blind hope for something that isnt there
leaving the heart in piercing dispair.
optimism struggling and gasping to breathe
battling against the devouring grief....

for once.
im truly at a loss for words.

maybe optimism is ridiculous and not applicable in today's cynical arena.
maybe optimism is just self-denial to the truth right smack in my face.
maybe optimism is meant for kids in their little innocent worlds.
maybe optimism is merely delay of the torturous emotional pain to come.



night.