It's not easy to let go and be humbled...

But when you do..God rewards us..

Sorry i havent been updating too regularly..
School work..or rather the amount of readings in particular..has been pilling up steadily..
Im still lagging behind for just about every subject but i suppose im doing ok so far..
At least i understand most of what im reading so i dont have to spend too much time pondering on what i just read..
the same cant be said for philosophy though..
the text is understandable..till tutorials where all the concepts just whizzes pass my head..
oh crap..speaking of philosophy..mish gina and i were supposed to collect out philo readings today..shucks..so much for using the long weekend to catch up on philosophical nonsense..ahh..the irony..

had a rather long week this week..
not so much in terms of how many days (i get a three day school week this week!) but rather in terms of the intenisty of school and other school-related activities..

tuesday:
i had lessons from 9 to 4..and had vcf FT from 6 to 830..
By the time i left school it was already 915 (when i boarded the non-aircon 151)..
thankfully i shared the long bus ride with benny so time passed by relatively quickly and painless..
dad also picked me up from the interchange so that was a consolation at the end of the day..
Slept at about 1am plus i think..

wednesday:
lessons from 10 to 12..
BUT..
CG that day was only to start at 6pm..
so yes..had lunch at the arts canteen (where else?) then i went with mishie moo to holland v..
on bus 200 we passed by acjc and boy was it nostalgic..
i saw tim from our junior class and mish saw shawn on the way back to NUS..
holland v was fun..going into the old shops..checking out the newer shops..each shop holding a different memory of 2AD4..
CG was great too..
despite my tiredness..i felt that sense of eagerness and willingness to learn about His Word..
we went through Genesis 1-2:3 and no it wasnt just about the same old creation story..
there were many new insights and concepts to be grasped that reminded me more about our all-powerful creator and our relationship with God..something given exclusively to us humans and not to the animals or any other thing in creation..
it was also nice to see annabelle in my CG..it made me more comfortable as we (annabelle, amanda, me) shared about our prayer requests..
oh yeah..mishie moo and me bought a really pretty and big sunflower for LiZhen..heh..to say sorry for not coming the week before =)

thursday:
i always dread thursdays because it means im in for one heck of a day..
lessons start at 8 and on even weeks i dont get a break till 4pm..
however..today the three partners in crime skipped philo lect (its at 8AM)..
even so..it was lessons for mishie n me from 10am till 4pm..
thankfully we have such a wonderful friend Gina..
she brought each of us a packet of oreo cookies, two slices of chocolate bread and a hot dog bun (yes with a hotdog inside)..
so nice of her..i was really really really so thankful..I love you Gina! =)
oh yeah..and SS tutorials wasnt as bad as i thought it would be..
heehee..we didnt get the weird lecturer as our tutor and our tutor is really nice and extremely helpful with our project ideas..
speaking of project..ive got a rather fun group too..besides the three amigos..theres Pei Yu, Pei Yi and Sha!
went for soci AGM with mishie moo for a while to lend her moral support..heh..
met ruo hui there and amy was there too..
gina joined us after her lecture..
well..i left earlier..didnt want to get home too late..was so sweet of the four of them to send me all the way to the bus stop..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks guys..much appreciated =)

ok..by now you must be wondering "so where's the connection to the title?"
well..its simple..
when we're so caught up in all our work and activities and tiredness we tend to start depending on ourselves..
the first thing i thought of was "ok today i need to do this do that by this time so that i can sleep by this time so that tomorrow i can wake up by that time...."
i realise that i was planning everything..trying to fit in everything..trying to make sure i did everything..
God was just pushed aside..very shockingly..unconsciously..
when i realised it..thankfully..it wasnt too late (its never too late with God =) )..
when i stopped and took a step back and committed not only all my activities but also my weariness to God..things did take a turn for the better..
no classes didnt get cancelled nor did my readings all suddenly disappear nor did i suddenly get an extra two hours to complete my assignments..
but i felt a weight being lifted..
i felt a new sense of motivation that i could finish my tasks because i depended on God and not on my own limited strength..
even in terms of emotional weariness..ive been granted this..if i may put it in a very cliche way..new attitude towards life..
again a burden was almost completely lifted from my shoulders..

I cant say whether God's grace will work as immediate as it did for me for you but just know that He is our Father..
our earthly fathers are already willing to do so much for us just to help us through and make our loads lighter how much more will our Heavenly Father do and is able to do for us?
The Creator will also never forsake His "very good" creation..
Trust in the Lord and seek Him in all that we do..
Lift up our troubles, burden and sorrow all to Him..
He will without any form of doubt take care of them..and take care of YOU =)