maybe its just a girl thing that i think of marriage and getting married.
any feminist would probably scoff at my such thoughts and tell me that i dont need men.
but that isnt the point.
during a rather interesting conversation, someone brought up the notion of wanting to enjoy at least a few years of freedom, which was later clarified and specified as "financial freedom".
i suppose i couldnt help but feel a tad bit irked at the remark.
it, consciously or unconsciously, implies that im being an imposing figure who takes away this much revered entity called "freedom".
it also really doesnt help that we're in a long distance relationship.
as i have told many people, in the form of advice, it just isnt worth it to be caught up in a LDR if you know that it probably wouldnt end up with marriage.
the stress and distance doesnt justify.

dont worry, we talked about it and all is well.
but it really got me thinking.
am i really rushing into it? by just thinking and talking about it? by simply wanting it?
maybe im just worried that it isnt going to be easy to sustain a relationship for another 4 or 5 years without any concrete plans or at least intentions.
dont get me wrong, im not saying that im foreseeing we break up, but rather im being realistic.

*sigh*
only time will tell how the story ends up.
in the mean time, all we can do is listen, compromise, understand, endure
and most of all
LOVE.









i love you.