aunt agony cant solve her own problems...
its always easier to give out advice rather than to heed it.
i gave out advice that would be very useful to me right now.
but i cant follow it.
i just cant.
because i'd be risking it.
and i cant bear to.
anyhow its not like i'll ever do anything anyway.
heh.
i always wait.
even if it means to wait blindly.
sigh.
oh well.
better to sit in silence rather than to ruin the amity between us...
Lord, You know my heart
And all my desires
And the secret things I'll never tell
Lord, You know them well
Though I may be young
I see and understand
That at times like sheep we go astray
And things get out of hand
So I promise to be true to You
To live my life in purity
As unto You
Waiting for the day
When I hear You say
Here is the one I have created
Just for you
Until then, O Lord
I will be content
Knowing that true love
Will come someday
It will only come from You
Cause I have seen the suffering
That loneliness can cause
When we choose to give our love away
Without a righteous cause
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
the cooking diaries...
(cause Mum's not home!)
(cause Mum's not home!)
today's ingredients are:
boneless chicken thigh meat...
shitake mushrooms...
asparagus...
cheese...
and crushed black peppercorns and dried basil leaves for seasoning...
Step 1:
marinate the chicken meat with salt, black peppercorns and dried basil leaves...
Step 2:
slice the mushrooms and half the asparagus...
Step 3:
heat up the oil and brown the chicken meat...
its cooked once its not pinkish-raw anymore...
Step 4:
plate the hot chicken and top with cheese...
Step 5:
add a little butter in the pan and fry the mushrooms and asparagus...
Step 6:
top the chicken (the cheese should have melted by now) with the veggie mixture...
boneless chicken thigh meat...
shitake mushrooms...
asparagus...
cheese...
and crushed black peppercorns and dried basil leaves for seasoning...
Step 1:
marinate the chicken meat with salt, black peppercorns and dried basil leaves...
Step 2:
slice the mushrooms and half the asparagus...
Step 3:
heat up the oil and brown the chicken meat...
its cooked once its not pinkish-raw anymore...
Step 4:
plate the hot chicken and top with cheese...
Step 5:
add a little butter in the pan and fry the mushrooms and asparagus...
Step 6:
top the chicken (the cheese should have melted by now) with the veggie mixture...
Ta Da!
Pepper and basil chicken topped with butter-tossed mushrooms and asparagus!
Step 7:
Dig in and enjoy (:
Yummy! (:
Pepper and basil chicken topped with butter-tossed mushrooms and asparagus!
Step 7:
Dig in and enjoy (:
Yummy! (:
Sunday, February 20, 2005
AbsolutElation.
The song is done.
Thank you Jim.
Thank you Amanda.
Most of all thank you GOD.
(:
Gonna jam next week.
Hopefully.
Jim on guitar.
Amanda on keyboard.
Me on drums.
(im think im missing something...)
Though i have no idea how im gonna sing and drum.
But we'll figure out smthg.
Ha.
And i really wanna record it.
I love the song.
I love it.
I love you GOD.
(:
Thank you God..for just..always..ALWAYS providing..this time its through a song..that brought the three friends even closer..and three friends who care for each other genuinely..who help to take away the little pain in my heart..heh..thank you my Father..
(:
The song is done.
Thank you Jim.
Thank you Amanda.
Most of all thank you GOD.
(:
Gonna jam next week.
Hopefully.
Jim on guitar.
Amanda on keyboard.
Me on drums.
(im think im missing something...)
Though i have no idea how im gonna sing and drum.
But we'll figure out smthg.
Ha.
And i really wanna record it.
I love the song.
I love it.
I love you GOD.
(:
Thank you God..for just..always..ALWAYS providing..this time its through a song..that brought the three friends even closer..and three friends who care for each other genuinely..who help to take away the little pain in my heart..heh..thank you my Father..
(:
Friday, February 18, 2005
You Are My Everything
How can i not realise that you love me
When you're showing it to me everyday.
How can i not realise that you love me
When you're revealing in every way.
Everything in my life
All the laughter, the strife
They come from you because you care
And i'm never alone,
you're always there.
Father,
Teach me to love you more
Help me to open the door
to my heart, to my life,
to my all, forevermore.
Father,
Guide me and use all that i can bring
Just take over my life and cause me to sing
of your love, of your grace
You are my everything.
Its so painful how i can forget that you love me
when you've paid the price of death
Its so hurting how i can forget that you love me
when you touch me with your sweet gentle caress.
Inspired by God.
Written through me.
I actually had the intention of writing a poem about something thats really bothering me.
But instead, i ended up wiriting this song.
I've also never written a song before so here's a virgin attempt.
It may be imperfect but He is perfect.
Its so amazing how God works in our lives.
He gave me the inspiration and I'm honoured to be used by Him.
The song is also such a great reminder (which couldnt have come at a better time) that God loves me.
Nothing is greater than His love, though we often forget as we look to human affections to satisfy our longing.
Take heart (pun not intended) my friends.
God loves us, no matter how much we dont reciprocate it back to Him.
And trust His timing and plan.
He is working!
(:
Now i just need someone to put it into guitar chords for me.
Any takers?
Shucks.
i should really learn how to play the guitar.
How can i not realise that you love me
When you're showing it to me everyday.
How can i not realise that you love me
When you're revealing in every way.
Everything in my life
All the laughter, the strife
They come from you because you care
And i'm never alone,
you're always there.
Father,
Teach me to love you more
Help me to open the door
to my heart, to my life,
to my all, forevermore.
Father,
Guide me and use all that i can bring
Just take over my life and cause me to sing
of your love, of your grace
You are my everything.
Its so painful how i can forget that you love me
when you've paid the price of death
Its so hurting how i can forget that you love me
when you touch me with your sweet gentle caress.
Inspired by God.
Written through me.
I actually had the intention of writing a poem about something thats really bothering me.
But instead, i ended up wiriting this song.
I've also never written a song before so here's a virgin attempt.
It may be imperfect but He is perfect.
Its so amazing how God works in our lives.
He gave me the inspiration and I'm honoured to be used by Him.
The song is also such a great reminder (which couldnt have come at a better time) that God loves me.
Nothing is greater than His love, though we often forget as we look to human affections to satisfy our longing.
Take heart (pun not intended) my friends.
God loves us, no matter how much we dont reciprocate it back to Him.
And trust His timing and plan.
He is working!
(:
Now i just need someone to put it into guitar chords for me.
Any takers?
Shucks.
i should really learn how to play the guitar.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
A life filled with joy...
As i reflect on the past week, i cant think of anything else except the fact that God is good to me.
That He has already planned out my life so meticulously and proficiently.
That He will always provide in His own special way.
That He loves me.
Only recently have i finally been able to let go.
And its not like before where i kept saying i needed to and things had to stop.
I kept lying to myself then.
But now its for real.
I, through and only through God's grace, have been capable of setting myself free from the chains i have bound myself with.
Chains that have been tightenning itself for the past 7 long months.
They have been shattered, destroyed, crushed.
*insert big huge ginormous toothie smile here*
On sunday, God spoke to me again through Tom during the sunday school lesson.
Honestly i never really could keep my attention focused from the start till the end but that day was really an exception.
I never felt more eager and willing to listen, learn.
Tom talked about how Habbakuk complained but yet did so with reverence and a heart that was open and honest.
What really struck me was the reminder that God does not work according to human timing.
We may think that God isnt working but actually he is already in the midst of answering our prayers but we, as puny useless ignorant and silly humans, dont see it. He may also not answer our requests the way we want but God does answer prayers.
This fact struck me because i realised that it has been shown to me during the past week.
Since it'll take too long (due to a ton of details..God really works down to the nitty gritty) i shall spare everyone the agony. heh.
But know that He provided me with many friends.
Friends who care and really know how to make me feel appreciated and just, well, contented. :)
So here (brace yourselves, its gonna be long) are my thank yous!
(in no order of any kind whatsoever)
(though in specification to my past week)
(heh)
(ok i'll shut up already)
Edwin:
Hey ed. Thanks. Really. For everything. For listenning to my whinning. For bearing with all my nonsense. For all the teasing, the yakking but most importantly the nagging (esp about my finances). Thanks for coming over on thurs. Thanks for going to get the prez with me though you were already half dead and it was kinda late. Thanks for the treat at crystal jade. Thanks for the long long long chat on tuesday morning. Thanks for paying most of the cab fare today. Thanks for slurping down your salmon ramen just now just so i didnt have to go home all alone. Thanks.
Jun Yuan:
Thanks for coming over on thurs and being of the most help with the food. haha. Thanks for inviting me up with your YEP friends to bai nian though ur parents werent home. Thanks for the movie on that hot, lazy and boring friday afternoon (and that can of coke. ha.). Thanks for ben and jerrys at 1am just because i had a mad craving for it. Thanks for the appreciation of my efforts (unlike some people..*kat glares at shane*..ha). Thanks for lunch. The chicken rice was really yummy, the conversation even yummier (ha.). Thanks for watching School of Rock (on yet another hot, lazy and boring afternoon) with me though u already did (and another can of coke). Thanks for sharing a bit of your life with a stranger. Thanks for being a neighbour. Thanks for being a friend. Thanks for just being you.
Shane:
As much as i would like to disinclude you i just couldnt. ha. Thanks for coming over on thurs and alleviating a bit of the torture of over-catered food. Thanks for your "constructive criticisms" that, really, i accept with gratitude. Thanks for your sociable and out-going attitude. Thanks for amusing me with the humourously egotistical way you talk about yourself.
Jim:
Thanks for being the great friend you have always been. Thanks for being my reality check. Thanks for all the little things you do and the crazy big things that are so stupidly sweet (like your appearance and box of chocolates at 2am). Thanks for the endless amount of treats you've given me and amanda, and yet we still keep clamouring you for more (speaking of which u still owe us the japanese buffet!). Thanks for being such an encouragement through your trust in God no matter how tough a situation you might be stuck in. Thanks for your constant concern too.
Amanda:
Thanks for being the wonderful and ever-encouraging sister i never had. Thanks for all the little smses here and there, some coming at the most appropriate timings that show me how much God cares for me as He put you in my life. Thanks for the pretty heart-shaped cookies you made for me on valentines day as well as the sweet sweet note that came along with it. Thanks for always listenning to my problems. Thanks for all your prayers. Thanks for being my constant reminder of that important need to reach out to everyone and spread the love our Father has abundantly showered on us.
Liyue:
Thanks for coming to the airport to have dinner with me. Thanks for the delicious treat. Thanks for being so patient while u waited (for me to take photos with my friend) and waited (while i scooted off from dinner to say a final goodbye and wave to my friend) and waited. Thanks for the short but most enjoyable chat we had. Thanks for constantly meeting up with me to find out how im doing. Thanks for being not just a DGL to me, but a close older sister, someone i can and will look to for advice. Thanks for allowing me to be so open with you.
Michele:
Thanks for being so patient with me. Thanks for being like a big sister to little me. Thanks for indirectly slapping me hard in the face to wake me up. Thanks for being such a great friend to me even when i dont deserve it. Thanks for being a source of encouragement and motivation through the amount of dedication you give to all your committments. Thanks for the really lovely v.day flower that is still surviving in a vase of water on my bedside table.
Gina:
Thanks for being a great friend to me though ive only known you for less than a year. Thanks for hanging out with me today though you were half dead from a whole day of school (though the offer of haagen daz icecream treat had a very endorphinious effect on you. ahaha.) just because im only meeting teck at 530pm. Thanks for always causing a smile on my face with your crazy antics (and of course your infamous burps). Thanks for a fun time no matter what we do.
Again i must stress that it doesnt mean i dont appreciate you just because your name isnt specifically mentioned. Each and every person in my life is important because God has a purpose for you in my life. And for that, i truely am grateful to all of you.
Take care everyone.
I love y'all.
(:
because Of Him and all of you...
p/s: ok. i actually have some stuff to say to you, my now sad-to-say-but-its-true-long-distance-neighbour, but my eyes are desperately struggling to remain open and make out whats on the screen of my lappy. haha. another day fella. or would you prefer an email? (hur hur. im just adding to your list of "email people".)
As i reflect on the past week, i cant think of anything else except the fact that God is good to me.
That He has already planned out my life so meticulously and proficiently.
That He will always provide in His own special way.
That He loves me.
Only recently have i finally been able to let go.
And its not like before where i kept saying i needed to and things had to stop.
I kept lying to myself then.
But now its for real.
I, through and only through God's grace, have been capable of setting myself free from the chains i have bound myself with.
Chains that have been tightenning itself for the past 7 long months.
They have been shattered, destroyed, crushed.
*insert big huge ginormous toothie smile here*
On sunday, God spoke to me again through Tom during the sunday school lesson.
Honestly i never really could keep my attention focused from the start till the end but that day was really an exception.
I never felt more eager and willing to listen, learn.
Tom talked about how Habbakuk complained but yet did so with reverence and a heart that was open and honest.
What really struck me was the reminder that God does not work according to human timing.
We may think that God isnt working but actually he is already in the midst of answering our prayers but we, as puny useless ignorant and silly humans, dont see it. He may also not answer our requests the way we want but God does answer prayers.
This fact struck me because i realised that it has been shown to me during the past week.
Since it'll take too long (due to a ton of details..God really works down to the nitty gritty) i shall spare everyone the agony. heh.
But know that He provided me with many friends.
Friends who care and really know how to make me feel appreciated and just, well, contented. :)
So here (brace yourselves, its gonna be long) are my thank yous!
(in no order of any kind whatsoever)
(though in specification to my past week)
(heh)
(ok i'll shut up already)
Edwin:
Hey ed. Thanks. Really. For everything. For listenning to my whinning. For bearing with all my nonsense. For all the teasing, the yakking but most importantly the nagging (esp about my finances). Thanks for coming over on thurs. Thanks for going to get the prez with me though you were already half dead and it was kinda late. Thanks for the treat at crystal jade. Thanks for the long long long chat on tuesday morning. Thanks for paying most of the cab fare today. Thanks for slurping down your salmon ramen just now just so i didnt have to go home all alone. Thanks.
Jun Yuan:
Thanks for coming over on thurs and being of the most help with the food. haha. Thanks for inviting me up with your YEP friends to bai nian though ur parents werent home. Thanks for the movie on that hot, lazy and boring friday afternoon (and that can of coke. ha.). Thanks for ben and jerrys at 1am just because i had a mad craving for it. Thanks for the appreciation of my efforts (unlike some people..*kat glares at shane*..ha). Thanks for lunch. The chicken rice was really yummy, the conversation even yummier (ha.). Thanks for watching School of Rock (on yet another hot, lazy and boring afternoon) with me though u already did (and another can of coke). Thanks for sharing a bit of your life with a stranger. Thanks for being a neighbour. Thanks for being a friend. Thanks for just being you.
Shane:
As much as i would like to disinclude you i just couldnt. ha. Thanks for coming over on thurs and alleviating a bit of the torture of over-catered food. Thanks for your "constructive criticisms" that, really, i accept with gratitude. Thanks for your sociable and out-going attitude. Thanks for amusing me with the humourously egotistical way you talk about yourself.
Jim:
Thanks for being the great friend you have always been. Thanks for being my reality check. Thanks for all the little things you do and the crazy big things that are so stupidly sweet (like your appearance and box of chocolates at 2am). Thanks for the endless amount of treats you've given me and amanda, and yet we still keep clamouring you for more (speaking of which u still owe us the japanese buffet!). Thanks for being such an encouragement through your trust in God no matter how tough a situation you might be stuck in. Thanks for your constant concern too.
Amanda:
Thanks for being the wonderful and ever-encouraging sister i never had. Thanks for all the little smses here and there, some coming at the most appropriate timings that show me how much God cares for me as He put you in my life. Thanks for the pretty heart-shaped cookies you made for me on valentines day as well as the sweet sweet note that came along with it. Thanks for always listenning to my problems. Thanks for all your prayers. Thanks for being my constant reminder of that important need to reach out to everyone and spread the love our Father has abundantly showered on us.
Liyue:
Thanks for coming to the airport to have dinner with me. Thanks for the delicious treat. Thanks for being so patient while u waited (for me to take photos with my friend) and waited (while i scooted off from dinner to say a final goodbye and wave to my friend) and waited. Thanks for the short but most enjoyable chat we had. Thanks for constantly meeting up with me to find out how im doing. Thanks for being not just a DGL to me, but a close older sister, someone i can and will look to for advice. Thanks for allowing me to be so open with you.
Michele:
Thanks for being so patient with me. Thanks for being like a big sister to little me. Thanks for indirectly slapping me hard in the face to wake me up. Thanks for being such a great friend to me even when i dont deserve it. Thanks for being a source of encouragement and motivation through the amount of dedication you give to all your committments. Thanks for the really lovely v.day flower that is still surviving in a vase of water on my bedside table.
Gina:
Thanks for being a great friend to me though ive only known you for less than a year. Thanks for hanging out with me today though you were half dead from a whole day of school (though the offer of haagen daz icecream treat had a very endorphinious effect on you. ahaha.) just because im only meeting teck at 530pm. Thanks for always causing a smile on my face with your crazy antics (and of course your infamous burps). Thanks for a fun time no matter what we do.
Again i must stress that it doesnt mean i dont appreciate you just because your name isnt specifically mentioned. Each and every person in my life is important because God has a purpose for you in my life. And for that, i truely am grateful to all of you.
Take care everyone.
I love y'all.
(:
because Of Him and all of you...
p/s: ok. i actually have some stuff to say to you, my now sad-to-say-but-its-true-long-distance-neighbour, but my eyes are desperately struggling to remain open and make out whats on the screen of my lappy. haha. another day fella. or would you prefer an email? (hur hur. im just adding to your list of "email people".)
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
Monday, February 14, 2005
LOVE...
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, the whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 John 4:19
We love because he first loved us.
Happy Valentines Everyone!
(:
...is GOD.
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, the whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 John 4:19
We love because he first loved us.
Happy Valentines Everyone!
(:
...is GOD.
The Baking Diaries...
Add four eggs...
A cup of sugar...
One teaspoon of vanilla essence...
Four whole packets of cream cheese...
Give it a little whirl with the help of a mixer...
*Wait wait wait...*
After an hour of utter impatience...
I present..a little sneak peek of mouth-watering goodness..
VIOLA! Oreo cheesecake!
hmm..it doesnt exactly look like an oreo cheesecake huh...
oh well..its the taste that counts right?
(:
Every entry represents a labour of love...
on a little sidenote...
You keep giving and taking from me..
Things that could have been. may be.
Tears.
Frustration and exasperation
Frustration and exasperation
out of utter incomprehension
that dont drop
being afraid of self-condescension.
God.
Why?
Sunday, February 13, 2005
the contented princess...
its true.
when u let go of the crazy things uve been clinging on so tightly to,
life becomes so much better.
you get this amazing feeling of ten thousand pounds being lifted off your shoulders.
all at once.
and all is made more satisfying when u give it up to GOD.
i really thank God for people who make my life so much sweeter.
you know who u guys are.
ha.
and pun not intended on the word "sweeter".
(ref. sneaking out for icecream supper)
oh and i just have to add this.
im gonna be one really really privileged girl on valentines' day.
HA.
*big fat silly grin*
but of course.
as with all things.
it comes with a price.
tsk.
haha.
has got everything she needs..
everything and so much more..
its true.
when u let go of the crazy things uve been clinging on so tightly to,
life becomes so much better.
you get this amazing feeling of ten thousand pounds being lifted off your shoulders.
all at once.
and all is made more satisfying when u give it up to GOD.
i really thank God for people who make my life so much sweeter.
you know who u guys are.
ha.
and pun not intended on the word "sweeter".
(ref. sneaking out for icecream supper)
oh and i just have to add this.
im gonna be one really really privileged girl on valentines' day.
HA.
*big fat silly grin*
but of course.
as with all things.
it comes with a price.
tsk.
haha.
has got everything she needs..
everything and so much more..
Friday, February 11, 2005
Realisation...
Ed made me recognize one very important factor today.
He said that at the end of all the searching, if two people wanted to be together they had to be open and have fun chatting with each other.
He asked me to imagine not being able to crap with my boyfriend and commented how boring that would be.
You once said you liked me for me.
But its weird how little you actually know about me.
And its strange how i get tongue-tied when talking to you.
Even more bizarre how we sometimes run out of things to say and talk about.
Ok, enough of the complicated emotionally-weighted issues. heh.
Let me say thanks to three guys who made my night a rather interesting and most definitely laughter-filled one.
Thanks to Edwin, Jun Yuan and Shane.
Who, first and foremost, most gallantly helped me to finish up some food from the buffet spread.
Thanks, you have no idea how much it means to me (and my stomach for the next few days).
Secondly, they relieved me of my boredom during the dinner.
Haha. Ok my relatives arent that boring..its just that i dont usually talk to them so yeah. heh.
Its rather amazing how the four of us managed to talk quite a bit and laugh a little bit more depsite me being (almost) a complete stranger to Jun Yuan and Shane.
Thirdly, for inviting me up to the twelfth floor.
I had always wanted to see how was the view from up there. Sorry i didnt stay long though.
God definitely had His hand in this.
I actually invited him to come over.
But he didnt.
And him not being there allowed me to get to know (and know better for ed) these three crappy guys.
Blessing(s) in disguise.
*Grin*
...is not enough. Its what ure gonna do about it. Will i do anything?
Ed made me recognize one very important factor today.
He said that at the end of all the searching, if two people wanted to be together they had to be open and have fun chatting with each other.
He asked me to imagine not being able to crap with my boyfriend and commented how boring that would be.
You once said you liked me for me.
But its weird how little you actually know about me.
And its strange how i get tongue-tied when talking to you.
Even more bizarre how we sometimes run out of things to say and talk about.
Ok, enough of the complicated emotionally-weighted issues. heh.
Let me say thanks to three guys who made my night a rather interesting and most definitely laughter-filled one.
Thanks to Edwin, Jun Yuan and Shane.
Who, first and foremost, most gallantly helped me to finish up some food from the buffet spread.
Thanks, you have no idea how much it means to me (and my stomach for the next few days).
Secondly, they relieved me of my boredom during the dinner.
Haha. Ok my relatives arent that boring..its just that i dont usually talk to them so yeah. heh.
Its rather amazing how the four of us managed to talk quite a bit and laugh a little bit more depsite me being (almost) a complete stranger to Jun Yuan and Shane.
Thirdly, for inviting me up to the twelfth floor.
I had always wanted to see how was the view from up there. Sorry i didnt stay long though.
God definitely had His hand in this.
I actually invited him to come over.
But he didnt.
And him not being there allowed me to get to know (and know better for ed) these three crappy guys.
Blessing(s) in disguise.
*Grin*
...is not enough. Its what ure gonna do about it. Will i do anything?
Monday, February 07, 2005
The God of all comfort.
2 Corinthians 1:3-6
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.
6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
Im really really blessed.
Whenever i need answers God always provides it.
His timing is so accurate its unbelievable.
The above verse was from today's message.
And it spoke directly to me.
Thank you Father for taking care of even a speck of dust like me.
I know I need to rely on You for answers and strength but all too often i think i can handle it on my own, ending up being more confused and miserable than before.
Teach me to trust in You and Your precise timing for everything in my life that is to come.
Teach me to pray for faith and not demand.
Teach me to seek Ye first the kingdom of God and not the things of this world.
Teach me to be patient and wait.
Teach me to allow You to work through and in me.
And father i pray for a dear sister.
She needs the peace that surpasses all understanding that can only come from You right now.
Help her to see Your goodness and glory throughout all this heartache.
Show her You love her so much, much more than any human could.
Grant her the victory out of all her pain and suffering through your mercy and grace.
Allow me to just be a friend to her.
God is good.
All the time.
All the time.
God is good.
Amen.
2 Corinthians 1:3-6
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.
5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows.
6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer.
Im really really blessed.
Whenever i need answers God always provides it.
His timing is so accurate its unbelievable.
The above verse was from today's message.
And it spoke directly to me.
Thank you Father for taking care of even a speck of dust like me.
I know I need to rely on You for answers and strength but all too often i think i can handle it on my own, ending up being more confused and miserable than before.
Teach me to trust in You and Your precise timing for everything in my life that is to come.
Teach me to pray for faith and not demand.
Teach me to seek Ye first the kingdom of God and not the things of this world.
Teach me to be patient and wait.
Teach me to allow You to work through and in me.
And father i pray for a dear sister.
She needs the peace that surpasses all understanding that can only come from You right now.
Help her to see Your goodness and glory throughout all this heartache.
Show her You love her so much, much more than any human could.
Grant her the victory out of all her pain and suffering through your mercy and grace.
Allow me to just be a friend to her.
God is good.
All the time.
All the time.
God is good.
Amen.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Saturday, February 05, 2005
the wrecked...
unnatural unwillingness to slumber
if nightmares are all i see.
heart-thumping resistance to siesta
when all my dreams are scary to me.
so tired so confused
so close to tears
but never the guts to cry.
engulfed in a self-denial state of false hope.
whirlwind -
tumultous beating down of the truthful lie.
a swift slash across the tender beating flesh.
the core of emotions shadows itself into recluse
dubious knowledge of possibility dashed.
soft-hearted.
sentimental.
sensitive.
sweet.
optimism has its limits.
vulnerablity now takes charge.
...state of mind.body.soul.
unnatural unwillingness to slumber
if nightmares are all i see.
heart-thumping resistance to siesta
when all my dreams are scary to me.
so tired so confused
so close to tears
but never the guts to cry.
engulfed in a self-denial state of false hope.
whirlwind -
tumultous beating down of the truthful lie.
a swift slash across the tender beating flesh.
the core of emotions shadows itself into recluse
dubious knowledge of possibility dashed.
soft-hearted.
sentimental.
sensitive.
sweet.
optimism has its limits.
vulnerablity now takes charge.
...state of mind.body.soul.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Friends.
Took the 151 with Kai Sheng this morning..
Was a lot better than last week cause this week i didnt wake up 20 minutes before leaving the house, which usually leaves me really really horribly grouchy..heehee..
Talked about everything under the sun (as we always do..the bus journy is awfully long)..
Driving, PRC scholars, Shopping, Parents, Allowence, Cars, Soci tutors, Clothes, Relationships, Denial, Chinese New Year and yes that Suckling Pig that im gonna have for my reunion dinner.
And Kai Sheng, im really (really!) not as spoilt as i seem to be.
Ok i should just shut up.
With each word (in my defence) i say i just seem to be sinking deeper in.
Was with Michele before meeting WeeWee for lunch.
Really really fun being with her no matter what we do.
Today we had fun playing "fit-the-key-into-the-correct-door" with the soci storeroom.
Haha.
And sorry about making you line up all over again for my katsu-don!
Heh.
Who else in the world would laugh with (and at me) for doing such a silly and stupid thing but yet still go queue up for me?
Crashed WeeWee's science lecture..
The LT was obviously too small for the amount of people at the lecture..
But we thankfully managed to find two seats side by side..
The LT was so warm too..
The lecturer really sucked..
Try to imagine a china man rattling on about enzymes and other funny chemical and bio terms and names..
Tried to revise a bit of my french but the environment was less than conducive..
WeeWee was bored enough to fold me a hi-chew wrapper flower..haha..thanks!
Nthg much for marketing.
Boring.
Its too much like econs.
The only good thing out of it?
Michele, Gina, Me and WeeWee are in the same group.
No unsuspecting lazy bugger in my project group.
I realise today that all my friends treat me the same way.
Be it my close friends, my PL friends, my church friends, my NUS friends etc etc..
They all share this common yet unknown-to-them tendency to tease me and treat me like a xiao mei mei.
Haha.
As Kai Sheng puts it "i subconciously try not to do it".
Right.
But its okay.
I dont mind.
Heh.
Maybe thats why.
Would he lie to me?
Why would he lie to me?
I dare not ask either one of them what in the world is going on.
This is just not getting me anywhere.
I just need to know the truth.
From the horse's mouth.
Are you even intending to tell me at all?
Friends. Just friends.
Took the 151 with Kai Sheng this morning..
Was a lot better than last week cause this week i didnt wake up 20 minutes before leaving the house, which usually leaves me really really horribly grouchy..heehee..
Talked about everything under the sun (as we always do..the bus journy is awfully long)..
Driving, PRC scholars, Shopping, Parents, Allowence, Cars, Soci tutors, Clothes, Relationships, Denial, Chinese New Year and yes that Suckling Pig that im gonna have for my reunion dinner.
And Kai Sheng, im really (really!) not as spoilt as i seem to be.
Ok i should just shut up.
With each word (in my defence) i say i just seem to be sinking deeper in.
Was with Michele before meeting WeeWee for lunch.
Really really fun being with her no matter what we do.
Today we had fun playing "fit-the-key-into-the-correct-door" with the soci storeroom.
Haha.
And sorry about making you line up all over again for my katsu-don!
Heh.
Who else in the world would laugh with (and at me) for doing such a silly and stupid thing but yet still go queue up for me?
Crashed WeeWee's science lecture..
The LT was obviously too small for the amount of people at the lecture..
But we thankfully managed to find two seats side by side..
The LT was so warm too..
The lecturer really sucked..
Try to imagine a china man rattling on about enzymes and other funny chemical and bio terms and names..
Tried to revise a bit of my french but the environment was less than conducive..
WeeWee was bored enough to fold me a hi-chew wrapper flower..haha..thanks!
Nthg much for marketing.
Boring.
Its too much like econs.
The only good thing out of it?
Michele, Gina, Me and WeeWee are in the same group.
No unsuspecting lazy bugger in my project group.
I realise today that all my friends treat me the same way.
Be it my close friends, my PL friends, my church friends, my NUS friends etc etc..
They all share this common yet unknown-to-them tendency to tease me and treat me like a xiao mei mei.
Haha.
As Kai Sheng puts it "i subconciously try not to do it".
Right.
But its okay.
I dont mind.
Heh.
Maybe thats why.
Would he lie to me?
Why would he lie to me?
I dare not ask either one of them what in the world is going on.
This is just not getting me anywhere.
I just need to know the truth.
From the horse's mouth.
Are you even intending to tell me at all?
Friends. Just friends.
Monday, January 31, 2005
i love my weekends.
ok before i begin let me dispense a bit of trivial but you-never-know-when-you-might-need-it advice.
Never Ever (i repeat) NEVER EVER put rabbit sweets in the fridge.
They become hard like rock.
Thankfully my teeth are still in tact.
(Kat puts another rabbit sweet into her mouth. She's just too impatient.)
friday was definitely better than i expected.
first of all, econs lecture was hilarious. LT 11 is never cold. But that day me and gina were freezing our asses off. Haha. It was so darn EMPTY. My gosh. I almost wasted to burst out laughing when i went into the LT. And to think i was worried there wasnt going to be space.
Secondly, Soci tutorial was not as bad as i imagined it to be. Made "friends" with the tutor (this is such a highly embarrassing encounter that i dont think i want to or dare to publicize it. ha.) and this year three girl named Vince (pronounced Vin-See) and FINALLY there are cute guys in my tutorial class. Haha. So finally i have solved the mystery of the missing cute guys in NUS. They all went either to Archi or Engine fac. I know where im heading to for my cross-fac module. Haha.
Went to chomp chomp to eat with Michele and Ah-sao (my junior). Had sambal stingray, chilli sotong (with tons of onions), fried carrot cake, peanut and sesame tang yuan in peanut soup and a huge cup of sugarcane juice with lemon. Good food. Excellent Company.
Saturday was a good time spent at YF.
It really reminded me of my need to be salt and light on this earth as a christian.
We watched a powerpoint presentation on this girl who was the above to those around her, blessing everyone, not just her friends and family but even those who were shunned by people.
Sadly, she was killed during the shoot-out at Columbine.
It was said that one of the gun-men pulled her hair and shouted to her at gun-point, "are you a christian?" and her reply came bold and convicted, "you know very well the answer is yes."
When i read that, tears came to my eyes.
I realise that honestly, i doubt my ability to do as she did.
Is life so important to me?
Are the things that i have on this earth more precious than what is to come in heaven?
Where is my conviction to spread the amazing word and love of God to the people i care about?
Today, i spent the afternoon in town with my parents.
Retail theraphy at its best.
Haha.
Bought two tops from Fox and a polo tee and bag from Fila.
And yeah. My dad paid for everything.
Haha.
I love it when such things happen.
As in when im completely prepared to pay for the stuff i want but dad comes along and foots the bill.
It just means i have that "extra" money to buy other stuff.
Haha.
Going shopping with Mishie moo on thurs for CNY.
Better buy soon.
Dont fancy rushing with everyone else.
Alright. Gotta go get some work done.
Tmr is a mad mad day.
i start at 10am and i end at 8.30pm.
Pray for me.
Thanks.
ok before i begin let me dispense a bit of trivial but you-never-know-when-you-might-need-it advice.
Never Ever (i repeat) NEVER EVER put rabbit sweets in the fridge.
They become hard like rock.
Thankfully my teeth are still in tact.
(Kat puts another rabbit sweet into her mouth. She's just too impatient.)
friday was definitely better than i expected.
first of all, econs lecture was hilarious. LT 11 is never cold. But that day me and gina were freezing our asses off. Haha. It was so darn EMPTY. My gosh. I almost wasted to burst out laughing when i went into the LT. And to think i was worried there wasnt going to be space.
Secondly, Soci tutorial was not as bad as i imagined it to be. Made "friends" with the tutor (this is such a highly embarrassing encounter that i dont think i want to or dare to publicize it. ha.) and this year three girl named Vince (pronounced Vin-See) and FINALLY there are cute guys in my tutorial class. Haha. So finally i have solved the mystery of the missing cute guys in NUS. They all went either to Archi or Engine fac. I know where im heading to for my cross-fac module. Haha.
Went to chomp chomp to eat with Michele and Ah-sao (my junior). Had sambal stingray, chilli sotong (with tons of onions), fried carrot cake, peanut and sesame tang yuan in peanut soup and a huge cup of sugarcane juice with lemon. Good food. Excellent Company.
Saturday was a good time spent at YF.
It really reminded me of my need to be salt and light on this earth as a christian.
We watched a powerpoint presentation on this girl who was the above to those around her, blessing everyone, not just her friends and family but even those who were shunned by people.
Sadly, she was killed during the shoot-out at Columbine.
It was said that one of the gun-men pulled her hair and shouted to her at gun-point, "are you a christian?" and her reply came bold and convicted, "you know very well the answer is yes."
When i read that, tears came to my eyes.
I realise that honestly, i doubt my ability to do as she did.
Is life so important to me?
Are the things that i have on this earth more precious than what is to come in heaven?
Where is my conviction to spread the amazing word and love of God to the people i care about?
Today, i spent the afternoon in town with my parents.
Retail theraphy at its best.
Haha.
Bought two tops from Fox and a polo tee and bag from Fila.
And yeah. My dad paid for everything.
Haha.
I love it when such things happen.
As in when im completely prepared to pay for the stuff i want but dad comes along and foots the bill.
It just means i have that "extra" money to buy other stuff.
Haha.
Going shopping with Mishie moo on thurs for CNY.
Better buy soon.
Dont fancy rushing with everyone else.
Alright. Gotta go get some work done.
Tmr is a mad mad day.
i start at 10am and i end at 8.30pm.
Pray for me.
Thanks.
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Contemplation.
Its hard to feel enthusiastic or want to do something when you arent recognized.
No hard feelings here because im pretty sure it was unintentional.
Just thinking aloud i guess.
Trying to come to a decision to michele's question.
Its not that i dont wanna agree.
Its not that i dont wanna serve.
But as of the above, its hard.
Its almost impossible to look or think or talk to someone as before when you know things are different now.
But its weird how he acts so oblivious as though nothing has happened.
And if he really is what he is then someone isnt going to be too happy about the way he treats and talks to me.
Maybe shawn got his infomation all wrong.
Then again i highly doubt Shawn would lie to me about such a thing, or even lie to me at all.
Anyway, thanks to Corlissa for being worried about me.
Heh.
I worry about u too my dear sister.
We will meet up soon ok?
:)
Its hard to feel enthusiastic or want to do something when you arent recognized.
No hard feelings here because im pretty sure it was unintentional.
Just thinking aloud i guess.
Trying to come to a decision to michele's question.
Its not that i dont wanna agree.
Its not that i dont wanna serve.
But as of the above, its hard.
Its almost impossible to look or think or talk to someone as before when you know things are different now.
But its weird how he acts so oblivious as though nothing has happened.
And if he really is what he is then someone isnt going to be too happy about the way he treats and talks to me.
Maybe shawn got his infomation all wrong.
Then again i highly doubt Shawn would lie to me about such a thing, or even lie to me at all.
Anyway, thanks to Corlissa for being worried about me.
Heh.
I worry about u too my dear sister.
We will meet up soon ok?
:)
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
the eternal optimist...
| You Are the Enthusiast |
You are outgoing and playful - always seeing the happy side to life. You're enthusiastic and excitable. You love anything new. Multi-talented, you do many things well... and find success easy. You prefer to keep things light with others. Opening up is hard for you. |
What number are you?
and so the eternal optimist will rise to her feet again..
she will, with God's unfailing love and grace, pick herself up and get on with life..
actually. im not as affected as i thought i would be. maybe its 'cause i was kinda expecting it.
well let's just hope it doesnt give me more problems than it already has.
in fact it seems to have helped me a wee bit in my lil predicament.
but yes.
Nothing is too big or too small for God to handle.
And He never ever lets me go.
Be it in a quiet pasture or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side;
Should I face a mighty mountain or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul will be my guide.
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
everything happens for a reason...
from shawn not being able to get the same tutorial as me and gina,
to him knowing swi cause they're in the same elang tutorial,
to them coming in for elang lecture together,
to meiyen not really wanting to sit beside shawn during lecture,
to swi changing places so that meiyen could sit beside her resulting in shawn sitting beside me,
to shawn mustering up the courage to risk slight embarrassment and ask me something,
to him telling me about that very important fact.
thanks shawn.
i mean it.
thanks for telling me.
and thanks for the two hours of non-stop hilarity.
from shawn not being able to get the same tutorial as me and gina,
to him knowing swi cause they're in the same elang tutorial,
to them coming in for elang lecture together,
to meiyen not really wanting to sit beside shawn during lecture,
to swi changing places so that meiyen could sit beside her resulting in shawn sitting beside me,
to shawn mustering up the courage to risk slight embarrassment and ask me something,
to him telling me about that very important fact.
thanks shawn.
i mean it.
thanks for telling me.
and thanks for the two hours of non-stop hilarity.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
i dreamt a nightmare...
they say your dreams show you what you subconsciously want, think, feel.
i dreamt.
i thought it showed me what i really wanted.
it was bliss initially.
then it became a nightmare.
i was still torn.
and i tried to run away.
even my dreams are confused as to what my heart aches for.
they say your dreams show you what you subconsciously want, think, feel.
i dreamt.
i thought it showed me what i really wanted.
it was bliss initially.
then it became a nightmare.
i was still torn.
and i tried to run away.
even my dreams are confused as to what my heart aches for.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Thursday, January 20, 2005
this semester is just going from bad to worse..
first round of bidding for tutorials have eneded.
the results?
a whole load of rubbish.
honestly, the rankings all dont make sense.
a friend who put a particular timeslot(s) as his 1st and 2nd choice didnt get either.
some people only got 2 out of 5 of their tutorials.
some people got timeslots that they didnt even rank.
others got tutorials at completely horrible timings.
so basically the bidding system has failed terribly.
succeeding only in pissing off tons and tons of people.
me (definitely) included.
at least me mish and gina all got into the same marketing tutorial :)
There's something therapeutic about doing the dishes
and amazingly i do it not against my wishes
perhaps its because
i think its the perfect gesture of appreciation to the cook
for all of the heartfelt effort and love that she took
without a breather or a pause.
first round of bidding for tutorials have eneded.
the results?
a whole load of rubbish.
honestly, the rankings all dont make sense.
a friend who put a particular timeslot(s) as his 1st and 2nd choice didnt get either.
some people only got 2 out of 5 of their tutorials.
some people got timeslots that they didnt even rank.
others got tutorials at completely horrible timings.
so basically the bidding system has failed terribly.
succeeding only in pissing off tons and tons of people.
me (definitely) included.
at least me mish and gina all got into the same marketing tutorial :)
There's something therapeutic about doing the dishes
and amazingly i do it not against my wishes
perhaps its because
i think its the perfect gesture of appreciation to the cook
for all of the heartfelt effort and love that she took
without a breather or a pause.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
rendered helpless..
what do you do when someone has a problem?
what do you do when someone has a problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone, who is extremely close to you, has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone, who is extremely close to you, has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help but you cant and dont know what to do?
1230 - my hair, after taking its own sweet time, was finally dry
0100 - about to sleep
0130 - the call on my hp came
0530 - the call ended, the friend crying and the other crying for the friend
i've never been more helpless than before.
this person really means so so so much to me, perhaps more than i'll ever admit.
and it hurts so bad not to be able to provide a solution or even a temporary comfort.
all i can do now is to kneel down and pray.
The bumps and bruises along life's way
Are softened when you stop and pray...
God will always listen to you
Gently guiding all you do...
what do you do when someone has a problem?
what do you do when someone has a problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone, who is extremely close to you, has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help?
what do you do when someone, who is extremely close to you, has a ginormous problem and turns to you for help but you cant and dont know what to do?
1230 - my hair, after taking its own sweet time, was finally dry
0100 - about to sleep
0130 - the call on my hp came
0530 - the call ended, the friend crying and the other crying for the friend
i've never been more helpless than before.
this person really means so so so much to me, perhaps more than i'll ever admit.
and it hurts so bad not to be able to provide a solution or even a temporary comfort.
all i can do now is to kneel down and pray.
The bumps and bruises along life's way
Are softened when you stop and pray...
God will always listen to you
Gently guiding all you do...
Friday, January 14, 2005
Thursday, January 13, 2005
So how was your wednesday?
i absolutely hate taking the bus in the mornings during office rush hour..today it took me one and a half hours just to get to school..the jam at hougang alone was almost half an hour..bah..and the 151 wasnt an air-conditioned one..so it was a really rickety-rack journey all the long long way to NUS..
maketing lecture wasnt too bad..i thought the lecturer was a bit weird at the beginning though..haha..he was playing classical music before class started with everyone still streaming in..heh..and he tells horrifically lame jokes that NO ONE laughs at..haha..just ask Gina..we were rolling our eyes every single time he tried to be funny..haha..but i suppose his lack of joke-telling-success makes him rather entertaining..heh..
hhaa..took the wrong shuttle bus from biz ad..thankfully i realised it (while Gina was happily smsing away) and got off before we ended up at PGP..haha..the frequency of 95 is really terrible..we waited until i asked gina "are u sure 95 comes to this bus stop"..haha..i returned Joel's missed call there too..and it was funny cause somehow he was driving along past the bus stop opposite the central library and i think he saw me so that silly bugger actually stopped the car in the middle of the road just to see me talking to him on my handphone while he was talking to me on his..haha..too bad i had to meet my parents later if not i would have joined him and shawn for lunch..
accompanied Gina to buona vista to get her bus pass done..haha..silly girl lost her bus pass and has to pay a freakin' 21bucks just to get it replaced..so here's a warning to all..dont misplace your bus pass! its not worth it! haha..left her shortly though..had to be at kovan station by 1.30pm..
There wasnt any jam at the causeway (thankfully!) and we headed to city square to shop..the place is huge..haha..Malaysia really has too much land..many many many shops..wanted this pair of shoes but they didnt have my size..phooey..vinnci doesnt exactly have very nice shoes either..what happened to their old designer? come back please! haha..bought a Aeropostale's tee, a Levis tee and a pair of Levis shorts..ok im sorry but im a huge Levis fan..haha..and i like going into the Levis in Malaysia because the staff are more friendly..in Singapore they always give me a horridly bad impression and are most unhelpful may i add..like how they screwed up my alteration..but lets not get into that shall we..
Dinner was at my aunty's house..haha..as always..good food..had wild boar cooked in this awesome milk-based soup with tau kee and peppercorns..stir-fried veggies..fried fish and chinese-style omelette..heh..and my niece is awfully cute..but naughty as most kids are..haha..she almost pulled my bracelet out in her insistance to want to try it on..tsk..heh..looked at photos of shanghai, hainan dao and hongkong..think my parents wanna go one of these places during my 3month break..i dont mind..haha..as long as shopping and dim sum is included in the programme :)
haha..im talking to my neighbour who stays in the same block as me but on the twelveth floor through msn right now..pretty interesting huh..so here's a "hey there!" to Jun Yuan..haha..here's one for you:
i absolutely hate taking the bus in the mornings during office rush hour..today it took me one and a half hours just to get to school..the jam at hougang alone was almost half an hour..bah..and the 151 wasnt an air-conditioned one..so it was a really rickety-rack journey all the long long way to NUS..
maketing lecture wasnt too bad..i thought the lecturer was a bit weird at the beginning though..haha..he was playing classical music before class started with everyone still streaming in..heh..and he tells horrifically lame jokes that NO ONE laughs at..haha..just ask Gina..we were rolling our eyes every single time he tried to be funny..haha..but i suppose his lack of joke-telling-success makes him rather entertaining..heh..
hhaa..took the wrong shuttle bus from biz ad..thankfully i realised it (while Gina was happily smsing away) and got off before we ended up at PGP..haha..the frequency of 95 is really terrible..we waited until i asked gina "are u sure 95 comes to this bus stop"..haha..i returned Joel's missed call there too..and it was funny cause somehow he was driving along past the bus stop opposite the central library and i think he saw me so that silly bugger actually stopped the car in the middle of the road just to see me talking to him on my handphone while he was talking to me on his..haha..too bad i had to meet my parents later if not i would have joined him and shawn for lunch..
accompanied Gina to buona vista to get her bus pass done..haha..silly girl lost her bus pass and has to pay a freakin' 21bucks just to get it replaced..so here's a warning to all..dont misplace your bus pass! its not worth it! haha..left her shortly though..had to be at kovan station by 1.30pm..
There wasnt any jam at the causeway (thankfully!) and we headed to city square to shop..the place is huge..haha..Malaysia really has too much land..many many many shops..wanted this pair of shoes but they didnt have my size..phooey..vinnci doesnt exactly have very nice shoes either..what happened to their old designer? come back please! haha..bought a Aeropostale's tee, a Levis tee and a pair of Levis shorts..ok im sorry but im a huge Levis fan..haha..and i like going into the Levis in Malaysia because the staff are more friendly..in Singapore they always give me a horridly bad impression and are most unhelpful may i add..like how they screwed up my alteration..but lets not get into that shall we..
Dinner was at my aunty's house..haha..as always..good food..had wild boar cooked in this awesome milk-based soup with tau kee and peppercorns..stir-fried veggies..fried fish and chinese-style omelette..heh..and my niece is awfully cute..but naughty as most kids are..haha..she almost pulled my bracelet out in her insistance to want to try it on..tsk..heh..looked at photos of shanghai, hainan dao and hongkong..think my parents wanna go one of these places during my 3month break..i dont mind..haha..as long as shopping and dim sum is included in the programme :)
haha..im talking to my neighbour who stays in the same block as me but on the twelveth floor through msn right now..pretty interesting huh..so here's a "hey there!" to Jun Yuan..haha..here's one for you:
The same country, the same side.
The same area, the same night.
Just me and my neighbour
Talking under the moonlight.
well..mine was a day well spent with my friends, parents and family...
The same area, the same night.
Just me and my neighbour
Talking under the moonlight.
well..mine was a day well spent with my friends, parents and family...
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
My first day of school...
(ok actually its the first day of semester 2..)
(ok actually its the first day of semester 2..)
Our favourite meeting place, Kent Ridge Bus Terminal
Fooling around after buying books from the co-op..my elang textbook cost me $30.30! :(
Check out mishie's new hairstyle..lookin' good babe!
Waiting for the 151 home..and so begins the dreaded long journey..
ok its us again..but the bus was taking awfully long to come..
Gina and her poor friend (verbally abused by gina!!!) Jacob..haha..
Monday, January 10, 2005
Friday, January 07, 2005
i hate the bidding system...
ok i predict a terrible semester 2 of my first year in nus...
first of all, due to the bidding system i wont be doing any literature modules this semester.
which absolutely sucks.
the only reason im in arts is because i want to do lit.
but ok. stupid me.
i didnt declare lit as my major.
secondly, im a little afraid, ok make that a little more than afraid of the coming semester.
all my modules seem to be rather difficult and heavy.
ive gotten four modules so far.
econs - i like econs but i did get a C for the As...
E lang - ok this one isnt too bad...
Sociology - im praying hard this module is interesting...at least amanda is taking it too
French - ok this is the real killer..two lectures per week..tests every week..its not that i dont wanna learn it..im just afraid..i really dont wanna screw it up..as it is i completely suck at chinese..what makes me think i can do well/ok for french?
now im left with marketing to bid for..i rather management and organisation but ive got GB at 1530 on fridays and the lecture clashes..
sigh..and frm what i heard..marketing is a lot of work and presentations and projects..
*deep sigh*
God i really really need your help......
ok i predict a terrible semester 2 of my first year in nus...
first of all, due to the bidding system i wont be doing any literature modules this semester.
which absolutely sucks.
the only reason im in arts is because i want to do lit.
but ok. stupid me.
i didnt declare lit as my major.
secondly, im a little afraid, ok make that a little more than afraid of the coming semester.
all my modules seem to be rather difficult and heavy.
ive gotten four modules so far.
econs - i like econs but i did get a C for the As...
E lang - ok this one isnt too bad...
Sociology - im praying hard this module is interesting...at least amanda is taking it too
French - ok this is the real killer..two lectures per week..tests every week..its not that i dont wanna learn it..im just afraid..i really dont wanna screw it up..as it is i completely suck at chinese..what makes me think i can do well/ok for french?
now im left with marketing to bid for..i rather management and organisation but ive got GB at 1530 on fridays and the lecture clashes..
sigh..and frm what i heard..marketing is a lot of work and presentations and projects..
*deep sigh*
God i really really need your help......
Thursday, January 06, 2005
the guys in my life...
these past weeks ive really been catching up with the guys..
Jim took a really really long leave from army so he was pretty much freeeeeeeeeee the past week..
saw him really often from YF camp to the bbq to christmas eve to christmas morning to christmas afternoon to christmas evening to new year's day itself to that night when we went to catch corrinne may at the esplanade to sunday service/school..
haha..
thats a little bit too much of jim in about a week!
but yeah..thanks a lot fella..thanks for always being there and showing up when i least expect it..thanks thanks thanks..thanks for just being a great friend to me and amanda! :)
didnt really meet up with rongcai but met him and jim to catch corrinne may..
it was actually his idea..haha..amazing..i never expected him to be into such things..but as he phrased it..its his quest to be cultured..haha..sounds like vitagen or something..
anyway the train/bus ride home with him was really funny..
haha..
kept teasing him about being already so old (i shan't disclose any numbers here) yet being without a girlfriend and he was like joking about how literally everyone in church is asking him whether he needs help in finding a girlfriend and pushing him to get married!
im no exception my god-brother!
oh and thanks for sending me all the way to my door step that night..much appreciated :)
had dinner with edwin before meeting up with the above two to head to the esplanade..
it was really pure coincidence..heh..
was just chatting with him and we were both heading out at around the same time so we decided to have dinner together..
though dinner wasnt in the best setting (we settled for macs at PS but had to sit outside surrounded with smokers..argh) but the company more than made up for it..
we gotta have another meal together ed..it wasnt nearly enough time talking to you! and i just realised u had the honour of having the first dinner of the year 2005 with me! haha! oh! and lets remember to take our "red" photo if it ever happens again yeah? :)
met wee wee yesterday and joined the infamous queue to eat at crystal jade taka for dinner..
bad move though..'cause we were supposed to go shopping..haha..but by the time we were done with dinner it was already nine o'clock..heh..it didnt help that the staff took ten minutes just to settle my bill..
wanted to get my really belated gift for mig but somehow all the nice stuff are missing from the shelves especially now since everywhere is having sale (which translates into a time to get rid of the really ugly clothes)..
we actually walked around just to convince ourselves that yes, everywhere is CLOSED..haha..
we literally walked a-round starting from wisma towards tangs to lido to wheelock and back to wisma again where we finally had our 25cent icecream at macs..
haha..hey we gotta go shopping again! i still dont know what its really like to shop with you..haha..we'll check out the live entertainment we walked past (and heard) at wisma another time too yeah? maybe when u drive so i can stay out later..oh and thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks for the cookies! though thats no excuse for making me wait and of all places orchard mrt station :P
And then there's you..
you smsed me at 1.18am just to tell me you're not gonna stay in hall anymore..
and you "insisted on disturbing my peaceful sleep" knowing full well that "my sleep can wait" just to reply you..
i really would have taken your offer for "dinner" but there's absolutely no way my parents would let me out 1.32am..
and guess what..my mum keeps asking me to show her the photo my dad took for us during the bbq..
and who can forget you?
the bbq really made me realise that it has always been you..no matter what happens..
i still enjoy talking to you and u never change..always cutting short our conversations just to run off to play your game..
and i think you're "bored" enough to be reading this..heh..
so yeah lets meet up once we've got each other our presents alright?
these past weeks ive really been catching up with the guys..
Jim took a really really long leave from army so he was pretty much freeeeeeeeeee the past week..
saw him really often from YF camp to the bbq to christmas eve to christmas morning to christmas afternoon to christmas evening to new year's day itself to that night when we went to catch corrinne may at the esplanade to sunday service/school..
haha..
thats a little bit too much of jim in about a week!
but yeah..thanks a lot fella..thanks for always being there and showing up when i least expect it..thanks thanks thanks..thanks for just being a great friend to me and amanda! :)
didnt really meet up with rongcai but met him and jim to catch corrinne may..
it was actually his idea..haha..amazing..i never expected him to be into such things..but as he phrased it..its his quest to be cultured..haha..sounds like vitagen or something..
anyway the train/bus ride home with him was really funny..
haha..
kept teasing him about being already so old (i shan't disclose any numbers here) yet being without a girlfriend and he was like joking about how literally everyone in church is asking him whether he needs help in finding a girlfriend and pushing him to get married!
im no exception my god-brother!
oh and thanks for sending me all the way to my door step that night..much appreciated :)
had dinner with edwin before meeting up with the above two to head to the esplanade..
it was really pure coincidence..heh..
was just chatting with him and we were both heading out at around the same time so we decided to have dinner together..
though dinner wasnt in the best setting (we settled for macs at PS but had to sit outside surrounded with smokers..argh) but the company more than made up for it..
we gotta have another meal together ed..it wasnt nearly enough time talking to you! and i just realised u had the honour of having the first dinner of the year 2005 with me! haha! oh! and lets remember to take our "red" photo if it ever happens again yeah? :)
met wee wee yesterday and joined the infamous queue to eat at crystal jade taka for dinner..
bad move though..'cause we were supposed to go shopping..haha..but by the time we were done with dinner it was already nine o'clock..heh..it didnt help that the staff took ten minutes just to settle my bill..
wanted to get my really belated gift for mig but somehow all the nice stuff are missing from the shelves especially now since everywhere is having sale (which translates into a time to get rid of the really ugly clothes)..
we actually walked around just to convince ourselves that yes, everywhere is CLOSED..haha..
we literally walked a-round starting from wisma towards tangs to lido to wheelock and back to wisma again where we finally had our 25cent icecream at macs..
haha..hey we gotta go shopping again! i still dont know what its really like to shop with you..haha..we'll check out the live entertainment we walked past (and heard) at wisma another time too yeah? maybe when u drive so i can stay out later..oh and thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks for the cookies! though thats no excuse for making me wait and of all places orchard mrt station :P
And then there's you..
you smsed me at 1.18am just to tell me you're not gonna stay in hall anymore..
and you "insisted on disturbing my peaceful sleep" knowing full well that "my sleep can wait" just to reply you..
i really would have taken your offer for "dinner" but there's absolutely no way my parents would let me out 1.32am..
and guess what..my mum keeps asking me to show her the photo my dad took for us during the bbq..
and who can forget you?
the bbq really made me realise that it has always been you..no matter what happens..
i still enjoy talking to you and u never change..always cutting short our conversations just to run off to play your game..
and i think you're "bored" enough to be reading this..heh..
so yeah lets meet up once we've got each other our presents alright?
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Something about you...
Dont what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say...
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear...
Dont what you do to me but
Everytime I'm with you its a natural high
its like re-discovering Eden
with chocolate-coated rainbows and cotton candy skies
And everytime you look my way
I wish i had the guts to say...
There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you.
I think i'll hire Cupid
He'll make you see I'm more than your friend
You'll be tossing and turning
Counting the hours til you see me again
And when we meet you'll
Kiss my hand and say the words I've longed to hear...
so how has your 2005 been so far?
mine's been pretty crappy actually.
mine's been pretty crappy actually.
- I missed camp echo! (someone tell me who my angel is?pleassssssse?)
- went home after watchnight service feeling rather cheesed off due to a whole load of misunderstanding and absolute frustration (But all is well now..i hope)
- Brother totally messed up on sunday morning resulting in me getting a mouthful from my mum (like hello, i didnt do anything wrong)
- And my wound is gonna leave behind memories on my leg..and from the looks of it, its gonna be an ugly permanent reminder. (this photo was taken a day after the incident. it doesnt show the hideous state of the wound now in its awful peeling process)
But ok, not all has been all doom and gloom :)
- apparently i didnt miss much for camp echo..haha
- I had a special delivery of a box of chocolates (all the way from USA!) at 3.30am on the 1st of jan just to cheer me up
- Caught Corrinne May at the esplanade on saturday evening
- The awesome dinner eased the pain of sunday morning scolding yesterday
And to end it all off..a pic..just for pure entertainment and laughs..that would hopefully perk up anyone who has had as horrid (ok im just exaggerating) a start to 2005 as me..enjoy!
And one more thing..to JOY BOO:
Sorry i cant go out today girl! but i promise to meet up with you before you go alright? i miss u tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons and tons... (ok you get the idea right? :))
Saturday, January 01, 2005
So how has your year been?
Let's see..
2004 has been a rather exciting and painful year i guess.
I pretty much wasted 7 months of this year doing nothing productive whilst waiting for the uni term to begin in august. i was working at the uniform shop but that ended just before chinese new year. bummed around. slacked around. mopped around. until my mum couldnt stand me being at home anymore. haha. especially since i was still getting my allowence but she was buying lunch back for me everyday. haha. did find a job later helping jim's mum with her school work which was quite an experience since it gave me a taste of what its like to be a teacher. endless marking of work that is half-heartedly done and tons of prep work and staring at the computer screen. but it wasnt really work i guess. i was earning but believe me, it was easy money. lunch was even provided by jim's grandma and everday it was yummilicious food.
Moved in to my new house in june in time for my brother to celebrate his 21st birthday here. It was a lot of hassle especially since i only really started clearing out my room a month before the big shift. i never knew i had so many stuff. but it was difficult clearing out my things because it seemed as though everything was worth something. so much memories flooded me as i went through every book, every letter, every paper, every photo, every thing. i suppose im someone who really hoards stuff. i think i brought half my room over to this new place. hehe. and half the things in the bomb shelter belongs to me!
The month June was the worst for me. Too many things happened. Was painful. Even church camp was quite an emotional experience that led to what i thought was good but in the end was nothing gained. I made a decision that was incredibly difficult but i knew was the right thing to do. But now even as i type, i feel a sense of regret and almost guilt. During that month and thereafter i was ok. Everything seemed to be going ok, on the right track. I was preoccupied with the single life, really living it up, enjoying this new found freedom. But...
The start of Uni life proved to be quite an experience. Bidding especially which im in the midst of doing right now. haha. choosing modules, making new friends, orientation week, getting lost in campus, dealing with really lousy project mates and the ridiculously long journey to and fro school. uni life also meant dealing with new emotional disturbances. haha. my solidity and constancy was disturbed. tsk. and i didnt even ask for it...
so even as i start a new year..im starting it with a conflict-ridden heart but yet with optimism and trust in God. if there's one thing i learnt this year its the need to trust in God with all my heart, mind and soul. That no matter what, God is always there to lead us through and get us through the darkest valley and highest mountain. It sounds cliche but too much has happened that just reminds me of His love for me. And sadly, He constantly has to remind us year in and year out because we fail to believe and have faith in Him.
ok, think i'll end this really long entry in typical new year's fashion, resolutions:
Let's see..
2004 has been a rather exciting and painful year i guess.
I pretty much wasted 7 months of this year doing nothing productive whilst waiting for the uni term to begin in august. i was working at the uniform shop but that ended just before chinese new year. bummed around. slacked around. mopped around. until my mum couldnt stand me being at home anymore. haha. especially since i was still getting my allowence but she was buying lunch back for me everyday. haha. did find a job later helping jim's mum with her school work which was quite an experience since it gave me a taste of what its like to be a teacher. endless marking of work that is half-heartedly done and tons of prep work and staring at the computer screen. but it wasnt really work i guess. i was earning but believe me, it was easy money. lunch was even provided by jim's grandma and everday it was yummilicious food.
Moved in to my new house in june in time for my brother to celebrate his 21st birthday here. It was a lot of hassle especially since i only really started clearing out my room a month before the big shift. i never knew i had so many stuff. but it was difficult clearing out my things because it seemed as though everything was worth something. so much memories flooded me as i went through every book, every letter, every paper, every photo, every thing. i suppose im someone who really hoards stuff. i think i brought half my room over to this new place. hehe. and half the things in the bomb shelter belongs to me!
The month June was the worst for me. Too many things happened. Was painful. Even church camp was quite an emotional experience that led to what i thought was good but in the end was nothing gained. I made a decision that was incredibly difficult but i knew was the right thing to do. But now even as i type, i feel a sense of regret and almost guilt. During that month and thereafter i was ok. Everything seemed to be going ok, on the right track. I was preoccupied with the single life, really living it up, enjoying this new found freedom. But...
The start of Uni life proved to be quite an experience. Bidding especially which im in the midst of doing right now. haha. choosing modules, making new friends, orientation week, getting lost in campus, dealing with really lousy project mates and the ridiculously long journey to and fro school. uni life also meant dealing with new emotional disturbances. haha. my solidity and constancy was disturbed. tsk. and i didnt even ask for it...
so even as i start a new year..im starting it with a conflict-ridden heart but yet with optimism and trust in God. if there's one thing i learnt this year its the need to trust in God with all my heart, mind and soul. That no matter what, God is always there to lead us through and get us through the darkest valley and highest mountain. It sounds cliche but too much has happened that just reminds me of His love for me. And sadly, He constantly has to remind us year in and year out because we fail to believe and have faith in Him.
ok, think i'll end this really long entry in typical new year's fashion, resolutions:
- I would say stop lying but lets be more realistic shall we, Lie Less. Ha.
- Use my pool more often!
- Eradicate Cs from my results.
- Spend less money on shopping.
- And the most important of them all, Live a life worthy of being called God's child :)
Have a great 2005 ahead everyone!
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