A Very Special Package

last night somewhere in singapore there was a grouchy kat talking to a-trying-very-hard-to-make-kat-smile jun yuan somewhere a million miles away in perth via google talk.
she suddenly thought of the package that he told her about.
but he never told her what was in it.
or the cost of the postage.
fearing the package was taking a bit too long to arrive, she asked him to go check the date he sent the package.
the doorbell of her house rang but she didnt think to answer the door as her parents would do that.
her parents knocked on the door and told her she had a package.
that put a huge and very excited grin on her face.
when she came back to her lappy she saw via the webcam he was back from searching for the postage receipt.
she grinned and told him the date of the package.
she then noticed how much he paid for the postage.
a whooping $15.50AUD.
(which she obviously "scolded" him about, knowing he'd always say the same thing that always made her smile)
then she excitedly proceeded to open the package (for he kept her in suspense as to its contents)

and guess what?
10 packets of the caramel tiny teddies and a packet of starburst gummies.
the very two items which she brought back to singapore but were finished in a matter of days with the help of very helpful friends and her own mum.

As an added bonus to make her laugh, check out the address he wrote.
kat stays on the ground floor.
meaning the house number should read "#01-17".

he didnt even send it to his own address.

he stays at #12-19.

neither does he know the neighbour who stays at #12-17.

He really knows how to make kat happy doesnt he?
(:

at the request of cherie toh...

just came back from my mid-term break holiday to perth.
and i conclude, i love perth.

i love the weather.
i love the laid-back relaxed atmosphere.
i love the supermarkets.
i love the lack of high-rise buildings everywhere.
i love the fish and chips.
i love biscuits and chocolates and wines and cheeses.
i love the people.
i love the parks.
i love the picnics and bbqs.
i love the scenery.

but most of all, i love perth because thats where YOU are.

You who cooked all those yummilicious meals for me and made sure i ate properly.
You who fulfilled my selfish desire for breakfast in bed prepared by the one i love.
You who stayed up till 2am in the morning just to help me with my essay.
You who despite wanting me to cut down on my sugar intake bought me a tub of icecream and allowed me to finish half a tub with you in one night (on top of the heaps of sweet stuff you bought for me too).
You who always came up with solutions to whatever sticky and last minute situations we ended up in because of my absent-mindedness and insistance.
You who let me have your ipod mini to make my long bus journeys to school more bearable because you cant possible be here with me.
You who emailed my parents telling them to make me eat more fibre (knowing that i always say ok i'll do it but i dont and forget) when you realised i wasnt clearing my bowels as often as i should and buying prune juice for me.
You who drove me around everywhere despite knowing you'd be in for all my nagging and comments about your reckless driving.
You who makes me feel so comfortable with you that i am at total ease with myself.
You who bought me so many things even though you're a bit tight just because you know it would make me smile.
You who gave me your favourite nike tshirt just cause i wanted it (for no logical reason) and your jacket to bring home even though that night was freezing.
You who made me take silly and funny photos that i wouldnt normally take at all.
You who knows me so well that even when i say i dont want something you know i do and when i say im ok you know i actually am not.
You who makes me love you even more despite having just quarrelled.
You who wiped away my tears with your hands and even wiped my nose and you didnt think it was gross at all.

You who makes the darkness into light.
You who makes everything alright.
even though you're so far away.

You who makes all this waiting and painful distance so worthwhile.

55 more days.
And the one i love will be coming back to me again.

and so it all comes to an end.....................................................

oopsy. this blog has outrightly been neglected. hurhur.

haha. cant believe i was complaining about not getting the wed tutorial slot.
the irony of it all. tsk tsk tsk.
how so?
im having an absolute blast in my monday tutorial class.
hahaaaa. actually ok its not so much the class. the class itself is dead boring.
but rather i love my project group mates. seriously. hahaa.
ok so last monday i was really apprehensive about going for class. i made kaisheng wait for me so we could take the shuttle to science together. hahaa. thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks.
anyway..i reached early..and i was like..ok let me just make friends with these two girls before class starts..so i asked them a dumb question like "this is the computing tutorial right?"
haha. duh~. but oh well. they weren't too friendly in the sense that they did reply me but thats about it. tsk. hahaha.
but lo and behold after i sat down..zhen ying walked into the class!!!!
i was sooooooooooooo elated and relieved. hahaa.
after class she introduced me to the other two project group members: ernest and chee keong or ck for short.
those two are funny. haha. in the short bus ride back to arts i managed to talk to them quite a bit and its like all four of us hit off pretty well.
thank God! (:
had project meeting on wednesday and as usual it was nthg but a whole load of crapping. hahaa.
but poor ck..he's down with dengue fever..get well soon fella!

i have to say that im enjoying myself this semester so far.
sure the work is piling up as i struggle to finish reading my books on time and getting my tutorials done as well as keeping up with project timelines..
but all that running around, the meeting of new people, the really enjoyable susan ang literature tutorials, empty canteens every wednesday...
its been good.
guess i am actually learning to become more independent.
something which perhaps has been the key factor holding me back from enjoying my past semesters..
what can i say..
once again God's timing has been perfect..
every incident that has happened so far..
every new persons ive been meeting..
every new experience..
He planned it out immacuately..
slowly moulding me and preparing me..
thank you Father!
(:

one more thing before i go for dinner..
I'm heading to Perth during the mid-sem break!!!
*kat dances around
hahaa. absolut elation. hurhur.
a big thank you to Jim too..without whom i wouldnt have been able to fly at all. heh.
cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait cant wait!
haha.
just 6 more days of school and off i go on valuair..
*bigfatgrin

since im waiting for someone to reply me (and its taking very very long)..here's a really quick post before i get back to The Woman Warrior..

first of all.
corlissa. i cannot cannot belive that you only JUST told me that your promos are in FOUR WEEKS time.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
my goodness gracious me.
i dont care.
holiday or not you are going to meet me next thurs and friday.
wednesday too if you want.
just spend at least 2 hours doing your work ok?
thats the best i can help you with even if i cant teach you econs or GP very well.
but i'll definitely try my best to answer all your questions and clear your doubts ok?
(:

ok.well.im sad.because i didnt get my wed computing tutorial time slot.which is so bloody annoying.tsk.sheesk.haiz.sigh.why why why.
hhahaa.
oh well. what to do. bo pian lorh.
im just hoping that my class will have friendly people.
and that my project group mates will not be completely clueless about computers.
and we're supposed to design a website for our project i think.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cant i be in the same group as michele???
we'd definitely ace the project. damn. *sulk.
hurhur.

alright.
thats all folks.
haha.
he finally responded.
hurhur.
night y'all.
(:

its already the 3rd week of school but im still not in school-mode..much less study-mode.
cant exactly blame me can you..
its really tough when you havent really been using your brain for the past three months..
haha..and its been a whole lot of fun and lazing around and doing absolutely nothing on some (ok..perhaps..actually..most..hurhur) days..
and now its back to horrible and loooooooooooooooooong bus rides..(taking 151 frm hougang interchange to kent ridge interchange..wheres my ipod mini?!!)
back to waking up early early early..(8am lectures every wednesday)
back to trying to stay awake during lectures..
back to preparing for tutorials only the night before..
back to rushing to meet essay deadlines..
back to doing projects and presentations..
my only consolation is that i have a 3 day week..
yeap. u heard me right. haha.
although..im having a problem with my computing tutorial now..oh well..pray that i get the slot i want!

really excited about my lit modules this semester.
however, somehow things have taken a different turn.
science fiction and fantasy doesnt seem as horrid as i thought it would be. hahahaaaa.
yes yes yes. kat doing science fiction??!!?
aiyar...even i cant believe it lah..but its not too bad..susan ang is actually rather good..she brings up a lot of very interesting points and i like the way she picks out little details..
tutorial was also goooooooooooooooooooooood..
we have it in her room and its like..WOAH. the whole place is surrounded by dark wooden bookcases filled to the brim with books. i want a room like this too. just so..amazing..would be a dream come true..
anyway..back to tutorial..haha..i actually spoke. not because i was called upon to. i even spoke first when she asked us to give our personal opinions of the book. (ok close that gaping mouth of yours and stop staring at me in such disbelief before your eyeballs fall out their sockets) hahahahaa. im so impressed with myself. hurhur. i guess its cause the setting and everything was just so casual and comfortable..
thank God..He really knows what to do.. (:

asian american lit though..is rather disappointing.
this is the one module i thought would be the highlight of my semester but unfortunately..its not really living up to its standard.
maybe its, as michele said, cause i had quite high expectations for it.
but..even she agrees that the lecturer is just going round and round in circles..
perhaps the pressing issues these asian-american writers face are all about the same but still..
tsk tsk tsk.
doesnt help that the lecturer is my tutor as well. hurhur.

oh well. but with a 3 day week. i shouldnt complain so much right.
cheers to only 28 more days of school..
*bigfatgrin

ohhhhhhhhhhh.
before i forget.
my dear Corlissa..i keep asking u when ure free for econs right?
huh huh huh?
hahaaa. you gotta tell me when ure freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

i think ive successfully developed another bad habit.
haha. everyday, the first thing i do when i wake up is turn on my lappy. hahaaaaa.
regardless whether i have time to actually do anything with the computer on.
this morning was no exception. i woke up. pressed the power button. went to wash up. came back into the room. decided what to wear. and before i knew it i had to shut down my lappy.
hurhur.
ridiculous aint it?

today's message by uncle stanley was about giving.
his message was based on the very short story of the widow who gave only two very small copper coins but yet Jesus considered her act as giving more to the treasury than all the others.
was a very good reminder that we should learn to trust in the Lord for everything, and in adopting this attitude we should then learn to give our all up to God.
though he strayed a little, uncle stanley used a phrase that kinda got stuck in my mind, "Generosity is always a virtue; never a weakness".

ok. here's the highlight of my day.
finally. FINALLY. FINALLY!!?!
we finally recorded the song.
finally because i wrote the song on the 17th of feb 2005.
the song in which i penned the God-inspired lyrics and to which Jim put in place the melody.
Amanda on the piano, Jim on the guitar, and since i cant play any musical instrument, it was me providing the vocals.
the recording was made possible thanks to Jim's $59 investment in an ipod recording device.
hahaaa.
had so much fun with it. cant wait to work on more songs with those two. we make a really good team yeah? haha. what can i say. you two are undoubtedly talented. love u two loads. (:

other than that..well..haha..i had another *ahem revelation.
my 2nd one in the past four years.
ok the first was that i finally found out and realised how small i was. haahahaa.
it happened in the acjc canteen while i think it was cherie toh who was buying a drink from the fruit stall. and i was telling, er..either joy boo or michele, that cherie toh is so small.
hahahahaaaaaaa. and either joy or michele looked at me and said "kat. ure just as small if not smaller."

and today's revelation?
gosh. i never knew i sounded so whinny. honestly. i never knew. hahahaaa.
to myself, or at least how i hear my own voice, i fancy i dont sound that high nor low.
never did i imagine i sound so much like a little kid.
until i heard the playback of the recording.
hahahaaaahaa.
tsk tsk tsk.
this is simply hilarious.

oh well. at least now i know right? better late than never.
*grin

dont feel like going for lecture tomorrowwwwwwww.................................

inevitably, at the start of every semester i always get the creeps.
butterflies always seem to find their way into my stomach and worry always seeps into the back of my mind, slowly building up and soon engulfing all my thoughts.

this semester is no different.

already my science fiction module is driving me nuts.
i figured since im gonna have a hard time reading books that dont interest me even the slightest bit i might as well get them first and get done reading all of them.
i didnt know how hard a time i would have ploughing through the meaningless (at least to me) words that are as good as neverending.
to begin with, all the books cost me a whooping $160. when i paid for the books i felt as though a really sharp dagger pierced right through me.
i mean..already i cant bear to buy books..what more spending so much on books that i will probably never ever read again in my entire life.
doesnt help that all the money is coming out of my own pocket.
tsk.
the first book in the list is titled a most peculiar and mind-boggling "a canticle for leibowitz".
if that sounds even vaguely interesting to you, tell me, i'll sell you the book for a dollar once im done with the module. or maybe i'll just give it to you for free. just get it out of my life!
lets see if i get the story so far..its about a monk..who out in the desert meets a stranger..and through the stranger finds a secret underground shelter that belonged to the time before the deluge..and the monks of that time spent hours examining past relics..but no one believed him at first..and the head abbot even asked him to shut up about what he found..but many years later people from the New Rome come knocking on the abbey's door asking to further investigate what the young monk found..blah blah etc..
does that sound appealing to you? gosh.

ok. im not exactly that sore about it. i chose to do the module so if i really suck at it and have to drag myself to the lecture and tutorials every week i have no one to blame but myself.
but then again, i just dont wanna keep doing stuff that i like or am familiar with.
education is about the training of the mind, and if i dont expose myself to something outside i'll never actually learn anything new will i?

the other two lit modules im really looking forward to.
especially asian american literature. ive always been a fan of asian literature. though they keep repeating the same ideas of ill-treated stepchildren, forced marriages, sexist attitudes and war.
oh well. we'll see. things are usually only as interesting and fun as you make them to be.
by the way, anyone has The Joy Luck Club or Great Expectations that i can borrow?

ok. im back to my feeble attempt of reading my lit text.
only about 19 more chapters to go.
help.

after 3 months of bumming around..
finally and most dreadfully its time to go back to school....

somehow i managed to drag myself out of bed at about 0515..it took some sort of miracle because i slept at about 0230 that very morning..hahaaa..amazing i tell you..
met kaisheng at the interchange at 615 to take the rickety-rackety 151 all the way to NUS..
haha..was really fun catching up with him again..asking each other hows life..what we did during the long vacation..complaining about how the 151 always seems to be non-airconditioned..him talking about siqiu's plan ever since graduation (hope her interview at ttsh went well!)..him asking me about my "progress"..hahahaaa..which at least i had really good news to tell him..haha..
hurry and get your license and a car! then we dont have to ever wake up so early anymore..
and i just knew he's ask "is that another new bag?"
hurhur. no its NOT. u just never seen me carry it before. haha.

NM1101e lecture was worth waking up at 5am for. haha.
i like the lecturer. Ms Millie. She's really engaging and charismatic. just what you need at 8am.
the whole lecture was really interactive as well. guess you have to make it such if ure gonna keep the students awake.
but then again..i bet 3/4 of the lecture hall was filled with excited year ones.gosh.their chirpyness and enthusiasm for lectures and school is just..well.annoying. hurhur.

next stop: arts canteen for yong tau fu!
gosh.i miss the food. the gd and cheap food. its back to days of curry dory set, orange juice, dan dan mien, claypot eggplant with rice and if ever the queue is short or i feel like queueing...YONG TAU FU! hurhur.
well. lunch..felt..different i guess.
it was definitely great to see my two lovelies again..but i guess..inevitably..things have..changed?
after not seeing each other for almost 3 whole months and with them spending a huge chunk of time with their OG people and committee..i guess i did expect things to just be different.
honestly..im thankful amanda came to find me in the canteen..somehow i just wanted to hurry wolf down my yong tau fu (as if that was ever possible..eveyone knows kat eats like a bird..and no michele..i dont wanna hear your idiom about how asking kat to eat is like....oh nvm.ha) and run off to the co-op.
ok i dont mean anything here and its not that bad i suppose..
but..it just feels different. heh.
i still love you two. a lot. a whole lot.
and no matter what i'll still be here for you two. (:

as expected, the queue in the co-op was insane.
and happily, kaisheng happened to see me there so he got me to get his books too. hahaaaa.
but ok he repaid me by carrying all 12 books while we waited forever in the queue to pay.
my seven lit books cost me $160. and thats only for ONE module. and guess what? dad decided since i worked during the holz i should have money to pay for my books. right. im sure i have money in my account lah. haha. die. but thank God for mummy!!! haha..mummy to the rescue..she passed me a hundred..thanks mum..thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks..

waited for benny and wee wee to come before we were supposed to meet derrick to go for our SPG lunch outing.
and well done, just as amanda walked away with alex i saw mr joel ong walking by.
ok i wanted to like turn away and pretend i saw nthg but alas, it was too late.
hahahaaa. i did feel like slapping him. hurhur. but of course i didnt. im not so evil. anyway..it doesnt matter anymore. i dont care.
tsk. hope the really sweet looking girl you were walking with isnt your next unsuspecting victim.
*kat shakes her head.
tsk.
hurhur.

lunch was pizza hut at clementi. was a lot of fun. haha.
benny, wee wee, derrick, adrian, randy, amanda and myself.
was quite a good time of sharing as well apart from the usual incessant crapping and spouting of really lame jokes. hurhur.
and no adrian..it'll never be possible to be best friends with you. not even vaguely possible.
hahaaaaa. why oh whyyyy did u have to come back from canada? haaaaa.
and next time..im gonna eat my stuffed crust first..least you keep eyeing it..hahaaa.

took 165 home. wasn't too long a journey actually. but when ure late and desperate for time? every second seems like an hour. heh. got home, took a much needed quick nap, showered in record time and ran out of the house again.

the corrinne may concert at the esplanade was really good.
i just love the crystal clear quality of her voice. she sounds as good live as she does on her cd.
shes also got one of the most meaningful lyrics around.
loved every bit of it. hope she comes back for another concert. then poor jim can get her autograph and take a photo with her. sorrrrrryyyy fella!
oh yeah..saw shane there. hahaa. at first i was like..shane? since when was shane a fan. and since when did he pay to watch concerts. hahahaaa.
sorry. i suppose i was wrong. hurhur.

had LJS with jim and amanda..rongcai left first cuz he had work e next day and andrew had school work to do.
i always have a good time with those two. talked about some pretty serious and pressing issues. well..it concerns us. and if we dont do smthg, who will? like they say..if u want something done and done well..do it youself. or in this case..we gotta help each other..its about high time we did something too...
thanks jim for taking the NEL with me even though it obviously is faster for you if you took the train to yio chu kang. much apprectiated (:

so there. my first day of school. hahahaaa. which i spent most of it outside of campus grounds.
may this school term be a whole lot better (and less slack) than the last two.
(:

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i hate CORS.
i cant do the module i want.
i'm stuck doing some dumb GEM.

but i hopefully will get a 3 day week.

bah.
tutorial bidding will be soon.

another round of endless headaches.

its time to start year 2.
woohoo.

saiyang saiyang..
hahahaaa.
sorry blog. you've been outrightly neglected and at most have been only fed with minimal attention in the form of pathetically short and silly entries.
hurhur.

anyway..ahhhhhhh. school is starting in one week.
so its time to make the trip to popular.
hahaa. bought myself my all-time favourite g-tec pens..
i spent (ok..not me lah..my dad..hahaa) close to $15 on pens alone and guess what..i didnt buy a single black or blue ink pen.
haha.
typical PL girl huh.
just ask mish or gina. look at our notes. hahahaaa.
and most of the time i think my pencil case is worth more than whatever chai can i have in my wallet.
tsk tsk tsk.
*grin

so what has kat been up to since she last blogged?
NOTHING. absolutely nothing.
which is not too bad actually...considering that his timetable is pretty slack so i get to catch him online quite often in the day..
but once school starts..only good thing thats gonna come out of it is that the weeks will be passing by faster..
unfortunately our timetables dont exactly compliment each other..haha..

speaking of timetables...
ARGH. i could tear my hair out.
hurhur. ok its not that bad.
but its horribly annoying.
i have just this one...JUST ONE MORE module that is so blardy (brit-ish accent here please) popular that i cant even bid for it.
yeap.
Why. Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. wei she meh?????????
haha.
well..hopefully everything will turn out ok because i really really wanna do that module.
its the closest thing i'll get to journalism as possible.
for those who know i never wanted to come to NUS..i was all geared up for Mass Com in NTU..
so. well. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
please?

haiz..really hoping that jim would give me the good news asap..
then i can really start to get excited.
at the moment i dont even dare think that i will definitely be going down under.
sigh....
oh well oh well oh well...
doesnt help that it seems like my financial problem isnt too big of a problem after all..
jim's dad managed to get cheaper tickets for us too..
$470 inclusive of taxes and insurance..
sigh....
the worst thing is if i dont have a single..or ok maybe just one or two..mid-sems and i dont get to go..
that and if raja decides to come back to singapore..
haiz...
but but but...
optimism kathleen!
tsk.
easier said than done.

gonna get my Visa TX card done tomorrow..
i would get a mini but...lazy to open another new account lah..haha...
jim's gonna get the visa too after he's done renewing his passport..
see see see?
all ready to head down to perth.
haha.
oh well. what to do. if i really dont get to go.....
then do i get to buy a bag? hahaha. cheer myself up.
actually..i'd be buying two bags..
hurhur.
its time to head to wheelock and tangs and then to the post office soon if september really doesnt work out..
oopsy. did i just spoil your surprise?
*grin
as if u didnt know.....
(:

my mum has already given the stamp of approval.
im allowed to go to Perth during my september break.
but but but.
right now 2 things stand in the way of my happiness...

1. where in the world am i gonna get $800? (all donations big and small are most welcome.hur.just kidding)
2. jim needs to get his leave approved and comfirmed. i'm not allowed to fly alone.

sigh.
oh well.
but if its gonna happen, it will happen.
optimism is what im known for and it'll keep me going.
and of course the fact that i'm gonna be seeing him in only 51 days keeps me hoping for the best. (:
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and my mooks tshirt (which is patiently waiting for me in perth)!




to kel:
haha. looks like i'm not the only silly person caught up in a long-d r/s huh. well as hard as it is, it's all worth it right? especially if you know at the end of all the waiting the both of you have a long future ahead.. its tough but what to do..no choice right..haha. hang in there yeah! (:

its already been a week since he left.
and no unfortunately i cant say "oh how time flies" because it didnt.
it was quite a draggy week actually. haha.
my boredom coupled with the fact that i have to get used to the fact that he's no longer just 11 floors above me and that i have to contend myself with the webcam and skype made it even more draggy than it already was.
but like you said.."contentment may be a vital ingredient to happiness..."
oh well. not like i have much of a choice do i. heh. but it'll do. really. its enough (:

anyway, here's the best way to sum up all those beautiful memories we shared in the past month:

Nopes. its definitely not my handiwork. all the credit goes to him. except of course he couldnt have done it without the help of my sony W1. hurhur. but yeah. its lovely. too lovely not to put it on my blog. *bigbigbiggrin

17 more weeks to endure. boohoohoo. haha. :)

i officially have an absolutely crap timetable.
boohoohoo.
everyday i have to go to school.
tsk.
but thanks so so so much to my dear who helped me replan my timetable i might just get wednesday off.
but as it is, i have to go to school for just ONE PATHETIC HOUR on friday.
for a lit tutorial.
ONE HOUR. FRIDAY.
killjoy.
hurhur.

im pretty worried about the workload too.
most probably will have to do 4 lit modules this semester.
sigh.
but its gonna be ok.
more worried about the cost of the books actually.
haha.
dad is so not gonna be too happy.
*grin

guess i still want school to start despite all the nonsense mentioned above.
cause school and all its busy-ness will (hopefully) cause time to pass with the speed of a bullet train.
18 weeks and counting down...

the carl's jr coupons are still waiting for you...

went into JB yesterday with my favourite neighbours Wang (or as we all call him "wayne) and Lily.

and as usual. it was such a blast.
would have been a whole lot more fun if you were there though.
mum already said that you can come with us when ure back.
gosh. see how much my parents (espcially my mum) loves you? *grin

had sushi for lunch. not too bad i guess..but give me sakae anytime. sakae has so much more to offer in terms of variety. service is quite good i must say. they provide an unlimited refil of freshly brewed green tea unlike here where all we get is one measely tea bag. haha.

shopping is ok. mum got a levis top. tsk. was too big for me. horrid. haha.
bought two tops and a pair of paul frank shorts.
and of course..i just couldnt forget someone even though he's all the way in perth can i?
got him a stussy tshirt and a green/yellow polo tee to match his green/yellow nike shoes.
haha. colour coordinated. smthg im well-known for. hur hur.
too bad ure gonna have to wait till your birthday to get it. and i think by the time i ship over all the stuff i bought (and most probably will be buying for you till then) i'd have a big crate to send over. haha.
*bigfatgrin

enjoy the photos
(:

Wayne and Lily (and some kpo bugger behind)

dad, mum, me

this photo is specially for you JY

(u cant find softshell crabs and this sorta crabstick in perth. *cheekygrin)

so here i am sitting in front of my lappy eating my banana walnut muffin i bought from coffee bean.

he's already somewhere in the wide open sky flying towards perth.

i didnt cry.
haha.
i didnt even feel like crying.
its amazing. really. i honestly thought i would at least shed a few tears.
even when i hugged him i was smiling.

i guess i know why i so willingly let him go.
i bet you know too huh. *grin

haha.
just now was also meet the parents sessions.
no not me meeting his and he meeting mine but rather they meeting each other.
hurhur.
maybe we can start discussing marriage plans.
hahahaha.

im happy.
im smiling.
im thinking of you.
and of how ull be back so soon.
cant wait to see you in a few hours time.
cant wait to hear your voice again.

alrighty. need to sleep. after i finish the muffin. heh.
its so weird. haha. im smiling. laughing.
and suddenly i do feel like crying.
because i definitely do miss u.
a lot.
(:

you know what..you still owe me roses!

as much as i am prepared to let him go its just the moments leading up to it thats the most difficult and not to mention painful.
coming home alone just now was already bad enough.
feels weird taking the train alone
and with him the walk home seems too short, but without him i dont even think twice about taking the 112 home.
sorry i was so quiet and a lil grouchy just now.
my tiredness coupled with a heavy heart just wasnt doing me any good.
just wanted to try and squeeze out as much time as i could with you.

heh.
im laughing because i feel so silly.
im typing as if he's never coming back again.
but on the contrary he'll be back real soon.
there's so much to look forward to once ure back.
bangkok will definitely be a highlight. really wanna travel with you. i just know we'll have a blast.
then it'll be back to our daily night strolls, suppers, ba kut teh at chinatown, cleaning up (and out) my wardrobe, more baking, you cooking for me, me making breakfast while u read the papers, aimless walking around town, long bus journeys with my head on your shoulders and eyes closed with a smile on my face, doing new and crazy things i never thought i'd do because im with you, and okok, we will walk kenny. (and hopefully u wont leave me hanging..*bigfatcheekygrin)

meanwhile, we both gotta study. study hard.
so i guess the arrangement is rather beneficial.
during school term we concentrate on work.
during the holidays we fully enjoy ourselves.
c'est magnifique.

all the beautiful memories you've blessed me with the past month will barely be enough to last me through the next 4 months.
so come back soon ok?
(:

ok let me try to squeeze in a really quick post before jy calls.

15th July 2005:
helped jy pack in the morning.
my goodness. cant stand the way he folds his tshirts..or rather the lack of folding them. haha.
he doesnt even bother to iron his tshirts. c'est terrible.
looks like im gonna be doing all his ironing when i go over next year.
which i dont mind if it means i get to see him wearing button down shirts more often. *grin

met his mum and god-sis and her husband at singtel hello.
his mum wanted to sign a new line and give jy the new hp.
bet she did that just for you..doubt she needs the line at all (:
lunch at macs at the request of jy's mum. haha. can see she was really enjoying the food.

after lunch it was full swing into shopping gear.
what i bought:
havaianas, esprit leather belt, beaded necklace, 2 levis tops.

what i bought for jy:
levis square cut jeans (which i think he looks absolutely good in them. hurhur.)

what jy bought for me:
3 pairs of earrings, a cloth sash, 2 bottles of water (hahahaaaaa)

rushed down to queensway to meet his parents and chris.
but well well wel. we were early. hur. haha.
and i bought a pair of shoes there. the same pair i was eyeing at the nike concept shop at heeren.
and it was cheaper by about 11bucks?
the pair jy wanted was even better. $137 at the nike shop. $90 at queensway.
thank goodness i didnt insist on buying it for him at orchard. haha. *sheepish grin
and thanks for making me buy the shoes. haha. i love it.
my limited edition silver/pink waffle racer.
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

dinner with his family but too bad i didnt get to try the food from the zhi cha stall he liked.
the place renovated and the shop was nowhere to be found.
the dinner experience was ok i guess. ('cept that eenie weenie bitty part but its ok (: )
really need to (desperately) brush up on my chinese if im gonna be more comfortable communicating with jy's mum.
oh and the green bean soup was really good. haha. i actually finished the whole bowl. but thats no surprise issit. dessert always has room reserved for it in my tummy. hurhur.

oh well. today's his last day here before he flies off.
im ok though. rather prepared to let him go actually. dont really wanna shed any tears at the airport later either. heh.
besides he'll be back in about 18 weeks time.
and time is just gonna whizz pass once school starts.
gonna be missing my perfect shopping partner for sure.
haha. maybe its a good thing. i'll be able to save money. hurhur.
which i really need to. kat is really broke now anyway. haha. and gotta start saving for bangkok!

hurry up and call me leh.....

a brief look into kat's past week...

thurs:
went to CPK. service was actually good. haha. how many eating places can actually boast good quality service right? hurhur. ordered the peking duck pizza. it was definitely yummilicious..but..er..i dont think i really tasted the duck..hahaaha..but it doesnt matter cause the dessert more than made up for it. tiramisu and chocolate souffle. my goodness. u should have seen my expression when that scoop of absolute sinfulness mingled with my tastebuds. hurhur.
company was excellent. haha. needless to say. huh huh huh? *grin
thanks for the gift. the beautiful gift. and its staying on.

sat:
dim sum with my parents and my favourite neighbours at Xin Cantonese Restaurant at Concorde Hotel. once again i (and mr chin) have the luxury of enjoying good food. love it. its like top quality dim sum. nothing like your usual crystal jade fare. practically every dish was delicious. especially the "bear's paw" and the deep fried custard buns. thank goodness you came along so i had someone to share everything with. heh. gave me the chance to try more dishes. hurhur.

dinner with the relatives that same night. and finally cheryl got to meet jy after always talking to him on MSN when she's at my place. it was quite hilarious actually. she asked me if she could "talk to the boy" and i quickly (while trying hard to stifle my chuckles) smsed jy and asked him to come down. when she saw him she was shocked. shocked. hahaha. very cute. and my dear little lisa asked him if he was "the boy from the computer". hurhur. too bad you didnt manage to sample my mum's chicken wings. at least not this time. but hey now u can try out the steamed minced meat and tofu when ure in perth.

sun:
paid a visit to jy's church. thank God for edwin cause i think if i had to go there alone..i might have just backed out from it. service was definitely different, not in terms of sequence but rather the usage of a full band as well as the display of emotions. ultimately, we're worshipping the same God and it really doesnt matter how we do it. as long as the heart is real and sincere. besides its for God to see and know it. not those around us.
im glad i went. might wanna go for the edge one of the saturdays.
joined jy and his friends (jingsi, dionne, evie, edwin, shane, jane, jason, david, david's gf, joshua..did i get everyone correct?) for joshua's farewell dinner. the funny thing was joshua wasnt even at service that night and they made him take a cab all the way to tampines just to have BK. haha. poor fella. heh.

oh yeah, gotta remember to pass edwin the mockingbird book to pass to jane.

mon:
back to tampines again. under the hands of elly jy is now sonic no more but rather knuckles. even the colour is alike. haha. orange. i highlighted my hair too. red. but not too obvious. nice. haha. at least i think its nice. probably colour smthg more obvious the next time when he's back.
next stop was the airport to send joshua off. didnt like being there one bit. sigh. oh well.

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. hahahah. while we were walking out of the condo in the morning, we walked past one of the aunties (that i know) and my mum who were sitting by the fountain. and she commented "your boy boy very handsome ah". hahahhahaa. well done.

tues:
candy empire at millenia walk totally rocks. my goodness. its a shop catered to my every sweetoothoverdrive needs. haha. such an amazing assortment of chocolates and candies and biscuits and sweets and whatnot. haha. and jy realised that someone beat him to bringing in the chips from aussie that he's been raving about (which incidentally i havent actually tried it). bought chocolates and i actually intended to be really selfish and have all. hahaa. but but but. i shared ok. hahaa. good stuff.

went up to the roof terrace at the esplanade. the city skyline looks rather awesome at night. too bad the photos didnt come out as nice as it looked. too dark. *shrugs. wanted to try this drink thing (i think, cant remember, what was it again?) from max brenner but was a bit too late. tsk. such a waste. let's see if im patient enough to wait till ure back or if my sweetooth pushes me to go have it without u. haha.

wed:
i know i set my alarm for 9am but i slept right through it. and then a phone call came. which i almost ignored thinking it was my alarm. haha. as much as i hate to be suddenly woken up, this call was different. heh. waiting outside my door was a special delivery of mac breakfast and an even more special delivery boy. haha. i cant ask for a better way to wake up. *grin

and so here i am. typing this blog entry. while ure on the line.
tomorrow i'll be seeing you bright and early to go get the ingredients for the pineapple upside down cake (that hopefully i wont be baking alone) for your mum.
probably we'd go for our daily night walk again tomorrow night.
but tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow there will be no more.
no more seeing you first thing in the morning and last thing before i close my eyes in slumber.

i'm really not sure if u read my blog.
but seriously.
get a life.
quit wallowing in self-pity.
its not gonna help.
and its driving me absolutely nuts.
and its not just me, its the people around you.
sheesh.
no one can help you if ure not gonna help yourself.

2 months.
barely enough.
i want more.
and more.
more.
u.

i always believe there are only two ways you can react to any situation.

one creates trouble.
the other keeps things in place.

what else can i say.
my parents love him lah.
hurhur.

"so junyuan(in my mum's attempt at pronouncing chinese names) ure joining us for lunch tmr."

HA.

lunch was great.albeit the rather awful food.
cartel's standard is dropping.seriously.but i think its just that outlet.
dont ever go to suntec's cafe cartel. you have been warned.
but the dessert was good.but then again, how can you go wrong with dessert?
*grin.
more importantly, the situation i was worrying about never surfaced.
in fact it turned out better than expected.
especially between my brother and JY.
and even more importantly, i dont have to tell my parents anything.
officially, i dare say theyre ok with us.
*kat dances around
im happy.
*big grin
(:

really glad we had the talk by the river.
brought up quite a bit of important issues.
thanks.
for asking the questions.
and making me talk.
i mean every single word i said.

finally, let me repeat again.
u have no idea how fun it is to have your bf stay in the same condo tower as you.
seriously.
im having such a blast.
hur hur.
see u later for fruits and baileys+icecream.

so..adidas or esprit?

hmm.
you know i honestly dont believe ive ever had so much activities planned out ahead me before.
the past two weeks has been quite a mad rush i must say.
day in day out there always seemed to be something to do.

breakfasts, lunches, dinners,suppers.
town, shopping, movies.
vcd, dvd, naps.
muffin making.
photo-taking.
zoo.birthday.icecream.
meeting new faces.
going to new places.
lovely night walks.

and ive already got next week lined up for me:
monday: lunch with mum and dad (on leave..again.haha) and bro (off for him frm army) @ P.S cafe cartel at dad's request
tuesday: meeting up with swi, fish, nic, meiyen, gina and michele @ holland V (y so far...)
wednesday: frog leg and tau huay supper @ geylang with my two lovelies, and of course my very safe driver.hurhur.
thursday: so..have u decided what to do and where to eat? huh huh huh. haha. *grin
friday: anime in the morning, cookies in the afternoon?
saturday: dim sum with my favourite neighbours
sunday: sunday school! always looked forward to it..amazing how we never run out of new things to learn from the bible (:

*phew.
cheers to another jam-packed week ahead.

Friday, Feb 11, 2005
"Ed made me recognize one very important factor today.He said that at the end of all the searching, if two people wanted to be together they had to be open and have fun chatting with each other.He asked me to imagine not being able to crap with my boyfriend and commented how boring that would be."

edwin, you have no idea how true your advice is.
(:

im lazy to blog.but.for the sake of those who actually read my blog.here goes:

the zoo was FUN on wednesday.
and thank God it didnt rain (and no Gina its not just cause it was your birthday.hurhur.) and He provided us with awesome cloudy weather.
the animals all seemed rather bored...and hot...and dusty.
and the polar bears are still algae-ish.
ben&jerrys was yummy.but the girl gave us such small scoops.think she didnt have enough strength to cut through the cold hard icecream.
moral of the story? look for someone stronger to serve u the icecream.HA.
took loads of photos.the funnier ones are starring michele, gina and jun yuan.kat isnt known for doing such silly things.hur hur.i cant believe im such good friends with them.
photos will be up..er..soon.heh.

went for suki sushi buffet at cineleisure on thursday.
met up with jim, amanda and alex.
gosh.that has to be the fastest buffet i ever had.haha.
i do wanna go back though.haha.i wanna sit there and slowly enjoy my sashimi.
for some strange reason the whole thing was just too fast.not to mention we were ordering food fast and furious. so much so we had food coming that we didnt even order.haha.
and DONT EVER ORDER THE OYSTERS. its not that bad. just. er. weird. hurhur.
watched initial D with JY and Phyllis. (hello phyllis if ure reading thing..haha (: )
the girl is redundant. she's not exactly pretty, not exactly slender and not exactly likeable.
she was in fact rather ugly, rather plump and rather whiny. haha.
but the story was not too bad..edison chen and shawn yue saved the day with their brooding bad boy looks.hur hur.i like.HA. and mr jay chou shld stick to singing.

well..todays already Friday..
this week has been really fun..out just about everyday..
the wallet is going on a forced diet though..haha..got nothing to feed it with..
but.BUT.its ok.
time spent with him is priceless.
and ive only got 2 more weeks left.
*sigh

to my two lovelies:
cheers to the three of us being best buds in and out of NUS!
i love you two so so so so sooooooooooooo much.
and im pretty sure u two know that.
haha.
next week!
Supper!
Bikini shopping!
sushi buffet!
better start praying we have enough money..hurhur.
and tell me when u two are free ok?
*kisses aplenty

and of course..to a very special person:
thanks for coming down to meet me at compasspoint despite you being so tired after a day at sentosa..
hope ure having a good rest now..
dont scratch and drink more water!
oh and mum&dad wants u to come down later to have the cake with us..
remind me to ask them about going to JB on monday yeah..
heh.i think they really really like you.
*big fat grin
(:

finally had a hair cut yesterday.
went with michele to Chapter 2. not too bad i guess. the girl who cut my hair was really pretty. haha. standard price. nthg much. i still look pretty much the same. hur hur. cept for some strange reason my hair is so flat. it looks like i straighten it or smthg. eeeeee. not nice. haha.

had lunch (more like hi-tea..by the time we ate it was almost 330pm?) at Breko. haha. hilarious. we took half an hour to actually place our orders. and half way through gina discovered that her panini was mouldy. haha. but the lousy manager didnt even offer any other form of compensation when we said we didnt want a replacement sandwich. time to brush up on your PR skills. heh.

went to the newly revamped bugis street. not too bad i guess. but going there just reminds me of all the stuff that i should have bought in bangkok but didnt. haha. December. Im going back. Who's coming with me? haha.

mr and mrs smith wasnt that great a show. the plot was...lacking. haha. but i did like how the show tried to portray the different way men and women think. and whats all the fuss about brad pitt. seriously. he looks..so-so. haha. not exactly drop dead gorgeous. angelina jolie on the other hand is HOT. haha.

spent close to 200 odd dollars yesterday. yup. in just ONE day.
haircut+treatment.
sandwiches+toasties+onionrings+wedges+avacadoyoghurt+quicksand+orangeapple.
earrings.
2 sequined sashes.
a pretty pink skirt with the debatable zipper. (hur hur.)
levis square cut jeans.
(and NO. not everything is for myself ok. haha. i think i better clarify first.)

haha. but it was all worth it. had an awesome time catching up with my two lovelies. miss them so much. havent seen them since the exams ended.
see you two at the zoo tomorrow!

and of course there's you. you you you. YOU. *grin.

i'll try to live for the moment.
but..sorry..its awfully difficult..

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Duration: 1st July to 12th August
Venue: Singapore Expo
Time: 9am to 10pm
Salary: 4bucks per hour

kindly call Georgina at 62139177.

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speaking of job, im now officially unemployed.
haha.which is a good thing because it means i get to spend more time with him (before he flies off again. sob sob.) rather than sitting in the office wasting away 10 precious hours.

but i must admit, for my first official job, there's nothing serious to complain.
in fact i think i really had it easy.

to begin with i never had a single deadline to meet.
aunty alice was always telling me to take my time calling the debtors and folding the reminders/statements of accounts/official receipts, "those that you cant finish you can always do them tomorrow".
she was always paying for my lunch, so much so i decided to bring lunch to work so she wouldnt get the chance to keep paying.she always always always refused to take my money.
even if i brought lunch she'd still buy me fruits and what not.
and she always bought me milo. twice a day when the delivery guy came. which makes it a grand total of 48cups of milo.
she would occasionally turn around to chat with me.
about life, being a mother, working, explaining to me why and what they do as accountants, talking excitedly about her sons, asking me about uni life, teaching me the proper way of steaming fish and sharing with me other foodie ideas.
she was like a mother to me in the office and that i never took for granted.
i cant even count the number of thank yous we exchanged.

to top it all off, she gave me a really cute cat pencil case on my last day.
really grateful for all she has taught and given me.

as much as i complain about the job; the monotony of it all & the measly pay, what keeps me going is that i cant bear to let aunty alice do all the work herself.
call me back if u need help!
or if your son needs english tuition!
gladly i'd give it for free because no amount of money can repay your kindness and love shown to me during the short one and a half months i spent at the office.

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time really flies when ure having fun.
its already gonna be a week since SQ224 touched down and i was panicking when i couldnt find you.
silly me forgot that it takes awhile for the passengers to actually come out from the time the plane lands with all the passport stamping and absolut vodka buying and luggage collecting.

more than just panicking i was worrying.worrying about how it'd actually be when i saw you.
but all my fears were assuaged the moment you held my hand tight.

if there's one thing i absolutely adore about you, its the way you can make me talk.
haha.
its really no mean feat. trust me.
you make me feel so comfortable and i know i can trust you no matter what.
the walk we had at 1am this morning just served to reassure me.

and that brings me to say that i am enjoying every bit of the fact that you stay not just in my condo but in my block.
it also means you have no excuse to not come down even if it rains.haha.
and i can go disturb you when ure wasting time napping like a pig.
sigh.
but all too soon you're gonna be the furthest neighbour i have.

i know what you'd say in response to this.
silly girl, dont think so far, ure still gonna have me for another 3 weeks.
yeah i know.but how can 3 pathetic weeks possibly make up for the coming 4 long months?

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why is my next pay only coming in mid-july.
tsk.

sigh.
big big big sigh.

just one word.

PARENTS.

Good morning/afternoon/evening.
I'm calling from Times Business Information.
May i speak with the accounts department please?

Accounts payable please.

Thank you.

Hi, I'm calling from Times Business Information.
This is regarding an outstanding invoice.
The invoice is dated 30th of April 2005/ 30th of Oct 2004/ 30th Jan 2005 etc etc.
Its for the advertisment that you placed in the Singapore Aircargo Directory/ Singapore Sports Directory/ Singapore Builders Directory/ Building Construction Authority/ Buku Merah/ Singapore Shiprepair Shipbuilding and Offshore Industries/ Singapore Architects and Designers Source book/ Singapore Airport Flight Shedules etc etc.

Yes, the directory has already been published.
We only send out the invoice after your company has acknowledged you have received the complimentary directory.

The cheque has already been sent out?
May I know when did you send it out?

Your company did not place an advert in the directory?
But the directory has already been published.
I understand sir/ma'am.
Yes sir/ma'am.
I'll check with my department and get back to you.

Yes sir/ma'am you can pay in installments.
Someone will get back to you about the installment plan options and details.
We will fax you the comfirmed details once it is settled.

You don't have our invoice?
Would you like me to fax it to you?
Or would you prefer a CTC?
Both?
Can i have your fax number please?

Within this week?

By the next two weeks?

By the end of this month?

In july?

You'll get back to me once the cheque is ready?
This is Miss Wong speaking.
My contact number is 62139310.

May I know who is this speaking?

Ok.
Thank you very much.
Goodbye.

and so this is what goes on in a typical working day for kat.
(yes even the aunties call me kat.haha.)
and i repeat this like about..oh..only about 290 times average..for like 4 hours straight.

today just felt really really long.
maybe cause i couldnt wait to get out of the freezing building
and feel the wamth of the one who never fails to put a silly grin on my face.

gosh.
2 days has already passed.
its passing too fast.
just too fast...

i am the happiest girl on the planet today.
ok. at least here in singapore. alright. hougang.
hur hur.

i dont wanna fall asleep.
for when i awake.
i'd have to face tomorrow.

im absolutely petrified.
im afraid i might chicken out tomorrow.
lock myself in e room and hide.
pray hard maybe you'll forget i exist.

this is not the way to feel.

you just know its a bad day when:

-you have a giant sized ulcer thats in the worstest worst position. somewhere behind right smack in between my upper and lower molars. tsk. so whenever i chew, talk, laugh, smile or just basically move my mouth it hurts. ok let me correct that. it FRIGGIN HURTS LIKE.... yeah. thats how bad it is. i decided to do the unthinkable and put salt on it because i promised to do smthg about the nagging (nagging? just merely nagging? Excruciating is a much more accurate word) pain. BUT lo and behold. i have an energizer ulcer. NEVER SAY DIE.

-you accidentally scratch this already awful disgusting revolting UGLY pimple thats already sticking out like a sore thumb. ok make that a sore bulging poisonous mushroom. well at least the mushroom looks faintly cute. this is just plain gross. ok again i shall practice some accuracy control here. it isnt simply gross. its Repulsive. and i havent even begun to describe the others.maybe i should go to the aiport in a paper bag tmr.tsk.

-you by some really really freak chance cut yourself with a scissors. and its just a tiny little puny cut. but hell does it hurt. and its not even a cut cut. its like. a blood clot. weird. im beginning to think im very weird. tsk.

ok.now that ive had my fair share of indulging in unnecessary self-pity, let me talk about my recent bangkok trip.which sad to say, isnt all too exciting to talk about either.hur hur.

first and foremost, i didnt buy a lot. seriously. for those who know me, they know im one pretty big shopper. and i came back with so little stuff i was amazed. but ok it wasnt my fault. its not that i didnt have the money but rather its a little hard to really spend with my parents around. which interestingly is super ironic because they gave me quite a bit to spend. haha. so yes, i vow to go back in december. i dont care. even if i have to go alone (which no one would let me so im pretty sure id find someone to go with me. *grin) to get all the things that should be in my possession now. but for the record, here's what i got:

from the roadside perpectual pasar malam near my hotel:
4 pairs of earrings

from the famous chatuchak weekend market:
8 pairs of earrings
5 necklaces
2 belts
3 clips
2 pencil cases
3 tops
1 pair of shorts
4 tshirts
1 polo shirt
i pair of sandals

from the Suan Lam weekend night market:
just ONE dress

from the pratunam shopping area:
2 bags
1 tshirt

from MBK:
3 tshirts

from siam square:
15 magnets

how LITTLE is that. and half of it i bought to give away. hur hur.
oh well. december. bangkok watch out. pathumwan princess here i come. haha.

besides the incredible shopping, the food rawks just as much.
CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP. haha. singaporeans are really like little birdies huh.
i had sushi tei, something i wouldnt normally have in singapore not just because of the price but the service here sucks and the food is just as bad as the attitude of the waitresses.
in fact i had japanese food twice. haha. had a sashimi salad for like a mere 200baht which is like 8bucks? and it was really good stuff. very fresh. yummilicious. im a sashimi-addict. i had sashimi at sushi tei too. hahahaha. maybe its cause im a kat..gettid? cat? fish? ok bad joke. moving on...

had a seafood dinner too..you cannot (i repeat CANNOT) go to bangkok and not have their seafood..
not only is it delicious but its CHEAP (i hear the birds singing again).
10 people.10 huge prawns.2 sea bass.pineapple rice.green curry.soft shell crabs.prawn cakes.omelette.
all for only 2000baht.which is EIGHTY sing dollars. i kid you not.

and to top it all off the place was beautiful. alfresco dining with a gorgeous view of the King Rama bridge.

ok since we're on the topic of food. to my dismay, we had shark's fin. i dont eat shark's fin or birds nest as far as i can help it. i only had the broth which was no doubt delicious. and ok. cheap lah. haha. so much food at such little cost.

the supermarket was even worst. i think i almost fainted.
the normal price for a 1.5l bottle of coke is 20baht. which is about 80cents sing. to make matters worst it was on sale. for a mere 16 baht. go work out for yourself how much that is.
and and and. i became a mentos addict while i was there. 3 tubes for 21baht. hahahahahaha. i should have bought a crate back to last me for the next semester. hur hur.

ok.with all that said and done.im off to eat my chocolate cake.yeap.despite the nagging ulcer i cannot resist sweeeeeeeeeeeet stuff. ohhhhhhhh. which reminds me. during the four days i had the buffet breakfast at the hotel i barely even bothered to survey the food. i just had the sweet pastries and jams (which i had to eat bread in order to eat the jam......). hahaha. for FOUR days in a row. i think i must be mad. sweettoothinoverdrive. if theres one disease i'll get its diabetes (CHOY).

ok.off i go.*poof.

p/s: photos are up! oh. and tell me who do i look more like. my mum or dad. haha. (:

just a little reminder.
i'll be in bangkok from the 10th to the 14th.
so.u can still sms me thanks to singtel's auto-roaming.
BUT. i wont be replying. unless im prepared to pay a hefty bill. hur hur. (which im not. duh~)
and yes. that goes the same for calling me. i will not, i repeat, will not pick up.
not even your call. haha. its for our sakes. i dont even wanna know how much it'll cost. haha.

though...
sigh.
wish i could.

anyway..
take care while im gone everyone.i'll be back sooner than you can say letsbethowmuchkathleenwillspendinbangkokbuyingallsortsofnonsense
andshehadbettergetmeapresentaswellsinceshesalreadythere.
HUR HUR.
and to my two lovelies michele and gina..
we are going to go out when im back ok?
if not..if not if not if not..you guys wont get your bangkok goodies.
*kat tries to muster up an evil laugh.darn.

alrighto.
luv y'all.

my rose is opening up..blooming..
sigh.
but it'll be dead by the time im back.......
):

As simple as a rose...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
thanks a lot blogger.
because its freaking in chinese.
and for some reason i cant display chinese characters.
i accidentally deleted yesterday's entry.
BAH.

i think we should learn to look at the good side of things and of people.
all to often we're so (too) quick to judge and make wise comments about things.
everything becomes worst and more spiteful when we're jealous or perhaps it has affected us in one way or another before that unfortunately didnt end too well.
or perhaps we feel as if we know that things are bound to end up in disaster.
or that we strongly believe it shouldnt even happen at all.

but well.i urge you.to take a step back and try to see the bigger picture.
suddenly it hit me.
all the not-so-nice jokes and snide remarks....
it doesnt matter what we or anyone think(s).
as long as it makes that person or persons happy.
and we should be happy for him/her/them too.
and ultimately we become happier too.heh.

unless of cause its too serious a matter..
that we most regrettably cant even squeeze out an inch of goodness from it.
then, that my friend, is a totally different story.
heh.

anyway.
Bangkok here i come!
at least on friday.haha.
staying at Amari Watergate instead of Pathumwan Princess.
apparantly part of it is under renovation so my mum's friend a.k.a our travel agent decides to up the quality of our stay and put us in the former.
which, by the way, has a 5 star rating.
which, by the way, has free broadband internet access.
which, by the way, has a dim sum buffet for only 488baht.
which, by the way, is next to Pratunam Market and Central World Plaza.

Cheers to 4 full days of non-stop shopping marathons.
and please please please mum.dont drag me along for the river tour.hurhur.
my dad has already volunteered to stay in the hotel and look after the kids.
haha.
thanks dad.oh and im sure about 5000baht would be enough to keep me and mum out of your hair.for ONE day.
hurhur.
just kidding.
hopefully it wouldnt be an eating marathon too though.
even my mum agrees im getting fat.hurhur.

hmm.
did a little check of the weather.
and it says bangkok is "mostly cloudy".
but get this.
the temperature is a whooping 35°C.
cloudy my foot.
haha.

anyway.
creative zen neeon or ipod mini?
haha.i already know your answer.and no i dont want yours.i want mine in pink.*grin

when it hits it slaps hard with full force
engulfing the beating warmth and weighing it down
the pain stings those bright eyes
that used to sparkle
upon the face of that girl.

the encouraging pain presses on pessimism and doubt
the heart almost bleeding
crying out for mercy
no fairy tale ending yet.
but the heart is all set.

i'll be waiting.

the world around me moves too fast
can't it just stop and make a moment last?
does anyone even know why they exist?
is endless worry their ironic bliss?

do we one day just snap out of it
and wonder where we're being carried by our feet
we look around and don't see faces we know
suddenly we realise we're alone and cold.

in the eye of the hungry devious storm
testing our limits by ticking like a time bomb
can we still live in our ironic bliss?
can we still not know why we exist?

i reached the ICA building (its not called SIR building anymore) at about 830am.
there was no crowd.
thank God.
haha.
i did everything in like 15 minutes?
gotta go back and collect the passport on friday though.
and darn.
je déteste mon photographie.

walked around bugis with mum after bumming at mac for about 2hours.
haha.we reached too early.all the shops were still closed.
and ok.yes.alright.kat went shopping again.and yar yar yar.she bought stuff.ok?happy now?
hurhur.
bought a little bag thingy with a cat in front for my handphone but silly me forgot to try it out and yes its just a wee bit too small.haha.unless i chop off the antenna of the hp.haha.
hmm..got myself those ebase lace camis..
and a rather funky belt..haha..mum commented it looked like a disco ball..hurhur..but its nice..so..i dont care..haha..and in the end mum did agree with me that it was nice..wait a minute..she was the one who pointed it out to me..haha..
ugh..i think im having a serious belt fetish..im going berserk over them..haha..to date..i have..er..twelve..haha..hey that aint too bad..right?haha.
ok i really wanted this pair of silver shoes from U.R.S but alas, as always, they didnt have my size.tsk.it always happens to me.i either have to contend with the last piece or have none at all.
BUT to make up for it..haha..mum bought me a bag from Accessorize.ok so she paid for all of the above but she bought the bag to make up for the disappointment.
heh.she really really really didnt have to.honest.but she did.love ya mum.

hmm.once again i didnt really get much cleared from my wishlist.haha.and i just realised that despite the GSS going on now.none of the stuff i bought was on sale.hurhur.the irony of it all.

ok i know u really dont give a damn about what i bought today but forgive me.
im bored.
im bored waiting.
haha.
but its ok.
i told you i'd wait.
and wait and wait and wait...

the ugly past resurfaces
that repulsive sin was never deceased.
enticing promises.
cruel guarantees.
not without sacrifices.


distorted determination and eagerness to comply.
deceitful painless assurance.
inferiority.doubts.weak.
the deciding factor: warped encouragement.

dehydrated.kat is definitely dehydrated.
been having absolutlely amazingly annoying (alliteration used for effect) headaches since yesterday.
from doing what you ask?

from 6hours of walking around MacRitchie Reservoir.
and i barely finished drinking half of the water in my pink nalgene bottle.

other than the headache, the walk was ok.just incredibly LONG.
the route we took covered the whole perimeter of the nature reserve/reservoir park.
only the tree top walk on the suspension bridge was interesting.
other than that i thought the whole thing was.quite a dread actually.haha.
if not for amanda and jim and germaine and weefoong i think i would have died of boredom.
applause goes, however, primarily to amanda and jim.
the three of us should get the award for longest crapping duration.
from the point where we met in church till the point we left we never stopped talking rubbish.
hurhur.except of course while we were busy filling up our empty stomachs with food.haha.
oh yeah. kudos to weefoong for putting his medic skills to good use and tending to the wound of an MJC girl who tripped and grazed her knee.

guess what.i came home.legs wobbly and aching.and went to swim.
hahahahaa.
congratulate me quick.its the 3rd time im using my swimming pool since i moved in about a year ago.
hurhur.

oh yeah!
thanks eddy ed ed for coming over on friday night with a tub of B&J's chocolate chip cookie dough!
had a great time chatting with u by the pool..as always (:
too bad it was too short a time though.
some other time soon yeah?
lets go get your birthday present and i still owe you coffee..

going to SIR building tmr morning at 830am..
haha.need to beat the crowds to get my passport renewed.
(argh.darn those blasted pimples.now im gonna b stuck with an ugly photo for the next few years.tsk tsk tsk.)
hopefully we'll be heading to bangkok.apparantly theres some screw up with the flights.argh.
but its ok.plan B will be to penang.haha.seriously as boring as it sounds, i actually do wanna go to penang.never been there before and it'll be a trip with my cousins.which always means a whole load of fun.haha.i love them.(yes even cheryl.haha.ai wu ji wu.*grin)
will be heading to bugis for lunch with mum after that.
shoppingshoppingshopping.
haha.my pay had better come in soon.
wanna meet up with people too.
and buy presents.and watch movies.and eat good food(kushinbokushinbokushinbo!).
my dear corlissa dont forget our dinner date this friday yeah?

and finally..
3 more weeks.
just THREE more (long and agonizing) weeks.
haha.
okok.i'll stop whinning about it already.
i really think im getting annoying.
but i cant help it.
i just cant.

Each sunrise means I’m a day closer to you.
Each clock chime brings me an hour nearer to you.
Each “goodnight” tells me I’m gonna hear the real thing soon.
And each smile shows you that I’m gonna be waiting…

there we go..
the above is put up due to a special request..
(:

Once again, as usual, all the time, GOD's timing and provision has been immaculate.

by right my contract was supposed to end today.
but they couldnt find anyone to work during the next month so they asked me to stay.
i told them i had quite a bit of things going on and i cant work for the full month.
but lo and behold.
theyre allowing me to work as and when i can make it.
and..ok..so im making use of this..but..well..heh.
im only working from tuesdays to thursdays.
haha.
good huh.
i cant believe it either.
sure the hours may be long but its not like they dump me with heaps of work.
the aunties are awfully nice too.tsk.haha.they need to stop feeding me!(and no im NOT going to donate blood.hurhur.)
and the extra "pocket money" will definitely come in very handy.
and help my ailing bank account.
heh.
and and and.
hopefully..on my last few days of work..i wouldnt have to take the bus home.
*grin

shopping.again.haha.
maddness i tell you.
but im really happy with my purchases.

finally i found a shirt with a gorgeous cutting that actually fits me properly.
haha.it hugs all the right curves.*grin.
and because amanda bought one too we managed to get a discount.
got myself a belt as well..those cloth kind with embroidery and sequins..though the string/rope thingy to tie the belt is kinda ugly..might substitute it for black ribbon..
and finally a pair of shoes..haha..i have so many..seriously..but theyre all different..*sheepish grin..
this one's pretty funky..its those typical maryjanes (that i have 3 pairs but in WHITE) in BLACK and this one has sequins stuck on it..hhaa..i love it..

hmm.lo and behold.i didnt get anything from my wishlist.haha.

cousins are over again..
but thankfully i managed to catch u for a short chat before the whole gang troops back from the swimming pool..
i really wonder how cheryl will react when she sees u in the flesh..haha..hopefully you'll have a lot of fun with her..haha
and...hmmmmm..."tat..only tat will make me feel juz tat little bit better...."
oh really.does that mean im dont.huh huh huh.
haha. maybe i should tag this comment on your tag-board.
*grin

oh yar.some idiot gave me a marie france bodyline brochure.thanks a lot man.
hurhur.

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kat's klassified ads.

vacancy: accounts assistant
duration: 26th may to 24th june
working hours: 8:15am to 6.03pm (lunch: 12:30 to 1:30pm)
salary: 50bucks a day, CPF given
workplace: times centre
working environment: female

kindly notify me if ure interested.
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hmm.i would take up the job if i didnt have stuff going on in june.
i mean.i could really do with the money.haha.extra pocket money.
and actually, everyday, i drag myself out of bed in the weeeee hours of the morning to work just because i wanna help at least ease the work load of aunty alice.
oh well oh well oh well.and my 200605 has to be free.by hook or by crook.haha.so.yeah.boo.

im dead tired.been feverish on and off the past days.think its the weather plus the severe lack of sleep.so why am i not in bed now?
hmm.i wonder why too.oh well.

somebody tell me whats so nice about beer.
it smells and looks putrid.
*kat heaves a huge sigh.
ok.im just being biased here because im a lil wee bit CheesedOff.disappointed.
not that im angry or anthg but.i mean.well.i suppose.a day wouldnt kill me would it.but thats not the point is it.its just.i feel so.argh.whatever.forgettid.im spouting nonsense.
*kat heaves another huge sigh.
but ultimately..
i just hope ure sleeping soundly...
and you wont wake up with a horrible headache...
take care of yourself yeah...
its.tough.worrying abt u.when i cant do anything...

u know ure getting old when u actually realise how impt CPF is and u wish the company gave more.
the rate now is employer 13%, employee 20%.
so essentially i get..hmm..ok..think i shldnt disclose any amounts here.hurhur.
but yeah.wish i had more CPF cause really, u never know whats gonna happen in the future.
especially with the economy being so unstable and all.

ok.that was just my 5 seconds of thinking like a grown-up.
snap back to reality.haha.
the real kat was thinking...i work so hard..so long..during my holidays..
BUT
the total amount i earn isn't enough to buy all the things i want in my little wishlist.
haha.
damn.
looks like im gonna have to prioritize.
boohoohoo.
and dont ask me to list down what i need because i dont need anything.hurhur.my friends should know that very well.

oh well.and there's still like a ton of things i wanna do in 34 days time.
(i think i should list it out.dont wanna miss out anythg.hmm.maybe during work.haha.)
which is gonna cost a mini-fortune i think.
and thats excluding transport costs. unless of course we can get my dad's car.or lets try yours.heh.but thats not too highly possible given the present sticky situation. *sigh.
but one step at a time..
one step..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
sorry for that outburst of agony.
haha.i just opened my flip phone.and i see "one missed call".
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
am i so deaf huh.
stupid handphone.
boohoohoo.
i just had to have dinner at the wrong time.
):

alright.im off to watch dvd or smthg.
need to occupy myself since tonight im on my own.
the little kat has been abandoned.
haha.just kidding.but hopefully i'll still be awake ltr to skype.
the wonders of technology, the internet and a nice brother to deliver a microphone.
haha.thanks chris.

trente quatre jours...

Your Aura is Blue Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. What Color Is Your Aura? Take This Quiz :-)

a beautiful carefully crafted plan
that we often find it hard to comprehend
but knowing full well and greatly assured
that the Father has no intention of hurt.

caught up in many big and small things
neglecting all the little joy that life brings
slow down and remember the master plan
and the journey with Jesus as a friend.

mindless labour and endless work each day
hardens our hearts and burdens our way
take time to reflect and remember God is good
give thanks for the little provisions of friends, food.

so remember when you're weary and feeling small
He will hold your hand and your tears, dry them all
future uncertain, who knows what we'd go through
but know that He loves us, yes, even you.

this poem was inspired by God through all the events that have been going around on me recently.
i really never thought i would be a participant in such situations.
as difficult and sometimes even frustrating as they can get, they only serve as timely reminders of how much a loved little child of God i am.

i hope the poem will serve to encourage whoever comes across my blog and reads it.
and of course to you my friends, whom i love and treasure so much.
even if u dont know who the Lord is or heard of Him but never really bothered, yes, He loves even you.

(:

whats the point in keeping something good to yourself when you might possibly make someone else happy? even if its only one..u never know how much ur little action might mean to that person..

*yawn.
4 and a half hours of sleep.yup.but its worth it.
heh.
another new week.
wonder what it has installed for me,us.
seriously, God is slowly working, in His good time, although we cant's see how its gd for us.
Father (both the earthly and no doubt the Heavenly) knows best.
and H(h)e cares.
though i wish he wouldnt care this much.heh.then again.maybe not.

work.i should learn to act busy huh.heh.
but oh well.kat being kat.heh.
everyday i just hope people will be nice and not like that horrid guy who spouted vulgarities at me.
and everyday i look forward to, well, sadly, only sorta, going home to to you.
but but BUT.
i'm gonna wait.i will wait.

i look out and i see the sun peering out through the clouds admidst the rain.
i smile to myself.
its gonna be a good day.
thank you Father.
(:

sigh.
why is the weekend passing by so fast?
just one more day and its back to work.
now i know how it feels. how precious weekends are.

well.works been ok i guess.
horribly long hours.everyday i count down the hours till i end.
doesnt help that he cant reply me all the time.
but its ok.im supposed to be working anyway.hurhur.
well.i should be thankful i got a job.and the aunties are great.
though i cant say the same about the other younger ladies in the other dept.
tsk.

besides counting down till the 25th of may.
more importantly im looking forward to the 20th of june.
and hopefully (kat crosses her fingers..and..er..toes if that helps at all.haha.) that the flight timings would at least be a few hours apart.if not.sigh.defeats the whole purpose.

God is gracious.
He has blessed me with an amazing mum who seriously, in our lingo, rawks.
All she (and of cuz my dearest daddy) wants is for me to be happy.
going shopping with her tomorrow and during the june holz when we have more time (we're going to do the tai-tai thing and go for another hi-tea.haha.u can come with us.hurhur.)

but more importantly, she has given me more than just material possessions.
gentle reminders: "don't buy things that you already have. start saving for the future. having a family is going to be expensive."
advice: "a relationship is not just about 2 people. it has to include God. its like a triangle, all existing in harmony. besides God, you have to learn to open up and allow more people to share in the relationship. family, friends. people who you turn to when theres a problem and people who will constantly be looking out for you two."
simple expectations: "he needs to love God first. and of course he needs to be responsible."
subtle actions of concern: "so when is he coming back..oh 20th..only in june?"

i love you mum.
(:

its nice to smile when i get your phone call at night.But I rather have you here with me.

i didnt officially start work till 10am today.
thank God. i was really dead tired.
i even had magazines to read.haha.
aunty alice was like "u worked so hard yesterday.."
*smile

and as much as this job is tiring,the aunties are SUPER NICE.
maybe a bit too nice.
and am i really that small?
they are practically stuffing me with food.
(and no its no exaggeration)
the day hasnt even started and aunty Cynthia hands out the loacker wafers that aunty Been See bought.
then aunty Alice asks me if i want mee soto.(i say no)
then aunty Been See buys me a bun.(i say noooooo)
and aunty Alice gets me milo.(i say nooOOooOo)
then its lunch.
two hours later aunty Alice asks if i want cookies or chocolates.(i say nOooOoooO)
she hands me chocolates.
later she asks if i want kueh or tea or smthg.(i say noOOOooOOOOOoo)
i go off to fax something and i come back to a cup of steaming hot red bean soup.
"take a break. drink the soup. its not nice once its cold."
and well.yes.all i can do is smile and try to stomach ALL that food.cuz kat being kat just doesnt know how to say no very well.
so much for trying to lose those extra kilos i gained when i entered uni.

ok.this mornings blog entry was just me being utterly grouchy.
im sor..ok.i think i better not say that word again.
and yeah.i see ur point.it really doesnt matter what they think.
what you think counts.and thats enough for me.
that smile of mine is definitely back.
(:


if ever i doubted God's timing i ought to be shot.

couldn't get to sleep last night, or rather this morning, ok whatever, unimportant.

thinking, wondering, reflecting, weighing, considering, but never doubting it.

i'm sorry i acted the way i did this morning.
i know you say its ok and thats just how girls are.
insecure, sensitive, wanting that extra assurance.
but, im not usually like that.honest.

maybe its cause, ure different.
and very special.to me.to me.to me.

ok,so im practically announcing it to the whole world
but i dont care.
im just as proud of u as u are of me.
if not more.

but.if.everimakeyourlifedifficult.
iwillbackout.off.away.
sometimes we cant see that its good for ourselves because its not something we want.
but dont get me wrong.
i dont ever ever want to do this.

i need to go now.
my eyes are stinging due to my dry lenses due to a lack of sleep and a runny nose.
damn.
its gonna be one hellofva long day at work.

i miss u.so much.

its just such a stinking job
no excitment no fun no mob
butt bounded to the awful chair
rather be out there, somewhere, anywhere.

the place is old, dowdy and grey
not the best place to be spending my day
no internet let a alone a proper com
to put me here for 2 weeks is just so wrong.

to top it all of im gonna get fat
and yes i just have to complain about that.
milo, soon kueh, sausage roll
wanton mee, cookie, oh how they'll make me grow.

think about vitamin M he said
but its gonna be such a dreadful wait
hopefully the measely pay will be worth it all
or my head would say a hard hello to the wall.

n

unspoken expectations
a private mind
quietly peering out from behind
taking in timidly what it sees

with each step a million questions
a single one demanding intensely
the falsity and superficial
mock scoff tease scorn

it cant tell it wont know
and it threatens security
distracted by the need to please
swallowed up by deluded fear

yesterday morning i woke up and i was really tempted to call michelle and chicken out of going for the cremation service.
thankfully i went in the end (thanks to her encouragement, and of course your prayer, that call and an sms).

the whole experience served as a timely reminder of how we cannot take for granted that those we know and the people around us would always be there.
there's really no time to wait. once theyre gone theyre gone. and they'll never get a chance to hear the good news of Christ's death and ressurection.

why she jumped, i wont disclose much info.doesnt matter anymore does it.
but it allowed me to reflect.
and be thankful that i have amazing parents.
parents who from young have never imposed anything upon me.
i was pretty much free to do whatever i wanted within an unspoken boundary that was only meant to keep me safe..something i had come to understand and accept as a kid.
no high expectations of my results, of which school i went to, of the friends i hung out with or even who i liked.
they respect my privacy though occasionally subtly probing to find out more about whats been going on in my life.
and that i appreciate.i know they only mean well.and that they love me.
thank you dad. thank you mum.
most of all Thank You God.

on a lighter note, i had a great time meeting up with my primary school friends.
michelle, eigene, and the twins tisha and tirene.
went for prata at casurina. and argh. during off-peak hours the prata is sub-standard. even the teh chino peng was NOT SWEET AT ALL. tsk. what a disappointment. (which means u have to bring me there for supper! heh. oops. another thing to the already long list. hmm. i think i should start compiling it. heh.)
we havent changed much in terms of our personalities but we have definitely matured and grown up.
and its so heart-warming to know that they are all young women of God, actively serving in various church ministries.
come over to my place some time soon yeah.
make use of the pool for me.
haha.

its pouring outside and i need to go all the way to yishun for C.I.T meeting.
sigh.
(it also means i wont be online in the afternoon again.argh.and i need to sleep early tonight.*sulk)
rather be at home..plonked comfortably on the couch..hugging my eeyore(though id gladly trade it for something else..)..watching a marathon of VCDs..(OC perhaps? *nudge)
oh well.
im gonna have to wait for that to happen.
and wait i will.
(:

so...does this entry count as blogging about it?
*grin

life so unpredictable
who knows what tomorrow brings
today a brim full of laughter
the next a soul no longer sings

You allow the good the bad
and many times i cannot see
or understand your mysteries
but hold and comfort me

but what hurts the most
is that i never showed Your love
and now its just too late
to tell her You came from above
just for her

just got the news not too long ago.
someone i know..
someone who has been in the same school as me from primary school till JC..
someone who was in the same clique as me in primary school..
passed away yesterday morning.
she committed suicide.

never ever imagined that i would know someone in such a situation.
i read about it in the papers about how teenagers commit suicide and all but. never. not even once did it cross my mind that i would be one of those who knew the victim.

well.
we never did see things eye to eye.
and we were never particularly close.
but.shes still a friend nonetheless.
as short as the friendship was.
she was still a friend.my friend.

all i can do now pray for her family.
):

All for love

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love heavens cried
For love was crucfied

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Drawn near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all
All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

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Your love shone through
and brought out the sun
from beneath the shadows
that clouded my heart

You melted away all that
pain anger and hurt
that i haboured so deeply
inside my wounded soul

Your blessings come raining down
cleansing me as only you can
with your unfailing love
no matter how many times
i turn away
You always come through

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i want to shout your name
to the whole wide world
they need to know
they need to hear
they need to find
the joy i found in You

go to the ends of the earth
if i must to do so
through the deepest valleys
or unimaginable heights
just so they would know
that you love them

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take my hand
and let me take
the narrow beaten path

hold me close
and lead me on
the winding rocky road

draw me near
and guide me through
the thorny laden way

current earwax: Michael Bublé - it's time
(while my silly dog barks at the endless planes flying by)

haha. im so in lurveeeeee with michael bublé.
he's got that kind of mellow voice that just melts your heart.
woooo weeeee.
haha.

ok its day 1 of my 3month legal exclusion from school.
and guess what?
im SICK.
(no not sick in the brain..HA HA HA.thats such a tired and old joke.put a lid on it.)
woke up with a headache and a nose that is all geared up to run a marathon.
bah.
so tempted to just hide under my blanket the whole day.
but.how unproductive.
then again.its the holz.holz are meant for unproductive usage.haha.how oxymoronic.

hi-tea was just perfect yesterday.
marriot hotel.
an amazing assortment of desserts.wide range of savories.OYSTERS.
i actually had 6 or 7 oysters.haha.such a glutton.but its not like i have it everyday right.
(yes yes yes.excuses.heh)
it did come up to quite a bit but i suppose its worth it.
its like paying for lunch/hi-tea/dinner.

went shopping with mum for a while.bought a zara top but not sure when i'll get to wear it.
its nice.but a bit too dressy.heh.but i had better wear it.haha.mum was er.surprised.when she paid for it.haha.OOOOOPS.
(anyway) i want my (pink)puma tshirt, (orangeyellowcream)nike bag, and (darkblueorlightblue)square cut jeans.
please please please.
puuulllleeeezzzzeeeeee.
i need to shop.
withdrawal symptoms are setting in after 3 weeks.
haha.

Tell me when will you be mine..
Tell me quando quando quando..
We can share a love devine..
Please don't make me wait again..

and today marks the beginning of my 3 month break.
but it really wasn't the best way to end my exams.
i thought i really screwed up my marketing paper.
argh.
i've never been this ill-prepared for a paper before.
tests dont count.
tsk.
pretty disappointed with myself.
but yeah.
its ok.
the eternal optimist still lives on.
heh.

back home.going out again for hi-tea with mum, dad, bro, lily and wayne.
goodwood park i think.
peranakan food!
yummy.
i wanna learn how to cook peranakan food.
and i wanna visit the peranakan museum exhibition.
have always been interested in this rich culture.

having a ginourmous headache now.
slept for like 3 hours this morning.
just couldnt fall asleep.
typical me when im anxious or worried about what the next day would bring.
but yeah.like i said. its OVER baby!

shopping.sushi.kbox.
mish! date me out!
(: