just came back from my mid-term break holiday to perth.
and i conclude, i love perth.

i love the weather.
i love the laid-back relaxed atmosphere.
i love the supermarkets.
i love the lack of high-rise buildings everywhere.
i love the fish and chips.
i love biscuits and chocolates and wines and cheeses.
i love the people.
i love the parks.
i love the picnics and bbqs.
i love the scenery.

but most of all, i love perth because thats where YOU are.

You who cooked all those yummilicious meals for me and made sure i ate properly.
You who fulfilled my selfish desire for breakfast in bed prepared by the one i love.
You who stayed up till 2am in the morning just to help me with my essay.
You who despite wanting me to cut down on my sugar intake bought me a tub of icecream and allowed me to finish half a tub with you in one night (on top of the heaps of sweet stuff you bought for me too).
You who always came up with solutions to whatever sticky and last minute situations we ended up in because of my absent-mindedness and insistance.
You who let me have your ipod mini to make my long bus journeys to school more bearable because you cant possible be here with me.
You who emailed my parents telling them to make me eat more fibre (knowing that i always say ok i'll do it but i dont and forget) when you realised i wasnt clearing my bowels as often as i should and buying prune juice for me.
You who drove me around everywhere despite knowing you'd be in for all my nagging and comments about your reckless driving.
You who makes me feel so comfortable with you that i am at total ease with myself.
You who bought me so many things even though you're a bit tight just because you know it would make me smile.
You who gave me your favourite nike tshirt just cause i wanted it (for no logical reason) and your jacket to bring home even though that night was freezing.
You who made me take silly and funny photos that i wouldnt normally take at all.
You who knows me so well that even when i say i dont want something you know i do and when i say im ok you know i actually am not.
You who makes me love you even more despite having just quarrelled.
You who wiped away my tears with your hands and even wiped my nose and you didnt think it was gross at all.

You who makes the darkness into light.
You who makes everything alright.
even though you're so far away.

You who makes all this waiting and painful distance so worthwhile.

55 more days.
And the one i love will be coming back to me again.

and so it all comes to an end.....................................................

oopsy. this blog has outrightly been neglected. hurhur.

haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!

i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:

one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin

since im waiting for someone to reply me (and its taking very very long)..here's a really quick post before i get back to The Woman Warrior..

first of all.
corlissa. i cannot cannot belive that you only JUST told me that your promos are in FOUR WEEKS time.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
my goodness gracious me.
i dont care.
holiday or not you are going to meet me next thurs and friday.
wednesday too if you want.
just spend at least 2 hours doing your work ok?
thats the best i can help you with even if i cant teach you econs or GP very well.
but i'll definitely try my best to answer all your questions and clear your doubts ok?
(:

ok.well.im sad.because i didnt get my wed computing tutorial time slot.which is so bloody annoying.tsk.sheesk.haiz.sigh.why why why.
hhahaa.
oh well. what to do. bo pian lorh.
im just hoping that my class will have friendly people.
and that my project group mates will not be completely clueless about computers.
and we're supposed to design a website for our project i think.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cant i be in the same group as michele???
we'd definitely ace the project. damn. *sulk.
hurhur.

alright.
thats all folks.
haha.
he finally responded.
hurhur.
night y'all.
(:

its already the 3rd week of school but im still not in school-mode..much less study-mode.
cant exactly blame me can you..
its really tough when you havent really been using your brain for the past three months..
haha..and its been a whole lot of fun and lazing around and doing absolutely nothing on some (ok..perhaps..actually..most..hurhur) days..
and now its back to horrible and loooooooooooooooooong bus rides..(taking 151 frm hougang interchange to kent ridge interchange..wheres my ipod mini?!!)
back to waking up early early early..(8am lectures every wednesday)
back to trying to stay awake during lectures..
back to preparing for tutorials only the night before..
back to rushing to meet essay deadlines..
back to doing projects and presentations..
my only consolation is that i have a 3 day week..
yeap. u heard me right. haha.
although..im having a problem with my computing tutorial now..oh well..pray that i get the slot i want!

really excited about my lit modules this semester.
however, somehow things have taken a different turn.
science fiction and fantasy doesnt seem as horrid as i thought it would be. hahahaaaa.
yes yes yes. kat doing science fiction??!!?
aiyar...even i cant believe it lah..but its not too bad..susan ang is actually rather good..she brings up a lot of very interesting points and i like the way she picks out little details..
tutorial was also goooooooooooooooooooooood..
we have it in her room and its like..WOAH. the whole place is surrounded by dark wooden bookcases filled to the brim with books. i want a room like this too. just so..amazing..would be a dream come true..
anyway..back to tutorial..haha..i actually spoke. not because i was called upon to. i even spoke first when she asked us to give our personal opinions of the book. (ok close that gaping mouth of yours and stop staring at me in such disbelief before your eyeballs fall out their sockets) hahahahaa. im so impressed with myself. hurhur. i guess its cause the setting and everything was just so casual and comfortable..
thank God..He really knows what to do.. (:

asian american lit though..is rather disappointing.
this is the one module i thought would be the highlight of my semester but unfortunately..its not really living up to its standard.
maybe its, as michele said, cause i had quite high expectations for it.
but..even she agrees that the lecturer is just going round and round in circles..
perhaps the pressing issues these asian-american writers face are all about the same but still..
tsk tsk tsk.
doesnt help that the lecturer is my tutor as well. hurhur.

oh well. but with a 3 day week. i shouldnt complain so much right.
cheers to only 28 more days of school..
*bigfatgrin

ohhhhhhhhhhh.
before i forget.
my dear Corlissa..i keep asking u when ure free for econs right?
huh huh huh?
hahaaa. you gotta tell me when ure freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

i think ive successfully developed another bad habit.
haha. everyday, the first thing i do when i wake up is turn on my lappy. hahaaaaa.
regardless whether i have time to actually do anything with the computer on.
this morning was no exception. i woke up. pressed the power button. went to wash up. came back into the room. decided what to wear. and before i knew it i had to shut down my lappy.
hurhur.
ridiculous aint it?

today's message by uncle stanley was about giving.
his message was based on the very short story of the widow who gave only two very small copper coins but yet Jesus considered her act as giving more to the treasury than all the others.
was a very good reminder that we should learn to trust in the Lord for everything, and in adopting this attitude we should then learn to give our all up to God.
though he strayed a little, uncle stanley used a phrase that kinda got stuck in my mind, "Generosity is always a virtue; never a weakness".

ok. here's the highlight of my day.
finally. FINALLY. FINALLY!!?!
we finally recorded the song.
finally because i wrote the song on the 17th of feb 2005.
the song in which i penned the God-inspired lyrics and to which Jim put in place the melody.
Amanda on the piano, Jim on the guitar, and since i cant play any musical instrument, it was me providing the vocals.
the recording was made possible thanks to Jim's $59 investment in an ipod recording device.
hahaaa.
had so much fun with it. cant wait to work on more songs with those two. we make a really good team yeah? haha. what can i say. you two are undoubtedly talented. love u two loads. (:

other than that..well..haha..i had another *ahem revelation.
my 2nd one in the past four years.
ok the first was that i finally found out and realised how small i was. haahahaa.
it happened in the acjc canteen while i think it was cherie toh who was buying a drink from the fruit stall. and i was telling, er..either joy boo or michele, that cherie toh is so small.
hahahahaaaaaaa. and either joy or michele looked at me and said "kat. ure just as small if not smaller."

and today's revelation?
gosh. i never knew i sounded so whinny. honestly. i never knew. hahahaaa.
to myself, or at least how i hear my own voice, i fancy i dont sound that high nor low.
never did i imagine i sound so much like a little kid.
until i heard the playback of the recording.
hahahaaaahaa.
tsk tsk tsk.
this is simply hilarious.

oh well. at least now i know right? better late than never.
*grin

dont feel like going for lecture tomorrowwwwwwww.................................

inevitably, at the start of every semester i always get the creeps.
butterflies always seem to find their way into my stomach and worry always seeps into the back of my mind, slowly building up and soon engulfing all my thoughts.

this semester is no different.

already my science fiction module is driving me nuts.
i figured since im gonna have a hard time reading books that dont interest me even the slightest bit i might as well get them first and get done reading all of them.
i didnt know how hard a time i would have ploughing through the meaningless (at least to me) words that are as good as neverending.
to begin with, all the books cost me a whooping $160. when i paid for the books i felt as though a really sharp dagger pierced right through me.
i mean..already i cant bear to buy books..what more spending so much on books that i will probably never ever read again in my entire life.
doesnt help that all the money is coming out of my own pocket.
tsk.
the first book in the list is titled a most peculiar and mind-boggling "a canticle for leibowitz".
if that sounds even vaguely interesting to you, tell me, i'll sell you the book for a dollar once im done with the module. or maybe i'll just give it to you for free. just get it out of my life!
lets see if i get the story so far..its about a monk..who out in the desert meets a stranger..and through the stranger finds a secret underground shelter that belonged to the time before the deluge..and the monks of that time spent hours examining past relics..but no one believed him at first..and the head abbot even asked him to shut up about what he found..but many years later people from the New Rome come knocking on the abbey's door asking to further investigate what the young monk found..blah blah etc..
does that sound appealing to you? gosh.

ok. im not exactly that sore about it. i chose to do the module so if i really suck at it and have to drag myself to the lecture and tutorials every week i have no one to blame but myself.
but then again, i just dont wanna keep doing stuff that i like or am familiar with.
education is about the training of the mind, and if i dont expose myself to something outside i'll never actually learn anything new will i?

the other two lit modules im really looking forward to.
especially asian american literature. ive always been a fan of asian literature. though they keep repeating the same ideas of ill-treated stepchildren, forced marriages, sexist attitudes and war.
oh well. we'll see. things are usually only as interesting and fun as you make them to be.
by the way, anyone has The Joy Luck Club or Great Expectations that i can borrow?

ok. im back to my feeble attempt of reading my lit text.
only about 19 more chapters to go.
help.

after 3 months of bumming around..
finally and most dreadfully its time to go back to school....

somehow i managed to drag myself out of bed at about 0515..it took some sort of miracle because i slept at about 0230 that very morning..hahaaa..amazing i tell you..
met kaisheng at the interchange at 615 to take the rickety-rackety 151 all the way to NUS..
haha..was really fun catching up with him again..asking each other hows life..what we did during the long vacation..complaining about how the 151 always seems to be non-airconditioned..him talking about siqiu's plan ever since graduation (hope her interview at ttsh went well!)..him asking me about my "progress"..hahahaaa..which at least i had really good news to tell him..haha..
hurry and get your license and a car! then we dont have to ever wake up so early anymore..
and i just knew he's ask "is that another new bag?"
hurhur. no its NOT. u just never seen me carry it before. haha.

NM1101e lecture was worth waking up at 5am for. haha.
i like the lecturer. Ms Millie. She's really engaging and charismatic. just what you need at 8am.
the whole lecture was really interactive as well. guess you have to make it such if ure gonna keep the students awake.
but then again..i bet 3/4 of the lecture hall was filled with excited year ones.gosh.their chirpyness and enthusiasm for lectures and school is just..well.annoying. hurhur.

next stop: arts canteen for yong tau fu!
gosh.i miss the food. the gd and cheap food. its back to days of curry dory set, orange juice, dan dan mien, claypot eggplant with rice and if ever the queue is short or i feel like queueing...YONG TAU FU! hurhur.
well. lunch..felt..different i guess.
it was definitely great to see my two lovelies again..but i guess..inevitably..things have..changed?
after not seeing each other for almost 3 whole months and with them spending a huge chunk of time with their OG people and committee..i guess i did expect things to just be different.
honestly..im thankful amanda came to find me in the canteen..somehow i just wanted to hurry wolf down my yong tau fu (as if that was ever possible..eveyone knows kat eats like a bird..and no michele..i dont wanna hear your idiom about how asking kat to eat is like....oh nvm.ha) and run off to the co-op.
ok i dont mean anything here and its not that bad i suppose..
but..it just feels different. heh.
i still love you two. a lot. a whole lot.
and no matter what i'll still be here for you two. (:

as expected, the queue in the co-op was insane.
and happily, kaisheng happened to see me there so he got me to get his books too. hahaaaa.
but ok he repaid me by carrying all 12 books while we waited forever in the queue to pay.
my seven lit books cost me $160. and thats only for ONE module. and guess what? dad decided since i worked during the holz i should have money to pay for my books. right. im sure i have money in my account lah. haha. die. but thank God for mummy!!! haha..mummy to the rescue..she passed me a hundred..thanks mum..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks..

waited for benny and wee wee to come before we were supposed to meet derrick to go for our SPG lunch outing.
and well done, just as amanda walked away with alex i saw mr joel ong walking by.
ok i wanted to like turn away and pretend i saw nthg but alas, it was too late.
hahahaaa. i did feel like slapping him. hurhur. but of course i didnt. im not so evil. anyway..it doesnt matter anymore. i dont care.
tsk. hope the really sweet looking girl you were walking with isnt your next unsuspecting victim.
*kat shakes her head.
tsk.
hurhur.

lunch was pizza hut at clementi. was a lot of fun. haha.
benny, wee wee, derrick, adrian, randy, amanda and myself.
was quite a good time of sharing as well apart from the usual incessant crapping and spouting of really lame jokes. hurhur.
and no adrian..it'll never be possible to be best friends with you. not even vaguely possible.
hahaaaaa. why oh whyyyy did u have to come back from canada? haaaaa.
and next time..im gonna eat my stuffed crust first..least you keep eyeing it..hahaaa.

took 165 home. wasn't too long a journey actually. but when ure late and desperate for time? every second seems like an hour. heh. got home, took a much needed quick nap, showered in record time and ran out of the house again.

the corrinne may concert at the esplanade was really good.
i just love the crystal clear quality of her voice. she sounds as good live as she does on her cd.
shes also got one of the most meaningful lyrics around.
loved every bit of it. hope she comes back for another concert. then poor jim can get her autograph and take a photo with her. sorrrrrryyyy fella!
oh yeah..saw shane there. hahaa. at first i was like..shane? since when was shane a fan. and since when did he pay to watch concerts. hahahaaa.
sorry. i suppose i was wrong. hurhur.

had LJS with jim and amanda..rongcai left first cuz he had work e next day and andrew had school work to do.
i always have a good time with those two. talked about some pretty serious and pressing issues. well..it concerns us. and if we dont do smthg, who will? like they say..if u want something done and done well..do it youself. or in this case..we gotta help each other..its about high time we did something too...
thanks jim for taking the NEL with me even though it obviously is faster for you if you took the train to yio chu kang. much apprectiated (:

so there. my first day of school. hahahaaa. which i spent most of it outside of campus grounds.
may this school term be a whole lot better (and less slack) than the last two.
(:

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i hate CORS.
i cant do the module i want.
i'm stuck doing some dumb GEM.

but i hopefully will get a 3 day week.

bah.
tutorial bidding will be soon.

another round of endless headaches.

its time to start year 2.
woohoo.

saiyang saiyang..
hahahaaa.
sorry blog. you've been outrightly neglected and at most have been only fed with minimal attention in the form of pathetically short and silly entries.
hurhur.

anyway..ahhhhhhh. school is starting in one week.
so its time to make the trip to popular.
hahaa. bought myself my all-time favourite g-tec pens..
i spent (ok..not me lah..my dad..hahaa) close to $15 on pens alone and guess what..i didnt buy a single black or blue ink pen.
haha.
typical PL girl huh.
just ask mish or gina. look at our notes. hahahaaa.
and most of the time i think my pencil case is worth more than whatever chai can i have in my wallet.
tsk tsk tsk.
*grin

so what has kat been up to since she last blogged?
NOTHING. absolutely nothing.
which is not too bad actually...considering that his timetable is pretty slack so i get to catch him online quite often in the day..
but once school starts..only good thing thats gonna come out of it is that the weeks will be passing by faster..
unfortunately our timetables dont exactly compliment each other..haha..

speaking of timetables...
ARGH. i could tear my hair out.
hurhur. ok its not that bad.
but its horribly annoying.
i have just this one...JUST ONE MORE module that is so blardy (brit-ish accent here please) popular that i cant even bid for it.
yeap.
Why. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. wei she meh?????????
haha.
well..hopefully everything will turn out ok because i really really wanna do that module.
its the closest thing i'll get to journalism as possible.
for those who know i never wanted to come to NUS..i was all geared up for Mass Com in NTU..
so. well. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please?

haiz..really hoping that jim would give me the good news asap..
then i can really start to get excited.
at the moment i dont even dare think that i will definitely be going down under.
sigh....
oh well oh well oh well...
doesnt help that it seems like my financial problem isnt too big of a problem after all..
jim's dad managed to get cheaper tickets for us too..
$470 inclusive of taxes and insurance..
sigh....
the worst thing is if i dont have a single..or ok maybe just one or two..mid-sems and i dont get to go..
that and if raja decides to come back to singapore..
haiz...
but but but...
optimism kathleen!
tsk.
easier said than done.

gonna get my Visa TX card done tomorrow..
i would get a mini but...lazy to open another new account lah..haha...
jim's gonna get the visa too after he's done renewing his passport..
see see see?
all ready to head down to perth.
haha.
oh well. what to do. if i really dont get to go.....
then do i get to buy a bag? hahaha. cheer myself up.
actually..i'd be buying two bags..
hurhur.
its time to head to wheelock and tangs and then to the post office soon if september really doesnt work out..
oopsy. did i just spoil your surprise?
*grin
as if u didnt know.....
(:

my mum has already given the stamp of approval.
im allowed to go to Perth during my september break.
but but but.
right now 2 things stand in the way of my happiness...

1. where in the world am i gonna get $800? (all donations big and small are most welcome.hur.just kidding)
2. jim needs to get his leave approved and comfirmed. i'm not allowed to fly alone.

sigh.
oh well.
but if its gonna happen, it will happen.
optimism is what im known for and it'll keep me going.
and of course the fact that i'm gonna be seeing him in only 51 days keeps me hoping for the best. (:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and my mooks tshirt (which is patiently waiting for me in perth)!




to kel:
haha. looks like i'm not the only silly person caught up in a long-d r/s huh. well as hard as it is, it's all worth it right? especially if you know at the end of all the waiting the both of you have a long future ahead.. its tough but what to do..no choice right..haha. hang in there yeah! (:

its already been a week since he left.
and no unfortunately i cant say "oh how time flies" because it didnt.
it was quite a draggy week actually. haha.
my boredom coupled with the fact that i have to get used to the fact that he's no longer just 11 floors above me and that i have to contend myself with the webcam and skype made it even more draggy than it already was.
but like you said.."contentment may be a vital ingredient to happiness..."
oh well. not like i have much of a choice do i. heh. but it'll do. really. its enough (:

anyway, here's the best way to sum up all those beautiful memories we shared in the past month:

Nopes. its definitely not my handiwork. all the credit goes to him. except of course he couldnt have done it without the help of my sony W1. hurhur. but yeah. its lovely. too lovely not to put it on my blog. *bigbigbiggrin

17 more weeks to endure. boohoohoo. haha. :)

i officially have an absolutely crap timetable.
boohoohoo.
everyday i have to go to school.
tsk.
but thanks so so so much to my dear who helped me replan my timetable i might just get wednesday off.
but as it is, i have to go to school for just ONE PATHETIC HOUR on friday.
for a lit tutorial.
ONE HOUR. FRIDAY.
killjoy.
hurhur.

im pretty worried about the workload too.
most probably will have to do 4 lit modules this semester.
sigh.
but its gonna be ok.
more worried about the cost of the books actually.
haha.
dad is so not gonna be too happy.
*grin

guess i still want school to start despite all the nonsense mentioned above.
cause school and all its busy-ness will (hopefully) cause time to pass with the speed of a bullet train.
18 weeks and counting down...

the carl's jr coupons are still waiting for you...

went into JB yesterday with my favourite neighbours Wang (or as we all call him "wayne) and Lily.

and as usual. it was such a blast.
would have been a whole lot more fun if you were there though.
mum already said that you can come with us when ure back.
gosh. see how much my parents (espcially my mum) loves you? *grin

had sushi for lunch. not too bad i guess..but give me sakae anytime. sakae has so much more to offer in terms of variety. service is quite good i must say. they provide an unlimited refil of freshly brewed green tea unlike here where all we get is one measely tea bag. haha.

shopping is ok. mum got a levis top. tsk. was too big for me. horrid. haha.
bought two tops and a pair of paul frank shorts.
and of course..i just couldnt forget someone even though he's all the way in perth can i?
got him a stussy tshirt and a green/yellow polo tee to match his green/yellow nike shoes.
haha. colour coordinated. smthg im well-known for. hur hur.
too bad ure gonna have to wait till your birthday to get it. and i think by the time i ship over all the stuff i bought (and most probably will be buying for you till then) i'd have a big crate to send over. haha.
*bigfatgrin

enjoy the photos
(:

Wayne and Lily (and some kpo bugger behind)

dad, mum, me

this photo is specially for you JY

(u cant find softshell crabs and this sorta crabstick in perth. *cheekygrin)

so here i am sitting in front of my lappy eating my banana walnut muffin i bought from coffee bean.

he's already somewhere in the wide open sky flying towards perth.

i didnt cry.
haha.
i didnt even feel like crying.
its amazing. really. i honestly thought i would at least shed a few tears.
even when i hugged him i was smiling.

i guess i know why i so willingly let him go.
i bet you know too huh. *grin

haha.
just now was also meet the parents sessions.
no not me meeting his and he meeting mine but rather they meeting each other.
hurhur.
maybe we can start discussing marriage plans.
hahahaha.

im happy.
im smiling.
im thinking of you.
and of how ull be back so soon.
cant wait to see you in a few hours time.
cant wait to hear your voice again.

alrighty. need to sleep. after i finish the muffin. heh.
its so weird. haha. im smiling. laughing.
and suddenly i do feel like crying.
because i definitely do miss u.
a lot.
(:

you know what..you still owe me roses!

as much as i am prepared to let him go its just the moments leading up to it thats the most difficult and not to mention painful.
coming home alone just now was already bad enough.
feels weird taking the train alone
and with him the walk home seems too short, but without him i dont even think twice about taking the 112 home.
sorry i was so quiet and a lil grouchy just now.
my tiredness coupled with a heavy heart just wasnt doing me any good.
just wanted to try and squeeze out as much time as i could with you.

heh.
im laughing because i feel so silly.
im typing as if he's never coming back again.
but on the contrary he'll be back real soon.
there's so much to look forward to once ure back.
bangkok will definitely be a highlight. really wanna travel with you. i just know we'll have a blast.
then it'll be back to our daily night strolls, suppers, ba kut teh at chinatown, cleaning up (and out) my wardrobe, more baking, you cooking for me, me making breakfast while u read the papers, aimless walking around town, long bus journeys with my head on your shoulders and eyes closed with a smile on my face, doing new and crazy things i never thought i'd do because im with you, and okok, we will walk kenny. (and hopefully u wont leave me hanging..*bigfatcheekygrin)

meanwhile, we both gotta study. study hard.
so i guess the arrangement is rather beneficial.
during school term we concentrate on work.
during the holidays we fully enjoy ourselves.
c'est magnifique.

all the beautiful memories you've blessed me with the past month will barely be enough to last me through the next 4 months.
so come back soon ok?
(:

ok let me try to squeeze in a really quick post before jy calls.

15th July 2005:
helped jy pack in the morning.
my goodness. cant stand the way he folds his tshirts..or rather the lack of folding them. haha.
he doesnt even bother to iron his tshirts. c'est terrible.
looks like im gonna be doing all his ironing when i go over next year.
which i dont mind if it means i get to see him wearing button down shirts more often. *grin

met his mum and god-sis and her husband at singtel hello.
his mum wanted to sign a new line and give jy the new hp.
bet she did that just for you..doubt she needs the line at all (:
lunch at macs at the request of jy's mum. haha. can see she was really enjoying the food.

after lunch it was full swing into shopping gear.
what i bought:
havaianas, esprit leather belt, beaded necklace, 2 levis tops.

what i bought for jy:
levis square cut jeans (which i think he looks absolutely good in them. hurhur.)

what jy bought for me:
3 pairs of earrings, a cloth sash, 2 bottles of water (hahahaaaaa)

rushed down to queensway to meet his parents and chris.
but well well wel. we were early. hur. haha.
and i bought a pair of shoes there. the same pair i was eyeing at the nike concept shop at heeren.
and it was cheaper by about 11bucks?
the pair jy wanted was even better. $137 at the nike shop. $90 at queensway.
thank goodness i didnt insist on buying it for him at orchard. haha. *sheepish grin
and thanks for making me buy the shoes. haha. i love it.
my limited edition silver/pink waffle racer.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

dinner with his family but too bad i didnt get to try the food from the zhi cha stall he liked.
the place renovated and the shop was nowhere to be found.
the dinner experience was ok i guess. ('cept that eenie weenie bitty part but its ok (: )
really need to (desperately) brush up on my chinese if im gonna be more comfortable communicating with jy's mum.
oh and the green bean soup was really good. haha. i actually finished the whole bowl. but thats no surprise issit. dessert always has room reserved for it in my tummy. hurhur.

oh well. today's his last day here before he flies off.
im ok though. rather prepared to let him go actually. dont really wanna shed any tears at the airport later either. heh.
besides he'll be back in about 18 weeks time.
and time is just gonna whizz pass once school starts.
gonna be missing my perfect shopping partner for sure.
haha. maybe its a good thing. i'll be able to save money. hurhur.
which i really need to. kat is really broke now anyway. haha. and gotta start saving for bangkok!

hurry up and call me leh.....

a brief look into kat's past week...

thurs:
went to CPK. service was actually good. haha. how many eating places can actually boast good quality service right? hurhur. ordered the peking duck pizza. it was definitely yummilicious..but..er..i dont think i really tasted the duck..hahaaha..but it doesnt matter cause the dessert more than made up for it. tiramisu and chocolate souffle. my goodness. u should have seen my expression when that scoop of absolute sinfulness mingled with my tastebuds. hurhur.
company was excellent. haha. needless to say. huh huh huh? *grin
thanks for the gift. the beautiful gift. and its staying on.

sat:
dim sum with my parents and my favourite neighbours at Xin Cantonese Restaurant at Concorde Hotel. once again i (and mr chin) have the luxury of enjoying good food. love it. its like top quality dim sum. nothing like your usual crystal jade fare. practically every dish was delicious. especially the "bear's paw" and the deep fried custard buns. thank goodness you came along so i had someone to share everything with. heh. gave me the chance to try more dishes. hurhur.

dinner with the relatives that same night. and finally cheryl got to meet jy after always talking to him on MSN when she's at my place. it was quite hilarious actually. she asked me if she could "talk to the boy" and i quickly (while trying hard to stifle my chuckles) smsed jy and asked him to come down. when she saw him she was shocked. shocked. hahaha. very cute. and my dear little lisa asked him if he was "the boy from the computer". hurhur. too bad you didnt manage to sample my mum's chicken wings. at least not this time. but hey now u can try out the steamed minced meat and tofu when ure in perth.

sun:
paid a visit to jy's church. thank God for edwin cause i think if i had to go there alone..i might have just backed out from it. service was definitely different, not in terms of sequence but rather the usage of a full band as well as the display of emotions. ultimately, we're worshipping the same God and it really doesnt matter how we do it. as long as the heart is real and sincere. besides its for God to see and know it. not those around us.
im glad i went. might wanna go for the edge one of the saturdays.
joined jy and his friends (jingsi, dionne, evie, edwin, shane, jane, jason, david, david's gf, joshua..did i get everyone correct?) for joshua's farewell dinner. the funny thing was joshua wasnt even at service that night and they made him take a cab all the way to tampines just to have BK. haha. poor fella. heh.

oh yeah, gotta remember to pass edwin the mockingbird book to pass to jane.

mon:
back to tampines again. under the hands of elly jy is now sonic no more but rather knuckles. even the colour is alike. haha. orange. i highlighted my hair too. red. but not too obvious. nice. haha. at least i think its nice. probably colour smthg more obvious the next time when he's back.
next stop was the airport to send joshua off. didnt like being there one bit. sigh. oh well.

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. hahahah. while we were walking out of the condo in the morning, we walked past one of the aunties (that i know) and my mum who were sitting by the fountain. and she commented "your boy boy very handsome ah". hahahhahaa. well done.

tues:
candy empire at millenia walk totally rocks. my goodness. its a shop catered to my every sweetoothoverdrive needs. haha. such an amazing assortment of chocolates and candies and biscuits and sweets and whatnot. haha. and jy realised that someone beat him to bringing in the chips from aussie that he's been raving about (which incidentally i havent actually tried it). bought chocolates and i actually intended to be really selfish and have all. hahaa. but but but. i shared ok. hahaa. good stuff.

went up to the roof terrace at the esplanade. the city skyline looks rather awesome at night. too bad the photos didnt come out as nice as it looked. too dark. *shrugs. wanted to try this drink thing (i think, cant remember, what was it again?) from max brenner but was a bit too late. tsk. such a waste. let's see if im patient enough to wait till ure back or if my sweetooth pushes me to go have it without u. haha.

wed:
i know i set my alarm for 9am but i slept right through it. and then a phone call came. which i almost ignored thinking it was my alarm. haha. as much as i hate to be suddenly woken up, this call was different. heh. waiting outside my door was a special delivery of mac breakfast and an even more special delivery boy. haha. i cant ask for a better way to wake up. *grin

and so here i am. typing this blog entry. while ure on the line.
tomorrow i'll be seeing you bright and early to go get the ingredients for the pineapple upside down cake (that hopefully i wont be baking alone) for your mum.
probably we'd go for our daily night walk again tomorrow night.
but tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow there will be no more.
no more seeing you first thing in the morning and last thing before i close my eyes in slumber.

i'm really not sure if u read my blog.
but seriously.
get a life.
quit wallowing in self-pity.
its not gonna help.
and its driving me absolutely nuts.
and its not just me, its the people around you.
sheesh.
no one can help you if ure not gonna help yourself.