since im taking a break from my hideous shakespeare essay (i've been bullshitting for the whole morning and all i have is 1200 words!!!) i shall talk about..more shakespeare..haha..
so yesterday me and michele decided to skip interactive media lecture to go to the library and borrow a copy of Prospero's Books, which is an adaptation of shakespeare's the tempest, and watch it for the purpose of michele's presentation and class. since we were kinda running out of time, michele proceeded to watch it first while i ran off to the book section to try and get some useful books for my essay. upon returning, i got the most alarming shock in my life. i saw heaps of naked people parading on the television screen. i kid you not. it was horrible! it was scary! and it was most distasteful! my gosh. i dont know how explicit i should be in my description here (there might be little kids reading my blog..you never know..they could have you sued!) but it was so bad it was traumatizing!!! go ask michele if you dont believe me..i was really thankful for the break my eyes needed when we had to stop the show halfway to go for tutorial...
the second part of the show was anything but better..still the same..still all these naked people, both men and women, walking around in the buff..tsk..i was commenting to michele that they must have hired these people from a nudist colony or somthing..i mean..how can so many people walk around naked with each other and not feel weird? sheesh..it wasnt just these naked people that was bad..there was eerie extremely high-pitched the-glass-could-shatter type of singing by this spirit creature, weird and creepy dancing and people with so much body paint they look like things from the netherworld (but i suppose that was the point). it didnt help that the video was old so the colour was like yellowish and dirty. the whole thing is just disturbing. and the best part is.....................its considered a classic. bah.
well. at least the sushi buffet later made up for the traumatizing 2hours and 10minutes. haha. by the time me and mish got there we were both starving and the first few plates were eaten without much conversation exchanged. hahahahaha. two starving uni students. hurhur. was really fun. we managed to come up with our story for thur's visual comm class but the sketches..are..not done..hahahahaha..and we tried coming up with a sadistic alternative. hurhur. yeah..we ate about 35 plates? not bad..haha..and i realise the only sushi i ate was the salmon, tuna and unagi (these two courtesy of michele, i didnt order it) and the rest were like the fried stuff..ahahhaa..many horriblez...
walked down to bugis street later since we were in desperate need to some digesting..michele went to buy earrings for her HANDS people and we had a hard time choosing..hahah..i bought two pairs for myself..yeah..havent bought any since so so long..cause after i came back from bangkok..everything here seems so expensive..hahaha..yeah..and i bought a belt..for only 8bucks!!! they were selling the same thing at the NUS arts bazaar for $12.90...and i thought that was cheap..tsk..i felt so cheated..but happy nonetheless..hurhur..
alright..think i better get back to my essay..tsk..this week is going to be a crazy week..so many deadlines! im drowning in them! ahhhhh! haha..but im looking forward to sunday cause that's when im going with amanda and jim to check out the Manhattan Fish Market at PS..heard too many rave reviews..and of course..more importantly..waiting for jy's internet to be up and running again..
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
the above is how my paper, containing the poem i need to work on for my essay, looks like after i've attempted to analyse it.
not bad for something done within 30minutes and at 10am while im still half-awake.
haha.
but i'm too lazy to actually put everything into an essay.
*bleah.
lazy lah.
haha.
essay-ing is much much tougher than scribbling.
instead, ive been wandering around the internet.
and i found out that the bible actually has quite cool names:
Ariel (Hebrew) - Ezra 8:16 - altar; light or lion of God.
Leah (Hebrew) - Gen. 29:16 - weary; tired.
Jael (Hebrew) - Judges 4:17 - one that ascends.
Myra (Greek) - Acts 27:5 - I flow; pour out; weep.
Olive (Latin) - Gen. 8:11 - fruitfulness; beauty; dignity.
Sapphira (English) - Acts 5:1 - that relates or tells.
Talitha (Aramaic)- Mark 5:41 - little girl; young woman.
Abner (Hebrew) - 1 Sam. 14:50 - father of light.
Asher (Hebrew) - Gen. 30:13 - happiness.
Ezra (Hebrew) - Ezra 7:1 - help; court.
Jairus (Hebrew) - Mark 5:22 - my light; who diffuses light.
Javan (Hebrew) - Gen. 10:2 - deceiver; one who makes sad.
Joash (Hebrew) - Judges 6:11 - who despairs or burns.
Joses (Hebrew) - Matt. 27:56 - raised; who pardons.
Shem (Hebrew) - Gen. 5:32 - name; renown.
i cant say much for some of the meanings though.
hurhur.
(Hur (Hebrew) - Exodus 17:10 - liberty; whiteness; hole.)
(hahahah! there's even a guy called HUR!)
(ok. i shldnt be laughing at other people's name.)
(hur.)
okok.
im back to doing everything else but my essay.
haha.
why am i not even vaguely surprised.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Saturday, March 18, 2006
what amanda said yesterday in the train is starting to make sense.
there's a danger in being caught in between the really rich and the really poor.
i consider myself really well-to-do.
as my brother put it once, he said his friends called him "a semi-rich man's son" which makes me "a semi-rich man's daughter".
which i feel is as apt and as accurate a description one can get to.
i have everything i need.
i have just about everything i want.
my idea of being broke is having $200 in my bank account.
and $600 in another account nonetheless.
i complain im broke but i still am able to fork out money to pay for my school books, top up my ezlink card, buy myself a pair of levis and an exhorbitantly priced zara skirt and still have enough to spend on an expensive dinner for a friend's birthday.
perhaps im stuck.
stuck in a very very weird rut.
i know the value of money in the sense i dont spend till im flat broke and emptied out.
but yet i dont know the value in the sense that i am willing to spend so much on others and on myself.
its just a very strange balance isnt it, the very idea of a strange balance being oxymoronic.
money is something i am careful about and am mindful of my budget.
but yet i spend, and spend, and spend and spend and spend.
you get the idea.
its affecting me.
its affecting others.
so do i wise up and shut up about it?
keep the money issues to myself?
psycho myself into realising that $200 left in the bank is not nearly close to being considered "broke"?
i really dunno.
those of you who think i can survive on a life less than what im living now,
hands up!
there's a danger in being caught in between the really rich and the really poor.
i consider myself really well-to-do.
as my brother put it once, he said his friends called him "a semi-rich man's son" which makes me "a semi-rich man's daughter".
which i feel is as apt and as accurate a description one can get to.
i have everything i need.
i have just about everything i want.
my idea of being broke is having $200 in my bank account.
and $600 in another account nonetheless.
i complain im broke but i still am able to fork out money to pay for my school books, top up my ezlink card, buy myself a pair of levis and an exhorbitantly priced zara skirt and still have enough to spend on an expensive dinner for a friend's birthday.
perhaps im stuck.
stuck in a very very weird rut.
i know the value of money in the sense i dont spend till im flat broke and emptied out.
but yet i dont know the value in the sense that i am willing to spend so much on others and on myself.
its just a very strange balance isnt it, the very idea of a strange balance being oxymoronic.
money is something i am careful about and am mindful of my budget.
but yet i spend, and spend, and spend and spend and spend.
you get the idea.
its affecting me.
its affecting others.
so do i wise up and shut up about it?
keep the money issues to myself?
psycho myself into realising that $200 left in the bank is not nearly close to being considered "broke"?
i really dunno.
those of you who think i can survive on a life less than what im living now,
hands up!
Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove...
- william shakespeare, sonnet 116
Friday, March 17, 2006
Thank God for...
mummy and daddy who sent me and michele to school today.
for michele's generosity and creativity that i have a new pair of shoes.
allowing my shakespeare presentation to go smoothly given how paranoid i was about it.
a delicious lunch that's cheap and good.
the programme to finally work so that michele could open her file for visual comm class.
constructive feedback during visual comm class to improve on my greeting card.
bus 16 that arrived in time and that we were able to board it so we wouldnt be late for the show.
the usher that helped us find our seats.
the yummy subway dinner that filled us up during the disney on ice performance.
the amount of fun and enjoyment jim had today.
bus 11 to finally arrive so we could get to kallang mrt station.
the bus 51 to arrive shortly after i reached the bus stop.
seeing me home safely.
(:
mummy and daddy who sent me and michele to school today.
for michele's generosity and creativity that i have a new pair of shoes.
allowing my shakespeare presentation to go smoothly given how paranoid i was about it.
a delicious lunch that's cheap and good.
the programme to finally work so that michele could open her file for visual comm class.
constructive feedback during visual comm class to improve on my greeting card.
bus 16 that arrived in time and that we were able to board it so we wouldnt be late for the show.
the usher that helped us find our seats.
the yummy subway dinner that filled us up during the disney on ice performance.
the amount of fun and enjoyment jim had today.
bus 11 to finally arrive so we could get to kallang mrt station.
the bus 51 to arrive shortly after i reached the bus stop.
seeing me home safely.
(:
Saturday, March 11, 2006
sometimes having too many options can backfire.
they say that "variety is the spice of life"but perhaps variety can make like a little too hot to handle.
two nights ago i casually brought up the idea of me doing my honours overseas after im done with NUS next year.
and today during lunch with mum she brought it up again and it really got me thinking about it.
she said that it's ok if i want to go and that i'll probably receive a PM scholarship (for the uninformed..PM would stand for papa mama) for my postgraduate studies.
ok before i go on, maybe i should explain why i want to go overseas.
first and foremost, im not eligible to do my honours in singapore. reason being im currently doing a shared major between literature and new media studies. and the policy of NUS is that shared major students are not eligible for honours. then why am i doing a shared major? well. as much as i love literature, i find that to just study lit wont really get me anywhere in life. and im quite repulsed at the idea of becoming a teacher. i mean. all my students will be bigger than me! ok but seriously, i really dont think im cut out to be a teacher. some people have it and some people dont. im part of the latter. i also really wanted to do mass com in NTU but i didnt get in. so here i am in NUS trying to make the best of my 3 years and trying to do both.
secondly, i want to have more than just a cert that says "Bachelor of Arts and Social Science". i guess i do want to go into something more specialised pick up more practical skills. right now the new media studies in NUS is relatively new hence the modules arent really hands-on or specific. but i suppose thats what a bachelor is. university is all about diversity and creativity and blah blah blah. but i think i would rather learn more. and an honours programme would perhaps be the best way to get into something more focused and concentrated. i dont know how much more of an edge it will give me when it comes to finding a job but more out of personal, and call it selfish pursuit if u may, that im quite for the idea of carrying on my studies. besides, once all the studying ends, it's work work work all the way till God knows when. study while u still can.
thirdly, let's just say ive wanted to go abroad to study all along. the thought of a new environment, a new culture, a new setting and a chance to totally be immersed in a new way of life always intriged me. as much as im shy, and quiet, and introverted and lets just say adverse to new things, i just somehow always had the urge to go overseas and away from all the things im so used to. studying would be the perfect, i suppose, "excuse" to get this opportunity. besides. im a little sore that my parents are giving my brother the chance to go overseas but he's refusing it flatly. now that my parents are giving me the green light, im gonna jump at the chance.
back to my very first line, the problem then comes to the question of "what":
what to major in.
what to do.
what to study.
what to focus on.
already i've looked at the 3 main universities in perth (australia being the choice of country since its the cheapest..though..i assure you in no way cheap at all..just the cheapest) and im a little boggled.
so many choices.
arts.
media.
media management.
HR.
PR.
communication studies.
literary studies.
librarianship and corporate information management?
once i jump into it, im stuck with it.
its not really too early to start thinking and planning for it..this semester is going to end soon and the other two are going to fly by and soon i'll be graduating..sigh..well..lets just see how it goes shall we..in the meantime..i'll keep praying..and scouting around and finding out more..anyone with information or contacts let me know yeah..
finally.
just a thought.
will anyone miss me while im gone?
they say that "variety is the spice of life"but perhaps variety can make like a little too hot to handle.
two nights ago i casually brought up the idea of me doing my honours overseas after im done with NUS next year.
and today during lunch with mum she brought it up again and it really got me thinking about it.
she said that it's ok if i want to go and that i'll probably receive a PM scholarship (for the uninformed..PM would stand for papa mama) for my postgraduate studies.
ok before i go on, maybe i should explain why i want to go overseas.
first and foremost, im not eligible to do my honours in singapore. reason being im currently doing a shared major between literature and new media studies. and the policy of NUS is that shared major students are not eligible for honours. then why am i doing a shared major? well. as much as i love literature, i find that to just study lit wont really get me anywhere in life. and im quite repulsed at the idea of becoming a teacher. i mean. all my students will be bigger than me! ok but seriously, i really dont think im cut out to be a teacher. some people have it and some people dont. im part of the latter. i also really wanted to do mass com in NTU but i didnt get in. so here i am in NUS trying to make the best of my 3 years and trying to do both.
secondly, i want to have more than just a cert that says "Bachelor of Arts and Social Science". i guess i do want to go into something more specialised pick up more practical skills. right now the new media studies in NUS is relatively new hence the modules arent really hands-on or specific. but i suppose thats what a bachelor is. university is all about diversity and creativity and blah blah blah. but i think i would rather learn more. and an honours programme would perhaps be the best way to get into something more focused and concentrated. i dont know how much more of an edge it will give me when it comes to finding a job but more out of personal, and call it selfish pursuit if u may, that im quite for the idea of carrying on my studies. besides, once all the studying ends, it's work work work all the way till God knows when. study while u still can.
thirdly, let's just say ive wanted to go abroad to study all along. the thought of a new environment, a new culture, a new setting and a chance to totally be immersed in a new way of life always intriged me. as much as im shy, and quiet, and introverted and lets just say adverse to new things, i just somehow always had the urge to go overseas and away from all the things im so used to. studying would be the perfect, i suppose, "excuse" to get this opportunity. besides. im a little sore that my parents are giving my brother the chance to go overseas but he's refusing it flatly. now that my parents are giving me the green light, im gonna jump at the chance.
back to my very first line, the problem then comes to the question of "what":
what to major in.
what to do.
what to study.
what to focus on.
already i've looked at the 3 main universities in perth (australia being the choice of country since its the cheapest..though..i assure you in no way cheap at all..just the cheapest) and im a little boggled.
so many choices.
arts.
media.
media management.
HR.
PR.
communication studies.
literary studies.
librarianship and corporate information management?
once i jump into it, im stuck with it.
its not really too early to start thinking and planning for it..this semester is going to end soon and the other two are going to fly by and soon i'll be graduating..sigh..well..lets just see how it goes shall we..in the meantime..i'll keep praying..and scouting around and finding out more..anyone with information or contacts let me know yeah..
finally.
just a thought.
will anyone miss me while im gone?
Friday, March 10, 2006
finally im done with another week of school...
honestly it seemed like the longest week ever..considering time during this school term seemed to have been whizzing by like an annoying fly buzzing in your ear..well..ok..im back to ranting and rambling and complaining and whinning and sulking about how he's not around anymore..but i cant help it..it just is..and its the truth and fact of the matter isnt it?
haha..okok..its not as if i cant get over it and i keep crying or anthg so drastic as that but it just feels so darn weird..like how when my brother rang the doorbell i immediately jumped..but wait..hang on a second..it cant be him..and how usually after thurs' late lesson im usually skipping off excitedly to suntec to meet him after work for dinner..phooey..instead..i had to endure a 2hour bus ride home that was just infested with traffic jam after traffic jam...
BUT..at least i had a lot of fun after visual comm class today..courtesy of mishie moo! haha..though it was a short time spent together..we had fun shopping at the co-op..hurhur..i cant believe we had so much problem trying to spend $40 between the both of us..hahahaha..guess buying food and stationary is a lot harder than spending on clothes and accessories huh..hurhur..anyway..today ms chang played santa clausette and bought me stuff! on the list of things were an A3-sized portfolio, a purple pen, a packet of white rabbit sweets, a packet of peanut M&Ms and a box of strawberry kitkat! yuuuummmmmmmyyyy!!! hahaha..i think i felt like a little kid all over again..hurhur..with all that chocolate and sweets..hahahaha..so much for trying to help me cut down on my sugar intake huh..haha..i think as much as the people around me try to discourage my sugar intake..somehow..just somehow..they always either forget about it or give in to me..hahaha..and mishie..stop practicing your "looks" on me lahhhhh..hurhur..sorry..inside joke!
reached home at about 8pm just in time for dinner..which was as always..yummy..haha..i love coming home for dinner..mum's cooking always makes me happy..yeah..did the dishes..showered..watched amazing race and here i am blogging on this swealtering hot and humid thursday night..waiting up for jy to come back from llama bar so i can rant about my day to him..hhahaahaa..im about to fall asleep though..eyelids are heavvyyyyy..hurhur..got tons of stuff to do tmr as well..meet mum for lunch..return library books..buy printer paper..get starting on my presentation..at least dad helped me to change my watch strap today..haha..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks dadddyyyyyy..hurhur..daddy's little girl..too bad dad has to work tmr..i was kinda looking forward to having lunch with him..
im so tempted to just turn on the aircon and lie on my bed..but..thats assuming i'll be able to wake up when jy reaches home..hahaa..oh well..we'll see..
oh yar! one last thing..if ure free and bored and have nothing better to do..do this! haha! http://kevan.org/johari?name=wongmeiyan
honestly it seemed like the longest week ever..considering time during this school term seemed to have been whizzing by like an annoying fly buzzing in your ear..well..ok..im back to ranting and rambling and complaining and whinning and sulking about how he's not around anymore..but i cant help it..it just is..and its the truth and fact of the matter isnt it?
haha..okok..its not as if i cant get over it and i keep crying or anthg so drastic as that but it just feels so darn weird..like how when my brother rang the doorbell i immediately jumped..but wait..hang on a second..it cant be him..and how usually after thurs' late lesson im usually skipping off excitedly to suntec to meet him after work for dinner..phooey..instead..i had to endure a 2hour bus ride home that was just infested with traffic jam after traffic jam...
BUT..at least i had a lot of fun after visual comm class today..courtesy of mishie moo! haha..though it was a short time spent together..we had fun shopping at the co-op..hurhur..i cant believe we had so much problem trying to spend $40 between the both of us..hahahaha..guess buying food and stationary is a lot harder than spending on clothes and accessories huh..hurhur..anyway..today ms chang played santa clausette and bought me stuff! on the list of things were an A3-sized portfolio, a purple pen, a packet of white rabbit sweets, a packet of peanut M&Ms and a box of strawberry kitkat! yuuuummmmmmmyyyy!!! hahaha..i think i felt like a little kid all over again..hurhur..with all that chocolate and sweets..hahahaha..so much for trying to help me cut down on my sugar intake huh..haha..i think as much as the people around me try to discourage my sugar intake..somehow..just somehow..they always either forget about it or give in to me..hahaha..and mishie..stop practicing your "looks" on me lahhhhh..hurhur..sorry..inside joke!
reached home at about 8pm just in time for dinner..which was as always..yummy..haha..i love coming home for dinner..mum's cooking always makes me happy..yeah..did the dishes..showered..watched amazing race and here i am blogging on this swealtering hot and humid thursday night..waiting up for jy to come back from llama bar so i can rant about my day to him..hhahaahaa..im about to fall asleep though..eyelids are heavvyyyyy..hurhur..got tons of stuff to do tmr as well..meet mum for lunch..return library books..buy printer paper..get starting on my presentation..at least dad helped me to change my watch strap today..haha..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks dadddyyyyyy..hurhur..daddy's little girl..too bad dad has to work tmr..i was kinda looking forward to having lunch with him..
im so tempted to just turn on the aircon and lie on my bed..but..thats assuming i'll be able to wake up when jy reaches home..hahaa..oh well..we'll see..
oh yar! one last thing..if ure free and bored and have nothing better to do..do this! haha! http://kevan.org/johari?name=wongmeiyan
co-op presents thanks to michele!
my "social message"poster for visual comm class!
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
i think i finally am able to put into words why i feel so reluctant to let him go.
its not because i want him there,
but because i want to be there for him.
its not because i want him to hold my hand,
but because i want to hold his hand.
its not because i want him to smile for me,
but because i want to make him smile.
its not because i want to talk to him,
but because i want him to have me to talk to.
its not because i want to hear him say it,
but because i want to tell him "i love you".
4 months.
16 weeks.
112 days.
2688 hours.
161280 minutes.
9676800 seconds.
its not because i want him there,
but because i want to be there for him.
its not because i want him to hold my hand,
but because i want to hold his hand.
its not because i want him to smile for me,
but because i want to make him smile.
its not because i want to talk to him,
but because i want him to have me to talk to.
its not because i want to hear him say it,
but because i want to tell him "i love you".
4 months.
16 weeks.
112 days.
2688 hours.
161280 minutes.
9676800 seconds.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
this week is presentation week for me:
monday - lit and other arts
wednesday - interactive media
thursday - visual communications
so how was today's presentation?
well..considering me and michele took about 2hrs to finalize stuff at amk macs on sunday..i think we did a pretty darn good job..haha..seriously..and its no mean feat ok..cause the topic we're doing on (Ashbery and de Chirico for those interested) was like the hardest and most complicated of all the topics we could have possibly chosen in our module..hahaaa..so dumb i tell you..cause we had to pick which weeks and topics we wanted to do our presentation on..and we didnt want to do it too late so as to clash with the annual rushing of essays we had to do mr. ashbery cause the previous weeks were all taken up..so yeah..haha..we spent 3 solid hours in the central library just trying to find a poem and painting to match..this ashbery fella is one crazy fella..he wrote a 50 page long POEM (mind you..its one whole poem..not prose), wrote a poem on daffy duck (yes you heard me right) and wrote a book titled "a nest of ninnys"..me and michele were like.. -_-'"..haha..but im kinda glad we did it..i got to learn a lot and practice interpreting painting..because it was so challenging im sure we learnt a lot more than we would have if we did a straightforward and typical poem or painting..job well done mishie moo!
right now my eyes can barely open..haha..stayed back in school to finish up our new media project..its going ok i guess..my group is going to have to bang on the presentation to get us a good grade i suppose..because we didnt really meet up properly our slides and info were all a little messed up..had to fix it with mish today..yeah..but the project came after we had lunch at the business canteen..had my bratwraust and potato wedges..it wasnt as nice as i remembered it to be though..haha..but nvm..had fun meeting up with shawn and me, mary, michele and shawn went totally bonkers and evil talking about..er..erm..ok..stuff..hahaha..not safe to disclose..you never know who might be reading your blog..haha..
got quite a lot of stuff to do this week..wanna try and at least start on my poster for visual comm class on thursday tonight..and finish reading Love's Labour's Lost in preparation for my shakespeare presentation next thurs..need to return library books..change my watch strap..research on my lit and other art's essay..iron my clothes..buy contact lenses..
but as much as im this busy..i still have time to think of him..yeah..its only day two since he left for perth and im already pinning for him to come back home..heh..well..i guess its back to laggy webcam images and at least good quality "phone-calls"over google talk..thank God for the internet and fast broadband connection..haha..but..nothing..absolutely nothing beats the real thing..sigh..its a matter of getting used to it i suppose..but..then again..i really dont wanna get used to you being away from me...
alright..time to go for dinner..not very hungry though..i still can feel the sausage and soya bean milk swimming around in my stomach........
monday - lit and other arts
wednesday - interactive media
thursday - visual communications
so how was today's presentation?
well..considering me and michele took about 2hrs to finalize stuff at amk macs on sunday..i think we did a pretty darn good job..haha..seriously..and its no mean feat ok..cause the topic we're doing on (Ashbery and de Chirico for those interested) was like the hardest and most complicated of all the topics we could have possibly chosen in our module..hahaaa..so dumb i tell you..cause we had to pick which weeks and topics we wanted to do our presentation on..and we didnt want to do it too late so as to clash with the annual rushing of essays we had to do mr. ashbery cause the previous weeks were all taken up..so yeah..haha..we spent 3 solid hours in the central library just trying to find a poem and painting to match..this ashbery fella is one crazy fella..he wrote a 50 page long POEM (mind you..its one whole poem..not prose), wrote a poem on daffy duck (yes you heard me right) and wrote a book titled "a nest of ninnys"..me and michele were like.. -_-'"..haha..but im kinda glad we did it..i got to learn a lot and practice interpreting painting..because it was so challenging im sure we learnt a lot more than we would have if we did a straightforward and typical poem or painting..job well done mishie moo!
right now my eyes can barely open..haha..stayed back in school to finish up our new media project..its going ok i guess..my group is going to have to bang on the presentation to get us a good grade i suppose..because we didnt really meet up properly our slides and info were all a little messed up..had to fix it with mish today..yeah..but the project came after we had lunch at the business canteen..had my bratwraust and potato wedges..it wasnt as nice as i remembered it to be though..haha..but nvm..had fun meeting up with shawn and me, mary, michele and shawn went totally bonkers and evil talking about..er..erm..ok..stuff..hahaha..not safe to disclose..you never know who might be reading your blog..haha..
got quite a lot of stuff to do this week..wanna try and at least start on my poster for visual comm class on thursday tonight..and finish reading Love's Labour's Lost in preparation for my shakespeare presentation next thurs..need to return library books..change my watch strap..research on my lit and other art's essay..iron my clothes..buy contact lenses..
but as much as im this busy..i still have time to think of him..yeah..its only day two since he left for perth and im already pinning for him to come back home..heh..well..i guess its back to laggy webcam images and at least good quality "phone-calls"over google talk..thank God for the internet and fast broadband connection..haha..but..nothing..absolutely nothing beats the real thing..sigh..its a matter of getting used to it i suppose..but..then again..i really dont wanna get used to you being away from me...
alright..time to go for dinner..not very hungry though..i still can feel the sausage and soya bean milk swimming around in my stomach........
Sunday, March 05, 2006
i still remember how each and every goodbye was.
every one a little different from the other.
the first was the easiest, yet not that easy.
we were new friends, a little more than mere acquaintances.
but there was a little saddness on my part for just when i was getting to know him better and having fun during our movie sessions and talks by the pool, he was leaving.
it was that kind of pinning for something more because u've had your first sweet taste of it.
the second was definitely nothing like the first one because we were a lot more than just friends.
we were together.
and that made things tough.
it was a little like the first goodbye in the sense it left me pinning and wanting more.
more time with him.
it was the first time we were spending time together as a couple.
and after 5 weeks he was due to fly back.
that goodbye was no mean feat.
though it was comforted by the fact that he'd be back.
the third goodbye was and has been the worst thus far.
and this time it wasnt at changi airport but in Perth.
i had just spent close to 9 full days with him.
seeing him just about 24/7.
and it was really during this period where we got to know each other so much better.
and it was this short period of time that we both grew to love each other for what we really are as individuals.
i had to be really strong and walk through the departure gate without crying.
inside i was crying and struggling to even talk without having tears roll down my cheeks.
i cried uncontrollably in the plane.
tonight, the goodbye is going to be tough as well.
to say goodbye after spending 3 lovely and eventful months is just not easy.
i feel like im just getting used to having him around but now its time to readjust back to seeing him only when he's online.
its back to staring at the lifeless screen and getting lagging webcam pictures of him.
sigh....
i already found it so hard to let him take the lift up to his house every night.
what more saying goodbye for the next four months.
no matter how many goodbyes, no matter how many visits to the airport,
i'll never ever be able to say it with ease.
tonight is going to be no exception.........
how is it that i already miss you?
cent deux jours...
every one a little different from the other.
the first was the easiest, yet not that easy.
we were new friends, a little more than mere acquaintances.
but there was a little saddness on my part for just when i was getting to know him better and having fun during our movie sessions and talks by the pool, he was leaving.
it was that kind of pinning for something more because u've had your first sweet taste of it.
the second was definitely nothing like the first one because we were a lot more than just friends.
we were together.
and that made things tough.
it was a little like the first goodbye in the sense it left me pinning and wanting more.
more time with him.
it was the first time we were spending time together as a couple.
and after 5 weeks he was due to fly back.
that goodbye was no mean feat.
though it was comforted by the fact that he'd be back.
the third goodbye was and has been the worst thus far.
and this time it wasnt at changi airport but in Perth.
i had just spent close to 9 full days with him.
seeing him just about 24/7.
and it was really during this period where we got to know each other so much better.
and it was this short period of time that we both grew to love each other for what we really are as individuals.
i had to be really strong and walk through the departure gate without crying.
inside i was crying and struggling to even talk without having tears roll down my cheeks.
i cried uncontrollably in the plane.
tonight, the goodbye is going to be tough as well.
to say goodbye after spending 3 lovely and eventful months is just not easy.
i feel like im just getting used to having him around but now its time to readjust back to seeing him only when he's online.
its back to staring at the lifeless screen and getting lagging webcam pictures of him.
sigh....
i already found it so hard to let him take the lift up to his house every night.
what more saying goodbye for the next four months.
no matter how many goodbyes, no matter how many visits to the airport,
i'll never ever be able to say it with ease.
tonight is going to be no exception.........
how is it that i already miss you?
cent deux jours...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Thursday, February 16, 2006
indeed it was a really special dinner..
the whole night was just perfect...
took the 6.00pm shuttle to hougang mrt station and i just knew i would be late for the dinner date..
at 630 i was still amazingly at potong pasir when i smsed him..
the NEL is usually so fast im always early..guess when ure late..ure late..haha..
as a result of reaching city hall at 650 i literally ran (in heels) all the way to suntec tower 2..which in case you dont know where that is..its right at the end of suntec where the huge adidas shop is..haha..
but all that running was really worth it..
from the escalator upstairs my prince charming was spying on me and surprised me with a huge bouquet of lilies! (:
dinner was a delicious affair..
he brought me to have indonesian food at the sudanese house..
was really lovely because he pre-ordered and paid for the dinner before we arrived so everything came like clock-work from the drinks to the dishes (it was also probably a ploy to prevent me from finding out how much he spent on dinner)..
curry chicken, sambal prawns, kang kong and one of the best tasting sea bass ive ever had..
dessert was an interesting indonesian concoction of super-sweet mangoes and pomelo segments..
by the end of the dinner i really felt like i was going to burst...
took a walk down to the esplanade..
went up to the sky garden and it was really nice with all the soft lighting and the band playing downstairs..
needless to say there were quite a lot of other couples there too..
i was just telling him that theres really no where else to go in singapore..hurhur..
we sat down and as if the dinner and flowers weren't enough..he had yet another surprise for me..
out came the butterfly pendant that i had given up looking for some time ago..before christmas i think..
it really made such a wonderful surprise..
with all honesty..
its not the flowers, or the dinner or the presents or the hefty amount of money spent that made my valentine's day such a lovely one..
its the person i was able to spend it with and knowing how much effort and planning he put into making the night a memorable one..
thanks dear..
things just wouldnt be the same without you around..
and just like you prayed before dinner..
may our love for each other, as well as our love for God grow with each passing day..
and may He continue to bless our relationship as He has been for the past nine months..
(:
the whole night was just perfect...
took the 6.00pm shuttle to hougang mrt station and i just knew i would be late for the dinner date..
at 630 i was still amazingly at potong pasir when i smsed him..
the NEL is usually so fast im always early..guess when ure late..ure late..haha..
as a result of reaching city hall at 650 i literally ran (in heels) all the way to suntec tower 2..which in case you dont know where that is..its right at the end of suntec where the huge adidas shop is..haha..
but all that running was really worth it..
from the escalator upstairs my prince charming was spying on me and surprised me with a huge bouquet of lilies! (:
dinner was a delicious affair..
he brought me to have indonesian food at the sudanese house..
was really lovely because he pre-ordered and paid for the dinner before we arrived so everything came like clock-work from the drinks to the dishes (it was also probably a ploy to prevent me from finding out how much he spent on dinner)..
curry chicken, sambal prawns, kang kong and one of the best tasting sea bass ive ever had..
dessert was an interesting indonesian concoction of super-sweet mangoes and pomelo segments..
by the end of the dinner i really felt like i was going to burst...
took a walk down to the esplanade..
went up to the sky garden and it was really nice with all the soft lighting and the band playing downstairs..
needless to say there were quite a lot of other couples there too..
i was just telling him that theres really no where else to go in singapore..hurhur..
we sat down and as if the dinner and flowers weren't enough..he had yet another surprise for me..
out came the butterfly pendant that i had given up looking for some time ago..before christmas i think..
it really made such a wonderful surprise..
with all honesty..
its not the flowers, or the dinner or the presents or the hefty amount of money spent that made my valentine's day such a lovely one..
its the person i was able to spend it with and knowing how much effort and planning he put into making the night a memorable one..
thanks dear..
things just wouldnt be the same without you around..
and just like you prayed before dinner..
may our love for each other, as well as our love for God grow with each passing day..
and may He continue to bless our relationship as He has been for the past nine months..
(:
Monday, February 13, 2006
Friday, February 03, 2006
its already been a week since i last blogged..
and since im waiting for my hair to dry..
here's another entry for all my blog readers out there..
lets start of with a little update about school shall we?
well..the modules that ive been worried and gone sleepless over are so far so good..
but that isnt to say that theyre easy..its rather to say that with the right attitude and mindset it can made into something managable and enjoyable..
yup..
intro to visual comm didnt turn out to be that bad..it was just that the first day of class i was suddenly thrown into a most frustrating situation whereby i had to use adobe photoshop to design a poster thingy when ive NEVER used that program before..
but the following week we spent about 2 and a half hours just doodling and drawing..churning out endless useless, funny and weird sketches..
today we did presentations of our decided sketches to be used in the final prototype design and it was rather fun..
i actually was more confident and interative with my "audience" than i thought i would have been..
thank God for michele too because shes always (literally) beside me helping me..
and for pushing me to take modules that i never would have taken (a.k.a this module and science fiction last semester)
as for shakespeare..its been quite good actually..
sure the workload is heavy with all the readings, extra readings and self-study of the various plays but its interesting..
im learning beyond just the play..
im learning about editors, authorship, questioning the concept of minor characterization, sources, authenticity..
not just the usual going through the text line by line as is the common practice of secondary school and jc..
and thank God for a project group in which everyone is serious about getting the work done and sharing the workload..
what else...
besides school..nothing much has been happenning..except chinese new year which just passed..
chinese new year was a really good time for me because it gave me the chance to visit his relatives and just spend more time with his family..
went to his grandma's (father's side) house for dinner on the first day..
hugeeeeeeeeeeee family..all the family members inside one flat..haha..with loads of food to feed the dense population..
after that we proceeded to his other grandma's (mother's side) for dessert..hahaa..homemade cheesecake made by his uncle..and there was even mango cake leftover from celebrating his grandma's birthday..
oh yeah..he was telling me that his uncle usually sleeps really early but was at grandma's house because he knew i was coming..
haha..his brother was like saying it must be because of a "V.I.P"..hurhur..
and as if there wasnt enough visitation therewas still more activity that night as his family came over to my house to visit..
haha..his family..my family..wayne and lily (my neighbours)..and of course tea and heaps of new year goodies covered the table outside under the stars..
it was a good time of chatting..laughter..lots of jokes and teasings too..needless to say quite a lot of it was directed at me and at my expense..
haha..
speaking of his relatives..we had a late night outing with his cousins..all thanks to Kelly for so enthusiastically organizing it during the dinner night at his grandma's place..haha..
the initial plan that got everyone excited was to go to MOS..
but alas..when we got there..there was NO QUEUE..because it was closed.
tsk.killjoy.spoiler.party pooper.wet blanket.bah.phooey.bleah.
haha..yeah..was such a disappointment..but it was quite a sight to see MOS without a queue..hurhur..
stranded we proceeded to brewerks!
me, jy and his other cousin took Kit's Lexus..and wow..it looks really good..the silver makes it even more sleek..i like..haha..very spacious..and it has a touch screen panel..amazing..
(jy are u reading this..better work hard and start saving money! *hinthint)
had a good time at brewerks..we ordered two towers..the first beer was indian pale ale..was not bad..very smooth..the second one we ordered was black razzy..which was..a bad choice..haha..tasted too much like a fruit drink doused with alcohol..
their snacks are good though..absolutely loved the fries..the nachos wasnt too bad either..
and as if it wasnt enough indulgence..the next stop was mdm wongs..
more alcohol..vodka lime and bourbon coke..haha..as if to make up for the lack of MOS that night..
dancing was fun..not many people around but just enough on the dance floor..
but be warned..dancing immediately after downing so much alcohol is very very bad......................you have been warned.enough said.
gosh.
its already 3rd feb year 2006..
honestly..where did time go?
time seemed to have whizzed by from the time he landed in singapore on the 24th of nov 2005 to now..
week after week just passes by with a blink of the eye..
sigh..its really true..time seems to pass by a lot faster when ure having fun..
and more than having fun, im having the time of my life..
no its not all smooth-sailing and fairy tale days but with its fair share of silly arguments and quarrels..
through it all..i just thank God that He has given me someone whom i can learn so much from..
jy has really taught me so much and im still learning as he is learning from me too..
a relationship is more than just giving and taking but its also about correcting each other in love even though we know its gonna be hard to be harsh on the other party..
thank God that jy knows when to put his foot down and tell me when im wrong..
he's following my mum's advice of "cannot spoil her"..hurhur..
no wonder my parents love u so much..
tsk..
haha..
*Grin
alright..
i should really speed up the drying process with the help of my hair dryer than head straight to bed..
gotta wake up early tmr!
he's coming down to have breakkie with my family..
the ping guo pie that we bought from carrefour today..
Yummy!
(:
night y'all.
and since im waiting for my hair to dry..
here's another entry for all my blog readers out there..
lets start of with a little update about school shall we?
well..the modules that ive been worried and gone sleepless over are so far so good..
but that isnt to say that theyre easy..its rather to say that with the right attitude and mindset it can made into something managable and enjoyable..
yup..
intro to visual comm didnt turn out to be that bad..it was just that the first day of class i was suddenly thrown into a most frustrating situation whereby i had to use adobe photoshop to design a poster thingy when ive NEVER used that program before..
but the following week we spent about 2 and a half hours just doodling and drawing..churning out endless useless, funny and weird sketches..
today we did presentations of our decided sketches to be used in the final prototype design and it was rather fun..
i actually was more confident and interative with my "audience" than i thought i would have been..
thank God for michele too because shes always (literally) beside me helping me..
and for pushing me to take modules that i never would have taken (a.k.a this module and science fiction last semester)
as for shakespeare..its been quite good actually..
sure the workload is heavy with all the readings, extra readings and self-study of the various plays but its interesting..
im learning beyond just the play..
im learning about editors, authorship, questioning the concept of minor characterization, sources, authenticity..
not just the usual going through the text line by line as is the common practice of secondary school and jc..
and thank God for a project group in which everyone is serious about getting the work done and sharing the workload..
what else...
besides school..nothing much has been happenning..except chinese new year which just passed..
chinese new year was a really good time for me because it gave me the chance to visit his relatives and just spend more time with his family..
went to his grandma's (father's side) house for dinner on the first day..
hugeeeeeeeeeeee family..all the family members inside one flat..haha..with loads of food to feed the dense population..
after that we proceeded to his other grandma's (mother's side) for dessert..hahaa..homemade cheesecake made by his uncle..and there was even mango cake leftover from celebrating his grandma's birthday..
oh yeah..he was telling me that his uncle usually sleeps really early but was at grandma's house because he knew i was coming..
haha..his brother was like saying it must be because of a "V.I.P"..hurhur..
and as if there wasnt enough visitation therewas still more activity that night as his family came over to my house to visit..
haha..his family..my family..wayne and lily (my neighbours)..and of course tea and heaps of new year goodies covered the table outside under the stars..
it was a good time of chatting..laughter..lots of jokes and teasings too..needless to say quite a lot of it was directed at me and at my expense..
haha..
speaking of his relatives..we had a late night outing with his cousins..all thanks to Kelly for so enthusiastically organizing it during the dinner night at his grandma's place..haha..
the initial plan that got everyone excited was to go to MOS..
but alas..when we got there..there was NO QUEUE..because it was closed.
tsk.killjoy.spoiler.party pooper.wet blanket.bah.phooey.bleah.
haha..yeah..was such a disappointment..but it was quite a sight to see MOS without a queue..hurhur..
stranded we proceeded to brewerks!
me, jy and his other cousin took Kit's Lexus..and wow..it looks really good..the silver makes it even more sleek..i like..haha..very spacious..and it has a touch screen panel..amazing..
(jy are u reading this..better work hard and start saving money! *hinthint)
had a good time at brewerks..we ordered two towers..the first beer was indian pale ale..was not bad..very smooth..the second one we ordered was black razzy..which was..a bad choice..haha..tasted too much like a fruit drink doused with alcohol..
their snacks are good though..absolutely loved the fries..the nachos wasnt too bad either..
and as if it wasnt enough indulgence..the next stop was mdm wongs..
more alcohol..vodka lime and bourbon coke..haha..as if to make up for the lack of MOS that night..
dancing was fun..not many people around but just enough on the dance floor..
but be warned..dancing immediately after downing so much alcohol is very very bad......................you have been warned.enough said.
gosh.
its already 3rd feb year 2006..
honestly..where did time go?
time seemed to have whizzed by from the time he landed in singapore on the 24th of nov 2005 to now..
week after week just passes by with a blink of the eye..
sigh..its really true..time seems to pass by a lot faster when ure having fun..
and more than having fun, im having the time of my life..
no its not all smooth-sailing and fairy tale days but with its fair share of silly arguments and quarrels..
through it all..i just thank God that He has given me someone whom i can learn so much from..
jy has really taught me so much and im still learning as he is learning from me too..
a relationship is more than just giving and taking but its also about correcting each other in love even though we know its gonna be hard to be harsh on the other party..
thank God that jy knows when to put his foot down and tell me when im wrong..
he's following my mum's advice of "cannot spoil her"..hurhur..
no wonder my parents love u so much..
tsk..
haha..
*Grin
alright..
i should really speed up the drying process with the help of my hair dryer than head straight to bed..
gotta wake up early tmr!
he's coming down to have breakkie with my family..
the ping guo pie that we bought from carrefour today..
Yummy!
(:
night y'all.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
im scared.
im worried.
im sleepless in hougang.
all because of two modules.
shakespeare & principles of visual communication.
and they have to both be on the same day!
and 3hour blocks each.
bah.
pray for me please?
im worried.
im sleepless in hougang.
all because of two modules.
shakespeare & principles of visual communication.
and they have to both be on the same day!
and 3hour blocks each.
bah.
pray for me please?
God help me to trust in you..
that i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..
help me to have the confidence that can only come from you..
as well as that sense of peace that you give..
allow me to find comfort in you..
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
i really should be studying right now.
should be trying to get through Shakespeare's King Lear and reading up on notes about it.
its absolutely insane.
this Shakespeare module of mine?
the lecturers arent going through the books but rather we're gonna compare editions, versions of the plays, videos and what not.
i mean. how does one compare when in the first place we dont even know what the play is about?
tsk. it just means a lot of hard work and camping out in the library as well as lugging heaps of books home just to grasp the basics of each book.
*bleah.
which reminds me..michele! you need to pay the fines for your library book on my lib card. heh.
another module im really worried about is Principles of Visual Communication.
bah.
no one told me i needed to draw!
i havent drawn since....primary school....and to begin with.....i cant draw for nuts.
phooey.
and i went down to ArtFriend the other day to buy art supplies which i probably will never ever use again in my lifetime after im done with this module.
hurhur.
i suppose its gonna be one tough challenge for me.
and this is what uni is for isnt it?
challenge yourself and expose yourself to different ideas and concepts.
things that you probably wouldnt ever get the chance to learn and absorb in a school environment once you get out into the working world.
guess this is whats stopping me from dropping the module.
same with "Literature and the other arts".
i really wanna use this chance while im still in school to really be exposed to as much as i possibly can before i face reality in the cruel outside world.
besides, you never know when these skills might come in handy.
alright.
guess im just gonna send him an email, grab a bite then get back to my King Lear.
what a way to spend my free day. phooey.
im so not looking forward to school tomorrow.
i end at 9pm!
and what to wear..........*headache. hurhur. ;)
should be trying to get through Shakespeare's King Lear and reading up on notes about it.
its absolutely insane.
this Shakespeare module of mine?
the lecturers arent going through the books but rather we're gonna compare editions, versions of the plays, videos and what not.
i mean. how does one compare when in the first place we dont even know what the play is about?
tsk. it just means a lot of hard work and camping out in the library as well as lugging heaps of books home just to grasp the basics of each book.
*bleah.
which reminds me..michele! you need to pay the fines for your library book on my lib card. heh.
another module im really worried about is Principles of Visual Communication.
bah.
no one told me i needed to draw!
i havent drawn since....primary school....and to begin with.....i cant draw for nuts.
phooey.
and i went down to ArtFriend the other day to buy art supplies which i probably will never ever use again in my lifetime after im done with this module.
hurhur.
i suppose its gonna be one tough challenge for me.
and this is what uni is for isnt it?
challenge yourself and expose yourself to different ideas and concepts.
things that you probably wouldnt ever get the chance to learn and absorb in a school environment once you get out into the working world.
guess this is whats stopping me from dropping the module.
same with "Literature and the other arts".
i really wanna use this chance while im still in school to really be exposed to as much as i possibly can before i face reality in the cruel outside world.
besides, you never know when these skills might come in handy.
alright.
guess im just gonna send him an email, grab a bite then get back to my King Lear.
what a way to spend my free day. phooey.
im so not looking forward to school tomorrow.
i end at 9pm!
and what to wear..........*headache. hurhur. ;)
Saturday, January 14, 2006
alright..i wanted to blog yesterday after i came home but i was too sleepy..heh..pig..but here it is..better late than never (like i always say..hurhur)...
went down to city hall to meet jy and his poly buddy tianjie (or TJ for short) to have dinner..
interesting fact: TJ and JY were not just stuck together in poly for 3 years but later posted to the same platoon for BMT and as well as the same bunk..haha..then later posted to the same unit in NDU..hahaa..funny huh..but i suppose its a little like me and michele..same primary school, same secondary school, same cca in secondary school, same class in JC and now doing pretty much all the same modules in NUS..woah..wonder if we'll get the chance to work together..hurhur..
anyway..back to last night..went to marche to have dinner..which meant jy had to walk all the way back to suntec..hahaa..and he told me to meet him at city hall so i wouldnt have to walk all the way to suntec then to city hall..hahaa..yeah..he suggested suntec just cause he saw on my wishlist i wanted to have dinner at marche..heehee..thanks dear..
needless to say..food was aplenty..haha..but with two bottomless pits around (not me of course) it wasnt that much of a problem finishing up the food..food was ok i guess..not that fantastic but i did enjoy my seafood combo platter..yummy..always loved the tempura prawns and soft-shell crabs..heh..and who could forget dessert? in fact..i think i go to marche mainly for the dessert..hahaa..i would have gladly just had dessert for dinner but i dont think jy would approve..hurhur..we 3 had to share a plate of caramel banana crepe with ice cream though..all 3 of us were just too stuffed...
walked down to the esplanade after that..was really empty..guess because it was raining the whole day..but yeah..was nice and cool..the city skyline always looks so nice at night..went to max brenner later..hahaa..eat again...TJ had some alcoholic+choc drink, i had a strawberry with white chocolate shake and jy had this suckao thingy..its like they give you this little gadget that has a candle underneath and a metal bowl thingy on top..and with choc bits and milk..and so you melt the two together and drink it up..haha..sorry for the really lousy description..i didnt have my camera with me last night..yeah..and seriously..one could get a high from all that chocolate..haha..and thanks TJ for the sweet treat! literally. ha.
definitely enjoyed myself.
guess i really have to learn to give people and myself a chance as what jy told me while waiting for the train home.
thanks TJ for being so friendly and full of nonsense.
thanks JY for being so encouraging.
(:
went down to city hall to meet jy and his poly buddy tianjie (or TJ for short) to have dinner..
interesting fact: TJ and JY were not just stuck together in poly for 3 years but later posted to the same platoon for BMT and as well as the same bunk..haha..then later posted to the same unit in NDU..hahaa..funny huh..but i suppose its a little like me and michele..same primary school, same secondary school, same cca in secondary school, same class in JC and now doing pretty much all the same modules in NUS..woah..wonder if we'll get the chance to work together..hurhur..
anyway..back to last night..went to marche to have dinner..which meant jy had to walk all the way back to suntec..hahaa..and he told me to meet him at city hall so i wouldnt have to walk all the way to suntec then to city hall..hahaa..yeah..he suggested suntec just cause he saw on my wishlist i wanted to have dinner at marche..heehee..thanks dear..
needless to say..food was aplenty..haha..but with two bottomless pits around (not me of course) it wasnt that much of a problem finishing up the food..food was ok i guess..not that fantastic but i did enjoy my seafood combo platter..yummy..always loved the tempura prawns and soft-shell crabs..heh..and who could forget dessert? in fact..i think i go to marche mainly for the dessert..hahaa..i would have gladly just had dessert for dinner but i dont think jy would approve..hurhur..we 3 had to share a plate of caramel banana crepe with ice cream though..all 3 of us were just too stuffed...
walked down to the esplanade after that..was really empty..guess because it was raining the whole day..but yeah..was nice and cool..the city skyline always looks so nice at night..went to max brenner later..hahaa..eat again...TJ had some alcoholic+choc drink, i had a strawberry with white chocolate shake and jy had this suckao thingy..its like they give you this little gadget that has a candle underneath and a metal bowl thingy on top..and with choc bits and milk..and so you melt the two together and drink it up..haha..sorry for the really lousy description..i didnt have my camera with me last night..yeah..and seriously..one could get a high from all that chocolate..haha..and thanks TJ for the sweet treat! literally. ha.
definitely enjoyed myself.
guess i really have to learn to give people and myself a chance as what jy told me while waiting for the train home.
thanks TJ for being so friendly and full of nonsense.
thanks JY for being so encouraging.
(:
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
this morning he called me and i was feeling so under the weather that i sounded like a grouch.
then i rejected his offer flatly to go upstairs to watch the hongkong serial with his mum.
and then a while later i sent him an sms which wasnt exctly very pleasant.
but it did say why i was feeling like an absolute nasty little thing.
well.
instead of being pissed and fed up with me...
he came down to give me a hug.
a very much-needed reassuring hug.
thanks dear.
it meant the world to me.
(:
then i rejected his offer flatly to go upstairs to watch the hongkong serial with his mum.
and then a while later i sent him an sms which wasnt exctly very pleasant.
but it did say why i was feeling like an absolute nasty little thing.
well.
instead of being pissed and fed up with me...
he came down to give me a hug.
a very much-needed reassuring hug.
thanks dear.
it meant the world to me.
(:
Monday, January 09, 2006
tomorrow will be the first day of school after about a month of pure bumming around.
yeaps.
tomorrow is the first day of year2 semester 2 2006.
hmm.
maybe i should make some "school resolutions".
hurhur.
okok.
lets see...
umm...
No Cs, all Bs and above, and at least one A! (A- and A+ all counted.hurhur.)
i will not skip more than...er...a few tutorials and lectures.
hahahahahahaa.
sorry. but that resolution, i know, i will not adhere to so lets be realistic shall we.
haha.
okok.
one more.
i will speak up more during tutorial and hopefully try to get some marks out of tutorial discussions and participation.
there we go.
now on to the more important stuff......
im gonna be doing a lot of "meetings" tomorrow!
how exciting.
first day of school. well. at least its gonna start with a bang. i hope. sorta.
haha.
okok.
starting of with meeting jun yuan for breakkie tmr morning at 715. hahahaa. early.
then meeting kaisheng at the interchange at 820.
then meeting mish for lecture at 10.
then meeting wee wee for lunch at the arts canteen at 12.
then meeting amanda and benny at the co-op at 145.
then meeting mish at 3 to go down to bugis (n find out wat in e world is a clutch pencil!)
then meeting jun yuan for dinner at 6.
wow.
that sounds like fun doesnt it.
ha.
i cant wait!
hmm.
u notice i havent exactly mentioned anything about school itself.
hahahahahaha.
i dont want school to start.
if not for all these meetings, i might just sleep in.
hurhur.
thanks God for His immaculate timing.
all these "meeting" invites came flooding in.
but the meetings with jun yuan are my idea. hee.
alright.
im off.
to bed.
tomorrow will be the first time since end november that i will be waking up so darn early.
*bleah.
night ya'll.
cheers to a brand new year and a brand new semester!
(:
yeaps.
tomorrow is the first day of year2 semester 2 2006.
hmm.
maybe i should make some "school resolutions".
hurhur.
okok.
lets see...
umm...
No Cs, all Bs and above, and at least one A! (A- and A+ all counted.hurhur.)
i will not skip more than...er...a few tutorials and lectures.
hahahahahahaa.
sorry. but that resolution, i know, i will not adhere to so lets be realistic shall we.
haha.
okok.
one more.
i will speak up more during tutorial and hopefully try to get some marks out of tutorial discussions and participation.
there we go.
now on to the more important stuff......
im gonna be doing a lot of "meetings" tomorrow!
how exciting.
first day of school. well. at least its gonna start with a bang. i hope. sorta.
haha.
okok.
starting of with meeting jun yuan for breakkie tmr morning at 715. hahahaa. early.
then meeting kaisheng at the interchange at 820.
then meeting mish for lecture at 10.
then meeting wee wee for lunch at the arts canteen at 12.
then meeting amanda and benny at the co-op at 145.
then meeting mish at 3 to go down to bugis (n find out wat in e world is a clutch pencil!)
then meeting jun yuan for dinner at 6.
wow.
that sounds like fun doesnt it.
ha.
i cant wait!
hmm.
u notice i havent exactly mentioned anything about school itself.
hahahahahaha.
i dont want school to start.
if not for all these meetings, i might just sleep in.
hurhur.
thanks God for His immaculate timing.
all these "meeting" invites came flooding in.
but the meetings with jun yuan are my idea. hee.
alright.
im off.
to bed.
tomorrow will be the first time since end november that i will be waking up so darn early.
*bleah.
night ya'll.
cheers to a brand new year and a brand new semester!
(:
Thursday, January 05, 2006
the very first week of a brand new year and already old bad habits are manifesting as they always have been..
sigh..
bad bad baddddddd start to the year 2006..
but i suppose on the more optimistic end..there are things to thank God for..
not in retrospect looking back on last year but rather within the few days of the new beginning..
ok so results came out last year but it was the year end so it counts ok..haha..and besides..i havent exactly blogged about it have i? well..results were..disappointing..i didnt get the B+ i was hoping for for intro to computing and the other results were just mediocre..tsk..but i got a rather shocking surprise (note the juxtaposition here..i really dont know if i shld b happy or not) when i got a B+ for Asian American Lit..like hello..me and michele only went for like 4 lectures? and attended give and take about 6 tutorials? hahaaaa..oh well..think either my bull-shitting skills really showed itself during the exam paper or everyone else did very badly..hahaaa..so yeah..results..phooey..there goes first class honours..hurhur..
on the brighter side of life..thank God that this year CORS decided to be nice to me and mishie moo..only 2 rounds of utter nonsense and senseless bidding of exorbitant amounts of points and we manage to get all the modules we want..of course theres a price to pay (literally) as now im broke in terms of points..hahaa..might have to settle for rubbish modules next semester..hurhur..but yeah..just wanna enjoy this semester and do well..think i should be camping out more in the library this semester..hurhur..find me and michele in the central library every tuesday 12 to 5! after which i shall run off to suntec to meet jy..hurhur..whatttttt..must have something to look forward to right..motivation to stay in school to study..heehee..*grin
oh yeah..also thank God that me and michele only have to bid for 2 tutorial time slots so that should ease the headache on tutorial bidding..yeah..cause 3 out of 5 modules are like either e-seminar or sectional teaching..which means..3hrs lectures..hahaaa..yeahhh..oh well..u cant always have your cake and eat it..
oohhhhhhh..how can i forget..if all goes well with tutorial bidding..im gonna have another semester of 3day weeks!!!
*WOOHOO!
so..
looking forward to this year..
kinda..
sorta..
looking forward to chinese new year..and church camp..and hopefully a shopping trip to bangkok in june..
yeah..
but on the flip side..
its gonna be a really really long year without someone...
sigh..
its a battle of wanting time to stand still but yet fly by..
sigh..
bad bad baddddddd start to the year 2006..
but i suppose on the more optimistic end..there are things to thank God for..
not in retrospect looking back on last year but rather within the few days of the new beginning..
ok so results came out last year but it was the year end so it counts ok..haha..and besides..i havent exactly blogged about it have i? well..results were..disappointing..i didnt get the B+ i was hoping for for intro to computing and the other results were just mediocre..tsk..but i got a rather shocking surprise (note the juxtaposition here..i really dont know if i shld b happy or not) when i got a B+ for Asian American Lit..like hello..me and michele only went for like 4 lectures? and attended give and take about 6 tutorials? hahaaaa..oh well..think either my bull-shitting skills really showed itself during the exam paper or everyone else did very badly..hahaaa..so yeah..results..phooey..there goes first class honours..hurhur..
on the brighter side of life..thank God that this year CORS decided to be nice to me and mishie moo..only 2 rounds of utter nonsense and senseless bidding of exorbitant amounts of points and we manage to get all the modules we want..of course theres a price to pay (literally) as now im broke in terms of points..hahaa..might have to settle for rubbish modules next semester..hurhur..but yeah..just wanna enjoy this semester and do well..think i should be camping out more in the library this semester..hurhur..find me and michele in the central library every tuesday 12 to 5! after which i shall run off to suntec to meet jy..hurhur..whatttttt..must have something to look forward to right..motivation to stay in school to study..heehee..*grin
oh yeah..also thank God that me and michele only have to bid for 2 tutorial time slots so that should ease the headache on tutorial bidding..yeah..cause 3 out of 5 modules are like either e-seminar or sectional teaching..which means..3hrs lectures..hahaaa..yeahhh..oh well..u cant always have your cake and eat it..
oohhhhhhh..how can i forget..if all goes well with tutorial bidding..im gonna have another semester of 3day weeks!!!
*WOOHOO!
so..
looking forward to this year..
kinda..
sorta..
looking forward to chinese new year..and church camp..and hopefully a shopping trip to bangkok in june..
yeah..
but on the flip side..
its gonna be a really really long year without someone...
sigh..
its a battle of wanting time to stand still but yet fly by..
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
New year resolutions...
have you done yours?
or are they merely a repeat from last year?
ok so im about 3 days late but better late than never right?
new year resolutions..lets see..
i honestly have no idea..
i mean..the things i resolve to do every year kinda seems the same..
not exactly the same same but you know..like..theyre all about the same thing..
oh well..
guess its cause it takes a lot for people to actually get down to changing?
haha..
im definitely included..
everyones resistant to change arent they..
but sadly..
change is the only constant..
well..here goes:
-speak up more during tutorials
-be more concerned abt e ppl ard me (a.k.a b less spoilt)
-eat more..or rather more healthily
-have more self-confidence
so there you have it..
kat's four main resolutions for the year 2006..
i wonder what God has installed for me..
whatever it is..i know He'll be there for me..
(:
have you done yours?
or are they merely a repeat from last year?
ok so im about 3 days late but better late than never right?
new year resolutions..lets see..
i honestly have no idea..
i mean..the things i resolve to do every year kinda seems the same..
not exactly the same same but you know..like..theyre all about the same thing..
oh well..
guess its cause it takes a lot for people to actually get down to changing?
haha..
im definitely included..
everyones resistant to change arent they..
but sadly..
change is the only constant..
well..here goes:
-speak up more during tutorials
-be more concerned abt e ppl ard me (a.k.a b less spoilt)
-eat more..or rather more healthily
-have more self-confidence
so there you have it..
kat's four main resolutions for the year 2006..
i wonder what God has installed for me..
whatever it is..i know He'll be there for me..
(:
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Happy Birthday Aunty!
haha..okok..let me explain that..today..or rather yesterday since its already past midnight..is/was jun yuan's mum's birthday! yay! haha..so yes..i was invited out for a family dinner at taka's crystal jade..but since it was gonna be in town i thought i might as well go down early and try to get his mum a present..it wasnt an easy task since i dont really know her that well and jy had no clue about what his mum would like either..hurhur..oh well..but i decided to get her a cardi..for some strange reason..hahaaa..i really have no idea where that decision popped out from but yeah..hahaa..and just nice U2 was having sale! hurhur..so i got his mum a white cardi with a nice boat neck collar so she can wear it with her shirts and got my mum a top as well..this is what i call money well-spent..heh..especially when the gifts make others really happy..more on that later..
went to check out the zara sale..and well..nothing fantastic lah..haha..so crowded..and its like the fall/winter collection so nothing really suitable for singapore weather..all the woolies and thick coats..i dont really fancy their clothes anyway..for the simple reason that i cant really fit them..hurhur..even their smallest size for the skirt 34 is like levis too-superlow cutting for me..tsk..im too small lah..anywayyyyy..moving onnnnnn..went to kino since jy called to say he just left the office..was browsing through the fantasy/sci-fi section..ok..dont stare at me..yes yes yes..ever since that module i took last sem ive been quite drawn to the genre..hahaa...but sad to say..lousy kino does not have the books that i want..it does not have the Ursula Le Guin, Orson Card or the Philip Pullman book that i want..i mean..how can kino..a hugeeeeeeee bookstore..NOT HAVE THESE BOOKS!!!! tsk..someone please tell their manager yar..or rather someone send dr susan ang to give them a good telling-off please..hurhur..but yeah i bumped into this friendly caucasian guy and he recommended me this book titled "Lucifer's Hammer" by Larry Niven and Jerry Pournelle..sounds good..science fiction book..my FIRST sci-fi book bought on my own accord..everyone applaud..hahaa..yeah..and finally got Orwell's 1984..yeap..now all i need to do is start reading them before school starts!
dinner was..very filling..hahaa..there was so much food! on top of my shui jiao mien there was roast chicken, black pepper beef, portuguese style tofu in claypot, stir-fried veg and deep-fried prawns in salad cream..gosh..i dont think ive eaten quite so much in a while..not since..Perth i guess..hurhur..and jy had to finish about a little more than half of my noodles..hurhur..yeah..but..gosh..silly me.........tsk..i thought there was no more chicken and i just happily piled an empty plate on top of it..gosh...seriously.................tsk. oh well..live and learn..but it was rather embarrassing..tsk..*bleah..yeah..the guilingao was nice but i was really just so full to the brim to eat anything else..still had to save space for cake!
came back to his place to cut cake! yummilicious chocolate mousse cake from Baker'z Inn..i wanna go for desserts!!! any takers? haha..probably when i do try and save some money..spent too much on presents during christmas..tsk..anyway..the cake was really darn good..my favourite kind of cake..really really really rich and sinful..haha..and yay! i got to take a quarter of the cake home! haha..yeah..and and and...while i was waiting for the lift to go down to my place his mum was like calling "kat kat kat" so i went back to his gate and guess what? she said she was actually looking for a white cardi..hahahaaa..well done man..hurhur..two happy people..his mum happy with the white cardi and me happy that i bought the right present (:
came down..changed..went for a walk with jy to pass someone smthg..came back..walked the dog..yeah..its nice..really its nice..to be ok with his parents..and for my parents to be totally alright with him..it just makes this LDR a lot more bearable..and i really thank God for it..honestly i dont think all this would have happened so smoothly without it being His work..right from the beginning..from me somehow getting to know Edwin..then Edwin introducing me to jy..even for jy to move into my condo and the same block..and both side's parents being so open and fun people..amazing..truly..His planning is incredible (:
alright..im off to bed..really sleepy..but oh-so-full! dunno how im gonna sleep with such a full belly..hurhur..and tomorrow its food again..going for a cantonese a la carte buffet dinner at New Park Hotel with the neighbours..and of course jy is coming along..haha..eat eat eat..thats all ive been doing this holz really..hahaaaa..
haha..okok..let me explain that..today..or rather yesterday since its already past midnight..is/was jun yuan's mum's birthday! yay! haha..so yes..i was invited out for a family dinner at taka's crystal jade..but since it was gonna be in town i thought i might as well go down early and try to get his mum a present..it wasnt an easy task since i dont really know her that well and jy had no clue about what his mum would like either..hurhur..oh well..but i decided to get her a cardi..for some strange reason..hahaaa..i really have no idea where that decision popped out from but yeah..hahaa..and just nice U2 was having sale! hurhur..so i got his mum a white cardi with a nice boat neck collar so she can wear it with her shirts and got my mum a top as well..this is what i call money well-spent..heh..especially when the gifts make others really happy..more on that later..
went to check out the zara sale..and well..nothing fantastic lah..haha..so crowded..and its like the fall/winter collection so nothing really suitable for singapore weather..all the woolies and thick coats..i dont really fancy their clothes anyway..for the simple reason that i cant really fit them..hurhur..even their smallest size for the skirt 34 is like levis too-superlow cutting for me..tsk..im too small lah..anywayyyyy..moving onnnnnn..went to kino since jy called to say he just left the office..was browsing through the fantasy/sci-fi section..ok..dont stare at me..yes yes yes..ever since that module i took last sem ive been quite drawn to the genre..hahaa...but sad to say..lousy kino does not have the books that i want..it does not have the Ursula Le Guin, Orson Card or the Philip Pullman book that i want..i mean..how can kino..a hugeeeeeeee bookstore..NOT HAVE THESE BOOKS!!!! tsk..someone please tell their manager yar..or rather someone send dr susan ang to give them a good telling-off please..hurhur..but yeah i bumped into this friendly caucasian guy and he recommended me this book titled "Lucifer's Hammer" by Larry Niven and Jerry Pournelle..sounds good..science fiction book..my FIRST sci-fi book bought on my own accord..everyone applaud..hahaa..yeah..and finally got Orwell's 1984..yeap..now all i need to do is start reading them before school starts!
dinner was..very filling..hahaa..there was so much food! on top of my shui jiao mien there was roast chicken, black pepper beef, portuguese style tofu in claypot, stir-fried veg and deep-fried prawns in salad cream..gosh..i dont think ive eaten quite so much in a while..not since..Perth i guess..hurhur..and jy had to finish about a little more than half of my noodles..hurhur..yeah..but..gosh..silly me.........tsk..i thought there was no more chicken and i just happily piled an empty plate on top of it..gosh...seriously.................tsk. oh well..live and learn..but it was rather embarrassing..tsk..*bleah..yeah..the guilingao was nice but i was really just so full to the brim to eat anything else..still had to save space for cake!
came back to his place to cut cake! yummilicious chocolate mousse cake from Baker'z Inn..i wanna go for desserts!!! any takers? haha..probably when i do try and save some money..spent too much on presents during christmas..tsk..anyway..the cake was really darn good..my favourite kind of cake..really really really rich and sinful..haha..and yay! i got to take a quarter of the cake home! haha..yeah..and and and...while i was waiting for the lift to go down to my place his mum was like calling "kat kat kat" so i went back to his gate and guess what? she said she was actually looking for a white cardi..hahahaaa..well done man..hurhur..two happy people..his mum happy with the white cardi and me happy that i bought the right present (:
came down..changed..went for a walk with jy to pass someone smthg..came back..walked the dog..yeah..its nice..really its nice..to be ok with his parents..and for my parents to be totally alright with him..it just makes this LDR a lot more bearable..and i really thank God for it..honestly i dont think all this would have happened so smoothly without it being His work..right from the beginning..from me somehow getting to know Edwin..then Edwin introducing me to jy..even for jy to move into my condo and the same block..and both side's parents being so open and fun people..amazing..truly..His planning is incredible (:
alright..im off to bed..really sleepy..but oh-so-full! dunno how im gonna sleep with such a full belly..hurhur..and tomorrow its food again..going for a cantonese a la carte buffet dinner at New Park Hotel with the neighbours..and of course jy is coming along..haha..eat eat eat..thats all ive been doing this holz really..hahaaaa..
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
YF Camp 2005
Knowing God and Making Him Known
P.L.M.G.P.S
18th - 22nd Dec
P.L.M.G.P.S - my primary school
me, liyue, amanda - taking a break frm moping e classrms
amanda, li yuan, rachel - amanda's DG
me and corlissa (:
my group (MALAYSIA!) trying to solve a puzzle
walking all e way to serangoon mrt station
eating indian rojak at one of the game stations
Nelia, me, Xuan Wen, Li shan - waiting for the 113 back to PL
we came in 3rd!
me + xuan wen
my group's encouragement corner - twin towers, city scene of KL
me and corli-flower ;)
Malaysia!
Malaysia...again
amanda, me, benny - act cute pose
bao shun + me = m'sia's grp leaders
sisters of bsyf
Thursday, December 15, 2005
i can barely keep my eyes open, its 1254am, and i have to wake up in about 6hrs time for breakkie with jun yuan but here i am blogging.
haha.
its my birthday!!!
i turned 20 about 56minutes ago.
hurhur.
but already i think ive had the best birthday so far. haha.
even before my birthday, i got a present from wayne and lily, my favourite neighbours.
really pretty and dainty diamond earrings from Lee Hwa Jewellery.
then i got to spend the first few minutes with my dearest in the car with him driving, something i really like. (disclaimer :: i like being in the car with him, but i do not like his driving. hurhur)
i come home to a present on my bed from my brother.
a gorgeous little box to keep all my linglinglonglongs (ie. earrings.heaps of them).
and then, a few minutes later, a surprise present from my dearest.
a really slick braun buffel wallet, which for that, he has now got to survive on bread and water for the next month. (well, u can always cm downstairs for breakkie n dinners. haha)
and of course how could i forget all the lovely birthday wishes.
its really not the presents that matter.
nor the cost of the presents.
its being surrounded by the people you love that makes it just so wonderful and special.
thats why i always tell people to just come for my birthday celebration empty handed, because really, its the company that counts.
theres also some things that money cant buy.
like love. from parents, brother, relatives, friends, and of course that special someone.
but its really hard to be fully happy.
how do you celebrate, laugh and enjoy yourself when something happened to a really good friend?
haha.
its my birthday!!!
i turned 20 about 56minutes ago.
hurhur.
but already i think ive had the best birthday so far. haha.
even before my birthday, i got a present from wayne and lily, my favourite neighbours.
really pretty and dainty diamond earrings from Lee Hwa Jewellery.
then i got to spend the first few minutes with my dearest in the car with him driving, something i really like. (disclaimer :: i like being in the car with him, but i do not like his driving. hurhur)
i come home to a present on my bed from my brother.
a gorgeous little box to keep all my linglinglonglongs (ie. earrings.heaps of them).
and then, a few minutes later, a surprise present from my dearest.
a really slick braun buffel wallet, which for that, he has now got to survive on bread and water for the next month. (well, u can always cm downstairs for breakkie n dinners. haha)
and of course how could i forget all the lovely birthday wishes.
its really not the presents that matter.
nor the cost of the presents.
its being surrounded by the people you love that makes it just so wonderful and special.
thats why i always tell people to just come for my birthday celebration empty handed, because really, its the company that counts.
theres also some things that money cant buy.
like love. from parents, brother, relatives, friends, and of course that special someone.
but its really hard to be fully happy.
how do you celebrate, laugh and enjoy yourself when something happened to a really good friend?
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Friday, December 09, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
someone bring me back to Goodwood Park Hotel for high-tea!
haha. ive always been someone who adored high-tea sessions. i mean, i love sweet stuff. and where better to find a fine assortment of cakes and what not than at high-tea buffets?
the goodwood park one was lovely. rather traditional and more elegant if you ask me. compared to the other high-teas ive been to at other hotels, this one has a much smaller selection of savories and sweets and the place is definitely very much smaller.
but this does have its plus points.
the selection, though small, was delicious and the ingredients were of quality and very fresh.
the presentation was also just so pretty and delicate. each little morsel perfectly prepared and displayed.
a small sitting area also means less crowd, more privacy and i suppose a more relaxed and cosy feeling.
unlike the other hotels where theres hoards of people, screaming kids and long queues just to get what you want to eat.
it felt so much more exclusive.
the cutlery and tableware was so so so pretty too. roses bordering the cups, saucers, plates and teapots.
me, michele and regina wanted to steal some home. haha. (but we didnt lahhhhhh.)
the tea was very good too. very fragrant. my vanilla ceylon was wonderful. michele and shawn's earl grey and regina's chamomile was equally good.
most of all, thanks Dr Ang, my literature tutor and lecturer in NUS for this delightful treat.
she is really one of those really dynamic and impactful lit tutors that deepens your love for literature no matter how tough the subject gets.
her passion for literature is truely amazing and im sure all those who have gone through her appreciate this very evident fact.
so glad she liked the little booklet my tutorial group did for her.
9 pages of heartfelt gratitude.
Thanks Dr. Ang!
(:
haha. ive always been someone who adored high-tea sessions. i mean, i love sweet stuff. and where better to find a fine assortment of cakes and what not than at high-tea buffets?
the goodwood park one was lovely. rather traditional and more elegant if you ask me. compared to the other high-teas ive been to at other hotels, this one has a much smaller selection of savories and sweets and the place is definitely very much smaller.
but this does have its plus points.
the selection, though small, was delicious and the ingredients were of quality and very fresh.
the presentation was also just so pretty and delicate. each little morsel perfectly prepared and displayed.
a small sitting area also means less crowd, more privacy and i suppose a more relaxed and cosy feeling.
unlike the other hotels where theres hoards of people, screaming kids and long queues just to get what you want to eat.
it felt so much more exclusive.
the cutlery and tableware was so so so pretty too. roses bordering the cups, saucers, plates and teapots.
me, michele and regina wanted to steal some home. haha. (but we didnt lahhhhhh.)
the tea was very good too. very fragrant. my vanilla ceylon was wonderful. michele and shawn's earl grey and regina's chamomile was equally good.
most of all, thanks Dr Ang, my literature tutor and lecturer in NUS for this delightful treat.
she is really one of those really dynamic and impactful lit tutors that deepens your love for literature no matter how tough the subject gets.
her passion for literature is truely amazing and im sure all those who have gone through her appreciate this very evident fact.
so glad she liked the little booklet my tutorial group did for her.
9 pages of heartfelt gratitude.
Thanks Dr. Ang!
(:
Sunday, December 04, 2005
walking around for 8hours on heels is a health hazard to feet.
you get blisters, peeling skin and sore soles.
trust me on it.
i did it today.
what an achievment man.
haha.
anyway, today, i spent a bomb.
i seriously did. i suppose all that repression during the pre-exam and exam period from shopping led to todays outburst.
but the thing is, i didnt buy a lot of stuff, just a few rather expensive stuff, and no not everything was for me.
i bought for him a crumpler bag and a zara tshirt.
i bought for myself a fox sweater, a guess tshirt and my gold esprit bag.
total bill: $345
bank account balance: (if im lucky, im too afraid to check) $155
insane in the membrane i tell you.
but honestly, i felt more satisfaction buying the stuff for him than for myself.
spoofing the mastercard advert would probably be the best way to describe it:
superman zara tshirt :: $50
crumpler bag :: $169
the smile on his face :: PRICELESS
giving is really such a joy.
but it got me thinking.
some people just keep taking and dont give.
well at least i dont remember receiving.
my point here is not that when i give i expect something of equal value in return.
thats not it. that just takes away the whole point of giving.
but what strikes me is how people can actually keep taking and taking and taking.
dont they learn anything?
dont they want to also put that same smile on someone else's face?
their parents? their siblings? their friends? even accquaintances? strangers?
truely it amazes me.
christmas is coming. hopefully these people will wise up and get into the mood of giving.
alright. im off. parents just came back from hongkong with heaps of food.
haha. just because they know i like sweet sweet stuff.
see? give.
and dont give just because you have extra to spare.
give when you know its gonna set u back a bit. or when u know it means you sacrificing that extra pair of shoes or tshirt or bag or what not.
give because you've been saving hard. not because you have extra cash. worst of all if the money is borrowed and not even yours.
give because you know its gonna make someone feel loved and happy.
22 more days to christmas!
(:
isnt it obvious my parents love you?
theyre even asking you to come along to hongkong with us next year.
how amazing is that?
*bigbigtoothygrin
you get blisters, peeling skin and sore soles.
trust me on it.
i did it today.
what an achievment man.
haha.
anyway, today, i spent a bomb.
i seriously did. i suppose all that repression during the pre-exam and exam period from shopping led to todays outburst.
but the thing is, i didnt buy a lot of stuff, just a few rather expensive stuff, and no not everything was for me.
i bought for him a crumpler bag and a zara tshirt.
i bought for myself a fox sweater, a guess tshirt and my gold esprit bag.
total bill: $345
bank account balance: (if im lucky, im too afraid to check) $155
insane in the membrane i tell you.
but honestly, i felt more satisfaction buying the stuff for him than for myself.
spoofing the mastercard advert would probably be the best way to describe it:
superman zara tshirt :: $50
crumpler bag :: $169
the smile on his face :: PRICELESS
giving is really such a joy.
but it got me thinking.
some people just keep taking and dont give.
well at least i dont remember receiving.
my point here is not that when i give i expect something of equal value in return.
thats not it. that just takes away the whole point of giving.
but what strikes me is how people can actually keep taking and taking and taking.
dont they learn anything?
dont they want to also put that same smile on someone else's face?
their parents? their siblings? their friends? even accquaintances? strangers?
truely it amazes me.
christmas is coming. hopefully these people will wise up and get into the mood of giving.
alright. im off. parents just came back from hongkong with heaps of food.
haha. just because they know i like sweet sweet stuff.
see? give.
and dont give just because you have extra to spare.
give when you know its gonna set u back a bit. or when u know it means you sacrificing that extra pair of shoes or tshirt or bag or what not.
give because you've been saving hard. not because you have extra cash. worst of all if the money is borrowed and not even yours.
give because you know its gonna make someone feel loved and happy.
22 more days to christmas!
(:
isnt it obvious my parents love you?
theyre even asking you to come along to hongkong with us next year.
how amazing is that?
*bigbigtoothygrin
Thursday, December 01, 2005
i am bored shit out of my head.
tsk.
its always like this huh.
during the exams you cant wait for it to be over.
now that the studying, the late nights, the cramming, the mugging, the stress is all over you're left with nothing to do.
ok not exactly nothing to do.
i bet i could go shopping everyday and not run out of things to buy.
but since i cant afford such extravagant living, im stuck at home with nothing to do.
my parents are away and the car is sitting in the car park wasting away.
damn. should have learn how to drive earlier.
so im awake at 0213 hrs blogging because i dont know what else to do with myself.
im stuck at home. alone.
something i absolutely hate.
had such a hard time falling asleep last night. shitty man. considering that i have an auto body-clock that wakes me up in the morning regardless how little ive slept.
*bleah.
i should be in hongkong.shopping.eating dimsum.shopping.shopping.shopping.shopping.
oh well.its not like i didnt have a choice.
AHHHHHH.tsk.i really wish i knew how to drive.
im bored.bored out of my wits.
COOL!!!!! JAY CHOU IS SHOWING ON MTV!!!!!!!!
hurhur.since when did kat become a fan of chinese music?
in fact, i think kpop is pretty cool too.anyone heard of Rain? hurhur.
and who is lara liang man.and i dont get the mtv.hahaaaa.chinese.smthg i'll never get.
theyre eating sashimi!!!!i want.wo yao.wo ye yao chi!!!
ohhhhhh.i understand liao.hahahaa.see lah.stupid bf.better pay more attention to your gfs.if not theyre run off with another guy unintentionally.i mean.girls need attention!and flowers.hahaa.
ok so whats next.
-kat is sitting in the living room with the tv on.channel 20 a.k.a mtv asia
jesse mcCartney!hurhur.pretty boy.he looks like aaron carter doesnt he?
not bad.new single.because you live.hmm.
because He lives, i can face tomorrow.
that should be what we're singing about.not some girl.humans fail.mortals eventually die.tsk.
he's got nice chuck talyors.i want another pair of converse.ha.but the phunk or proper?do i even have a particular style?
hmm.i should go on a shopping rampage.hurhur.i bet i cld.one of these days.time to stock up on school clothes.HA.bad excuse.
advertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadverts.
but at least mtv has cool adverts.i applaud their creative team.*applause
ramblings.
corlissa.im learning from you.and it is rather therapeutic.
-non sequitor: bought a pair of gold pointy flats today!but no size.so theyre ordering for me.must wait.hate waiting.
gold esprit handbag?or cheaper alternative from far east?
decisions decisions decisions.
where is my princess cut?
the click five - Just The Girl.phunk kids in suits and retro hairstyles.i like.hahahaha.
---the more she ignores me the more i adore her.
love hurts doesnt it?
christmas christmas christmas!hurry up.haha.now that my exams are over, christmas is allowed to come.
"its not christmas till my exams are over!"hurhur.
my goodness.this is pure rambling.on and on and on.
VIDEOSOMNIA- thank you mtv.
my goodness.some mtvs are just too, er, abstract. haha. like.."wuuurrrdddd?"senseless.
and some guys use more eyeliner than girls.
bored.
still so bored.
mum, dad, come home quick!!!
-message terminated at 0237hrs
tsk.
its always like this huh.
during the exams you cant wait for it to be over.
now that the studying, the late nights, the cramming, the mugging, the stress is all over you're left with nothing to do.
ok not exactly nothing to do.
i bet i could go shopping everyday and not run out of things to buy.
but since i cant afford such extravagant living, im stuck at home with nothing to do.
my parents are away and the car is sitting in the car park wasting away.
damn. should have learn how to drive earlier.
so im awake at 0213 hrs blogging because i dont know what else to do with myself.
im stuck at home. alone.
something i absolutely hate.
had such a hard time falling asleep last night. shitty man. considering that i have an auto body-clock that wakes me up in the morning regardless how little ive slept.
*bleah.
i should be in hongkong.shopping.eating dimsum.shopping.shopping.shopping.shopping.
oh well.its not like i didnt have a choice.
AHHHHHH.tsk.i really wish i knew how to drive.
im bored.bored out of my wits.
COOL!!!!! JAY CHOU IS SHOWING ON MTV!!!!!!!!
hurhur.since when did kat become a fan of chinese music?
in fact, i think kpop is pretty cool too.anyone heard of Rain? hurhur.
and who is lara liang man.and i dont get the mtv.hahaaaa.chinese.smthg i'll never get.
theyre eating sashimi!!!!i want.wo yao.wo ye yao chi!!!
ohhhhhh.i understand liao.hahahaa.see lah.stupid bf.better pay more attention to your gfs.if not theyre run off with another guy unintentionally.i mean.girls need attention!and flowers.hahaa.
ok so whats next.
-kat is sitting in the living room with the tv on.channel 20 a.k.a mtv asia
jesse mcCartney!hurhur.pretty boy.he looks like aaron carter doesnt he?
not bad.new single.because you live.hmm.
because He lives, i can face tomorrow.
that should be what we're singing about.not some girl.humans fail.mortals eventually die.tsk.
he's got nice chuck talyors.i want another pair of converse.ha.but the phunk or proper?do i even have a particular style?
hmm.i should go on a shopping rampage.hurhur.i bet i cld.one of these days.time to stock up on school clothes.HA.bad excuse.
advertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadvertsadverts.
but at least mtv has cool adverts.i applaud their creative team.*applause
ramblings.
corlissa.im learning from you.and it is rather therapeutic.
-non sequitor: bought a pair of gold pointy flats today!but no size.so theyre ordering for me.must wait.hate waiting.
gold esprit handbag?or cheaper alternative from far east?
decisions decisions decisions.
where is my princess cut?
the click five - Just The Girl.phunk kids in suits and retro hairstyles.i like.hahahaha.
---the more she ignores me the more i adore her.
love hurts doesnt it?
christmas christmas christmas!hurry up.haha.now that my exams are over, christmas is allowed to come.
"its not christmas till my exams are over!"hurhur.
my goodness.this is pure rambling.on and on and on.
VIDEOSOMNIA- thank you mtv.
my goodness.some mtvs are just too, er, abstract. haha. like.."wuuurrrdddd?"senseless.
and some guys use more eyeliner than girls.
bored.
still so bored.
mum, dad, come home quick!!!
-message terminated at 0237hrs
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
God was merciful to me, michele and shawn.
thank you GOD!
(:
the paper went a lot better than we expected.
though i didnt have time to conclude my essay and not enough time for my poem.
but its ok.
yeah.
relieved.
very.
thank God!
and thanks michele and her brother.
thanks mark for sending me home and the both of them for the funny conversations in the car and the meal we had.
i had a blast though it was such a short time spent together.
thanks.
thanks thanks thanks.
many thanks!
heh.
was a great way to end the "stressful paper day".
(:
thank you GOD!
(:
the paper went a lot better than we expected.
though i didnt have time to conclude my essay and not enough time for my poem.
but its ok.
yeah.
relieved.
very.
thank God!
and thanks michele and her brother.
thanks mark for sending me home and the both of them for the funny conversations in the car and the meal we had.
i had a blast though it was such a short time spent together.
thanks.
thanks thanks thanks.
many thanks!
heh.
was a great way to end the "stressful paper day".
(:
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Sunday, November 20, 2005
I dont think ive ever felt so stressed up and panicky for any exam before.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh
maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.
ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.
maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.
*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.
honestly.
'o' levels, 'a' levels, never felt as horrid as this.
and the source of the stress is definitely not external pressure or expectations, this i am sure of.
then what?
i dont know.
*sigh
maybe its just that stupid 19th century literature module thats absolutely killing me.
i feel so so inadequate for that module.
so much info. too much info to absorb. a hundred and one things to memorise.
all of which i havent and feel like i havent done.
ok, so feeling inadequate is probably normal right.
right.
i know.
but this time, this paper, i feel so panicky its killing me.
maybe im just looking forward too much to getting my 1st three papers over than done with.
that i just keep thinking about the exams.
*breathe.
i need to breathe.
and not let it overwhelm me.
-but i am already overwhelmed aren't i?
its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.
but with GOD, its never too late.
its strange. im about to get baptised and yet, a simple task like exams, i dont seem to be able to trust God.
i feel more inadequate in my faith than in my exam prep.
maybe thats what it really is.
not so much about the exam, but the realisation that i'm not worthy to be called into His fellowship.
and that scares me more.
but with GOD, its never too late.
Father,
i am humbled by your love, the fact you had to die on the cross to save a wretched child like me. you never fail to manifest your love and care in every aspect of my life, but yet, when i feel overwhelmed, i cant seem to remember all those clear instances.
Lord, just go before me and prepare the way. Bring me back to you, and find your lost sheep who has gone astray. Comfort me and grant me the peace that can only come from you.
I worship you my God.
I love you.
Forever i will sing, forever i will be with you, as you are with me.
Rekindle the dying flame and ignite that spark that leads to a fire which will burn with passion and fervour for you and only you alone.
Remind me, for i so often forget, your presence especially in times of need and anxiety.
Jesus, you are my best friend, and you will always be cause nothing will ever change that.
Keep close to your little helpless child.
In Jesus' precious and holy name,
Amen.
I can do everything through CHRIST who strengthens me.
-Philippians 4:13
Saturday, November 19, 2005
ok, just some random postings, since obviously, im supposed to be studying but id rather be doing everything else.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin
i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!
nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.
and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)
if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".
if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!
speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.
alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.
haha.
stop tsktsktsk-ing lah.
i bet ure guilty of it too!
thats why ure reading my blog!
hurhur.
*grin
i figured out three of my favourite exam-time snacks:
1. wasabi coated peanuts
2. meji chocolate-covered fruit gummies
3. dried fruits - especially cranberries!
nothing beats going to a hair salon, getting your hair cut, getting your hair washed and head massaged in the midst of studying for exams.
trust me.
it works wonders.
and now because of my new "bob" hairstyle i look like a little chinadoll.
my mum says i look like a secondary school kid.
my dad says i have gone back to primary school.
i commented i must be really smart then, im a primary school kid studying for a university exams.
(i happened to be studying in the living room when this conversation was going on.)
if you're about to get married or always had fairy tale notions of marriage, keep yourself sane and far far away from "Jude the Obscure".
if you've seen the mtv for "Like You" by Bow Wow and Ciara you'll notice a chinese painting of Ciara when she's in her living room.
i love it.
someone get one done of me!
speaking of mtv, ive been listenning to the "older" music these few days
Kavana - will you wait for me
Radiohead - creep
Ant and Dec - Fallin'
and the likes of No Doubt, Backstreet Boys, Spice Girls, Christina Aguilera and Solid Harmonie.
hahahahahhaa.
what.
i like it.
too bad.
hurhur.
alright.its back to the books.notes rather.
privacyjudetheobscuregreatexpectationsintellectualpropertyhtmlecommercewordsworth.
somebodysaveme.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
today, i woke up,
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.
to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)
on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!
ok.snap back to reality.sigh.
went to the toilet.
i looked into the mirror.
lo and behold,
i saw a panda.
with red spots.
woah.
that was quite a sight.
to everyone else who is experiencing the same appearance change, hang in there.
to everyone else who is done with their days of torment, stop gloating.
or you'll get red spots too!!!
(ok, im just being jealous and sour about it.)
(*bleah)
on the bright side, its exactly a month to my birthday!
yippie!
ok.snap back to reality.sigh.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
ok, so my exams arent even over (i have even started actually) and december (my birthday! Christmas!) is barely nearing but im already thinking of presents.
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:
Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost
erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:
hahahaaa.
well. for those of you who would like to get me something (*ahem) for either of the events stated above, here are a few suggestions:
Aldous Huxley - Brave New World
George Orwell - Nineteen Eighty Four
Sheri Tepper - Gate to Woman's Country
Ursula Le Guin - Tales from Earthsea, The Other Wind
Philip Pullman - The Subtle Knife, The Amber Spyglass
Audrey Niffenegger - The Time Traveller's Wife
Joseph Keller - Catch 22
C.S Lewis - The Screwtape Letters
John Milton - Paradise Lost
erm. yar. so. er.
Study Hard Everyone!
hahaa.
(:
Saturday, November 12, 2005
cleaning out my wardrobe seems to be quite the therapeutic activity for me.
you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.
and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.
how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin
(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)
you realise you have so many clothes.
you realise you have so many clothes you dont want.
you realise you have so many clothes you never remembered ever buying.
you realise you have so many clothes you'll never fit into ever again.
you realise you have so many clothes you wondered if u were of the right mind when u paid good money for them.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant bear to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes you cant wait to throw away.
you realise you have so many clothes that bring back different memories.
you realise you have so many clothes that it really is time to clean out the wardrobe.
and when its all been sorted out,
you realise you have place to put more new clothes.
which leads to another form of theraphy.
how much more therapeutic an acitivity do you want?
*grin
(*AHEM* kat, stop blogging, stop wasting time and get studying! u have a date with wilkie colins remember?)
(bah. humbug.)
(i heard thatttttttttttttttttt.)
Friday, November 11, 2005
from the last time i blogged till now, sad to say, nothing vaguely interesting has happened.
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.
okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..
last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..
submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:
other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.
oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin
alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.
quinze jours...
well, nothing exceptionally exciting or worth mentioning i suppose.
life has been mundane, boring, ghastly humid (the weather lah) and most boring.
okok. so it isnt all that bad. lets see what are the, well, closest to being termed as "highlights" of the past ten days ive been MIA from my poor poor neglected (but still beloved) blog..
last week was just spent doing and handing up essays..heaps of deadlines..all mashed into one..
its kinda the worst situations to be stuck in..but it happens all the time in university so i might as well stop lamenting and get used to it..no one likes to be reminded about the headaches of deadlines anyway..and..its nothing special..we all go through it..but what makes it worse is that it usually occurs between week 11 and 13 of the school term..which means..as much as we (desperately) need to start revision (or rather, looking at stuff we have ever set our eyes upon the whole semester thus far) for the upcoming and impending exams..we cant get started because we're so bogged down with the essays..yeap..the life of uni students..the strange thing is..every start of the semester we tell ourselves that we'd keep up with our work by going for every lecture and every tutorial (of cuz preparing beforehand our tutorial questions) but alas, this resolution usually falters by, give or take, week 5 or 6 (hey im being really generous here) at best.
*kat shakes head
well..im just glad im done with all my essays..all three lit essays..and projects..
speaking of projects..
submitted NM1101e New Media and Society report on monday..thanks mishie moo for your hard work and dedication to the perfection (as close as we managed to get to given our seriously cut-throat time left to finish it up) of the report..much appreciated..really..and..er..remind me to give u the flower and chocolate i bought for you! hahaaa..the chocolate's existence is most precarious in my refridgerator..hurhur..especially since its the exam-pigging-out period..remind me ok..yeah..and..it was really quite a rush..the day of submission itself we had quite a lot of doing, undoing and redoing to do..repetition of "do" is most intended to the effect that we did a lot that day..because..well. i decline to say. anyway, moving on..yeah..but it was fun..i had a lot of fun working with u..and getting to know leon better..hahahaaha..his choice of music i must say..is most alarming and disturbing..and how can he not like jay chou? and how in the world did he give away his concert tickets??? hurhur..really hope we do get at least a satisfactory grade reflecting all the hard work (with the futile yet most interesting trip to the national lib included in "hard work") we put in..
thanks again mishie moo!
much much much appreciated
(:
other than that..ive just been chained by some invisible force to my pink chair (with a new colourful seat cushion from ikea! haha. okok. cheap thrill i know.) and desk and the lappy, printer, highlighters (that are dying on meee!!! nooooo!!!) and heaps of notes and papers and books (scattered all over my room floor may i add) have become my bestfriends..u know..i think universities generate the most waste in terms of papers..haha..all the readings especially..save the environment! and save our brains! do away with readings! please? (not in a million years kat, stop dreaming and study!) oh well..so much for moving towards a paperless society huh (ugh. nm1101e and into to computing. hahaa.) which would also reduce a health hazard to the lives of students (paper cuts!!!) and hence allow our fingers to be more productive in the writing of examination papers. hahahaa. i am so not cut out to be a lawyer. or a business person. sorry this is so out of point but i remember telling my neighbour that if he carried on disturbing and teasing me if i ever open up a shop i wouldnt let him patronize it. hahahahahaa. what kind of louse pathetic business un-strategy is that? hurhur. ok. im straying..so? exam stress. forgive me.
oh well. at least all is well in the other department. heh. *bigfatgrin.
in fact, i think things are just getting better and better and i have a good inkling that only better things are to come our way.
absolutly, positively sure of that fact.
besides, everyone on my side of the family approves of you. haha.
hurry up and get to the perth international airport and fly back!
singapore airlines summore. haha.
your mooncakes are still waiting in my and wang's freezer. hahaaaaa.
mooncakes. can you believe it?
my parents and even my neighbour (who have only met briefly twice at most) saved mooncakes for him just because i refused to risk having to bring them into aussie.
tsk.
*grin
alright.
its back to my heaps of papers with words that appear very french and foreign after a while.
my eyes had better not be playing tricks on me now.
study hard and mug hard everyone.
3 more weeks to bliss.
quinze jours...
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
its really amazing what you can learn from books..
and i dont mean those specific self-help books (which i dont believe i ever read one before..'cept sean covey's 7 habits of the highly effective teens but i only bought that book because my dad was paying for it and it was to commemorate my first time at Borders..HA) but rather novels and books books..
was revising for my Asian American lit module and re-reading Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club and a few things did hit me..and made me think..
many of the daughters in the book are passive..unwilling to make decisions being afriad of the consequences..and others are so dependent on their mothers/parents/friends/boyfriends/husbands/basically anyone and everyone but themselves to make decisions for them..and then theres the daughter who prides herself with outside appearances while inside she's crumbling..
somewhat sad to say, i found myself identifying with all of those character flaws, though i shant comment any further or give any more specific details..
if you're my close friend, you should know, you should know the Kathleen more than what she shows on the outside..
ok im not trying to say im fake and a phony to the people around me but ive always had this issue of feeling somewhat fake..
it feels like with different people and situations, i have to change who i am, i have to be who i think other people want me to be, i have to be who they want to see, i have to be the type of person who fits in, i have to be someone whom they would want to be seen with..
its not so much of a dichotomy (oh how i love this word, i hear it almost all the time during my lit lectures and tutorials) of kathleen, a single person branching out into two or maybe a zillion more persons, a split personality..
but its more of..adaptation?
ok thats such a mild way of putting it.
its more of becoming what others would like to me to be and see.
of which ive already babbled on above.
ok. this is not a call for pity or sympathy or empathy (yikes. more words from my lit modules. michele you should get it. hurhur) or anything of that sort.
what im trying to say is in fact a whole lot more optimisitc and happy.
its really time, to be myself.
to just be who i am. comfortable in my skin.
to learn how to assert myself. to stop being so quiet and keep to myself.
perhaps to make my presence known.
but not so much that i'd become the centre of attraction. haha. kat will still remain kat.
slowly i think things have been happenning around me to bring this change.
this semester especially.
computing tutorial. sure i bitched and blah-ed about it endlessly but i learnt much about the joys of being independent. hurhur. ok stop sighing and going "katttttttttt..like finallyyyyy". tsk. better late than never right? hahaaa.
i look back and think of how i used to be in year one. tsk. *shakes head. no wonder i didnt really enjoy my semesters. i was too busy worrying. worrying about what other people thought of me.
i suppose confidence is something you gain slowly, slowly but surely it builds up.
YOU definitely helped heaps in this area.
your constant assurances, little and big compliments, teasings.
all really really did me a lot of good.
boosted my ego a bit. hahahahahahaaahahaa.
and im so glad i feel absolutely comfortable in my skin (snigger.) when im with you.
thanks for not giving up on me.
thanks for being so patient.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks!
*insert jumping turtle here
and ho ho ho. i signed up to be part of the sub-com of soci soc. public liason.
yes you heard (or rather, read) correctly.
never in a milion years did i think i would sign up for some club or nonsense. you can ask michele. hahahaa. when she and gina joined, i didnt. tsk.
but yeah. baby steps (anyone remembers mockingbird?). little steps.
a step forward, no matter how small, is still better than a step back.
so whats next?
hopefully. to put an end to something ive been battling for the longest time.
a COMPLETE and FULL end to it.
(thanks michele for being there every step of the way so far.)
if i can conquer this, nothing stands in my way.
if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?
im more than a conqueror with HIM on my side!
i'll move mountains and calm the sea..
all because HE equips me with for this fight!
ok. im off to watch jamie oliver. hurhur.
(kkkkkkkaaaaaaaattttt!!! why so anticlimax one!!!!!!)
hur.
oh yar. and please pray i find my library book.
i dont wanna pay for it. tsk.
pray someone will find it and return it to the central library for me!
andddddd..(ok last thing, i promise!)
TWENTY-NINE more (LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG!!! tooooooooo LLLOOONNNNGGGG!!!!) days before you're coming back!
in the midst of my exams summore..your timing ah..many horriblez..
and i dont mean those specific self-help books (which i dont believe i ever read one before..'cept sean covey's 7 habits of the highly effective teens but i only bought that book because my dad was paying for it and it was to commemorate my first time at Borders..HA) but rather novels and books books..
was revising for my Asian American lit module and re-reading Amy Tan's The Joy Luck Club and a few things did hit me..and made me think..
many of the daughters in the book are passive..unwilling to make decisions being afriad of the consequences..and others are so dependent on their mothers/parents/friends/boyfriends/husbands/basically anyone and everyone but themselves to make decisions for them..and then theres the daughter who prides herself with outside appearances while inside she's crumbling..
somewhat sad to say, i found myself identifying with all of those character flaws, though i shant comment any further or give any more specific details..
if you're my close friend, you should know, you should know the Kathleen more than what she shows on the outside..
ok im not trying to say im fake and a phony to the people around me but ive always had this issue of feeling somewhat fake..
it feels like with different people and situations, i have to change who i am, i have to be who i think other people want me to be, i have to be who they want to see, i have to be the type of person who fits in, i have to be someone whom they would want to be seen with..
its not so much of a dichotomy (oh how i love this word, i hear it almost all the time during my lit lectures and tutorials) of kathleen, a single person branching out into two or maybe a zillion more persons, a split personality..
but its more of..adaptation?
ok thats such a mild way of putting it.
its more of becoming what others would like to me to be and see.
of which ive already babbled on above.
ok. this is not a call for pity or sympathy or empathy (yikes. more words from my lit modules. michele you should get it. hurhur) or anything of that sort.
what im trying to say is in fact a whole lot more optimisitc and happy.
its really time, to be myself.
to just be who i am. comfortable in my skin.
to learn how to assert myself. to stop being so quiet and keep to myself.
perhaps to make my presence known.
but not so much that i'd become the centre of attraction. haha. kat will still remain kat.
slowly i think things have been happenning around me to bring this change.
this semester especially.
computing tutorial. sure i bitched and blah-ed about it endlessly but i learnt much about the joys of being independent. hurhur. ok stop sighing and going "katttttttttt..like finallyyyyy". tsk. better late than never right? hahaaa.
i look back and think of how i used to be in year one. tsk. *shakes head. no wonder i didnt really enjoy my semesters. i was too busy worrying. worrying about what other people thought of me.
i suppose confidence is something you gain slowly, slowly but surely it builds up.
YOU definitely helped heaps in this area.
your constant assurances, little and big compliments, teasings.
all really really did me a lot of good.
boosted my ego a bit. hahahahahahaaahahaa.
and im so glad i feel absolutely comfortable in my skin (snigger.) when im with you.
thanks for not giving up on me.
thanks for being so patient.
thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks!
*insert jumping turtle here
and ho ho ho. i signed up to be part of the sub-com of soci soc. public liason.
yes you heard (or rather, read) correctly.
never in a milion years did i think i would sign up for some club or nonsense. you can ask michele. hahahaa. when she and gina joined, i didnt. tsk.
but yeah. baby steps (anyone remembers mockingbird?). little steps.
a step forward, no matter how small, is still better than a step back.
so whats next?
hopefully. to put an end to something ive been battling for the longest time.
a COMPLETE and FULL end to it.
(thanks michele for being there every step of the way so far.)
if i can conquer this, nothing stands in my way.
if my GOD is for me, then who can be against me?
im more than a conqueror with HIM on my side!
i'll move mountains and calm the sea..
all because HE equips me with for this fight!
ok. im off to watch jamie oliver. hurhur.
(kkkkkkkaaaaaaaattttt!!! why so anticlimax one!!!!!!)
hur.
oh yar. and please pray i find my library book.
i dont wanna pay for it. tsk.
pray someone will find it and return it to the central library for me!
andddddd..(ok last thing, i promise!)
TWENTY-NINE more (LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG!!! tooooooooo LLLOOONNNNGGGG!!!!) days before you're coming back!
in the midst of my exams summore..your timing ah..many horriblez..
Saturday, October 22, 2005
i think jay chou looks pretty good in his latest mtv vid.
ahahahahaa.
groupie.
tsk.
no lah. i just happened to catch it on mtv.
so yeah.
hurhur.
i like his floppy hair.
and his videos are all pretty cool. kinda artistic.
though his songs are all beginning to sound the same.
and why do all his girls look..er..a lil too underaged for him?
hahahaa.
anyone remember the girl in initial D?
hurhur.
ok.
back to reality.
essays and more essays.
readings and more readings.
i'll be glad when this semester is over...
ahahahahaa.
groupie.
tsk.
no lah. i just happened to catch it on mtv.
so yeah.
hurhur.
i like his floppy hair.
and his videos are all pretty cool. kinda artistic.
though his songs are all beginning to sound the same.
and why do all his girls look..er..a lil too underaged for him?
hahahaa.
anyone remember the girl in initial D?
hurhur.
ok.
back to reality.
essays and more essays.
readings and more readings.
i'll be glad when this semester is over...
Sunday, October 16, 2005
A Very Special Package
last night somewhere in singapore there was a grouchy kat talking to a-trying-very-hard-to-make-kat-smile jun yuan somewhere a million miles away in perth via google talk.
she suddenly thought of the package that he told her about.
but he never told her what was in it.
or the cost of the postage.
fearing the package was taking a bit too long to arrive, she asked him to go check the date he sent the package.
the doorbell of her house rang but she didnt think to answer the door as her parents would do that.
her parents knocked on the door and told her she had a package.
that put a huge and very excited grin on her face.
when she came back to her lappy she saw via the webcam he was back from searching for the postage receipt.
she grinned and told him the date of the package.
she then noticed how much he paid for the postage.
a whooping $15.50AUD.
(which she obviously "scolded" him about, knowing he'd always say the same thing that always made her smile)
then she excitedly proceeded to open the package (for he kept her in suspense as to its contents)
As an added bonus to make her laugh, check out the address he wrote.
kat stays on the ground floor.
meaning the house number should read "#01-17".
last night somewhere in singapore there was a grouchy kat talking to a-trying-very-hard-to-make-kat-smile jun yuan somewhere a million miles away in perth via google talk.
she suddenly thought of the package that he told her about.
but he never told her what was in it.
or the cost of the postage.
fearing the package was taking a bit too long to arrive, she asked him to go check the date he sent the package.
the doorbell of her house rang but she didnt think to answer the door as her parents would do that.
her parents knocked on the door and told her she had a package.
that put a huge and very excited grin on her face.
when she came back to her lappy she saw via the webcam he was back from searching for the postage receipt.
she grinned and told him the date of the package.
she then noticed how much he paid for the postage.
a whooping $15.50AUD.
(which she obviously "scolded" him about, knowing he'd always say the same thing that always made her smile)
then she excitedly proceeded to open the package (for he kept her in suspense as to its contents)
and guess what?
10 packets of the caramel tiny teddies and a packet of starburst gummies.
the very two items which she brought back to singapore but were finished in a matter of days with the help of very helpful friends and her own mum.
10 packets of the caramel tiny teddies and a packet of starburst gummies.
the very two items which she brought back to singapore but were finished in a matter of days with the help of very helpful friends and her own mum.
As an added bonus to make her laugh, check out the address he wrote.
kat stays on the ground floor.
meaning the house number should read "#01-17".
he didnt even send it to his own address.
he stays at #12-19.
neither does he know the neighbour who stays at #12-17.
He really knows how to make kat happy doesnt he?
(:
(:
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
just came back from my mid-term break holiday to perth.
and i conclude, i love perth.
i love the weather.
i love the laid-back relaxed atmosphere.
i love the supermarkets.
i love the lack of high-rise buildings everywhere.
i love the fish and chips.
i love biscuits and chocolates and wines and cheeses.
i love the people.
i love the parks.
i love the picnics and bbqs.
i love the scenery.
but most of all, i love perth because thats where YOU are.
You who cooked all those yummilicious meals for me and made sure i ate properly.
You who fulfilled my selfish desire for breakfast in bed prepared by the one i love.
You who stayed up till 2am in the morning just to help me with my essay.
You who despite wanting me to cut down on my sugar intake bought me a tub of icecream and allowed me to finish half a tub with you in one night (on top of the heaps of sweet stuff you bought for me too).
You who always came up with solutions to whatever sticky and last minute situations we ended up in because of my absent-mindedness and insistance.
You who let me have your ipod mini to make my long bus journeys to school more bearable because you cant possible be here with me.
You who emailed my parents telling them to make me eat more fibre (knowing that i always say ok i'll do it but i dont and forget) when you realised i wasnt clearing my bowels as often as i should and buying prune juice for me.
You who drove me around everywhere despite knowing you'd be in for all my nagging and comments about your reckless driving.
You who makes me feel so comfortable with you that i am at total ease with myself.
You who bought me so many things even though you're a bit tight just because you know it would make me smile.
You who gave me your favourite nike tshirt just cause i wanted it (for no logical reason) and your jacket to bring home even though that night was freezing.
You who made me take silly and funny photos that i wouldnt normally take at all.
You who knows me so well that even when i say i dont want something you know i do and when i say im ok you know i actually am not.
You who makes me love you even more despite having just quarrelled.
You who wiped away my tears with your hands and even wiped my nose and you didnt think it was gross at all.
You who makes the darkness into light.
You who makes everything alright.
even though you're so far away.
You who makes all this waiting and painful distance so worthwhile.
55 more days.
And the one i love will be coming back to me again.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Saturday, September 03, 2005
oopsy. this blog has outrightly been neglected. hurhur.
haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!
i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:
one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin
haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!
i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:
one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin
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