theres really nothing better than starting the day with a hug.

especially when you know its gonna be a huge smile on your face.
especially when its gonna be a long long long day ahead.
especially when its from the one you love.
especially when its from the one who loves you.

(:

im scared.
im worried.
im sleepless in hougang.
all because of two modules.
shakespeare & principles of visual communication.
and they have to both be on the same day!
and 3hour blocks each.
bah.
pray for me please?

God help me to trust in you..

that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..

help me to have the confidence that can only come from you..

as well as that sense of peace that you give..

allow me to find comfort in you..

i really should be studying right now.
should be trying to get through Shakespeare's King Lear and reading up on notes about it.
its absolutely insane.
this Shakespeare module of mine?
the lecturers arent going through the books but rather we're gonna compare editions, versions of the plays, videos and what not.
i mean. how does one compare when in the first place we dont even know what the play is about?
tsk. it just means a lot of hard work and camping out in the library as well as lugging heaps of books home just to grasp the basics of each book.
*bleah.
which reminds me..michele! you need to pay the fines for your library book on my lib card. heh.

another module im really worried about is Principles of Visual Communication.
bah.
no one told me i needed to draw!
i havent drawn since....primary school....and to begin with.....i cant draw for nuts.
phooey.
and i went down to ArtFriend the other day to buy art supplies which i probably will never ever use again in my lifetime after im done with this module.
hurhur.

i suppose its gonna be one tough challenge for me.
and this is what uni is for isnt it?
challenge yourself and expose yourself to different ideas and concepts.
things that you probably wouldnt ever get the chance to learn and absorb in a school environment once you get out into the working world.
guess this is whats stopping me from dropping the module.
same with "Literature and the other arts".
i really wanna use this chance while im still in school to really be exposed to as much as i possibly can before i face reality in the cruel outside world.
besides, you never know when these skills might come in handy.

alright.
guess im just gonna send him an email, grab a bite then get back to my King Lear.
what a way to spend my free day. phooey.
im so not looking forward to school tomorrow.
i end at 9pm!
and what to wear..........*headache. hurhur. ;)

alright..i wanted to blog yesterday after i came home but i was too sleepy..heh..pig..but here it is..better late than never (like i always say..hurhur)...

went down to city hall to meet jy and his poly buddy tianjie (or TJ for short) to have dinner..
interesting fact: TJ and JY were not just stuck together in poly for 3 years but later posted to the same platoon for BMT and as well as the same bunk..haha..then later posted to the same unit in NDU..hahaa..funny huh..but i suppose its a little like me and michele..same primary school, same secondary school, same cca in secondary school, same class in JC and now doing pretty much all the same modules in NUS..woah..wonder if we'll get the chance to work together..hurhur..
anyway..back to last night..went to marche to have dinner..which meant jy had to walk all the way back to suntec..hahaa..and he told me to meet him at city hall so i wouldnt have to walk all the way to suntec then to city hall..hahaa..yeah..he suggested suntec just cause he saw on my wishlist i wanted to have dinner at marche..heehee..thanks dear..

needless to say..food was aplenty..haha..but with two bottomless pits around (not me of course) it wasnt that much of a problem finishing up the food..food was ok i guess..not that fantastic but i did enjoy my seafood combo platter..yummy..always loved the tempura prawns and soft-shell crabs..heh..and who could forget dessert? in fact..i think i go to marche mainly for the dessert..hahaa..i would have gladly just had dessert for dinner but i dont think jy would approve..hurhur..we 3 had to share a plate of caramel banana crepe with ice cream though..all 3 of us were just too stuffed...

walked down to the esplanade after that..was really empty..guess because it was raining the whole day..but yeah..was nice and cool..the city skyline always looks so nice at night..went to max brenner later..hahaa..eat again...TJ had some alcoholic+choc drink, i had a strawberry with white chocolate shake and jy had this suckao thingy..its like they give you this little gadget that has a candle underneath and a metal bowl thingy on top..and with choc bits and milk..and so you melt the two together and drink it up..haha..sorry for the really lousy description..i didnt have my camera with me last night..yeah..and seriously..one could get a high from all that chocolate..haha..and thanks TJ for the sweet treat! literally. ha.

definitely enjoyed myself.
guess i really have to learn to give people and myself a chance as what jy told me while waiting for the train home.
thanks TJ for being so friendly and full of nonsense.
thanks JY for being so encouraging.

(:

this morning he called me and i was feeling so under the weather that i sounded like a grouch.
then i rejected his offer flatly to go upstairs to watch the hongkong serial with his mum.
and then a while later i sent him an sms which wasnt exctly very pleasant.
but it did say why i was feeling like an absolute nasty little thing.
well.
instead of being pissed and fed up with me...
he came down to give me a hug.
a very much-needed reassuring hug.

thanks dear.
it meant the world to me.

(:

tomorrow will be the first day of school after about a month of pure bumming around.
yeaps.
tomorrow is the first day of year2 semester 2 2006.
hmm.
maybe i should make some "school resolutions".
hurhur.
okok.
lets see...
umm...
No Cs, all Bs and above, and at least one A! (A- and A+ all counted.hurhur.)
i will not skip more than...er...a few tutorials and lectures.
hahahahahahaa.
sorry. but that resolution, i know, i will not adhere to so lets be realistic shall we.
haha.
okok.
one more.
i will speak up more during tutorial and hopefully try to get some marks out of tutorial discussions and participation.
there we go.
now on to the more important stuff......

im gonna be doing a lot of "meetings" tomorrow!
how exciting.
first day of school. well. at least its gonna start with a bang. i hope. sorta.
haha.
okok.
starting of with meeting jun yuan for breakkie tmr morning at 715. hahahaa. early.
then meeting kaisheng at the interchange at 820.
then meeting mish for lecture at 10.
then meeting wee wee for lunch at the arts canteen at 12.
then meeting amanda and benny at the co-op at 145.
then meeting mish at 3 to go down to bugis (n find out wat in e world is a clutch pencil!)
then meeting jun yuan for dinner at 6.

wow.
that sounds like fun doesnt it.
ha.
i cant wait!
hmm.
u notice i havent exactly mentioned anything about school itself.
hahahahahaha.
i dont want school to start.
if not for all these meetings, i might just sleep in.
hurhur.
thanks God for His immaculate timing.
all these "meeting" invites came flooding in.
but the meetings with jun yuan are my idea. hee.

alright.
im off.
to bed.
tomorrow will be the first time since end november that i will be waking up so darn early.
*bleah.
night ya'll.
cheers to a brand new year and a brand new semester!
(:

the very first week of a brand new year and already old bad habits are manifesting as they always have been..
sigh..
bad bad baddddddd start to the year 2006..

but i suppose on the more optimistic end..there are things to thank God for..
not in retrospect looking back on last year but rather within the few days of the new beginning..

ok so results came out last year but it was the year end so it counts ok..haha..and besides..i havent exactly blogged about it have i? well..results were..disappointing..i didnt get the B+ i was hoping for for intro to computing and the other results were just mediocre..tsk..but i got a rather shocking surprise (note the juxtaposition here..i really dont know if i shld b happy or not) when i got a B+ for Asian American Lit..like hello..me and michele only went for like 4 lectures? and attended give and take about 6 tutorials? hahaaaa..oh well..think either my bull-shitting skills really showed itself during the exam paper or everyone else did very badly..hahaaa..so yeah..results..phooey..there goes first class honours..hurhur..

on the brighter side of life..thank God that this year CORS decided to be nice to me and mishie moo..only 2 rounds of utter nonsense and senseless bidding of exorbitant amounts of points and we manage to get all the modules we want..of course theres a price to pay (literally) as now im broke in terms of points..hahaa..might have to settle for rubbish modules next semester..hurhur..but yeah..just wanna enjoy this semester and do well..think i should be camping out more in the library this semester..hurhur..find me and michele in the central library every tuesday 12 to 5! after which i shall run off to suntec to meet jy..hurhur..whatttttt..must have something to look forward to right..motivation to stay in school to study..heehee..*grin
oh yeah..also thank God that me and michele only have to bid for 2 tutorial time slots so that should ease the headache on tutorial bidding..yeah..cause 3 out of 5 modules are like either e-seminar or sectional teaching..which means..3hrs lectures..hahaaa..yeahhh..oh well..u cant always have your cake and eat it..
oohhhhhhh..how can i forget..if all goes well with tutorial bidding..im gonna have another semester of 3day weeks!!!
*WOOHOO!

so..
looking forward to this year..
kinda..
sorta..
looking forward to chinese new year..and church camp..and hopefully a shopping trip to bangkok in june..
yeah..
but on the flip side..
its gonna be a really really long year without someone...
sigh..

its a battle of wanting time to stand still but yet fly by..

New year resolutions...
have you done yours?
or are they merely a repeat from last year?

ok so im about 3 days late but better late than never right?
new year resolutions..lets see..
i honestly have no idea..
i mean..the things i resolve to do every year kinda seems the same..
not exactly the same same but you know..like..theyre all about the same thing..
oh well..
guess its cause it takes a lot for people to actually get down to changing?
haha..
im definitely included..
everyones resistant to change arent they..
but sadly..
change is the only constant..

well..here goes:
-speak up more during tutorials
-be more concerned abt e ppl ard me (a.k.a b less spoilt)
-eat more..or rather more healthily
-have more self-confidence

so there you have it..
kat's four main resolutions for the year 2006..
i wonder what God has installed for me..
whatever it is..i know He'll be there for me..
(: