sometimes having too many options can backfire.
they say that "variety is the spice of life"but perhaps variety can make like a little too hot to handle.

two nights ago i casually brought up the idea of me doing my honours overseas after im done with NUS next year.
and today during lunch with mum she brought it up again and it really got me thinking about it.
she said that it's ok if i want to go and that i'll probably receive a PM scholarship (for the uninformed..PM would stand for papa mama) for my postgraduate studies.

ok before i go on, maybe i should explain why i want to go overseas.
first and foremost, im not eligible to do my honours in singapore. reason being im currently doing a shared major between literature and new media studies. and the policy of NUS is that shared major students are not eligible for honours. then why am i doing a shared major? well. as much as i love literature, i find that to just study lit wont really get me anywhere in life. and im quite repulsed at the idea of becoming a teacher. i mean. all my students will be bigger than me! ok but seriously, i really dont think im cut out to be a teacher. some people have it and some people dont. im part of the latter. i also really wanted to do mass com in NTU but i didnt get in. so here i am in NUS trying to make the best of my 3 years and trying to do both.

secondly, i want to have more than just a cert that says "Bachelor of Arts and Social Science". i guess i do want to go into something more specialised pick up more practical skills. right now the new media studies in NUS is relatively new hence the modules arent really hands-on or specific. but i suppose thats what a bachelor is. university is all about diversity and creativity and blah blah blah. but i think i would rather learn more. and an honours programme would perhaps be the best way to get into something more focused and concentrated. i dont know how much more of an edge it will give me when it comes to finding a job but more out of personal, and call it selfish pursuit if u may, that im quite for the idea of carrying on my studies. besides, once all the studying ends, it's work work work all the way till God knows when. study while u still can.

thirdly, let's just say ive wanted to go abroad to study all along. the thought of a new environment, a new culture, a new setting and a chance to totally be immersed in a new way of life always intriged me. as much as im shy, and quiet, and introverted and lets just say adverse to new things, i just somehow always had the urge to go overseas and away from all the things im so used to. studying would be the perfect, i suppose, "excuse" to get this opportunity. besides. im a little sore that my parents are giving my brother the chance to go overseas but he's refusing it flatly. now that my parents are giving me the green light, im gonna jump at the chance.

back to my very first line, the problem then comes to the question of "what":
what to major in.
what to do.
what to study.
what to focus on.
already i've looked at the 3 main universities in perth (australia being the choice of country since its the cheapest..though..i assure you in no way cheap at all..just the cheapest) and im a little boggled.
so many choices.
arts.
media.
media management.
HR.
PR.
communication studies.
literary studies.
librarianship and corporate information management?
once i jump into it, im stuck with it.

its not really too early to start thinking and planning for it..this semester is going to end soon and the other two are going to fly by and soon i'll be graduating..sigh..well..lets just see how it goes shall we..in the meantime..i'll keep praying..and scouting around and finding out more..anyone with information or contacts let me know yeah..

finally.
just a thought.
will anyone miss me while im gone?