just a quick update about today, my first day of exams:

woke up at a miserable 0555 and got out of the house at 0640 to catch the 650 shuttle bus to hougang interchange to board the 0705 bus number 165 to reach michele's house at 745 so that we could catch a cab latest by 0800 to reach school by 0845.
hahahahahahahahaha.
seriously, thats how i run my life. organized. precise. the timing all mapped out.
sometimes its a good thing, somethings it annoys the hell outta me.
but im not blogging about this today, maybe some other time. haha.
moving on.........

there was a traffic jam! and the stupid taxi driver....i bet he was out to cheat our money! twice he asked us which route to take and twice he took the route stated otherwise. bahhh. as a result we got into an avoidable jam on the way to school. which was horrible. it made me and michele feel rather sick in the stomach. tsk.

shakespeare exam was just. simple. plainly put. B-A-D. argh. and i was so frustrated as i read the passage given because the words were printed so small and the printing itself wasnt very good so it was kinda faded and not clear enough. i read the first paragraph and completely skipped it to do the second question first. BAH. these people should attend my visual comm class, especially the lecture on typography. word space, font size and leading all affects readability! HA!

went to munchie monkeys for lunch after the paper..its like the usual hang out for lunch when i have two papers in a day..hurhur..shared wedges and calamari with mish..but i gotta say that most sadly..the standard of their food has gone down..even the quantity..shrugs..oh well..was still not too bad i guess..met nicole..and we had a pretty good time chatting and finding out more about switzerland, her exchange programme and her plans before heading back home..sounds so exciting..my parents would never let me go backpacking..haha..soon after..we migrated to an empty couch..and saw shaun..haha..after a while shaun joined us permanently after his friend left and the four of us started crapping..haha..it was a lot of fun..too bad we only got to do this on the last day we officially met as a class..heh..later Erin and Allana joined us too..and we nua-ed around for a good hour or more before heading to MSPH6 for the paper..ohhhh! and how could i forget to say that i had my brownie! haha! i was a very happy kat after the brownie. hurhur.

visual com paper was ok..it was really like an art exam..i did feel kinda sorry for the guy sitting on the left side of me..while i was busy colouring and drawing and making a lot of noise erasing and outlining..he was struggling with math problems..hahaha..and to make it all worse..the students doing the NM modules left early..some even before the first hour..haha..i think they must have wanted to tear their hairs out..hahaha..too bad..heh..well..i really didnt expect mr reddy to make us design something so big..we had to design the cover of a metal pencil case for children..haha..when i saw the size of the outline of the pencil case i was like...oh-oh...panic panic..haha..but it turned out ok..managed to squeeze out some brain+creative juices and design it..finished in about an hour and twenty minutes...

right now..im dead tired..i planned to read my interactive media readings but i think im gonna shove it..haha..for now..the brain needs some TLC..and tons of sleep!

will my exams hurry on up and get started?

haha..ok now thats something you dont often hear about the dreaded exams do you? welllll..im really sick and tired of all this waiting around..its like..ive run out of things to study..ok..disclaimer here..its not that ive done my revision till im a complete pro at it and can rattle it off like the back of my hand..but rather..its the monotony of reading something over and over again..and you jolly well know that heck you wont be able to memorize every single little detail..phish..i really cant wait for the exams to start tomorrow..cause by 4:30pm tomorrow i would have completed 2 papers..haha..but then the waiting starts all over again because my next paper isnt until next wednesday..bah..but it should be a little better..considering i havent really started on my lit and other art module..hurhur..

other than the exams..nothings been going on..boringggg..bored bored bored..ive been nua-ing at home the past three days flipping through pieces of paper (otherwise known as notes) and trying my best to suddenly turn into a sponge so i can soak up all the information and quotes and names and lines and what not..bah..shakespeare is getting on my nerves..i'll be a much happier kat when this paper is over..haha..and then there's visual comm..which i dont even know why they bother to have an exam..its only 20%..and its like art exam..where we have to design stuff..and it only has a meagre 3 open-ended questions..haha..oh well..by the time both papers are over i think i would be brain dead and wrung dry of whatever creative juices i have (which isnt much to begin with..hurhur).

okok..i better be off to read my notes..on and ending note..to all those who have finished their exams or are about to finish....i dont wanna heard about it. at all. not even a single word..............

if money was not an issue, id keep my handphone in this:



(dont worry. im just dreaming. hurhur.)
(back to the books!)

second post of the day:


i cant help but realise that i never actually pursued my interests.
in primary school, i excitedly tried out for the choir knowing how much i enjoyed singing.
the teacher in charge told me i couldnt sing.
for a primary 3 kid, that was quite devastating.
i enjoy dancing.
did quite a few performances for school.
primary 6, secondary school, dance society in srjc.
but after i went to acjc, things changed.
i couldnt stand to be in front of so many people.

so what is all this hype about being bold and pursuing your dreams?
its more like chasing after the wind.
working towards something you wont be able to grasp or see.

now im in NUS.
a typical and systematic product of the singapore educational system.
what have i achieved in my life?
im not too sure myself.
i love literature.
i did well in secondary school and JC.
it stemmed from my love of reading Psalms and all the beautiful imagery in the bible.
what am i doing now?
studying literature half-heartedly.
doing a shared major.
even my dreams of mass media has died down so much i cant even find the glow.
yeah new media is interesting.
i did quite ok for visual comm. i learnt alot.
but it isnt self-satisfying anymore.
nothing seems to be.
im just riding along.
acceptable grades, passing each semester, surviving each exam, churning out ok essays.

i think i lost my drive.

well, drive or no drive, i still have to study.
browse through rather.
whatever.
it doesnt matter to me anymore.

ive just changed from using IE to firefoz mozilla..at the instruction of my brother after a most unfortunate spate of consecutive events that my lappy went down..he claims is better and a lot faster..hmm..*rubs chin..im not sure about that actually..but it does work differently..in the sense that it waits and receives all the infomation it needs to load and then shows u a fully loaded page instead of IE whereby all the different stuff on the page take its own sweet time to download..haha..im ok with that actually..usually im quite impatient and just click as soon as i see the buttons i need..*shrugs..when it comes to technology i can be uber impatient..haha..you should ask michele or my brother..when the page takes just a little longer than immediate to load (i always assume it should be that way since im using broadband) i start telling my lappy that its slow and stupid..hahahaha..maybe it finally had enough of me and rebelled! technology against the humans! ahhhh!!!!!

ok..sorry..that was just me being silly..as usual..haha..and doing everything else but studying..hurhur..i guess its always the case..we do everything else but what we're supposed to be doing..i was just reading in my reading package that people naturally and instinctively do things out of convenience..in the sense..they do have some stuff that they know they have to do..things like go to the supermarket..check my email..find out more about the buffet offer that the UOB card is giving..haha..and the principle is that i'll go to the supermarket if im near by..i'll check my email if im at my computer..i'll find out more about the buffet if im near the telephone..and only when they place special importance on something then will they actually make the effort to do it..interesting huh..its something we do everyday..but we never actually realise it until we read it..haha..these people really have nothing better to do huh..then to just think of life..hurhur..

i just checked out the past exam papers of shakespeare..and..well..looks like i have a lot of studying to do..hahahaha..thats the common conclusion i draw whenever i check out the exam papers..heehee..*sheepish grin..oh well..it works as a sort of..er..motivation i guess..haha..more like do or die! yeah..but at least we only need to answer two questions..which is a good thing..the usual 3 essays in 2 hours is just pure insanity..but thats gonna be the structure for lit and other art..haha..but its the last paper..so..yeah..hurhur..and someone kindly tell me what is the structure for interactive media? PLEASE? since the department couldnt release the paper due to some copyright issues..tsk tsk tsk..wonder whats in the paper..hmmmm..haha..anyway..thank God that i only have four papers this semester..four papers in three days..but its ok..im the kind who likes to get things over and done with..so yeah..but im still grumbling about my last two papers starting at 5pm...5pm leh..by that time ur brain just stops functioning and starts to think of dinner and sleep..and possibly tv..hahahaa..hopefully my parents will be coming to pick me up on those two days..haha..thats good news for u too mishie moo!

and finally..to those people who tagged on my tagboard..u guys are horrible lah..when i had a tagboard u dont tag..only after it finally died due to negligence..you guys suddenly give me an influx of tags!!! hmmm...is that like a reflection of our innate desire to vandalise anything clean and new and empty? hahaha..okok..too much shakespeare..its making me too analytical..but seriously..for all you know shakespeare is laughing and turning in his grave..at all these poor pathetic souls who are studying his work and filling it up with meaning he never intended..hahaha..we'll never know will we..BUT BUT BUT..its always nice to know people are still reading my blog..haha..yes yes gina..i havent seen u for ages..and to my brother..i never knew u were reading my blog..haha..and to cherie toh! lets try to meet up during the long holz alright?

(notice the change in fonts..apparantly sans-serif fonts are easier to read on a low resolution computer monitor..haha..i learnt it in visual comm class!)

"hath never fed of the danties that are bred in a book;
he hath not eat paper, as it were; he hath not drunk ink
his intellect is not replenisht; he is only an animal,
only sensible in the duller parts"
~Nathaniel to Holofernes, Love's Labour's Lost

I love this video! hurhur.
closet jay chou junkie.
hahahahaha.
ok maybe not thatttt closet.
hurhur.
(:

so here i am in the central library of NUS.
it has been such a wasted trip today.
i didnt get my two main objectives done.

i had wanted to print out the assignments for my portfolio but clever me forgot to bring along my A3 sized folder..no point i printing out the stuff than cumpling them on the way home..so yeah..so much for that..i havent exactly finished typing my learning reports either soooo..phooey...

the next on my agenda was to watch the tempest video for my shakespeare module..but lo and behold..the girl right in front of my and michele beat us to it..and my goodness gracious me..she was the most annoying girl in the world..at least for today..the librarians asked her how long the show was..and since it was going to take a really long time of 2 and a half hours..the librarians asked her if it was ok to share it with us..like all 3 of us watching it together..but..BUT..she gave us this really constipated arrogant look and said a flat no..because she wanted to have the liberty of taking her time and stopping the video as and when she wanted..right..she had such a slappable face i think i would have slapped her..tsk..and like michele said..she though such people only existed in horror movies..tsk tsk tsk..we should have annoyed her by purposely standing behind her as she watched the movie..hahahahaha..but of course we didnt lah..

so yeah..rather unfruitful trip all the way to NUS..but at least i managed to get a little extra information about walcott and dabydeen as well as draw a few more sketches in my sketchbook..and finished reading the readings i photostated this morning..oh well..i didnt accomplish as much as i wanted to..sigh..looks like its gonna be another really late night for me today and back to school again on wednesday..bah..i hate non-aircon buses!

life has its many little ironies.
but some little ones have enormous repercussions.
well, at least at that point in time when it occurs.

so whats this little irony of mine?
i was studying for my cybercrime test.
(take note of what test it was cause it plays a big part in this irony.)
i was surfing the internet, trying to find out what a mod is.
i was chatting to JY online.
suddenly, my windows alerted me to a virus intrusion.
i scanned it but somehow the software didnt work.
and so my computer crashed on me.
kapish, died, dead, gone.

ok first reaction was to scream and yell for my brother.
BUT, it was 1am in the morning so that wasnt a very good idea.
next reaction?
sulk, get frustrated, get pissed and lash it out at whoever was the nearest to me.
ok. so maybe not the nearest since i vented on JY since i was on google talk with him.
(see? another little irony of life.)
sigh. poor boy had to endure my nonsense for about an hour while i grumbled and complained and got kinda sarcastic as i tried to save whatever data i could bu burning them into CDs.
thanks dear. for just being so patient. thanks for waiting up with me though i was being an absolute pain in the ass.
heh.
*sheepish smile

but my lappy is working again thanks to my techie brother.
my C drive was reformatted and up and running within about an hour.
and so i was fortunate enough not to have to survive one day without my lappy!
yay!

in the computer lab blogging now though..haha..bored..waiting for visual com class to start..to present the story book me and michele did..

the whole process of making the storybook was a long and tedious and very very expensive one. i think the whole experience has taught the both of us a lot and perhaps made us even closer friends. and we also learnt how to be more dependable and accountable.
but we had our fair share of a lot of fun, laughing at each other, and ranting about the high cost of this module!
i love you babe. no matter what. its really been a great semester doing all the same modules as you.
(:

oh well. after all the money that has already been spent, theres still more to be wasted away when i print out all the stuff i need for my portfolio submission. which means. no more shopping for the time being i suppose. haha. thats gonna be quite the impossible. but i suppose it helps that i dont really have the time to go shopping. tsk. argh. but i was supposed to find a white top and bottom for choir tomorrow! amazingly, ive joined the choir. haha. more like i didnt have a choice. but its interesting i guess. gonna be singing for good friday tomorrow. hopefully i'll remember how the song goes. hurhur. lets just see how it turns out tmr shall we?

alright. think im running out of things to say here. typing on this keyboard is really noisy. haha.
cant wait for the weekend!

(:

TULIP PLANTING
Saturday 27 May and 10 June and Sunday 28 May and 11 June

The tulip bulbs are chilling down nicely in the cool room and all we need now is many willing hands to help put them in the ground. The annual planting of tulip bulbs at Araluen Botanic Park has become a tradition formany families and groups. So why not put on your gardening clothes and get acquainted with mother earth and join us in the enjoyable task of planting tulips. You will be rewarded with a delicious morning tea courtesy of Araluen, so bring a friend, bring the family or just come alone you will be very welcome.

I wanna go!!!!

sponsors? donors?

anyone wants to go to perth?

haha

(:

and just to wet your appetite:

and so they say,
"out of sight, out of mind"
and why this way?
"i've got no money, i've got no time".

and this song dedication goes out to....

You.

"Get to Me"
-Train

Well an airplane's faster than a Cadillac
And a whole lot smoother than a camel's back
But I don't care how you get to me
Just get to me

Parasail or first class mail
Get on the back of a Nightingale
Just get to me
I don't care just get to me

Prokeds, mopeds take a limousine instead
They ain't cheap but they're easy to find
Get on the highway point yourself my way
Take a roller coaster that comes in sideways
Just get to me

Go on hitch a ride on the backof a butterfly
There's no better way to fly
To get to me
I look around at what I got
And without you, it ain't a lot
But I got everything, with you, everything

Maybe you could pollinate over the
Golden Gate

Take a left hand turn at the corner
Of Haight

And then a sharp right
At the first street light
And get yourself on a motor bike
And if you think you'll get stuck in atraffic jam
That's fine, send yourself through a telephone line
It doesn't matter how you get to me
Just get to me

POLLY’S PERFECT SHOES

One day, Polly’s mother bought her a new pair of shoes. . She gave them to Polly and asked her to try it on, “Put them on and see if you like them Polly.”
Polly opened the box and tried on the shoes.

However, instead of a word of thanks to her mother, Polly declared, “These are the worst shoes in the world!”

With that Polly kicked off the shoes and ran out of the room.
“I shall find my own perfect pair of shoes,” she thought to herself and went into the next room which was her mother’s.


“Mummy should have nice shoes. I’ve seen her wear those lovely shoes to work.”
Polly took out a pair of black high heeled shoes from the closet and tried them on.
“It’s too black, it’s too high and it’s too difficult to walk in!”
So she left the shoes on the floor and went into the next room which was her Grandmother’s.


“Grandma should have nice shoes. I’ve seen her wear those comfortable shoes around the house.”
Polly found a pair of pink bedroom slippers at the side of the bed and tried them on.
“It’s too bright, it’s too flat and it’s too difficult to walk in!”
So she left the shoes next to the door and went into the next room which was her older brother’s.


“Big brother should have nice shoes. I’ve seen him wear those colourful shoes to school.”
Polly climbed on a stool to reach the sneakers on the top shelf of the shoe rack and tried them on.
“It’s too smelly, it’s too dirty and it’s too difficult to walk in!”
So she left the shoes on the bottom shelf and went into the next room which was her baby sister’s.


“Little sister should have nice shoes. I’ve seen her wear those cute shoes when we go out to the park.”
Polly took out a pair of baby booties from the chest of drawers and tried them on.
“It’s too soft, it’s too small and it’s too difficult to walk in!”
So she left the shoes next to the cot and went downstairs to her father’s workroom in the backyard.


“Daddy should have nice shoes. I’ve seen him wear those tough-looking shoes when we go fishing.”
Polly pulled out the hiking boots from behind the shed and tried them on.
“It’s too muddy, it’s too heavy and it’s too difficult to walk in!”
So she left the shoes in the pile of racked autumn leaves and went to the front porch.


She sat on the steps with her head in her hands and even asked Snuffle her dog, “Do you have a pair of shoes I could try?”


Disappointed, she finally walked back to her room. There she sees the shoes she kicked off. She decided to try on the shoes once again.
“It’s pretty, it’s comfy and it’s easy to walk in, play in, jump in, run in and dance in!”

Polly excitedly went to find her mother in her new pretty shoes. She found her mother in the garden and ran into her arms to hug her tight.
“Thank you for the new shoes mummy. I love it. It’s lovely. I’m sorry for what I said and did earlier on”
Mummy picked up Polly into her arms, kissed her, and said, “It’s alright, Polly. Mummy is happy that you like them”
They then walked back into the house, hand in hand, with Polly in her perfect shoes.

THE END

haha! so what do you guys think of my story? hurhur. its for children's storybook that me and michele have to do for our visual communication module. illustrations will come up soon!

(:

since im taking a break from my hideous shakespeare essay (i've been bullshitting for the whole morning and all i have is 1200 words!!!) i shall talk about..more shakespeare..haha..

so yesterday me and michele decided to skip interactive media lecture to go to the library and borrow a copy of Prospero's Books, which is an adaptation of shakespeare's the tempest, and watch it for the purpose of michele's presentation and class. since we were kinda running out of time, michele proceeded to watch it first while i ran off to the book section to try and get some useful books for my essay. upon returning, i got the most alarming shock in my life. i saw heaps of naked people parading on the television screen. i kid you not. it was horrible! it was scary! and it was most distasteful! my gosh. i dont know how explicit i should be in my description here (there might be little kids reading my blog..you never know..they could have you sued!) but it was so bad it was traumatizing!!! go ask michele if you dont believe me..i was really thankful for the break my eyes needed when we had to stop the show halfway to go for tutorial...

the second part of the show was anything but better..still the same..still all these naked people, both men and women, walking around in the buff..tsk..i was commenting to michele that they must have hired these people from a nudist colony or somthing..i mean..how can so many people walk around naked with each other and not feel weird? sheesh..it wasnt just these naked people that was bad..there was eerie extremely high-pitched the-glass-could-shatter type of singing by this spirit creature, weird and creepy dancing and people with so much body paint they look like things from the netherworld (but i suppose that was the point). it didnt help that the video was old so the colour was like yellowish and dirty. the whole thing is just disturbing. and the best part is.....................its considered a classic. bah.

well. at least the sushi buffet later made up for the traumatizing 2hours and 10minutes. haha. by the time me and mish got there we were both starving and the first few plates were eaten without much conversation exchanged. hahahahaha. two starving uni students. hurhur. was really fun. we managed to come up with our story for thur's visual comm class but the sketches..are..not done..hahahahaha..and we tried coming up with a sadistic alternative. hurhur. yeah..we ate about 35 plates? not bad..haha..and i realise the only sushi i ate was the salmon, tuna and unagi (these two courtesy of michele, i didnt order it) and the rest were like the fried stuff..ahahhaa..many horriblez...

walked down to bugis street later since we were in desperate need to some digesting..michele went to buy earrings for her HANDS people and we had a hard time choosing..hahah..i bought two pairs for myself..yeah..havent bought any since so so long..cause after i came back from bangkok..everything here seems so expensive..hahaha..yeah..and i bought a belt..for only 8bucks!!! they were selling the same thing at the NUS arts bazaar for $12.90...and i thought that was cheap..tsk..i felt so cheated..but happy nonetheless..hurhur..

alright..think i better get back to my essay..tsk..this week is going to be a crazy week..so many deadlines! im drowning in them! ahhhhh! haha..but im looking forward to sunday cause that's when im going with amanda and jim to check out the Manhattan Fish Market at PS..heard too many rave reviews..and of course..more importantly..waiting for jy's internet to be up and running again..

I wanna dress my kids in Small Paul!

ok. so once again, im doing everything else but my essay(s). haha.

Have I been good enough my whole life
Why do I feel so useless and unworthy
But somehow when I come to you
You make me realise
That I mean something.

Something amazing,
Something incredible.
That’s what you make me.
Something so beautiful,
Something so wonderful,
That’s who you see.

ok.
the above is how my paper, containing the poem i need to work on for my essay, looks like after i've attempted to analyse it.
not bad for something done within 30minutes and at 10am while im still half-awake.
haha.
but i'm too lazy to actually put everything into an essay.
*bleah.
lazy lah.
haha.
essay-ing is much much tougher than scribbling.

instead, ive been wandering around the internet.
and i found out that the bible actually has quite cool names:

Ariel (Hebrew) - Ezra 8:16 - altar; light or lion of God.
Leah (Hebrew) - Gen. 29:16 - weary; tired.
Jael (Hebrew) - Judges 4:17 - one that ascends.
Myra (Greek) - Acts 27:5 - I flow; pour out; weep.
Olive (Latin) - Gen. 8:11 - fruitfulness; beauty; dignity.
Sapphira (English) - Acts 5:1 - that relates or tells.
Talitha (Aramaic)- Mark 5:41 - little girl; young woman.

Abner (Hebrew) - 1 Sam. 14:50 - father of light.
Asher (Hebrew) - Gen. 30:13 - happiness.
Ezra (Hebrew) - Ezra 7:1 - help; court.
Jairus (Hebrew) - Mark 5:22 - my light; who diffuses light.
Javan (Hebrew) - Gen. 10:2 - deceiver; one who makes sad.
Joash (Hebrew) - Judges 6:11 - who despairs or burns.
Joses (Hebrew) - Matt. 27:56 - raised; who pardons.
Shem (Hebrew) - Gen. 5:32 - name; renown.

i cant say much for some of the meanings though.
hurhur.
(Hur (Hebrew) - Exodus 17:10 - liberty; whiteness; hole.)
(hahahah! there's even a guy called HUR!)
(ok. i shldnt be laughing at other people's name.)
(hur.)

okok.
im back to doing everything else but my essay.
haha.
why am i not even vaguely surprised.

To keep your marriage brimming,

With love in the wedding cup,

Whenever you're wrong, admit it;

Whenever you're right, shut up.

~Ogden Nash

what amanda said yesterday in the train is starting to make sense.
there's a danger in being caught in between the really rich and the really poor.

i consider myself really well-to-do.
as my brother put it once, he said his friends called him "a semi-rich man's son" which makes me "a semi-rich man's daughter".
which i feel is as apt and as accurate a description one can get to.
i have everything i need.
i have just about everything i want.
my idea of being broke is having $200 in my bank account.
and $600 in another account nonetheless.
i complain im broke but i still am able to fork out money to pay for my school books, top up my ezlink card, buy myself a pair of levis and an exhorbitantly priced zara skirt and still have enough to spend on an expensive dinner for a friend's birthday.

perhaps im stuck.
stuck in a very very weird rut.
i know the value of money in the sense i dont spend till im flat broke and emptied out.
but yet i dont know the value in the sense that i am willing to spend so much on others and on myself.
its just a very strange balance isnt it, the very idea of a strange balance being oxymoronic.
money is something i am careful about and am mindful of my budget.
but yet i spend, and spend, and spend and spend and spend.
you get the idea.

its affecting me.
its affecting others.

so do i wise up and shut up about it?
keep the money issues to myself?
psycho myself into realising that $200 left in the bank is not nearly close to being considered "broke"?

i really dunno.

those of you who think i can survive on a life less than what im living now,
hands up!

Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove...

- william shakespeare, sonnet 116