my mum has already given the stamp of approval.
im allowed to go to Perth during my september break.
but but but.
right now 2 things stand in the way of my happiness...

1. where in the world am i gonna get $800? (all donations big and small are most welcome.hur.just kidding)
2. jim needs to get his leave approved and comfirmed. i'm not allowed to fly alone.

sigh.
oh well.
but if its gonna happen, it will happen.
optimism is what im known for and it'll keep me going.
and of course the fact that i'm gonna be seeing him in only 51 days keeps me hoping for the best. (:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and my mooks tshirt (which is patiently waiting for me in perth)!




to kel:
haha. looks like i'm not the only silly person caught up in a long-d r/s huh. well as hard as it is, it's all worth it right? especially if you know at the end of all the waiting the both of you have a long future ahead.. its tough but what to do..no choice right..haha. hang in there yeah! (:

its already been a week since he left.
and no unfortunately i cant say "oh how time flies" because it didnt.
it was quite a draggy week actually. haha.
my boredom coupled with the fact that i have to get used to the fact that he's no longer just 11 floors above me and that i have to contend myself with the webcam and skype made it even more draggy than it already was.
but like you said.."contentment may be a vital ingredient to happiness..."
oh well. not like i have much of a choice do i. heh. but it'll do. really. its enough (:

anyway, here's the best way to sum up all those beautiful memories we shared in the past month:

Nopes. its definitely not my handiwork. all the credit goes to him. except of course he couldnt have done it without the help of my sony W1. hurhur. but yeah. its lovely. too lovely not to put it on my blog. *bigbigbiggrin

17 more weeks to endure. boohoohoo. haha. :)

i officially have an absolutely crap timetable.
boohoohoo.
everyday i have to go to school.
tsk.
but thanks so so so much to my dear who helped me replan my timetable i might just get wednesday off.
but as it is, i have to go to school for just ONE PATHETIC HOUR on friday.
for a lit tutorial.
ONE HOUR. FRIDAY.
killjoy.
hurhur.

im pretty worried about the workload too.
most probably will have to do 4 lit modules this semester.
sigh.
but its gonna be ok.
more worried about the cost of the books actually.
haha.
dad is so not gonna be too happy.
*grin

guess i still want school to start despite all the nonsense mentioned above.
cause school and all its busy-ness will (hopefully) cause time to pass with the speed of a bullet train.
18 weeks and counting down...

the carl's jr coupons are still waiting for you...

went into JB yesterday with my favourite neighbours Wang (or as we all call him "wayne) and Lily.

and as usual. it was such a blast.
would have been a whole lot more fun if you were there though.
mum already said that you can come with us when ure back.
gosh. see how much my parents (espcially my mum) loves you? *grin

had sushi for lunch. not too bad i guess..but give me sakae anytime. sakae has so much more to offer in terms of variety. service is quite good i must say. they provide an unlimited refil of freshly brewed green tea unlike here where all we get is one measely tea bag. haha.

shopping is ok. mum got a levis top. tsk. was too big for me. horrid. haha.
bought two tops and a pair of paul frank shorts.
and of course..i just couldnt forget someone even though he's all the way in perth can i?
got him a stussy tshirt and a green/yellow polo tee to match his green/yellow nike shoes.
haha. colour coordinated. smthg im well-known for. hur hur.
too bad ure gonna have to wait till your birthday to get it. and i think by the time i ship over all the stuff i bought (and most probably will be buying for you till then) i'd have a big crate to send over. haha.
*bigfatgrin

enjoy the photos
(:

Wayne and Lily (and some kpo bugger behind)

dad, mum, me

this photo is specially for you JY

(u cant find softshell crabs and this sorta crabstick in perth. *cheekygrin)

so here i am sitting in front of my lappy eating my banana walnut muffin i bought from coffee bean.

he's already somewhere in the wide open sky flying towards perth.

i didnt cry.
haha.
i didnt even feel like crying.
its amazing. really. i honestly thought i would at least shed a few tears.
even when i hugged him i was smiling.

i guess i know why i so willingly let him go.
i bet you know too huh. *grin

haha.
just now was also meet the parents sessions.
no not me meeting his and he meeting mine but rather they meeting each other.
hurhur.
maybe we can start discussing marriage plans.
hahahaha.

im happy.
im smiling.
im thinking of you.
and of how ull be back so soon.
cant wait to see you in a few hours time.
cant wait to hear your voice again.

alrighty. need to sleep. after i finish the muffin. heh.
its so weird. haha. im smiling. laughing.
and suddenly i do feel like crying.
because i definitely do miss u.
a lot.
(:

you know what..you still owe me roses!

as much as i am prepared to let him go its just the moments leading up to it thats the most difficult and not to mention painful.
coming home alone just now was already bad enough.
feels weird taking the train alone
and with him the walk home seems too short, but without him i dont even think twice about taking the 112 home.
sorry i was so quiet and a lil grouchy just now.
my tiredness coupled with a heavy heart just wasnt doing me any good.
just wanted to try and squeeze out as much time as i could with you.

heh.
im laughing because i feel so silly.
im typing as if he's never coming back again.
but on the contrary he'll be back real soon.
there's so much to look forward to once ure back.
bangkok will definitely be a highlight. really wanna travel with you. i just know we'll have a blast.
then it'll be back to our daily night strolls, suppers, ba kut teh at chinatown, cleaning up (and out) my wardrobe, more baking, you cooking for me, me making breakfast while u read the papers, aimless walking around town, long bus journeys with my head on your shoulders and eyes closed with a smile on my face, doing new and crazy things i never thought i'd do because im with you, and okok, we will walk kenny. (and hopefully u wont leave me hanging..*bigfatcheekygrin)

meanwhile, we both gotta study. study hard.
so i guess the arrangement is rather beneficial.
during school term we concentrate on work.
during the holidays we fully enjoy ourselves.
c'est magnifique.

all the beautiful memories you've blessed me with the past month will barely be enough to last me through the next 4 months.
so come back soon ok?
(:

ok let me try to squeeze in a really quick post before jy calls.

15th July 2005:
helped jy pack in the morning.
my goodness. cant stand the way he folds his tshirts..or rather the lack of folding them. haha.
he doesnt even bother to iron his tshirts. c'est terrible.
looks like im gonna be doing all his ironing when i go over next year.
which i dont mind if it means i get to see him wearing button down shirts more often. *grin

met his mum and god-sis and her husband at singtel hello.
his mum wanted to sign a new line and give jy the new hp.
bet she did that just for you..doubt she needs the line at all (:
lunch at macs at the request of jy's mum. haha. can see she was really enjoying the food.

after lunch it was full swing into shopping gear.
what i bought:
havaianas, esprit leather belt, beaded necklace, 2 levis tops.

what i bought for jy:
levis square cut jeans (which i think he looks absolutely good in them. hurhur.)

what jy bought for me:
3 pairs of earrings, a cloth sash, 2 bottles of water (hahahaaaaa)

rushed down to queensway to meet his parents and chris.
but well well wel. we were early. hur. haha.
and i bought a pair of shoes there. the same pair i was eyeing at the nike concept shop at heeren.
and it was cheaper by about 11bucks?
the pair jy wanted was even better. $137 at the nike shop. $90 at queensway.
thank goodness i didnt insist on buying it for him at orchard. haha. *sheepish grin
and thanks for making me buy the shoes. haha. i love it.
my limited edition silver/pink waffle racer.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

dinner with his family but too bad i didnt get to try the food from the zhi cha stall he liked.
the place renovated and the shop was nowhere to be found.
the dinner experience was ok i guess. ('cept that eenie weenie bitty part but its ok (: )
really need to (desperately) brush up on my chinese if im gonna be more comfortable communicating with jy's mum.
oh and the green bean soup was really good. haha. i actually finished the whole bowl. but thats no surprise issit. dessert always has room reserved for it in my tummy. hurhur.

oh well. today's his last day here before he flies off.
im ok though. rather prepared to let him go actually. dont really wanna shed any tears at the airport later either. heh.
besides he'll be back in about 18 weeks time.
and time is just gonna whizz pass once school starts.
gonna be missing my perfect shopping partner for sure.
haha. maybe its a good thing. i'll be able to save money. hurhur.
which i really need to. kat is really broke now anyway. haha. and gotta start saving for bangkok!

hurry up and call me leh.....

a brief look into kat's past week...

thurs:
went to CPK. service was actually good. haha. how many eating places can actually boast good quality service right? hurhur. ordered the peking duck pizza. it was definitely yummilicious..but..er..i dont think i really tasted the duck..hahaaha..but it doesnt matter cause the dessert more than made up for it. tiramisu and chocolate souffle. my goodness. u should have seen my expression when that scoop of absolute sinfulness mingled with my tastebuds. hurhur.
company was excellent. haha. needless to say. huh huh huh? *grin
thanks for the gift. the beautiful gift. and its staying on.

sat:
dim sum with my parents and my favourite neighbours at Xin Cantonese Restaurant at Concorde Hotel. once again i (and mr chin) have the luxury of enjoying good food. love it. its like top quality dim sum. nothing like your usual crystal jade fare. practically every dish was delicious. especially the "bear's paw" and the deep fried custard buns. thank goodness you came along so i had someone to share everything with. heh. gave me the chance to try more dishes. hurhur.

dinner with the relatives that same night. and finally cheryl got to meet jy after always talking to him on MSN when she's at my place. it was quite hilarious actually. she asked me if she could "talk to the boy" and i quickly (while trying hard to stifle my chuckles) smsed jy and asked him to come down. when she saw him she was shocked. shocked. hahaha. very cute. and my dear little lisa asked him if he was "the boy from the computer". hurhur. too bad you didnt manage to sample my mum's chicken wings. at least not this time. but hey now u can try out the steamed minced meat and tofu when ure in perth.

sun:
paid a visit to jy's church. thank God for edwin cause i think if i had to go there alone..i might have just backed out from it. service was definitely different, not in terms of sequence but rather the usage of a full band as well as the display of emotions. ultimately, we're worshipping the same God and it really doesnt matter how we do it. as long as the heart is real and sincere. besides its for God to see and know it. not those around us.
im glad i went. might wanna go for the edge one of the saturdays.
joined jy and his friends (jingsi, dionne, evie, edwin, shane, jane, jason, david, david's gf, joshua..did i get everyone correct?) for joshua's farewell dinner. the funny thing was joshua wasnt even at service that night and they made him take a cab all the way to tampines just to have BK. haha. poor fella. heh.

oh yeah, gotta remember to pass edwin the mockingbird book to pass to jane.

mon:
back to tampines again. under the hands of elly jy is now sonic no more but rather knuckles. even the colour is alike. haha. orange. i highlighted my hair too. red. but not too obvious. nice. haha. at least i think its nice. probably colour smthg more obvious the next time when he's back.
next stop was the airport to send joshua off. didnt like being there one bit. sigh. oh well.

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. hahahah. while we were walking out of the condo in the morning, we walked past one of the aunties (that i know) and my mum who were sitting by the fountain. and she commented "your boy boy very handsome ah". hahahhahaa. well done.

tues:
candy empire at millenia walk totally rocks. my goodness. its a shop catered to my every sweetoothoverdrive needs. haha. such an amazing assortment of chocolates and candies and biscuits and sweets and whatnot. haha. and jy realised that someone beat him to bringing in the chips from aussie that he's been raving about (which incidentally i havent actually tried it). bought chocolates and i actually intended to be really selfish and have all. hahaa. but but but. i shared ok. hahaa. good stuff.

went up to the roof terrace at the esplanade. the city skyline looks rather awesome at night. too bad the photos didnt come out as nice as it looked. too dark. *shrugs. wanted to try this drink thing (i think, cant remember, what was it again?) from max brenner but was a bit too late. tsk. such a waste. let's see if im patient enough to wait till ure back or if my sweetooth pushes me to go have it without u. haha.

wed:
i know i set my alarm for 9am but i slept right through it. and then a phone call came. which i almost ignored thinking it was my alarm. haha. as much as i hate to be suddenly woken up, this call was different. heh. waiting outside my door was a special delivery of mac breakfast and an even more special delivery boy. haha. i cant ask for a better way to wake up. *grin

and so here i am. typing this blog entry. while ure on the line.
tomorrow i'll be seeing you bright and early to go get the ingredients for the pineapple upside down cake (that hopefully i wont be baking alone) for your mum.
probably we'd go for our daily night walk again tomorrow night.
but tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow there will be no more.
no more seeing you first thing in the morning and last thing before i close my eyes in slumber.

i'm really not sure if u read my blog.
but seriously.
get a life.
quit wallowing in self-pity.
its not gonna help.
and its driving me absolutely nuts.
and its not just me, its the people around you.
sheesh.
no one can help you if ure not gonna help yourself.

2 months.
barely enough.
i want more.
and more.
more.
u.

i always believe there are only two ways you can react to any situation.

one creates trouble.
the other keeps things in place.

what else can i say.
my parents love him lah.
hurhur.

"so junyuan(in my mum's attempt at pronouncing chinese names) ure joining us for lunch tmr."

HA.

lunch was great.albeit the rather awful food.
cartel's standard is dropping.seriously.but i think its just that outlet.
dont ever go to suntec's cafe cartel. you have been warned.
but the dessert was good.but then again, how can you go wrong with dessert?
*grin.
more importantly, the situation i was worrying about never surfaced.
in fact it turned out better than expected.
especially between my brother and JY.
and even more importantly, i dont have to tell my parents anything.
officially, i dare say theyre ok with us.
*kat dances around
im happy.
*big grin
(:

really glad we had the talk by the river.
brought up quite a bit of important issues.
thanks.
for asking the questions.
and making me talk.
i mean every single word i said.

finally, let me repeat again.
u have no idea how fun it is to have your bf stay in the same condo tower as you.
seriously.
im having such a blast.
hur hur.
see u later for fruits and baileys+icecream.

so..adidas or esprit?

hmm.
you know i honestly dont believe ive ever had so much activities planned out ahead me before.
the past two weeks has been quite a mad rush i must say.
day in day out there always seemed to be something to do.

breakfasts, lunches, dinners,suppers.
town, shopping, movies.
vcd, dvd, naps.
muffin making.
photo-taking.
zoo.birthday.icecream.
meeting new faces.
going to new places.
lovely night walks.

and ive already got next week lined up for me:
monday: lunch with mum and dad (on leave..again.haha) and bro (off for him frm army) @ P.S cafe cartel at dad's request
tuesday: meeting up with swi, fish, nic, meiyen, gina and michele @ holland V (y so far...)
wednesday: frog leg and tau huay supper @ geylang with my two lovelies, and of course my very safe driver.hurhur.
thursday: so..have u decided what to do and where to eat? huh huh huh. haha. *grin
friday: anime in the morning, cookies in the afternoon?
saturday: dim sum with my favourite neighbours
sunday: sunday school! always looked forward to it..amazing how we never run out of new things to learn from the bible (:

*phew.
cheers to another jam-packed week ahead.

Friday, Feb 11, 2005
"Ed made me recognize one very important factor today.He said that at the end of all the searching, if two people wanted to be together they had to be open and have fun chatting with each other.He asked me to imagine not being able to crap with my boyfriend and commented how boring that would be."

edwin, you have no idea how true your advice is.
(:

im lazy to blog.but.for the sake of those who actually read my blog.here goes:

the zoo was FUN on wednesday.
and thank God it didnt rain (and no Gina its not just cause it was your birthday.hurhur.) and He provided us with awesome cloudy weather.
the animals all seemed rather bored...and hot...and dusty.
and the polar bears are still algae-ish.
ben&jerrys was yummy.but the girl gave us such small scoops.think she didnt have enough strength to cut through the cold hard icecream.
moral of the story? look for someone stronger to serve u the icecream.HA.
took loads of photos.the funnier ones are starring michele, gina and jun yuan.kat isnt known for doing such silly things.hur hur.i cant believe im such good friends with them.
photos will be up..er..soon.heh.

went for suki sushi buffet at cineleisure on thursday.
met up with jim, amanda and alex.
gosh.that has to be the fastest buffet i ever had.haha.
i do wanna go back though.haha.i wanna sit there and slowly enjoy my sashimi.
for some strange reason the whole thing was just too fast.not to mention we were ordering food fast and furious. so much so we had food coming that we didnt even order.haha.
and DONT EVER ORDER THE OYSTERS. its not that bad. just. er. weird. hurhur.
watched initial D with JY and Phyllis. (hello phyllis if ure reading thing..haha (: )
the girl is redundant. she's not exactly pretty, not exactly slender and not exactly likeable.
she was in fact rather ugly, rather plump and rather whiny. haha.
but the story was not too bad..edison chen and shawn yue saved the day with their brooding bad boy looks.hur hur.i like.HA. and mr jay chou shld stick to singing.

well..todays already Friday..
this week has been really fun..out just about everyday..
the wallet is going on a forced diet though..haha..got nothing to feed it with..
but.BUT.its ok.
time spent with him is priceless.
and ive only got 2 more weeks left.
*sigh

to my two lovelies:
cheers to the three of us being best buds in and out of NUS!
i love you two so so so so sooooooooooooo much.
and im pretty sure u two know that.
haha.
next week!
Supper!
Bikini shopping!
sushi buffet!
better start praying we have enough money..hurhur.
and tell me when u two are free ok?
*kisses aplenty

and of course..to a very special person:
thanks for coming down to meet me at compasspoint despite you being so tired after a day at sentosa..
hope ure having a good rest now..
dont scratch and drink more water!
oh and mum&dad wants u to come down later to have the cake with us..
remind me to ask them about going to JB on monday yeah..
heh.i think they really really like you.
*big fat grin
(: