cramming, the mugging, the stress is all over you're left with nothing to do.
ok not exactly nothing to do.
i bet i could go shopping everyday and not run out of things to buy.
but since i cant afford such extravagant living, im stuck at home with nothing to do.
my parents are away and the car is sitting in the car park wasting away.
damn. should have learn how to drive earlier.
so im awake at 0213 hrs blogging because i dont know what else to do with myself.
im stuck at home. alone.
something i absolutely hate.
had such a hard time falling asleep last night. shitty man. considering that i have an auto body-clock that wakes me up in the morning regardless how little ive slept.
*bleah.
i should be in hongkong.shopping.eating dimsum.shopping.shopping.shopping.shopping.
oh well.its not like i didnt have a choice.
AHHHHHH.tsk.i really wish i knew how to drive.
im bored.bored out of my wits.
COOL!!!!! JAY CHOU IS SHOWING ON MTV!!!!!!!!
hurhur.since when did kat become a fan of chinese music?
in fact, i think kpop is pretty cool too.anyone heard of Rain? hurhur.
and who is lara liang man.and i dont get the mtv.hahaaaa.chinese.smthg i'll never get.
theyre eating sashimi!!!!i want.wo yao.wo ye yao chi!!!
ohhhhhh.i understand liao.hahahaa.see lah.stupid bf.better pay more attention to your gfs.if not theyre run off with another guy unintentionally.i mean.girls need attention!and flowers.hahaa.
ok so whats next.
-kat is sitting in the living room with the tv on.channel 20 a.k.a mtv asia
jesse mcCartney!hurhur.pretty boy.he looks like aaron carter doesnt he?
not bad.new single.because you live.hmm.
because He lives, i can face tomorrow.
that should be what we're singing about.not some girl.humans fail.mortals eventually die.tsk.
he's got nice chuck talyors.i want another pair of converse.ha.but the phunk or proper?do i even have a particular style?
hmm.i should go on a shopping rampage.hurhur.i bet i cld.one of these days.time to stock up on school clothes.HA.bad excuse.
advertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadverts.
but at least mtv has cool adverts.i applaud their creative team.*applause
ramblings.
corlissa.im learning from you.and it is rather therapeutic.
-non sequitor: bought a pair of gold pointy flats today!but no size.so theyre ordering for me.must wait.hate waiting.
gold esprit handbag?or cheaper alternative from far east?
decisions decisions decisions.
where is my princess cut?
the click five - Just The Girl.phunk kids in suits and retro hairstyles.i like.hahahaha.
---the more she ignores me the more i adore her.
love hurts doesnt it?
christmas christmas christmas!hurry up.haha.now that my exams are over, christmas is allowed to come.
"its not christmas till my exams are over!"hurhur.
my goodness.this is pure rambling.on and on and on.
VIDEOSOMNIA- thank you mtv.
my goodness.some mtvs are just too, er, abstract. haha. like.."wuuurrrdddd?"senseless.
and some guys use more eyeliner than girls.
bored.
still so bored.
mum, dad, come home quick!!!

-message terminated at 0237hrs

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

God was merciful to me, michele and shawn.
thank you GOD!
(:

the paper went a lot better than we expected.
though i didnt have time to conclude my essay and not enough time for my poem.
but its ok.
yeah.
relieved.
very.
thank God!

and thanks michele and her brother.
thanks mark for sending me home and the both of them for the funny conversations in the car and the meal we had.
i had a blast though it was such a short time spent together.
thanks.
thanks thanks thanks.
many thanks!
heh.
was a great way to end the "stressful paper day".
(:

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

its 630pm.
i have a killer paper tomorrow.
so what am i doing online?
im blog-surfing.
im blogging.
(duh~)
im doing everything else but studying for tomorrow's paper.
and i havent done a single thing since i came home.
tsk.
maybe im just so sick of it.
sigh.
i miss u.


Sunday, November 20, 2005

I dont think ive ever felt so stressed up and panicky for any exam before.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh

maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.

ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.

maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.

*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.
-but i am already overwhelmed aren't i?

its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.

but with GOD, its never too late.

Father,
i am humbled by your love, the fact you had to die on the cross to save a wretched child like me. you never fail to manifest your love and care in every aspect of my life, but yet, when i feel overwhelmed, i cant seem to remember all those clear instances.
Lord, just go before me and prepare the way. Bring me back to you, and find your lost sheep who has gone astray. Comfort me and grant me the peace that can only come from you.
I worship you my God.
I love you.
Forever i will sing, forever i will be with you, as you are with me.
Rekindle the dying flame and ignite that spark that leads to a fire which will burn with passion and fervour for you and only you alone.
Remind me, for i so often forget, your presence especially in times of need and anxiety.
Jesus, you are my best friend, and you will always be cause nothing will ever change that.
Keep close to your little helpless child.
In Jesus' precious and holy name,
Amen.

I can do everything through CHRIST who strengthens me.
-Philippians 4:13


Saturday, November 19, 2005

ok, just some random postings, since obviously, im supposed to be studying but id rather be doing everything else.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin

i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!

nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.

and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)

if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".

if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!

speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.

alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

today, i woke up,
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.

to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)

on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!

ok.snap back to reality.sigh.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

ok, so my exams arent even over (i have even started actually) and december (my birthday! Christmas!) is barely nearing but im already thinking of presents.
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:

Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost

erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:

Saturday, November 12, 2005

cleaning out my wardrobe seems to be quite the therapeutic activity for me.

you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.

and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.

how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin

(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)
today is the beginning of a brand new start.
things are just gonna get better.
*wink

Thank You GOD!

(:

Friday, November 11, 2005

from the last time i blogged till now, sad to say, nothing vaguely interesting has happened.
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.

okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..

last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..

submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:

other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.

oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin

alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.

quinze jours...

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

hip hip hooray!
Hurhur.
my laptop is actually working in school.
and so is the internet.
*patpat
good little lappy.
hhahahahahahahaha.
shawn, it must have been you. it didnt work cause you were around.
HA.
i prove my point.

vingt cinq jours.....

Friday, October 28, 2005

its really amazing what you can learn from books..
and i dont mean those specific self-help books (which i dont believe i ever read one before..'cept sean covey's 7 habits of the highly effective teens but i only bought that book because my dad was paying for it and it was to commemorate my first time at Borders..HA) but rather novels and books books..
was revising for my Asian American lit module and re-reading Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club and a few things did hit me..and made me think..
many of the daughters in the book are passive..unwilling to make decisions being afriad of the consequences..and others are so dependent on their mothers/parents/friends/boyfriends/husbands/basically anyone and everyone but themselves to make decisions for them..and then theres the daughter who prides herself with outside appearances while inside she's crumbling..

somewhat sad to say, i found myself identifying with all of those character flaws, though i shant comment any further or give any more specific details..
if you're my close friend, you should know, you should know the Kathleen more than what she shows on the outside..
ok im not trying to say im fake and a phony to the people around me but ive always had this issue of feeling somewhat fake..
it feels like with different people and situations, i have to change who i am, i have to be who i think other people want me to be, i have to be who they want to see, i have to be the type of person who fits in, i have to be someone whom they would want to be seen with..

its not so much of a dichotomy (oh how i love this word, i hear it almost all the time during my lit lectures and tutorials) of kathleen, a single person branching out into two or maybe a zillion more persons, a split personality..
but its more of..adaptation?
ok thats such a mild way of putting it.
its more of becoming what others would like to me to be and see.
of which ive already babbled on above.

ok. this is not a call for pity or sympathy or empathy (yikes. more words from my lit modules. michele you should get it. hurhur) or anything of that sort.
what im trying to say is in fact a whole lot more optimisitc and happy.

its really time, to be myself.
to just be who i am. comfortable in my skin.
to learn how to assert myself. to stop being so quiet and keep to myself.
perhaps to make my presence known.
but not so much that i'd become the centre of attraction. haha. kat will still remain kat.

slowly i think things have been happenning around me to bring this change.
this semester especially.
computing tutorial. sure i bitched and blah-ed about it endlessly but i learnt much about the joys of being independent. hurhur. ok stop sighing and going "katttttttttt..like finallyyyyy". tsk. better late than never right? hahaaa.
i look back and think of how i used to be in year one. tsk. *shakes head. no wonder i didnt really enjoy my semesters. i was too busy worrying. worrying about what other people thought of me.

i suppose confidence is something you gain slowly, slowly but surely it builds up.
YOU definitely helped heaps in this area.
your constant assurances, little and big compliments, teasings.
all really really did me a lot of good.
boosted my ego a bit. hahahahahahaaahahaa.
and im so glad i feel absolutely comfortable in my skin (snigger.) when im with you.
thanks for not giving up on me.
thanks for being so patient.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks!
*insert jumping turtle here

and ho ho ho. i signed up to be part of the sub-com of soci soc. public liason.
yes you heard (or rather, read) correctly.
never in a milion years did i think i would sign up for some club or nonsense. you can ask michele. hahahaa. when she and gina joined, i didnt. tsk.
but yeah. baby steps (anyone remembers mockingbird?). little steps.
a step forward, no matter how small, is still better than a step back.

so whats next?
hopefully. to put an end to something ive been battling for the longest time.
a COMPLETE and FULL end to it.
(thanks michele for being there every step of the way so far.)
if i can conquer this, nothing stands in my way.


if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?
im more than a conqueror with HIM on my side!
i'll move mountains and calm the sea..
all because HE equips me with for this fight!

ok. im off to watch jamie oliver. hurhur.
(kkkkkkkaaaaaaaattttt!!! why so anticlimax one!!!!!!)
hur.

oh yar. and please pray i find my library book.
i dont wanna pay for it. tsk.
pray someone will find it and return it to the central library for me!

andddddd..(ok last thing, i promise!)
TWENTY-NINE more (LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG!!! tooooooooo LLLOOONNNNGGGG!!!!) days before you're coming back!
in the midst of my exams summore..your timing ah..many horriblez..

Saturday, October 22, 2005

i think jay chou looks pretty good in his latest mtv vid.
ahahahahaa.
groupie.
tsk.
no lah. i just happened to catch it on mtv.
so yeah.
hurhur.
i like his floppy hair.
and his videos are all pretty cool. kinda artistic.
though his songs are all beginning to sound the same.
and why do all his girls look..er..a lil too underaged for him?
hahahaa.
anyone remember the girl in initial D?
hurhur.

ok.
back to reality.
essays and more essays.
readings and more readings.
i'll be glad when this semester is over...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

A Very Special Package

last night somewhere in singapore there was a grouchy kat talking to a-trying-very-hard-to-make-kat-smile jun yuan somewhere a million miles away in perth via google talk.
she suddenly thought of the package that he told her about.
but he never told her what was in it.
or the cost of the postage.
fearing the package was taking a bit too long to arrive, she asked him to go check the date he sent the package.
the doorbell of her house rang but she didnt think to answer the door as her parents would do that.
her parents knocked on the door and told her she had a package.
that put a huge and very excited grin on her face.
when she came back to her lappy she saw via the webcam he was back from searching for the postage receipt.
she grinned and told him the date of the package.
she then noticed how much he paid for the postage.
a whooping $15.50AUD.
(which she obviously "scolded" him about, knowing he'd always say the same thing that always made her smile)
then she excitedly proceeded to open the package (for he kept her in suspense as to its contents)

and guess what?
10 packets of the caramel tiny teddies and a packet of starburst gummies.
the very two items which she brought back to singapore but were finished in a matter of days with the help of very helpful friends and her own mum.



As an added bonus to make her laugh, check out the address he wrote.
kat stays on the ground floor.
meaning the house number should read "#01-17".
he didnt even send it to his own address.
he stays at #12-19.
neither does he know the neighbour who stays at #12-17.

He really knows how to make kat happy doesnt he?
(:

Thursday, October 06, 2005

at the request of cherie toh...

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

just came back from my mid-term break holiday to perth.
and i conclude, i love perth.

i love the weather.
i love the laid-back relaxed atmosphere.
i love the supermarkets.
i love the lack of high-rise buildings everywhere.
i love the fish and chips.
i love biscuits and chocolates and wines and cheeses.
i love the people.
i love the parks.
i love the picnics and bbqs.
i love the scenery.

but most of all, i love perth because thats where YOU are.

You who cooked all those yummilicious meals for me and made sure i ate properly.
You who fulfilled my selfish desire for breakfast in bed prepared by the one i love.
You who stayed up till 2am in the morning just to help me with my essay.
You who despite wanting me to cut down on my sugar intake bought me a tub of icecream and allowed me to finish half a tub with you in one night (on top of the heaps of sweet stuff you bought for me too).
You who always came up with solutions to whatever sticky and last minute situations we ended up in because of my absent-mindedness and insistance.
You who let me have your ipod mini to make my long bus journeys to school more bearable because you cant possible be here with me.
You who emailed my parents telling them to make me eat more fibre (knowing that i always say ok i'll do it but i dont and forget) when you realised i wasnt clearing my bowels as often as i should and buying prune juice for me.
You who drove me around everywhere despite knowing you'd be in for all my nagging and comments about your reckless driving.
You who makes me feel so comfortable with you that i am at total ease with myself.
You who bought me so many things even though you're a bit tight just because you know it would make me smile.
You who gave me your favourite nike tshirt just cause i wanted it (for no logical reason) and your jacket to bring home even though that night was freezing.
You who made me take silly and funny photos that i wouldnt normally take at all.
You who knows me so well that even when i say i dont want something you know i do and when i say im ok you know i actually am not.
You who makes me love you even more despite having just quarrelled.
You who wiped away my tears with your hands and even wiped my nose and you didnt think it was gross at all.

You who makes the darkness into light.
You who makes everything alright.
even though you're so far away.

You who makes all this waiting and painful distance so worthwhile.

55 more days.
And the one i love will be coming back to me again.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

and so it all comes to an end.....................................................

Saturday, September 03, 2005

oopsy. this blog has outrightly been neglected. hurhur.

haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!

i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:

one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin

Friday, August 26, 2005

since im waiting for someone to reply me (and its taking very very long)..here's a really quick post before i get back to The Woman Warrior..

first of all.
corlissa. i cannot cannot belive that you only JUST told me that your promos are in FOUR WEEKS time.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
my goodness gracious me.
i dont care.
holiday or not you are going to meet me next thurs and friday.
wednesday too if you want.
just spend at least 2 hours doing your work ok?
thats the best i can help you with even if i cant teach you econs or GP very well.
but i'll definitely try my best to answer all your questions and clear your doubts ok?
(:

ok.well.im sad.because i didnt get my wed computing tutorial time slot.which is so bloody annoying.tsk.sheesk.haiz.sigh.why why why.
hhahaa.
oh well. what to do. bo pian lorh.
im just hoping that my class will have friendly people.
and that my project group mates will not be completely clueless about computers.
and we're supposed to design a website for our project i think.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cant i be in the same group as michele???
we'd definitely ace the project. damn. *sulk.
hurhur.

alright.
thats all folks.
haha.
he finally responded.
hurhur.
night y'all.
(:

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

its already the 3rd week of school but im still not in school-mode..much less study-mode.
cant exactly blame me can you..
its really tough when you havent really been using your brain for the past three months..
haha..and its been a whole lot of fun and lazing around and doing absolutely nothing on some (ok..perhaps..actually..most..hurhur) days..
and now its back to horrible and loooooooooooooooooong bus rides..(taking 151 frm hougang interchange to kent ridge interchange..wheres my ipod mini?!!)
back to waking up early early early..(8am lectures every wednesday)
back to trying to stay awake during lectures..
back to preparing for tutorials only the night before..
back to rushing to meet essay deadlines..
back to doing projects and presentations..
my only consolation is that i have a 3 day week..
yeap. u heard me right. haha.
although..im having a problem with my computing tutorial now..oh well..pray that i get the slot i want!

really excited about my lit modules this semester.
however, somehow things have taken a different turn.
science fiction and fantasy doesnt seem as horrid as i thought it would be. hahahaaaa.
yes yes yes. kat doing science fiction??!!?
aiyar...even i cant believe it lah..but its not too bad..susan ang is actually rather good..she brings up a lot of very interesting points and i like the way she picks out little details..
tutorial was also goooooooooooooooooooooood..
we have it in her room and its like..WOAH. the whole place is surrounded by dark wooden bookcases filled to the brim with books. i want a room like this too. just so..amazing..would be a dream come true..
anyway..back to tutorial..haha..i actually spoke. not because i was called upon to. i even spoke first when she asked us to give our personal opinions of the book. (ok close that gaping mouth of yours and stop staring at me in such disbelief before your eyeballs fall out their sockets) hahahahaa. im so impressed with myself. hurhur. i guess its cause the setting and everything was just so casual and comfortable..
thank God..He really knows what to do.. (:

asian american lit though..is rather disappointing.
this is the one module i thought would be the highlight of my semester but unfortunately..its not really living up to its standard.
maybe its, as michele said, cause i had quite high expectations for it.
but..even she agrees that the lecturer is just going round and round in circles..
perhaps the pressing issues these asian-american writers face are all about the same but still..
tsk tsk tsk.
doesnt help that the lecturer is my tutor as well. hurhur.

oh well. but with a 3 day week. i shouldnt complain so much right.
cheers to only 28 more days of school..
*bigfatgrin

ohhhhhhhhhhh.
before i forget.
my dear Corlissa..i keep asking u when ure free for econs right?
huh huh huh?
hahaaa. you gotta tell me when ure freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Monday, August 15, 2005

i think ive successfully developed another bad habit.
haha. everyday, the first thing i do when i wake up is turn on my lappy. hahaaaaa.
regardless whether i have time to actually do anything with the computer on.
this morning was no exception. i woke up. pressed the power button. went to wash up. came back into the room. decided what to wear. and before i knew it i had to shut down my lappy.
hurhur.
ridiculous aint it?

today's message by uncle stanley was about giving.
his message was based on the very short story of the widow who gave only two very small copper coins but yet Jesus considered her act as giving more to the treasury than all the others.
was a very good reminder that we should learn to trust in the Lord for everything, and in adopting this attitude we should then learn to give our all up to God.
though he strayed a little, uncle stanley used a phrase that kinda got stuck in my mind, "Generosity is always a virtue; never a weakness".

ok. here's the highlight of my day.
finally. FINALLY. FINALLY!!?!
we finally recorded the song.
finally because i wrote the song on the 17th of feb 2005.
the song in which i penned the God-inspired lyrics and to which Jim put in place the melody.
Amanda on the piano, Jim on the guitar, and since i cant play any musical instrument, it was me providing the vocals.
the recording was made possible thanks to Jim's $59 investment in an ipod recording device.
hahaaa.
had so much fun with it. cant wait to work on more songs with those two. we make a really good team yeah? haha. what can i say. you two are undoubtedly talented. love u two loads. (:

other than that..well..haha..i had another *ahem revelation.
my 2nd one in the past four years.
ok the first was that i finally found out and realised how small i was. haahahaa.
it happened in the acjc canteen while i think it was cherie toh who was buying a drink from the fruit stall. and i was telling, er..either joy boo or michele, that cherie toh is so small.
hahahahaaaaaaa. and either joy or michele looked at me and said "kat. ure just as small if not smaller."

and today's revelation?
gosh. i never knew i sounded so whinny. honestly. i never knew. hahahaaa.
to myself, or at least how i hear my own voice, i fancy i dont sound that high nor low.
never did i imagine i sound so much like a little kid.
until i heard the playback of the recording.
hahahaaaahaa.
tsk tsk tsk.
this is simply hilarious.

oh well. at least now i know right? better late than never.
*grin

dont feel like going for lecture tomorrowwwwwwww.................................

Sunday, August 14, 2005

inevitably, at the start of every semester i always get the creeps.
butterflies always seem to find their way into my stomach and worry always seeps into the back of my mind, slowly building up and soon engulfing all my thoughts.

this semester is no different.

already my science fiction module is driving me nuts.
i figured since im gonna have a hard time reading books that dont interest me even the slightest bit i might as well get them first and get done reading all of them.
i didnt know how hard a time i would have ploughing through the meaningless (at least to me) words that are as good as neverending.
to begin with, all the books cost me a whooping $160. when i paid for the books i felt as though a really sharp dagger pierced right through me.
i mean..already i cant bear to buy books..what more spending so much on books that i will probably never ever read again in my entire life.
doesnt help that all the money is coming out of my own pocket.
tsk.
the first book in the list is titled a most peculiar and mind-boggling "a canticle for leibowitz".
if that sounds even vaguely interesting to you, tell me, i'll sell you the book for a dollar once im done with the module. or maybe i'll just give it to you for free. just get it out of my life!
lets see if i get the story so far..its about a monk..who out in the desert meets a stranger..and through the stranger finds a secret underground shelter that belonged to the time before the deluge..and the monks of that time spent hours examining past relics..but no one believed him at first..and the head abbot even asked him to shut up about what he found..but many years later people from the New Rome come knocking on the abbey's door asking to further investigate what the young monk found..blah blah etc..
does that sound appealing to you? gosh.

ok. im not exactly that sore about it. i chose to do the module so if i really suck at it and have to drag myself to the lecture and tutorials every week i have no one to blame but myself.
but then again, i just dont wanna keep doing stuff that i like or am familiar with.
education is about the training of the mind, and if i dont expose myself to something outside i'll never actually learn anything new will i?

the other two lit modules im really looking forward to.
especially asian american literature. ive always been a fan of asian literature. though they keep repeating the same ideas of ill-treated stepchildren, forced marriages, sexist attitudes and war.
oh well. we'll see. things are usually only as interesting and fun as you make them to be.
by the way, anyone has The Joy Luck Club or Great Expectations that i can borrow?

ok. im back to my feeble attempt of reading my lit text.
only about 19 more chapters to go.
help.

Friday, August 12, 2005

after 3 months of bumming around..
finally and most dreadfully its time to go back to school....

somehow i managed to drag myself out of bed at about 0515..it took some sort of miracle because i slept at about 0230 that very morning..hahaaa..amazing i tell you..
met kaisheng at the interchange at 615 to take the rickety-rackety 151 all the way to NUS..
haha..was really fun catching up with him again..asking each other hows life..what we did during the long vacation..complaining about how the 151 always seems to be non-airconditioned..him talking about siqiu's plan ever since graduation (hope her interview at ttsh went well!)..him asking me about my "progress"..hahahaaa..which at least i had really good news to tell him..haha..
hurry and get your license and a car! then we dont have to ever wake up so early anymore..
and i just knew he's ask "is that another new bag?"
hurhur. no its NOT. u just never seen me carry it before. haha.

NM1101e lecture was worth waking up at 5am for. haha.
i like the lecturer. Ms Millie. She's really engaging and charismatic. just what you need at 8am.
the whole lecture was really interactive as well. guess you have to make it such if ure gonna keep the students awake.
but then again..i bet 3/4 of the lecture hall was filled with excited year ones.gosh.their chirpyness and enthusiasm for lectures and school is just..well.annoying. hurhur.

next stop: arts canteen for yong tau fu!
gosh.i miss the food. the gd and cheap food. its back to days of curry dory set, orange juice, dan dan mien, claypot eggplant with rice and if ever the queue is short or i feel like queueing...YONG TAU FU! hurhur.
well. lunch..felt..different i guess.
it was definitely great to see my two lovelies again..but i guess..inevitably..things have..changed?
after not seeing each other for almost 3 whole months and with them spending a huge chunk of time with their OG people and committee..i guess i did expect things to just be different.
honestly..im thankful amanda came to find me in the canteen..somehow i just wanted to hurry wolf down my yong tau fu (as if that was ever possible..eveyone knows kat eats like a bird..and no michele..i dont wanna hear your idiom about how asking kat to eat is like....oh nvm.ha) and run off to the co-op.
ok i dont mean anything here and its not that bad i suppose..
but..it just feels different. heh.
i still love you two. a lot. a whole lot.
and no matter what i'll still be here for you two. (:

as expected, the queue in the co-op was insane.
and happily, kaisheng happened to see me there so he got me to get his books too. hahaaaa.
but ok he repaid me by carrying all 12 books while we waited forever in the queue to pay.
my seven lit books cost me $160. and thats only for ONE module. and guess what? dad decided since i worked during the holz i should have money to pay for my books. right. im sure i have money in my account lah. haha. die. but thank God for mummy!!! haha..mummy to the rescue..she passed me a hundred..thanks mum..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks..

waited for benny and wee wee to come before we were supposed to meet derrick to go for our SPG lunch outing.
and well done, just as amanda walked away with alex i saw mr joel ong walking by.
ok i wanted to like turn away and pretend i saw nthg but alas, it was too late.
hahahaaa. i did feel like slapping him. hurhur. but of course i didnt. im not so evil. anyway..it doesnt matter anymore. i dont care.
tsk. hope the really sweet looking girl you were walking with isnt your next unsuspecting victim.
*kat shakes her head.
tsk.
hurhur.

lunch was pizza hut at clementi. was a lot of fun. haha.
benny, wee wee, derrick, adrian, randy, amanda and myself.
was quite a good time of sharing as well apart from the usual incessant crapping and spouting of really lame jokes. hurhur.
and no adrian..it'll never be possible to be best friends with you. not even vaguely possible.
hahaaaaa. why oh whyyyy did u have to come back from canada? haaaaa.
and next time..im gonna eat my stuffed crust first..least you keep eyeing it..hahaaa.

took 165 home. wasn't too long a journey actually. but when ure late and desperate for time? every second seems like an hour. heh. got home, took a much needed quick nap, showered in record time and ran out of the house again.

the corrinne may concert at the esplanade was really good.
i just love the crystal clear quality of her voice. she sounds as good live as she does on her cd.
shes also got one of the most meaningful lyrics around.
loved every bit of it. hope she comes back for another concert. then poor jim can get her autograph and take a photo with her. sorrrrrryyyy fella!
oh yeah..saw shane there. hahaa. at first i was like..shane? since when was shane a fan. and since when did he pay to watch concerts. hahahaaa.
sorry. i suppose i was wrong. hurhur.

had LJS with jim and amanda..rongcai left first cuz he had work e next day and andrew had school work to do.
i always have a good time with those two. talked about some pretty serious and pressing issues. well..it concerns us. and if we dont do smthg, who will? like they say..if u want something done and done well..do it youself. or in this case..we gotta help each other..its about high time we did something too...
thanks jim for taking the NEL with me even though it obviously is faster for you if you took the train to yio chu kang. much apprectiated (:

so there. my first day of school. hahahaaa. which i spent most of it outside of campus grounds.
may this school term be a whole lot better (and less slack) than the last two.
(:

Saturday, August 06, 2005

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Thursday, August 04, 2005

i hate CORS.
i cant do the module i want.
i'm stuck doing some dumb GEM.

but i hopefully will get a 3 day week.

bah.
tutorial bidding will be soon.

another round of endless headaches.

its time to start year 2.
woohoo.

Monday, August 01, 2005

saiyang saiyang..
hahahaaa.
sorry blog. you've been outrightly neglected and at most have been only fed with minimal attention in the form of pathetically short and silly entries.
hurhur.

anyway..ahhhhhhh. school is starting in one week.
so its time to make the trip to popular.
hahaa. bought myself my all-time favourite g-tec pens..
i spent (ok..not me lah..my dad..hahaa) close to $15 on pens alone and guess what..i didnt buy a single black or blue ink pen.
haha.
typical PL girl huh.
just ask mish or gina. look at our notes. hahahaaa.
and most of the time i think my pencil case is worth more than whatever chai can i have in my wallet.
tsk tsk tsk.
*grin

so what has kat been up to since she last blogged?
NOTHING. absolutely nothing.
which is not too bad actually...considering that his timetable is pretty slack so i get to catch him online quite often in the day..
but once school starts..only good thing thats gonna come out of it is that the weeks will be passing by faster..
unfortunately our timetables dont exactly compliment each other..haha..

speaking of timetables...
ARGH. i could tear my hair out.
hurhur. ok its not that bad.
but its horribly annoying.
i have just this one...JUST ONE MORE module that is so blardy (brit-ish accent here please) popular that i cant even bid for it.
yeap.
Why. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. wei she meh?????????
haha.
well..hopefully everything will turn out ok because i really really wanna do that module.
its the closest thing i'll get to journalism as possible.
for those who know i never wanted to come to NUS..i was all geared up for Mass Com in NTU..
so. well. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please?

haiz..really hoping that jim would give me the good news asap..
then i can really start to get excited.
at the moment i dont even dare think that i will definitely be going down under.
sigh....
oh well oh well oh well...
doesnt help that it seems like my financial problem isnt too big of a problem after all..
jim's dad managed to get cheaper tickets for us too..
$470 inclusive of taxes and insurance..
sigh....
the worst thing is if i dont have a single..or ok maybe just one or two..mid-sems and i dont get to go..
that and if raja decides to come back to singapore..
haiz...
but but but...
optimism kathleen!
tsk.
easier said than done.

gonna get my Visa TX card done tomorrow..
i would get a mini but...lazy to open another new account lah..haha...
jim's gonna get the visa too after he's done renewing his passport..
see see see?
all ready to head down to perth.
haha.
oh well. what to do. if i really dont get to go.....
then do i get to buy a bag? hahaha. cheer myself up.
actually..i'd be buying two bags..
hurhur.
its time to head to wheelock and tangs and then to the post office soon if september really doesnt work out..
oopsy. did i just spoil your surprise?
*grin
as if u didnt know.....
(:

Thursday, July 28, 2005

my mum has already given the stamp of approval.
im allowed to go to Perth during my september break.
but but but.
right now 2 things stand in the way of my happiness...



  1. where in the world am i gonna get $800? (all donations big and small are most welcome.hur.just kidding)
  2. jim needs to get his leave approved and comfirmed. i'm not allowed to fly alone.

sigh.
oh well.
but if its gonna happen, it will happen.
optimism is what im known for and it'll keep me going.
and of course the fact that i'm gonna be seeing him in only 51 days keeps me hoping for the best. (:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and my mooks tshirt (which is patiently waiting for me in perth)!




to kel:
haha. looks like i'm not the only silly person caught up in a long-d r/s huh. well as hard as it is, it's all worth it right? especially if you know at the end of all the waiting the both of you have a long future ahead.. its tough but what to do..no choice right..haha. hang in there yeah! (:

Monday, July 25, 2005

its already been a week since he left.
and no unfortunately i cant say "oh how time flies" because it didnt.
it was quite a draggy week actually. haha.
my boredom coupled with the fact that i have to get used to the fact that he's no longer just 11 floors above me and that i have to contend myself with the webcam and skype made it even more draggy than it already was.
but like you said.."contentment may be a vital ingredient to happiness..."
oh well. not like i have much of a choice do i. heh. but it'll do. really. its enough (:

anyway, here's the best way to sum up all those beautiful memories we shared in the past month:

Nopes. its definitely not my handiwork. all the credit goes to him. except of course he couldnt have done it without the help of my sony W1. hurhur. but yeah. its lovely. too lovely not to put it on my blog. *bigbigbiggrin

17 more weeks to endure. boohoohoo. haha. :)

Friday, July 22, 2005

i officially have an absolutely crap timetable.
boohoohoo.
everyday i have to go to school.
tsk.
but thanks so so so much to my dear who helped me replan my timetable i might just get wednesday off.
but as it is, i have to go to school for just ONE PATHETIC HOUR on friday.
for a lit tutorial.
ONE HOUR. FRIDAY.
killjoy.
hurhur.

im pretty worried about the workload too.
most probably will have to do 4 lit modules this semester.
sigh.
but its gonna be ok.
more worried about the cost of the books actually.
haha.
dad is so not gonna be too happy.
*grin

guess i still want school to start despite all the nonsense mentioned above.
cause school and all its busy-ness will (hopefully) cause time to pass with the speed of a bullet train.
18 weeks and counting down...

the carl's jr coupons are still waiting for you...

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

went into JB yesterday with my favourite neighbours Wang (or as we all call him "wayne) and Lily.

and as usual. it was such a blast.
would have been a whole lot more fun if you were there though.
mum already said that you can come with us when ure back.
gosh. see how much my parents (espcially my mum) loves you? *grin

had sushi for lunch. not too bad i guess..but give me sakae anytime. sakae has so much more to offer in terms of variety. service is quite good i must say. they provide an unlimited refil of freshly brewed green tea unlike here where all we get is one measely tea bag. haha.

shopping is ok. mum got a levis top. tsk. was too big for me. horrid. haha.
bought two tops and a pair of paul frank shorts.
and of course..i just couldnt forget someone even though he's all the way in perth can i?
got him a stussy tshirt and a green/yellow polo tee to match his green/yellow nike shoes.
haha. colour coordinated. smthg im well-known for. hur hur.
too bad ure gonna have to wait till your birthday to get it. and i think by the time i ship over all the stuff i bought (and most probably will be buying for you till then) i'd have a big crate to send over. haha.
*bigfatgrin

enjoy the photos
(:



Wayne and Lily (and some kpo bugger behind)


dad, mum, me


this photo is specially for you JY

(u cant find softshell crabs and this sorta crabstick in perth. *cheekygrin)

Sunday, July 17, 2005

so here i am sitting in front of my lappy eating my banana walnut muffin i bought from coffee bean.

he's already somewhere in the wide open sky flying towards perth.

i didnt cry.
haha.
i didnt even feel like crying.
its amazing. really. i honestly thought i would at least shed a few tears.
even when i hugged him i was smiling.

i guess i know why i so willingly let him go.
i bet you know too huh. *grin

haha.
just now was also meet the parents sessions.
no not me meeting his and he meeting mine but rather they meeting each other.
hurhur.
maybe we can start discussing marriage plans.
hahahaha.

im happy.
im smiling.
im thinking of you.
and of how ull be back so soon.
cant wait to see you in a few hours time.
cant wait to hear your voice again.

alrighty. need to sleep. after i finish the muffin. heh.
its so weird. haha. im smiling. laughing.
and suddenly i do feel like crying.
because i definitely do miss u.
a lot.
(:

you know what..you still owe me roses!
as much as i am prepared to let him go its just the moments leading up to it thats the most difficult and not to mention painful.
coming home alone just now was already bad enough.
feels weird taking the train alone
and with him the walk home seems too short, but without him i dont even think twice about taking the 112 home.
sorry i was so quiet and a lil grouchy just now.
my tiredness coupled with a heavy heart just wasnt doing me any good.
just wanted to try and squeeze out as much time as i could with you.

heh.
im laughing because i feel so silly.
im typing as if he's never coming back again.
but on the contrary he'll be back real soon.
there's so much to look forward to once ure back.
bangkok will definitely be a highlight. really wanna travel with you. i just know we'll have a blast.
then it'll be back to our daily night strolls, suppers, ba kut teh at chinatown, cleaning up (and out) my wardrobe, more baking, you cooking for me, me making breakfast while u read the papers, aimless walking around town, long bus journeys with my head on your shoulders and eyes closed with a smile on my face, doing new and crazy things i never thought i'd do because im with you, and okok, we will walk kenny. (and hopefully u wont leave me hanging..*bigfatcheekygrin)

meanwhile, we both gotta study. study hard.
so i guess the arrangement is rather beneficial.
during school term we concentrate on work.
during the holidays we fully enjoy ourselves.
c'est magnifique.

all the beautiful memories you've blessed me with the past month will barely be enough to last me through the next 4 months.
so come back soon ok?
(:
ok let me try to squeeze in a really quick post before jy calls.

15th July 2005:
helped jy pack in the morning.
my goodness. cant stand the way he folds his tshirts..or rather the lack of folding them. haha.
he doesnt even bother to iron his tshirts. c'est terrible.
looks like im gonna be doing all his ironing when i go over next year.
which i dont mind if it means i get to see him wearing button down shirts more often. *grin

met his mum and god-sis and her husband at singtel hello.
his mum wanted to sign a new line and give jy the new hp.
bet she did that just for you..doubt she needs the line at all (:
lunch at macs at the request of jy's mum. haha. can see she was really enjoying the food.

after lunch it was full swing into shopping gear.
what i bought:
havaianas, esprit leather belt, beaded necklace, 2 levis tops.

what i bought for jy:
levis square cut jeans (which i think he looks absolutely good in them. hurhur.)

what jy bought for me:
3 pairs of earrings, a cloth sash, 2 bottles of water (hahahaaaaa)

rushed down to queensway to meet his parents and chris.
but well well wel. we were early. hur. haha.
and i bought a pair of shoes there. the same pair i was eyeing at the nike concept shop at heeren.
and it was cheaper by about 11bucks?
the pair jy wanted was even better. $137 at the nike shop. $90 at queensway.
thank goodness i didnt insist on buying it for him at orchard. haha. *sheepish grin
and thanks for making me buy the shoes. haha. i love it.
my limited edition silver/pink waffle racer.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

dinner with his family but too bad i didnt get to try the food from the zhi cha stall he liked.
the place renovated and the shop was nowhere to be found.
the dinner experience was ok i guess. ('cept that eenie weenie bitty part but its ok (: )
really need to (desperately) brush up on my chinese if im gonna be more comfortable communicating with jy's mum.
oh and the green bean soup was really good. haha. i actually finished the whole bowl. but thats no surprise issit. dessert always has room reserved for it in my tummy. hurhur.

oh well. today's his last day here before he flies off.
im ok though. rather prepared to let him go actually. dont really wanna shed any tears at the airport later either. heh.
besides he'll be back in about 18 weeks time.
and time is just gonna whizz pass once school starts.
gonna be missing my perfect shopping partner for sure.
haha. maybe its a good thing. i'll be able to save money. hurhur.
which i really need to. kat is really broke now anyway. haha. and gotta start saving for bangkok!

hurry up and call me leh.....

Thursday, July 14, 2005

a brief look into kat's past week...

thurs:
went to CPK. service was actually good. haha. how many eating places can actually boast good quality service right? hurhur. ordered the peking duck pizza. it was definitely yummilicious..but..er..i dont think i really tasted the duck..hahaaha..but it doesnt matter cause the dessert more than made up for it. tiramisu and chocolate souffle. my goodness. u should have seen my expression when that scoop of absolute sinfulness mingled with my tastebuds. hurhur.
company was excellent. haha. needless to say. huh huh huh? *grin
thanks for the gift. the beautiful gift. and its staying on.

sat:
dim sum with my parents and my favourite neighbours at Xin Cantonese Restaurant at Concorde Hotel. once again i (and mr chin) have the luxury of enjoying good food. love it. its like top quality dim sum. nothing like your usual crystal jade fare. practically every dish was delicious. especially the "bear's paw" and the deep fried custard buns. thank goodness you came along so i had someone to share everything with. heh. gave me the chance to try more dishes. hurhur.

dinner with the relatives that same night. and finally cheryl got to meet jy after always talking to him on MSN when she's at my place. it was quite hilarious actually. she asked me if she could "talk to the boy" and i quickly (while trying hard to stifle my chuckles) smsed jy and asked him to come down. when she saw him she was shocked. shocked. hahaha. very cute. and my dear little lisa asked him if he was "the boy from the computer". hurhur. too bad you didnt manage to sample my mum's chicken wings. at least not this time. but hey now u can try out the steamed minced meat and tofu when ure in perth.

sun:
paid a visit to jy's church. thank God for edwin cause i think if i had to go there alone..i might have just backed out from it. service was definitely different, not in terms of sequence but rather the usage of a full band as well as the display of emotions. ultimately, we're worshipping the same God and it really doesnt matter how we do it. as long as the heart is real and sincere. besides its for God to see and know it. not those around us.
im glad i went. might wanna go for the edge one of the saturdays.
joined jy and his friends (jingsi, dionne, evie, edwin, shane, jane, jason, david, david's gf, joshua..did i get everyone correct?) for joshua's farewell dinner. the funny thing was joshua wasnt even at service that night and they made him take a cab all the way to tampines just to have BK. haha. poor fella. heh.
oh yeah, gotta remember to pass edwin the mockingbird book to pass to jane.

mon:
back to tampines again. under the hands of elly jy is now sonic no more but rather knuckles. even the colour is alike. haha. orange. i highlighted my hair too. red. but not too obvious. nice. haha. at least i think its nice. probably colour smthg more obvious the next time when he's back.
next stop was the airport to send joshua off. didnt like being there one bit. sigh. oh well.

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. hahahah. while we were walking out of the condo in the morning, we walked past one of the aunties (that i know) and my mum who were sitting by the fountain. and she commented "your boy boy very handsome ah". hahahhahaa. well done.

tues:
candy empire at millenia walk totally rocks. my goodness. its a shop catered to my every sweetoothoverdrive needs. haha. such an amazing assortment of chocolates and candies and biscuits and sweets and whatnot. haha. and jy realised that someone beat him to bringing in the chips from aussie that he's been raving about (which incidentally i havent actually tried it). bought chocolates and i actually intended to be really selfish and have all. hahaa. but but but. i shared ok. hahaa. good stuff.

went up to the roof terrace at the esplanade. the city skyline looks rather awesome at night. too bad the photos didnt come out as nice as it looked. too dark. *shrugs. wanted to try this drink thing (i think, cant remember, what was it again?) from max brenner but was a bit too late. tsk. such a waste. let's see if im patient enough to wait till ure back or if my sweetooth pushes me to go have it without u. haha.

wed:
i know i set my alarm for 9am but i slept right through it. and then a phone call came. which i almost ignored thinking it was my alarm. haha. as much as i hate to be suddenly woken up, this call was different. heh. waiting outside my door was a special delivery of mac breakfast and an even more special delivery boy. haha. i cant ask for a better way to wake up. *grin

and so here i am. typing this blog entry. while ure on the line.
tomorrow i'll be seeing you bright and early to go get the ingredients for the pineapple upside down cake (that hopefully i wont be baking alone) for your mum.
probably we'd go for our daily night walk again tomorrow night.
but tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow there will be no more.
no more seeing you first thing in the morning and last thing before i close my eyes in slumber.

Sunday, July 10, 2005

i'm really not sure if u read my blog.
but seriously.
get a life.
quit wallowing in self-pity.
its not gonna help.
and its driving me absolutely nuts.
and its not just me, its the people around you.
sheesh.
no one can help you if ure not gonna help yourself.

Friday, July 08, 2005

2 months.
barely enough.
i want more.
and more.
more.
u.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

i always believe there are only two ways you can react to any situation.

one creates trouble.
the other keeps things in place.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

what else can i say.
my parents love him lah.
hurhur.

"so junyuan(in my mum's attempt at pronouncing chinese names) ure joining us for lunch tmr."

HA.

lunch was great.albeit the rather awful food.
cartel's standard is dropping.seriously.but i think its just that outlet.
dont ever go to suntec's cafe cartel. you have been warned.
but the dessert was good.but then again, how can you go wrong with dessert?
*grin.
more importantly, the situation i was worrying about never surfaced.
in fact it turned out better than expected.
especially between my brother and JY.
and even more importantly, i dont have to tell my parents anything.
officially, i dare say theyre ok with us.
*kat dances around
im happy.
*big grin
(:

really glad we had the talk by the river.
brought up quite a bit of important issues.
thanks.
for asking the questions.
and making me talk.
i mean every single word i said.

finally, let me repeat again.
u have no idea how fun it is to have your bf stay in the same condo tower as you.
seriously.
im having such a blast.
hur hur.
see u later for fruits and baileys+icecream.

so..adidas or esprit?

Monday, July 04, 2005

hmm.
you know i honestly dont believe ive ever had so much activities planned out ahead me before.
the past two weeks has been quite a mad rush i must say.
day in day out there always seemed to be something to do.

breakfasts, lunches, dinners,suppers.
town, shopping, movies.
vcd, dvd, naps.
muffin making.
photo-taking.
zoo.birthday.icecream.
meeting new faces.
going to new places.
lovely night walks.

and ive already got next week lined up for me:
monday: lunch with mum and dad (on leave..again.haha) and bro (off for him frm army) @ P.S cafe cartel at dad's request
tuesday: meeting up with swi, fish, nic, meiyen, gina and michele @ holland V (y so far...)
wednesday: frog leg and tau huay supper @ geylang with my two lovelies, and of course my very safe driver.hurhur.
thursday: so..have u decided what to do and where to eat? huh huh huh. haha. *grin
friday: anime in the morning, cookies in the afternoon?
saturday: dim sum with my favourite neighbours
sunday: sunday school! always looked forward to it..amazing how we never run out of new things to learn from the bible (:

*phew.
cheers to another jam-packed week ahead.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Friday, Feb 11, 2005
"Ed made me recognize one very important factor today.He said that at the end of all the searching, if two people wanted to be together they had to be open and have fun chatting with each other.He asked me to imagine not being able to crap with my boyfriend and commented how boring that would be."

edwin, you have no idea how true your advice is.
(:
im lazy to blog.but.for the sake of those who actually read my blog.here goes:

the zoo was FUN on wednesday.
and thank God it didnt rain (and no Gina its not just cause it was your birthday.hurhur.) and He provided us with awesome cloudy weather.
the animals all seemed rather bored...and hot...and dusty.
and the polar bears are still algae-ish.
ben&jerrys was yummy.but the girl gave us such small scoops.think she didnt have enough strength to cut through the cold hard icecream.
moral of the story? look for someone stronger to serve u the icecream.HA.
took loads of photos.the funnier ones are starring michele, gina and jun yuan.kat isnt known for doing such silly things.hur hur.i cant believe im such good friends with them.
photos will be up..er..soon.heh.

went for suki sushi buffet at cineleisure on thursday.
met up with jim, amanda and alex.
gosh.that has to be the fastest buffet i ever had.haha.
i do wanna go back though.haha.i wanna sit there and slowly enjoy my sashimi.
for some strange reason the whole thing was just too fast.not to mention we were ordering food fast and furious. so much so we had food coming that we didnt even order.haha.
and DONT EVER ORDER THE OYSTERS. its not that bad. just. er. weird. hurhur.
watched initial D with JY and Phyllis. (hello phyllis if ure reading thing..haha (: )
the girl is redundant. she's not exactly pretty, not exactly slender and not exactly likeable.
she was in fact rather ugly, rather plump and rather whiny. haha.
but the story was not too bad..edison chen and shawn yue saved the day with their brooding bad boy looks.hur hur.i like.HA. and mr jay chou shld stick to singing.

well..todays already Friday..
this week has been really fun..out just about everyday..
the wallet is going on a forced diet though..haha..got nothing to feed it with..
but.BUT.its ok.
time spent with him is priceless.
and ive only got 2 more weeks left.
*sigh

to my two lovelies:
cheers to the three of us being best buds in and out of NUS!
i love you two so so so so sooooooooooooo much.
and im pretty sure u two know that.
haha.
next week!
Supper!
Bikini shopping!
sushi buffet!
better start praying we have enough money..hurhur.
and tell me when u two are free ok?
*kisses aplenty

and of course..to a very special person:
thanks for coming down to meet me at compasspoint despite you being so tired after a day at sentosa..
hope ure having a good rest now..
dont scratch and drink more water!
oh and mum&dad wants u to come down later to have the cake with us..
remind me to ask them about going to JB on monday yeah..
heh.i think they really really like you.
*big fat grin
(:

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

finally had a hair cut yesterday.
went with michele to Chapter 2. not too bad i guess. the girl who cut my hair was really pretty. haha. standard price. nthg much. i still look pretty much the same. hur hur. cept for some strange reason my hair is so flat. it looks like i straighten it or smthg. eeeeee. not nice. haha.

had lunch (more like hi-tea..by the time we ate it was almost 330pm?) at Breko. haha. hilarious. we took half an hour to actually place our orders. and half way through gina discovered that her panini was mouldy. haha. but the lousy manager didnt even offer any other form of compensation when we said we didnt want a replacement sandwich. time to brush up on your PR skills. heh.

went to the newly revamped bugis street. not too bad i guess. but going there just reminds me of all the stuff that i should have bought in bangkok but didnt. haha. December. Im going back. Who's coming with me? haha.

mr and mrs smith wasnt that great a show. the plot was...lacking. haha. but i did like how the show tried to portray the different way men and women think. and whats all the fuss about brad pitt. seriously. he looks..so-so. haha. not exactly drop dead gorgeous. angelina jolie on the other hand is HOT. haha.

spent close to 200 odd dollars yesterday. yup. in just ONE day.
haircut+treatment.
sandwiches+toasties+onionrings+wedges+avacadoyoghurt+quicksand+orangeapple.
earrings.
2 sequined sashes.
a pretty pink skirt with the debatable zipper. (hur hur.)
levis square cut jeans.
(and NO. not everything is for myself ok. haha. i think i better clarify first.)

haha. but it was all worth it. had an awesome time catching up with my two lovelies. miss them so much. havent seen them since the exams ended.
see you two at the zoo tomorrow!

and of course there's you. you you you. YOU. *grin.

i'll try to live for the moment.
but..sorry..its awfully difficult..

Sunday, June 26, 2005

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Duration: 1st July to 12th August
Venue: Singapore Expo
Time: 9am to 10pm
Salary: 4bucks per hour

kindly call Georgina at 62139177.

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speaking of job, im now officially unemployed.
haha.which is a good thing because it means i get to spend more time with him (before he flies off again. sob sob.) rather than sitting in the office wasting away 10 precious hours.

but i must admit, for my first official job, there's nothing serious to complain.
in fact i think i really had it easy.

to begin with i never had a single deadline to meet.
aunty alice was always telling me to take my time calling the debtors and folding the reminders/statements of accounts/official receipts, "those that you cant finish you can always do them tomorrow".
she was always paying for my lunch, so much so i decided to bring lunch to work so she wouldnt get the chance to keep paying.she always always always refused to take my money.
even if i brought lunch she'd still buy me fruits and what not.
and she always bought me milo. twice a day when the delivery guy came. which makes it a grand total of 48cups of milo.
she would occasionally turn around to chat with me.
about life, being a mother, working, explaining to me why and what they do as accountants, talking excitedly about her sons, asking me about uni life, teaching me the proper way of steaming fish and sharing with me other foodie ideas.
she was like a mother to me in the office and that i never took for granted.
i cant even count the number of thank yous we exchanged.

to top it all off, she gave me a really cute cat pencil case on my last day.
really grateful for all she has taught and given me.

as much as i complain about the job; the monotony of it all & the measly pay, what keeps me going is that i cant bear to let aunty alice do all the work herself.
call me back if u need help!
or if your son needs english tuition!
gladly i'd give it for free because no amount of money can repay your kindness and love shown to me during the short one and a half months i spent at the office.

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time really flies when ure having fun.
its already gonna be a week since SQ224 touched down and i was panicking when i couldnt find you.
silly me forgot that it takes awhile for the passengers to actually come out from the time the plane lands with all the passport stamping and absolut vodka buying and luggage collecting.

more than just panicking i was worrying.worrying about how it'd actually be when i saw you.
but all my fears were assuaged the moment you held my hand tight.

if there's one thing i absolutely adore about you, its the way you can make me talk.
haha.
its really no mean feat. trust me.
you make me feel so comfortable and i know i can trust you no matter what.
the walk we had at 1am this morning just served to reassure me.

and that brings me to say that i am enjoying every bit of the fact that you stay not just in my condo but in my block.
it also means you have no excuse to not come down even if it rains.haha.
and i can go disturb you when ure wasting time napping like a pig.
sigh.
but all too soon you're gonna be the furthest neighbour i have.

i know what you'd say in response to this.
silly girl, dont think so far, ure still gonna have me for another 3 weeks.
yeah i know.but how can 3 pathetic weeks possibly make up for the coming 4 long months?

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why is my next pay only coming in mid-july.
tsk.